Sat,Dec 9th 2006

Quick update before I have to run out of the house to the MRT station.
I will be going to do ushering at the band concert at CJC later.Need to meet up with Gerv,Kat,Jeanette at Toa Payoh and then we'll have "dinner",dammit,it's too early.It's like having a second lunch,after my chai tao kway!I won't go hungry for awhile after that.Oh,maybe I will.I have a fast metabolism rate (spelling/use?).Only yesterday I went to a buffet steamboat with dad for lunch,I ATE ATE ATE,I tried to eat lotsa veggies,they're good and I can't really find much at home,and less than 3 hours later I felt hungry again -_-" Maybe I'm coming down with something.
Did I mention I started playing with tamagotchi again?LOL.It's kinda...cute,actually,to remember my childhood.I got my first tamagotchi when I was about 3-4 years old.When I took care of it back then,it always died anyway because I always wanted to go downstairs to play with the other kids and swim and stuff and couldn't bring it with me.When I started going to school,my sister took care of it for me.I think she put it on pause or something,in the set-the-time mode,so when I came back I would just set it to the right time and continue.Poor tamagotchi -_-

Should I "pause" it and leave it at home before I go for the concert or risk it and bring it there on silent mode?I think it would be safer to put it on pause,eh?That way there would be no risk of death!

Everyday people ask themselves the question "what will tomorrow bring?".
Well,I'm not sure about everybody,but I ask myself that question every night.
What will tomorrow bring?
What will tonight bring?
I hope I don't make any mistakes.

Tuesday,Nov 21st 2006

Here's a quick update.

Happy Birthday,WY!

Mom and Dad went to Thailand today.Sis and bro are at work so I'm left at home with Rabbit.It's fine with me.
Had fried carrot cake for lunch.
I plan to watch videos later.
Dammit.Is "Tiger and the Snow" still showing in cinemas?!I wanna watch it.
Yesterday,I went out with mom and dad to lunch,and then out with mom to buy canvas(es?) after.Then I had to rush home to shower and then I used the computer for awhile while waiting for hair to dry off,and then I had a whole steamed fish for dinner.Tuh! Then dad fetched me to ACS B for this concert by an Indonesian choir at Mrs Lee Choon Guan.After the concert we hung about for awhile,then went to this large hawker centre (what's it called?) with my sis and Ee Kia since they didn't have a proper dinner or something.Walking out after that we "stumbled" upon some other Singers and the Indo choir eating.I dunno what happened there but I just stood there with this smile on my face,just in case.
Then I went home in an MRT with my sis,what a day.

Tuesday,Nov 14th 2006

I think I'll sleep well tonight.

Only just now I felt so drained of energy that I fell asleep!
I had choir practice this morning.We had Physical Training,so we ran 6 rounds around the track,and after that I nearly killed myself doing push-ups.
We had to do 4 sets of 25 crunches,back-ups,push-ups/"television",and being me,I did push-ups instead of "television".Thats what they call it anyway.
I would like to go fake-rock-climbing again sometime soon.I've been away from it for too long now.Not sure if my friends would want to go rock-climbing,though.They barely climbed the last time we went.They just lay around sms-ing and taking pictures.
I wanted to go to Bishan after choir to check out that temporary honey stall for Manuka honey sweets but eventually decided not to when I started craving KFC,so I texted dad to ask if we could have KFC for lunch.He agreed,so I went straight home.

The time I spent at KFC today had been so embarrassing.
The girl at the counter looked timid enough,and made a couple of mistakes with our orders.As you know,dad can be very picky when he wants to be.
Dad wanted chicken thighs but she gave him ribs.
Dad wanted root beer but she gave him coke.
Dad wanted mashed potato but she gave him coleslaw.
He kept speaking so loudly,demanding this and that,I almost died with embarrassment.Sometimes I just wish I ate hawker food instead.At least he would feel at home shouting in some noisy hawker centre where nobody cares about manners,or at least table manners.

I spent the day lazing around,as usual.
I watched some videos,and then looked up the internet for steps to moon-walking.Hah!
Getting the hang of it,but difficult to do.I mean ok,easy to do but it takes lotsa practice to look like a pro.
I'm warming up to the idea of dancing.
I mean,there are people who can sing AND dance,and look where it got them.

Rabbit just flopped down beside me,all flat and sleepy-looking.How cute.
I gave it a big cuddle just now.When it's in a really good mood I can really cuddle it and it still won't hop away after I put it down,but when it's in a bad mood it'll struggle.
I don't blame it.
Imagine having no power over your own body.People just pick you up and squeeze you when they feel like it,whether you like it or not.
Poor kid.

Y'know,after watching "Cast Away" the other night,I feel like watching it again.
It's kinda cool,learning how to survive on a deserted island.I think this guy was even more pitiful than Robinson Crusoe (sp?) .At least Robinson had someone else living on that island.
The world can be such a cruel place sometimes.

Like I could sing along.

Yes,I'm blogging -again.
I went for choir practice this morning.I was so tired yesterday,I slept at around 10pm.Then,when I woke this morning,I was surprised at how tired I felt.
Choir practice was quite..It went quite well.
Well,the only bad thing about it was that the other Sec 3s weren't THERE.Me,I was the only Normal Acad Sec 3 there,not called back for lessons and thats why I was there.
Hey,I chose to go for my Art lesson yesterday so that I could go for choir today!

Today,choir practice went quite well because we finally had PT again,running around the track and doing conditioning (push-ups,crunches,back-ups).Now I feel fit again!
Not to mention the muscle issue.
However,I fell down on the track.I don't know why.Maybe there's no explanation for it.I just fell.I only scraped my knees a little,the rubber track saved me.But!I didn't notice I got myself wounded until after conditioning,which always comes after running.I did push-ups on my wounded knees,and they stung after everything,telling me that I had to do something.
I was probably being eaten alive by some kind of bacteria!
I asked to have my wounds washed,and I limped to the canteen sinks to have them washed up.
I wondered how dramatic it would've been if I just lay there after I fell.
We got new scores today,too.
We sang through "This train","Look To This Day!",and "Kotoba-asobi Uta".
Our conductor came today,and we tried to polish up the first 3 pages of "This train".We did some tuning exercises in that key."This train" is very difficult because of all the key changes.Thankfully,I'm not bad at tuning =D
It's just the slow-thinking I'm worried about.
After doing those exercises,we sang through "This train" again,and because we were more sure of the notes and rhythm this time,it actually sounded good because we dared to sing out.Well,I tried my best,but it really did sound..different.The last few times we sang it,we sounded so scared,so unsure.And then,I suddenly realised the beauty and the good feeling of being surrounded by singing people.It's as if the song filled the whole universe,all around,wherever we went.
We started on one of the new scores today.I can't remember what it's called and I don't intend to go back into my room and dig through my file to find out.I'm "tied" to the computer by my earphones,listening to beautiful music.
The song we started on was by the same Hungarian composer who composed the version of "Ave Maria" we sang.Same style of composing,too.The bars have the same number of beats,the printing quite large and easy to read.However,this new score has even bigger notes than "Ave Maria"!I'm glad,because I'm not very good at sight-reading.
I wrote down the note-relations,and I think I'll do fine.I mean,we sight-read it and it turned out quite well.At least the few bars we did.
I intend to use my sister's piano to try and tune myself later.

I was quite excited for choir practice to end,too,because I was all set to go to town after.
I had to get Dezi her birthday present,for I may not be able to the next few days.Also,I wanted to get the soundtrack of "High School Musical",and I did.I'd brought just enough for both.
Cool,it comes with a CD with the sing-along versions!LOL.
I actually quite like sing-along versions because they're much quieter,more of the play-you-to-sleep music.And also,I do like to sing along.Gosh,I can't believe I just typed that.
NO!I shouldn't be embarrassed.
Singing is pretty much the only thing I can do.

That's about it.I've spent the rest of the day simply just sitting around.
I'm quite worried about choir tomorrow,though.My buddy is coming tomorrow.Just worried that I'd let people down.How will I find the patience to teach her every song?
Will I simply blow up?
Did I mention that my knee-wounds kept me from sitting properly and comfortably during choir practice?I'm sure Mrs Low and Ms Tham were all set to question me,but decided not to,for the sake of choir or something.I sure hope they saw the wounds.
I spent the day watching this lame show called "Halloweentown High" and another,"High School Musical".
I actually love the way everyone breaks out into song and dance!
If only it were like that in reality.I'd look forward to school every single day.

Wednesday,Sept 1st 2006

Am gonna test something.
If it turns out,I'm not gonna delete this post.
This is an artwork,if I'm not wrong:oil on canvas.
It's called "First Steps (After Millet)" by Vincent Van Gogh.

I think it's beautiful.


It's a mother and father teaching their daughter how to walk.

Those are her very first steps.
But see,it's beautiful because they're not very rich people.
Because in holland last time,people who worked on farms are the poor peasants with very little money, food to eat...
But this picture shows the joy on their faces.

You know,like even the simple things in life can bring joy to people,that money is not everything.

Sun,Oct 29 2006

Lover All Alone - Clay Aiken

Maybe I've convinced myself
I've really been in love
And I've been wrong all along

For all I know the feeling and the picture
That I've tried so hard to find
Isn't mine

Could be it's all just a waiting game
Want to share my everything

And on my own it's hard
To tell my heart it'll be alright
This love it holds
Will one day find a home
As hard as love can be
It's harder still it seems
To be a lover all alone without love

Picking up the pieces makes me wonder if
I only build it all to watch it fall
The faster it can go away it means
The less of me is gone to stay
And I'm okay

But lonesome tomorrow comes anyway
I'm alone for another day, another day

And on my own it's hard
To tell my heart it'll be alright
That this love it holds
Will one day find a home
As hard as love can be
It's harder still it seems
To be a lover all alone without love

And on my own it's hard
To tell my heart it'll be alright
That this love it holds
Will one day find a home
As hard as love can be
It's harder still it seems
To be a lover all alone without love
A lover all alone without love

Maybe I've convinced myself
I've really been in love
But I've been wrong along

Tuesday,October 24th 2006

Something I stole from Kathleen's blog and re-did.

#1 Single, taken or crushing?
Single and crushing,I guess.
#2 Are you happy with your life?
No.
#3 When you meet the right person, do you fall in love with him/her fast?
It depends.
#4 Have you ever had your heart broken?
Unintentionally.
#5 Do you believe that there are some circumstances where cheating love is acceptable?
No.
#6 Would you ever take someone back if he/she cheated on you?
It depends.
#7 Have you talked about marriage with another before?
Generally or what?
#8 Do you want children?
Yes!
#9 How many?
Ya lah follow Kathleen.Two?
#10 Would u consider adoption?
Yes!
#11 If somebody likes you right now, what do you think is the best way to let you know his/her feeling?
Put it in writing or typing.
#12 Do you enjoy getting into a relationship?
It depends on whom with.
#13 Be honest, what is the furthest you and your ex did before?
Hug.
#14 Do you believe in first love?
Yes.
#15 Do you believe that you can change someone?
Yes.
#16 Are you romantic?
How should I know?!
#17 If you could get married anywhere, where would it be?
Yeah,in a church.One of those grand,high-roofed ones with really great acoustics.
#18 Do you easily give in in fighting?
Not really.Depends.
#19 Have you wished that you could have someone but messed it up?
Yes.
#20 Do you have feelings for someone right now?
Sigh,yes.
#21 Have you ever broken a heart?
Yes...
#22 If one day your best friend falls in love with the guy/girl whom you are deepy in love with, what will you do?
I dunno.Wait till it happens then I'll decide.
#23 Are u missing someone now?
Yes :(

Bloody hell,I'm not going to force anyone else to do this.

It don't matter if you're black or white.

Michael Jackson!I think his songs have a very dance-like beat.
Yes,I know,I know.I haven't blogged in ages.When was the last time?Sunday,July 23!!It's October already!
I can't believe the whole year has just zipped by,just like that.I've had some experiences,good and bad,yet I don't wanna leave this year behind.It's been a great year despite all the bad stuff.I mean,I wouldn't mind going through it all again because I've really had some good times.
I remember at the end of last year,I didn't want to leave IT behind because I enjoyed being sec 2.I couldn't stop time anyway.It stops for no mouse!So I came to sec 3.Now I can't bear to leave it behind.
This year has been my most memorable so far.I've really been through a lot this year and grown up abit,but not quite grown up yet.I can still be pretty childish at times,thankfully.I'm only 15!10 years later I'd look back on this and think how childish I was.I don't think I even have to wait 10 years to think that.Looking back on my first few posts on this blog 2 years ago,I'm thinking how childish I was in sec 1,but I can just laugh.
Everybody grows up sooner or later.
Learning to see things from a responsible adult's point of view is difficult,but I'll give it time.
People keep telling me to have fun,relax,for I'm still 15.
As childish as I can be,I have to know when to stop sometimes.People get irritated if you don't,and then you really get hammered,because they don't care if you're 15 or not.They expect more.
And then my 15 year-old friends can't stand me because I keep telling them to stop fooling around during lesson-time.What to do?Well,they don't really listen to me anyway.
One thing I've learnt this year is that you should do what you want to,knowing your limits.If there's a role model you really want to follow,make sure you don't go too far.People don't like a clone.However,you shouldn't always agree to what other people say,or do what they tell you to do,because you have your own voice.
It's an individual thing.
Argh,maybe my explanation wasn't very clear.
You guys will learn by yourselves as you grow,don't worry about it.

He's a Boxman-Smosh

It's been FOREVER since I last posted something on this blog!
Sorry,been kinda busy with stuff.
Turns out I'm not receiving anything for Honours Day but honestly,thats okay.I took it a little hard at first (very very little),but somehow I find the most joy out of singing.That sounds wrong.Let me rephrase that.
I feel really happy when I'm singing.
Suddenly I don't care about these acadamic awards.I don't need awards to know that I've accomplished something in my life.Well,I don't exactly deserve it,but still!What more can a singer ask for than to sing?I guess thats more ordinary than getting an award onstage but y'know,sometimes you gotta face reality.And after the 4th Choir Olympics,I don't know why but I have this feeling of self-and-choir satisfaction,and I KNOW that I don't need an award to tell me how well I have done in something,although I didn't actually put in effort and it was all because of the markers I got 2nd place in English,and!!!Mind you,thats only 2nd place for English in the Normal Acadamic level!And guess what,I'm proud of who I am.
Don't need people pressurizing me into doing things that I don't like doing.
Don't need people to tell me that I need that award so that they can show off about me.
Don't need that award so that other people know what I'm capable of.
DON'T NEED ANYTHING.
Okok maybe I do need things like singing and music and stuff.
I think I'm having one of those more-to-the-good-side moodswings.
Choir Olympics was damn fun luh!We got a high silver,and thats damn good ok!
And ya.Forgot what I wanted to type but thats ok.
Ciao.

It's Tuesday.

Few hours left.Dammit why must it come so soon?!
If I must have a birthday,can't it be my 18th one or something?Or better still,21st.I'd be just as happy if I didn't have my birthday tomorrow.Sh*t,stop talking about it.

Today I had quite a bad day at school.I just didn't like it very much.It wasn't even one of those OKAY days,yet it's not one of those really bad ones,but it was bad enough.I don't wanna talk about it.Lets just say that the little food shopping I did at NTUC in the underpass did me good.I bought unflavoured gelatin,jelly mix,seaweed,packeted chocolate milk,and and..uh.Can't remember.I think that's it.I only have like $6.90 left in my MyCard.Just 3 weeks ago I had 50 bucks innit,but I spend most of it buying food.Now I know how painful it is to have to whip out your cashcard/bank card to pay for what your daughter puts into the trolley/basket.Sniff.
I'm getting poorer too.I've been getting 20 bucks a week but saying nothing about it.Better not,maybe they're having financial problems or something.
I'm actually proud of the fact that I'm paying for stuff that I used to have to ask mom to pay for,even that $50 deposit for the China trip,thank goodness they accepted cash.Gave them such a crisp note okay!So nice summore.I was unwilling to part with it but oh,what the heck.Money has to go somewhere anyway.
I was just wondering...You know things like wills?
When people suddenly get into an accident or whatever and die and they haven't written a will,what would happen to their belongings?
What if they're people like me who are still like..under parental care and all that.Do they get my stuff if I die so suddenly without a will?Must find out,just in case.

Shut Up.

@$*^*$#!
Just damn bored.I don't know why.Suddenly feel like swearing also.Listening to "Catch Your Wave" by The Click Five.Not bad,but somehow it made me feel...Angry or something.Um I don't know.
Whatever.
Just really tired and I can't think of much to say.Went to school.Didn't like school very much today.Went to stadium.Liked the stadium very much today.Was more enthusiastic than usual.Tried to get all the dance steps right.If you know me,I have a very very short memory.Very.
Goodness.I really can't think of what to type leh.When we got back to school it was 7.30pm.Reached home around 8.10pm.Ate dinner.Then it was 8.46pm.Went to bathe.Then it was 9.08 or something.Came online,went on Friendster,discovered something totally new and interesting.Damn cool.After that I felt so happy.Hah!
Mr Jiow asked about milk during Geography.
And he asked why doesn't milk in Singapore taste as good as milk in other countries.
I said milk in singapore isn't..natural.
Omg.He said,"milk isn't natural?Then what?"
Argh,WHATEVER MR JIOW.
What I meant was like...uh.You know,countries like Aus,NZ,and USA have a lot of land space and nice fertile soil to grow good grass in,and the cows eat the grass and they feel happy.And there's fresh air for them to breathe too!And space for them to run and stuff.Thats why the milk in other countries taste better.I've visited the dairy farm in Singapore before.You know what it looked like?No cows were free to run/walk/graze!They were like..kept in enclosed areas lah!And there's that machine to milk them..Poor things.They had to eat the stupid dried grass given to them.No wonder the milk not nice!THATS UNNATURAL MAN!
See,my theory is so logical,right? -Xiu =)

One,Two,Three

Yes okay forgive me.
The computer's been down for quite awhile.Now there's this new FLATRON L1952S infront of me.LG Technology.Yeah,whatever.
Felt so good when I finally got to type again.Hmm.
Went to school this morning for Art.Ceramics painting.
We were required to help out with the putting-of-paint-into-bottles.Had some fun doing that,requires patience,and lots of it too.If you weren't patient,you'd just fling the damn bottle out of the window and then turn over the whole bucket of paint!Actually for a minute,that was what I felt like doing.But I knew Ms Ho would just kill me if I did that so I.."rested my hands" for afew moments,and then got on with doing it.After I got the hang of it,it got easier,I actually kind of enjoyed it.Almost.
We were supposed to be dismissed at 12 noon,but some of us weren't finished with painting our ceramics yet so we stayed back for a while longer.How do you spell that thing?Lacker?Lacquer?
Argh.Just-Uh..That spray-thing with the glossy finish that can choke you if you're in an enclosed area with it.Next time if I ever want to commit suicide,I'd know what to do.
After Art I borrowed Visha's phone to call Dad to tell him that I'm done and I'm coming home.
Sigh.How I wish I didn't have to do this everytime I finish school.Not always Visha's phone lah,I'm not so bad.I used to be able to tahan bus rides but the last time I took a bus for a change,I felt so sick,I got scared of them.Tuh!
So of course,I took the well-loved MRT.
I wonder what Ms Shanthi is gonna say to me tomorrow?
All thanks to me not having a phone now,I missed yesterday's lesson.I was totally oblivious!!!
What the hell.
Yeah,I'm in every position now to tell you that life is NEVER fair,so just forget about making it fair to suit your needs.
I'm waiting for dinner now.Don't bother me,I'm hungry.

Come what may.

Yeah.Okay.So uh.First exam on Tuesday.
Guess what!
I'm gonna fail English for the first time.
Sigh.Do I feel sad?YES.
I mean what the hell,thats the only thing I could actually pass,but not anymore.
I got a feeling that Mrs Low is gonna pull me out of the competition.

Virus hit the computer few days ago,haven't been able to do much online.Msn doesn't seem to be opening for me,dammit.Finally had the time to charge my iPod.Did some work today.Stack still piled up high,how?!
They expect us to finish all that in one weekend!
-One Accounts paper+re-doing of one question on Cashbook
-One Math paper
-One Biology paper
-One Physics paper
I still have my Art exam to think about/research on,and a Geography mapping test on Monday.

So now I'm gonna fail all my subjects except Biology?!My Bio ain't fantastic either,you know!
I'm gonna need a miracle.
Mrs Chow will personally strangle me if I fail Accounts.
SIGH.

Waiting for dinner now,although I'm not hungry yet.I've had a pretty heavy lunch.Spent the whole afternoon cooped up in my room doing work.I did the whole Physics paper and 1/4 of the Math paper and couldn't go on anymore.Gonna try to do a bit more later,maybe a break is what I needed. :(
Just realised that the Smosh forums are so full of teenagers.
Can't wait till after the exams,cos life will slow down and all that.More FREEDOM too.
Oh man.The exams haven't even begun but I'm dying already.How am I going to survive?
I'm praying.
I'm really praying. -Xiulin

Dude.

I can't think of a title right now.Mind is blank!
Am downloading stuff from the internet now.
Can't think straight.It's been 12 days (was it?) since I last blogged.Lotsa things to blog about but can't remember them.
Darn.I'm getting old!
It'd be nice to be old when you NEED to be.
Man,time really flies.The beginning of the year seemed like yesterday!
And yet,look at me now.
How would we live without dictionaries in our world?!
I've been carrying one around and looking up stuff often nowadays.It's either people are using more difficult words or that my vocab is...sigh.
Boorring.
Had 2.4km run/walk/jog/fly/skip today.My timing was 14.29.Is that bad?!
Damn.
Sooo angry,you know.I missed A for my sit and reach by 0.5cm.Too bad it's all over.I dun intend to retake,already exhausted enough.
What did I have for lunch?I think it was home-cooked food.Porridge.
Dinner was mee hoon kway.
Okay whatever.I really can't think so I may have typed some rubbish tonight.
I...Need...Sleep.
Goodnight. -Xiu.

And now I wonder... :)

Listening to "A Thousand Miles" now.Brings back many memories,especially the rubbish my friends and I did in Sec 1!LOL
Hmm.Things have happened since I last blogged.
I went to the concert I was so excited about,and I almost got banned from it!
What the hell.
Not gonna tell you why okay!You'll laugh.
Anyway I'm listening to the Pokemon theme song now.
I don't know why,maybe its the time I spent away from Pokemon.I just fell in love with the theme song when I heard it last night while watching stupid videos with my sis!I just find the harmony real good.Lyrics are still kinda cheesy!The vocals are quite good though.I must find out who sang it!
Damn...It's real nice.
Oh,shush!
So I spent today lazing around.
Had school,then had lunch in school.Came home,did some homework and listened to ipod and all that. =D
Oh man,there's a Social Studies test tomorrow.It was supposed to be today but SOMEHOW nobody knew and so it was postponed.Anyway Mr Jiow said it's sourced based and we can't really study for it at all.
I've been thinking about time the last few days.As in the topic "time".I'm a bit slow,forgive me,but I've just found out how wonderful/amazing time is to have so many people from all over the world doing things at the same time!
Like,even the person beside you now!Or breathing right this minute!
Like woah,God is so good.
I think I'm not typing sense.Nevermind.Those who do understand,think about it eh?
Omg.Pokemon theme song sings "you teach me and I'll teach you!POKKEEEEMONN!".
I was asking some classmates today ,"who watches Pokemon?".And oh my gosh.Some of them do.I think I'm addicted to Pokemon.Omg so childish!ARGH.
Can't seem to help it though.Maybe I may not get addicted to the show,but I'm addicted to the music =)
I think I'm crazy.
SHALL stop here for tonight. -Xiu =)

O Romeo,Romeo,wherefore art thou Romeo?

LOLL!
Too much Romeo and Juliet!
Just realised I have a lot to do on Friendster,which I have not visited for too long.
Too many things have happened!
Anyway I didn't follow my sister and mom out today,was too tired.Slept till 1 in the afternoon!My rabbit was sure happy to see me,for it hopped to me the minute I set foot out of my bedroom.
I have too many movies missed,movies which I am not allowed to watch because of age restrictions.I want to watch V for Vendetta,but I have to be 16 in order to watch.Darn.Not that it makes a difference.
Sigh.
Gonna watch "Kate and Leopold" and "Shakespeare in Love" after posting this.
Been longing to watch them for such a long time and yet when I finally have the time,I'm sort-of procrastinating.Why?
I can't wait for confession this Wednesday.Got lots to confess.Are non-catholics allowed to confess?
I seriously can't wait till Wednesday.There's gonna be an SYC concert @ ERS!
The tickets are all sold out!Thank goodness I paid up to my choir in time -.-"
Damn.If I was told that they didn't have enough seats and that I was rejected because of that,I'd cry,I tell you.I wonder why they didn't book the concert hall instead?
Okay lah,nothing else to post.Gonna watch videos now. -Xiu =

Anyone can learn to sing!

Yeah,my beloved motto. =D
Anyway here are the lyrics to Tomorrow Shall Be My Dancing Day.
I can't get it out of my head,so I'll type it out for all to see/read!

Tomorrow shall be my dancing day!
I would my true love did so chance
To see the legend of my play,
To call my true love to my dance
Sing: Oh my love!Oh my love,my love,my love
This, have I done for my true love.

In a manger laid and wrapped,I was
So very poor this was my chance
Be twixt an ox,and a silly poor ass
To call my true love to my dance
Sing: Oh my love!Oh my love,my love,my love
This,have I done for my true love.

Then afterwards,baptised I was
The Holy Ghost on me did glance
My Father's voice heard from above
To call my true love to my dance
Sing: Oh my love!Oh my love,my love,my love
This,have I done for my true love.

For my true love!

Boulevard of broken dreams

Can't stand it!
Must express my anger.
Everybody in my family has suddenly gone crazy.Dad being the most crazy one.I hate it!Not happy with something then vent anger on me.
Mom also being real disappointing,acting a little like dad and taking his side.
Jie just scolded me too.
Kor- Aiya I'm used to it lah.He's always been that mean and selfish.
Dad's being so unfair,asking me to go offline after like...maybe 15 minutes online.I mean,there has to be a limit I know,but 15 minutes,how mean can you get man!
I didn't have a bad day in school though.It was all pretty relaxed.Let me give you a walkthrough.
This morning,came to school.To my horror,the school looked like a forest.Every 1m there were plants along the corridor!
Whatever.
Sang for morning assembly again,flag got stuck on the way up.Ms Wong had a haircut (again),everybody commented on it.After assembly we had CME,and went from the classroom to AVA,had this looonnngg lecture by Ms Shanthi on life skills and stuff.Heard a couple of familiar things.After,had art,oh art!!!
Did a couple of layouts and stuff,and went around looking at other people's paintings.Megala's was...Bleak.And too much paint was wasted on it.It's like those layers of paint with hard outer layers but the inner layer is all soft and runny and never dries.Eewww.I tried to help her clear it up abit,but to no avail.Just couldn't be saved man.Stayed back to help the teacher clean up.Feel so proud -.-" LOL
-----Recess-----
Geography.No Mr Jiow,so Lao Shi came in to relief-teach!Actually she didn't teach.Tried out some poetry,Shakespeare style!Keyword:Tried.
Math.Not gonna say anything about this.
Social Studies.Had some problems there.First there was the 3 classes to one classroom conflict,then there was the dunno what lah.Got some group worksheet on the conflicts between the Americans and the Chinese.
Ah,we were released early today,so went with some others to have lunch at Macs at HDB hub.Had a double cheeseburger and a mcflurry,woo hoo!!!
Then after that went home lor.Had to bring my stupid artwork to and fro for so many days!So heavy,had no hands too.T'was a struggle to get through the Ez-link gates in the MRT stations.I gotta admit though,that I think this is one of the best pieces of art I've ever done!
Okay.Damn tired,I tell you.Spent all day touching up my artwork.Took up so much time!Wanted to watch Shakespeare in Love again but no time cos stupid people still grumpy.Tomorrow is going to be another long day.Got a performance tomorrow.Although not very major,its for the DSA opening thing and many people are going to be there.So I guess I'll be stopping here for now.
Goodnight people! -Xiu =)

Love's Melody

It's a Jap song.If I could type Jap in the title,I would have.
Just came back from a movie and a dinner.The movie's called Mad,Hot Ballroom.
I met up with Danielle at about 4.40pm,we went to Lido together.Actually we took a wrong turn because it turned out that Danielle didn't know where Lido was after all,because it was 1/2 a year ago since she last went there.
Eventually we got there,and went to the toilets to "make make" the hair and stuff.After that we went to look for Danielle's aunt whom she said works at Lido,but wasn't working today so we went around...
So we went into the theatre and sat down,waiting.Actually some advertisements were already being projected onto the screen so we watched those,eating the nachos.
The show was about these little children from..you know.Disfunctional families,and the schools give free courses on ballroom dancing,and they had to take part in it.They took part in competitions,there were tears and laughter.The whole thing was like a documentary (spelt correctly?),filmed without preparing for anything.Was pretty cool,actually.The music was really funky,the dancers were really good.Well some of them.I could never dance like them lah.
Trust me.
So I wanted to watch Brokeback Mountain,but not old enough.
Maybe wait for few months,the DVD will be out soon.
Darn. =/
I need to go shower.
OH YA.I haven't said anything about dinner.
We ate at a food court,and I had some chicken macaroni soup thingy,Danielle had 'chu mi fen yu tang',my sis had a really big western meal thing and wasted 3/4 of her fries.
Okay lah.End here.Got 4 more minutes to submit this post,then gotta clean the rabbit's cage and then shower.
Tomorrow still got choir workshop to attend!
Thank you so much for the movie! -Xiu =)

"I love you,you don't see!"

Oh man,our group rocked at acting!!!
I just came back from choir camp about 2 hours ago,exhausted but happy.We had to act and everything and Joanne= Mr Paranjothi and I was Ai Swee.LOL.
I was this cheena waiyang singer/dancer,and Joanne was this watermelon seller who came to my waiyang and fell in love with me (coughcough).
We had the coconut tree dance and "went" to Scarborough fair,and unfortunately,while we were dancing,my evil stepmother came along.She pulled me away from my lover and asked me to go back to China!
Joanne and I could not bear to be torn apart,so we devised (is that spelt correctly?) an evil plan to kill my equally evil stepmother.
The next day Joanne came to my house and gave my evil stepmother a giant watermelon as a form of apology.We all did the cutting watermelon wushu or something thingy,and then she took a piece of watermelon and ate it,choked on a giant seed,and died.
I gave her a kick or two to see if she was dead.
Our group sang "Amazing Grace" and then after that,Joanne and I were like "WE DID IT!" And that was it.
Our group won second prize!
LOL.Okay that was not the original plan.
The original plan was about this writer lah,gave his publishers a call but called the wrong number,and he only heard the part about going to hotel 81 to meet his publisher or something to discuss his book.
And there were supposed to be 5 prostitutes in the room waiting for him.LOL.
I was supposed to be the evil Duke (with my comb as a moustache),who barged into the room and "WHAT IS THIS?!" and kill them but then suddenly his eyes meets those of the innocent writer's and they fall deeply in love (literally gay men),but you know this whole skit was too sexual so we kinda scrapped it.
Damn,it might've been fun,you know.
We were all supposed to twist storys of musicals,you see,and our group was given Moulin Rogue,so yah.
Anyway,about the whole choir camp,we were really well fed.
Games weren't bad,we didn't get to sing much though.I lost some of my voice cheering and screaming.Got to sing solo with a microphone today,because you see we had to do a rehersal for Down Syndrome Day but the girl who was supposed to be the center of attention wasn't here,so they had several people to do it.First was Kathleen,then I,then Sabrina.
Ms Jo Teo was watching me.I was quivering lah,but tried not to show it.
She could still point to me and show Mrs Low the thumbs up sign -.-"
For once I felt noticed =D
Korkor just installed a DVD drive in the computer so now can watch DVDs on the comp,but then again there are no speakers attached -.-"
I'm SO gonna sleep well tonight.Only had about 4 hours of sleep last night because everyone was so noisy and our reflection dragged on too long and all that.
Tuh!Going down to settle dinner with my bro and sis because my parents are on holiday.See ya'll! -Xiu =)

DARS(Bitter Chocolate)

It's this Japanese brand,go try the bitter chocolate,just that it's really not bitter at all.It's really good!!!
School was boring today.Was looking forward to after school.I tried to pay attention in class though.The last period was most stressful.Physics!And because we only had 1 period of it,the teacher tried to squeeze everything into it.The teacher said "2 more minutes,2 more minutes" and I was panicking and all that,couldn't concentrate,nervous laughter follows.
But let me start at the beginning.I got to school at about 6.30am because I needed to run 6 rounds but nobody was here yet.If I ran then,nobody would see me running and therefore think I'm lying.I waited,and waited,and waited.
FINALLY,two choir girls showed up.I can't actually name them because I forgot one of their names...
Ahem.
So anyway we went to run.6 rounds I did.Went for school singers after,they were singing "From the rising of the sun".Joined in and all that,people commented on my face saying it looks much better than it looked yesterday.
People around school were still asking me why my face was so red.I mean,is it THAT obvious?!
After morning assembly I had SS.Mrs Thai came in (again,arrggghhhh) and gave us this worksheet-like thing.There wasn't much time for us to finish it though.We were supposed to write 100 words,out of which I only wrote about 50%.Next,we went to Math class.Totally failed a test.Got 0/20,couldn't have done any worse!Mr Lim seemed irritated/disappointed/angry but the other girls couldn't see it and kept fooling around.Naz and Zul (both sitting on my right) were laughing so loudly and pushing/shoving and screaming,I just shouted at them.I don't know why,but they suddenly stopped.
But that was a lot better lah.After they suddenly stopped I looked at the time and asked Mr Lim to let me go change into my blouse because we had phototaking later on.He did,and I ran to the toilet to change.
Went for phototaking afterwards,took many shots.Was worried about my sunburnt skin but then decided not to care.
Chinese lesson.Teacher showed us a CHINESE version of Finding Nemo!!!
The voices were quite irritating but rather enjoyed the animation.We didn't get to watch the whole thing though.She stopped it.Sigh.The whole other part of the lesson was plain boring.Got back my Zuo Wen on the topic "di yi ci (first time.....)".I wrote about my first time losing.I failed it by 4 marks.
Sigh.
Recess----Then came English/..
You know what?I spent the WHOLE 2 PERIODS OF ENGLISH DOING NOTHING AT ALL.Jade was sleeping.Rebecca and Fionn were restless.Evelyn went crazy dusting everything with her tiny paintbrush.Honestly,I think she's a little mad.Anyway,I was bored,so I went up the side staircase and peeked into my N(A) English class.Couldn't see what they were doing,but Ms Wong was walking up and down the class aisle or whatever you call it.Felt envious,and went back down again.Went to look for Mrs Alex.She said she'd be up there later because Ms Tan wanted to talk to her about something.She never came la ok.So I almost went mad waiting.When the bell finally rang,I was in the toilet but rushed out quick to grab my stuff and then I flew up the flights of stairs and waited outside my N(A) English class.After blah blah blah,asked her if Asyikin could join us for lunch today."Sure," she said.So then I nodded and went for CME in class then in AVA then in class again.PHYSICS,I explained that already.Then finally,oh finally.But Danielle and Asyikin were like "wait lah,I need to ask something" and they STROLLED to the person whom they wanted to ask.Took such a long time and I was like "WE'RE LATE!" and they were "still got time lah,she won't be there so early".I almost fainted.When we FINALLY got there,she was already waiting by the side gate.Oh,finallyyy!
Noticed that she changed her earrings again.Quite nice,actually.
So 3 of us had roti prata and she had dumpling noodles,whatever it's called in Chinese.We also had black carrot cake,and drinks for each of us.
It was a really good meal.We got to find out more about each other and stuff.
I loved loved loved lunch with her today! -Xiu =)

Banana Boat-Aloe Vera Gel

Thats my best friend now,goes everywhere with me,to the toilet,even to bed.
I just got back from camp today,ohmygoodness,was it fun!
Okay well I learnt to treasure my food.Totally.Every single scrap!
Okay lah depends on whether the food is nice or not.LOL.
But yah,I've proved that I can shower in 3 minutes!!!
I woulda taken longer,but Ms Shanthi was making me nervous.
My skin is REALLY BADLY sunburnt.Face especially,looks like I went for some chemical peel or something.Feels like botox,or at least thats my guess.I never went for botox but I think this is bad enough.
My arms,my arms,my arms.All red,the undersides are WHITE.Got sunburnt on the back of my neck too,but that was not so bad.Looks like a tan,the line ends at the collar.Heh.The smell on me now reminds me of Hawaii.
I remember smelling like this in Hawaii last year.But you know,it was not so hot there and all,although the sun there can kill.
Now I see why all those temperate countries always have bushfires!
Yupyup,got muscles after the camp too.LOLLL.Ashyikin (is that how you spell it?) ditched me while doing the high element course when we were halfway up,so I went on alone.Hah!Was it fun.Climbed all the way to the top,the most dangerous part because there was nothing to hold on to and you had to stand on this really wobbly plank and ring this bell right at the top!Woo hoo!
No wonder I got sunburnt -.-
But you know,it was all worth it.If I didn't want a sunburn I wouldn't have done all these fun element thingies.I mean we won't be doing that for sometime after right?So must do now when you have the chance!
I really really enjoyed the camp,enjoyed sharing the tent with Ashyikin,Danielle and Visha.
Oh yes,I realised Ms Wong can dance.LOL.Actually I almost choked on my food when I saw her dancing.Not that she can't dance,but she sort of suddenly started dancing,I almost choked.She didn't gel her hair so it sorta flopped down!Veh funny.She also said the last prayer before we left the campsite.
=D
I really really really enjoyed the camp so much,I'm almost sad its over.Okay I AM sad but you know with all that sunburn,I don't feel so sad that its over -.-
Wokay lah,I shall go have lunch now though its abit late for lunch.
See ya people,take care! -Xiu =)

Hold on for one more day!

I like that song.
Okay anyway hi people!
I haven't blogged for sometime,or have I?
Having dinner now,nice big bowl of warm soup,a plate of rice,and a plate of some veggies,bamboo shoots and chicken!
Nice to come home to a warm meal.Heh.
I did my homework infront of the computer,was searching for Newton's laws of motion.Couldn't find them anywhere in my Physics textbook!Actually,the textbook doesn't have much on this topic so the internet was useful.
I didn't really have a good day.It's been one of those usual days,y'know.Time passing so slowly and all that.I found myself glancing at the clock frequently during lessons,desperate for them to end.
I pretty much enjoyed Physics today though.It wasn't one of those usual boring Physics lessons.They used live demonstrations.Heh.Namely Sonia,Cynthia,and Jade.
We had fun for the first time during Physics,so that was kinda cool.
So I came home straight after school,and then went to the library @ AMK,and then to NTUC to get beef cubes + dark chocolate + a can of chicken curry.Went home,cooked beef cubes and stuff.Haven't opened the can of chicken curry yet though.Save it for when I've no lunch.Blah blah blah had a shower.
Came online and did homework,had dinner,and here I am.
Yeah,remind me to bring the slippers tomorrow.Cya people! -Xiu =)

I never found anyone who fulfilled my needs.

Sigh.
I've had like..a pretty bad day.
I was in a rush this morning cos I woke up late,and forgot to bring my art folder to school.Had a small quarrel with dad this morning and I ended it with "fine,then don't bring it,".He ended up bringing it to school for me anyway.
How embarrassing.He brought it to me during my Geography lesson,just before the CA started.Damn.
Anyway whatever.I was nice to Megala for once,helping her with her artwork.
Mine was okay,though I had the feeling something was gonna happen today...
That feeling was just about right.
Had Geog and Bio CAs.Geog was totally on mapwork.Thank goodness Ariel had extra string.Bio was easy,think I'll be able to make it,just.
Blah blah blah onion experiment during 1.15pm-1.50pm.I literally RAN back to class.On the way back asked Ms Wong if the competition was going to be held in class and now?
She said yes.
I went back to class to get ready.The competition started out okay.Saw some words that the kids FINALLY thought of.Competition was fine until the scores were announced.And then there came a surprise competition for me,Laava,and Reshmi.Damn.I didn't have time to eat lunch so couldn't think very well.I also admit I was quite unprepared.How should I have known that there would be a competition with ME in it?!
Okay so here's the worst part:I lost.
Sigh.Don't know if my English is getting worse or what?!
I lost a part of me right there.I don't know why.Failing Express English was bad enough.
OKAY so I'm kinda being ignored now too.I wonder what will happen tomorrow?!Currently pretty disappointed..Bye people. -Xiulin

People need someone to look up to.

Woah hey!
Woke really early today,thinking it was already 7am when it was only 5am.My sister's noise probably woke me up.So well I just went back to sleep till it was time to get up,and went for choir and everything.Had to run 7 rounds around the track and do 4 sets of 25 crunches,backups,and television each.That makes a hundred each!Omg.But well I must admit that I haven't been exercising as much as I should lately so I guess this is more of a good thing than bad.After choir I went for this class practice for some adventure camp skit thingy.I somehow got kicked out of the drama group by someone(who knows if it were the same person who yelled at me?)and got put in the backstage crew.I was somewhat disappointed,yes,but what can I do?
I was pretty thankful that they delayed and wasted my time though,because guess who I saw on the way back home!Well,to the MRT station.Ms Wong!
She looked like she was prepared to hike or something.Ah well,its nice seeing teachers out of school.It's so casual.I didn't even see her at first,she gave me a shock when I recognised her.LOL.Okay anyway so I came home and had Mac & Cheese (again) and 2 chicken wings and 4 dumplings.Went to have a shower (after a long sweaty day) and here I am now,downloading Maple Story again because something happened to the patch or something.
Ah well,I really liked today though,not too stressful.I'm satisfied. -Xiulin

Everybody's searching for a hero.

Lets just say I've had a bad Friday onwards.
Thursdays are always the best.
I just realised that I'm going to miss English remedial on the 2nd of March!OMG!Why!
They just gotta take away everything,don't they.
First,someone misunderstood me and started yelling at me all of a sudden in the middle of a lesson.That person probably thinks that everyone should look up to her just because she migrated here from England.
Whatever.
I've gathered that even if I'm innocent,the teacher would turn on me too because she's jealous of something.Crazy.
So now I'm caught in the middle,having done nothing wrong.
I felt really lousy that day because I could see there was no way out.
So now all the Express English people are mad at me.
I've thought about dropping it,but what about those who actually want me to do Express English?
What can I do?I've just lost marks because I couldn't do the stupid project because they didn't tell me where to meet.
These people really should go to Hell.
Okay lets move on to Saturday.Saturday wasn't as bad,but we had to keep repeating that same part/song because people kept making mistakes.Honestly,I'd say I wasn't perfect singing that song either because of confusion.I managed to grasp it in the end though!
My sightreading is getting better!
After that we had to sing some Down Syndrome Day song thingy that we're to learn.They're all word perfect but I haven't learnt it yet due to missing 2 choir practices!!!
Damn,I'm toast.
I had a good night's sleep,finally being able to sleep till late,although it wasn't really late.Woke around half-past 11.
Had lunch after that,then did that Pope slideshow thing.I didn't understand 3/4 of what I was supposed to do!I actually doubt Ariel knows it too.Honestly.I haven't seen those words before!I guess she copied and pasted or something.
So now I'm here,blogging,getting angry over that lame childish stuff that happened on Friday.I wonder why those people have to be so stubborn?
Oh man,if only I could do School Singers for the rest of my sec school life.
I wonder how long would Ms Wong be teaching in IJ? :)
Argh!My life! -Xiulin

"Xiulin,well done!"

Said someone =D
Was just looking for a title.Nowadays my titles are becoming quotes.Pity.
I've missed 2 choir rehersals.Feeling guilty but not that I could have gone anyway.
I can only keep myself content with the feeling of standing up there with some people from choir,singing hymns in the morning,looking for familiar-looking faces in the crowd.-Sigh.
Right now there's a commotion downstairs made by loud techno-cowboy music and people line-dancing to it.Ick.They're mostly old women with tatooed eyebrows.At least they won't stay cooped up at home doing nothing.
Oh my Lord!They're dancing to the cowboy version of "Wherever You Go".
EWW!It's a hymn!!!
Whatever.Wow,there's even the harmony!Some bass singing harmony.LOL.
Not bad,not bad at all.At least while they line-dance,they're being holy.
Rabbit just flopped down on the floor,obviously enjoying the music or something.Only just now,it was a fluffy ball of fur.
Yesterday I had flashbacks of what happened about 1and1/2 years ago.I really can't believe it.How could people get so desperate?
I look forwards to Thursdays now,because that allows me 1 hour of fun every week!It's only 1 hour though,so I've learnt to..cherish.I doubt it'll go on for the whole year but even so,we won't stay sec 3 forever.
Cherish every happy moment,people!
I have finally bought my green pen!I've been wanting/needing one for so long..
It's still difficult to do homework in this racket,even if it's just corrections.
I shall have to wait.Meanwhile,I shall loosen up abit,maybe play some games and stuff.Take care,people! -Xiu =)

"Actually,I like chocolate very much!"

Hahahaa,quote.
Anyway gotta make this post real quick cos not much time left.
Ariel chasing me for my work,and I still have to collect Rabbit from Beatrice's.
After doing all this,I still have to finish my English descriptive essay and my Accounts homework.Ick.Worst of all,I can't seem to find my calculator anywhere!It used to be on the floor of my bedroom but now its nowhere to be found.Freaky.Mrs Chow is going to kill me.

Apart from all this,today has been pretty good.
I've had good lessons,3 periods of Art!
Oh,did I mention that I love Art now?It can still be dry at times but yah.
The lessons today were pretty relaxed.Had 3 periods of Biology.Thank God it wasn't Physics.Had a Biology test,a short one.I thought it was quite well done.
After school,went for English remedial!That was the most fun part of my day.
We played Scrabble,could see that the aim was to get them to think without them knowing it.They were all having so much fun!We all were.
Ms Wong was being evil,trying to steal everyone's words! x)
After playing Scrabble,we went to work choosing an article each from a stack of newspaper provided.I chose one about some guy dying and his wife crying and stuff.It's our remedial homework to summarize,choose 3 words,write what we think about the article.I might develop a phobia for newspaper articles soon!
Man,I'm looking forward to Thursdays now.
I gotta run! Gonna cut off in 3 mins,thanks to selfish brother. -Xiu =D

I would have to rend my soul.

Rend-To rip/tear something apart violently.
Something so tragic happened today.
It wouldn't seem tragic unless you're in my shoes.
For being smarter than other people (not to sound proud or anything),I've had taken away from me what I wanted most.
Oh,why did it have to be English?!
I regret trying so hard for English last year.I don't know why.
I felt happy at that time knowing that I've reached a higher level of achievement but now I really don't know..I don't-
I don't know what to say.I know what I'm thinking of,but people would probably just laugh at me and call me an idiot for not wanting to do O'level English.I mean I know,who doesn't want to,right?
But really,it isn't very fun at all.
It's like having your favorite toy taken away from you.
Sigh.
I know that mom would want me to continue doing O'level English regardless of what I want just because she wants something to show off about.
She doesn't care about what I want.
Why on Earth do these people have to spoil it all? -Xiulin.

The only way to fly...

Is to fling yourself off the top of a tall building.You'll be flying for awhile.
Today wasn't very good.I mean all went well.Physics teacher went to USA for some Robotics competition so another Physics teacher took over.She's abit psychotic though.The class was really quiet but she made us stand because she said that we were very noisy -.-"
Anyway apart from the whole Physics thing,I pretty much enjoyed the 'lessons' part of my day,having art and all that.I did a masterpiece during art!
We were asked to do a self portrait using only one type of stroke.Man,I didn't know I could be so artistic!We have a new art teacher too,very weird.Abit like me,actually.
Anyway Choir wasn't so good today.Well it started off pretty well,we had to learn two new pieces.One's called "Dona Nobis Pacem",the other ,"Chinese Poems".Well the titles speak for themselves.
"Dona Nobis Pacem" is a nice decent piece,asking for peace.I don't really know what language it's in though.The other is in Chinese (duh!).
Both pieces that we've learnt today are for the tri-choir combined concert on Aug 30th.Oh man,its gonna sound sooo awesome!
I'm going to Malaysia,to my grandparents' house for Chinese New Year.That should give me plenty of time to learn and "polish" my new scores.At least I can't do anything else there,so I'm pretty much forced to look at my scores all day long.
Anyway,Ms Tham got angry with the choir today because the juniors were running around and screaming during breaktime.I was totally unaware of this until she started scolding us because I was in the toilet!She was like,"The sec 1s are so energetic,pity they can't have this much energy in their singing." Ouch.
Honestly,she's usually such a controlled person,it takes a lot for someone to make her angry,so what they have done must have been pretty bad.
There was a lot of talk/scolding after she left too.
Then,suddenly all the comm. members started crying.I mean come on,I don't find whats so saddening.I,for one,knew that I didn't do anything wrong.I paid full attention and everything!
Suddenly everyone became emotional and started crying and saying that they've let everybody down.Crazy.
That's just plain stupid.
So anyway after choir practice,I put my orange file back in my locker and chatted with the others while waiting for Lorna.She was at comm. meeting,obviously discussing what happened earlier.Man,the sec 1s really spoilt my day.It's not very nice to make other people upset,especially nice,respectable people like Ms Tham.
So anyway I came home and did my homework like a good girl,even art for the first time.I feel proud of myself,blah blah blah.
Having dinner now,blogging at the same time which of course,readers would know.Tired and irritated,but can't help it.
If those sec 1s continue being so childish,the choir is done for. -Xiulin

Come take my hand.

Take it.Maybe chop it off and preserve it or something.
Nah,I'm kidding.
Feeling worse than yesterday because obviously,yesterday was a better day.A miracle occured today.I did 3 Math worksheets all by myself and I didn't die!
I was probably hoping to.
I've still got a little bit of homework left to do.
I still stare openmouthed at Physics worksheets and stuff.
Biology is fine,Just Fine..It's only Physics.Sigh.
Other subjects are fine,even Math!No,actually Chinese is not very fine,although I handed in my Zuo Wen today!!!That's something that you don't often see.So the first week of school didn't go too badly.Could have been worse,but the teachers are always nice on the first week so there's no knowing what they'll be like.Stuff up their sleeve,like when my mom gives me money for no reason.Lol.
So today was like...I woke up early (as usual nowadays,but only on schooldays),I got to school on time even after having a filling breakfast!
Sang "Thank You,Lord" at Schoolsingers.Someone pushed-shoved me infront so I had the microphone in my face!!I think it was Jac Mok.It went well,I remembered everything although my voice sounded funny in the morning.
So after that I went back to the lockers and my class.First lesson was SS.We got some handout thingy that we're supposed to do as homework,I guess.I'll have to check that there's no SS tomorrow.Second period was...?Hold on,lemme think.
I really can't remember.I remember Mother Tongue after that though.Did essay writing "Zuo Wen".
I suffered a whole lot during that one...
Recess!EAT EAT EAT!
After eating-
English.Oh yeah I'm soooo unhappy about that today.We had to write an essay.
Personally,I thought that the Normal(A) question was even more difficult because it was more..I don't know.Something about making a mistake and having to apologise.It's difficult to write a good essay,from my point of view.
What the girls doing O'lev English got was more...complex?
Something about writing 2 times when you had fun as a young child.
It was easier to write nicely,but I had to think for some time.
We were only given 32 mins to write our composition,but the O'lev English girls started late but weren't given extra time.Unfair!!!
I didn't really have time to write much,and it was underwritten.I was supposed to write at least 300 words but only wrote around 250+.It was only about one time(they asked for 2) but I made it sound like 2.
Apart from all those "mistakes" I made,I thought it was a pretty decent essay.
Ah,good old days when we were still young children.
Look at all of us now -.-"
After English came CME.Had to discuss some stuff about group work with Ms Shanthi.It was hell,I tell you.See,we were all aching from PE the day before.I was aching pretty bad.I was in such an uncomfortable position and having to turn my body around,though I could only do it halfway and so my neck had to turn the rest.I almost died.My neck almost died,I should say.Now my neck is aching too.Oh,the pains of being an attentive student!
After CME was Physics,as you should know,is currently my most disliked subject.It was only one period though,and before the teacher came,I asked another teacher if I could go to the loo cos' I was really urgent.I ran.On the way I saw my Physics teacher -.-"
I didn't have time to stay and chat,not that I wanted to anyway.
I ran to the toilet and then back,and even though I ran and all that,it took up like 1/4 of the period already so I only had to sit through 3/4 of it.We were doing that worksheet,the one which I stared blankly at.Anyway I tried to follow and copy stuff off the board,and even that was too fast!When the bell rang I was soooo thankful.At least after-school hours weren't so bad because I met up with Joanne,Christine and some other girl (forgot whats her name but she's damn funny).We went to have chicken rice together,and when I told them I've never ordered chicken rice by myself before,they were shocked/amazed.Anyway,Joanne and Christine found strands of the guy's hair in their chicken rice,and made a complaint,after which getting a new plate of chicken rice without hairs.
We went to Popular bookshop after that,looking at files and stuff.I left early cos' it was time for me to go home anyway,so I did.I said my goodbyes and left.
I came home.I slept till 8pm.Man,I was so tired.It's been a long day. -Xiu =)

I'll smell the flowers and hear the birds sing...

Hi.
Yes,so I'm here,blogging again.
Yes,lets talk about my life.
Apart from the fact that I'm ALREADY lagging behind in my Physics class,I haven't finished my Physics homework that I really don't know how to do,my Math homework which I still haven't completed,my weakness in mapwork,being worried about having to do O'level English because I love my current English class so much,Dad being all crazy again,mom just lazing around,a small wound on my ankle(it looks kinda raw,I don't know how it got there),My life is pretty perfect at the moment.
I feel sad and all that,but somehow there's always something to keep us from springing off the top of a building.
What gets to me the most is my Physics.I feel so hopeless already!
Almost broke down during Physics the other day because I seriously couldn't get anything.It was like Sec 2 all over again,only now there's no more Ms Teow.
I can only sigh.
Something keeps me motivated enough to try.
Or..someone?
Anyway,I saw Mrs Tan in school today.She looked shorter because her skirt/trousers were pretty high.LOL.Oops =X Mrs Tan if you're reading,you just gotta know that there were a lot of comments on that!
Sigh,its getting late and I shall go finish my homework.It's not much,really.
So goodnight people! -Xiu =D

I'll be remembering you.

Yeah,whatever.
Life couldn't get any more worse than this,can it?
Two male teachers.Ick.
One used to live in Aus for a long time,has this slight accent.
The other is very...positive.I don't know but he's like,"if you don't know how to do a question,put there 'don't know YET'"
Everyone's like -.-"
But I guess its a change from grumpy female teachers yes?
We still have female teachers though.We have 2 new teachers.New,meaning they just came into the school.
At least I know I have the freedom to walk around in bookshops and eating ice-cream with friends.Sigh.Realise that the older you get,the more...boring you become.You start talking about more 'adult' topics.Damn,we grow up too fast.We get caught up with all sorts of things.Oh yeah.Met my new teacher today and she was like,"are you in ELDDS?Why aren't you in ELDDS?!"Hmm.I don't know,ELDDS seems boring because you can't really choose what to act out,you have to follow their boring story.It's not really dramatic like those professionals.Its so...I don't know.The props suck.The things they have to wear also kinda suck.Maybe I'm just not into that kinda thing.Ms Wong seems to have done EVERYTHING.She was asking about our CCAs and she was like "I used to play the trumpet in the band too" and "Oh I was a sop 1!".Sigh,its just...mixing with people of different age groups.Depends on what kind of a person you are.If you have this inner child thingy that always comes alive then maybe you should hang out with people younger than you.
If you're some boring person like me who likes deeper topics (omg ask Gervin,I think she almost died talking to me),then...Hmm.I'm not gonna hint or anything,don't want sis to come after me =X
Ah well,thats the first day of school.Homeroom system was so disorganised,even the teachers were messed up.What to do,Singaporeans all want to be modern,must copy other countries.Sigh.It makes us seem to..unoriginal,y'know.
Ah yes,choir again tomorrow.Ah,heaven! -Xiu =)

I'll watch as the cold winter melts into spring

Oh my god!
I have found a sure-cure for fever!
It may be difficult,but it works.
Here's it:
Get like...4-5 hours of sleep on one night,make sure the lack of sleep makes you feel really tired.The next day,go out or something.Make sure you use up your energy.Go home,don't fall asleep yet cos it won't work.
Stay up till night time around 10-10.30,then drop dead on your bed (after brushing whatsoever).SLEEP!
I slept at 10.30pm and only woke around 4pm the next day!
The night before (The day I lacked sleep),I took my temperature before going to bed,and it was like 38.2.
After I woke at 4pm,my temperature was 36.4!
Miraculous!
Tell everyone!
Now my teachers won't believe that I skipped that stupid packing thing because I was sick.Damn. -Xiu =)

This,have I done for my true love.

I'm feeling terrible.
Came down with a high fever the night before last.Totally horrid,although I have no idea how I got it.Feeling so weak...
You gotta be sick to know.When you're sick,all your energy just drains man.
I can't even decide what to have for breakfast,because I usually wake after.
I've just drunk a mug of water though.Flush out the toxins.Damn,why must I fall sick just before school starts?!
I don't want to miss the first day of school,thats suicide!Oh God,please don't let me have Mrs Khoo as my Math teacher again.I'm most worried about English,what will it be like?
I managed to sleep for 6 and a half hours last night.It's not too bad,compared to the past few nights.I could hardly sleep.So much for trying to rest.I want to be cured and sleep properly!I have to take like...12 tablets a day now.
Totally sucks,having to swallow pills.Some of them are so large!
You people have no idea.I'm stuck with nothing to do.Don't feel like doing anything 'cos I've got a splitting headache now.Hurts so much.
I should just go back into bed and rest or something.Sigh.
Whole..body...aching.....
I can't take it anymore!I'm going back to bed. Happy end-of-holidays. -Xiu =(

Merry Christmas,With Love!

Whew,after hours of intensive testimonial-e-mail typing,letter writing,online chatting,I'm finally free.
It's been another year,since last Christmas day!
A really challenging but...fruitful year.
Yeah.I suppose thats the right word to use.
I have learnt a lot from this past year alone,things that will be of use to me later on in life.Sigh,the wonders of teaching.
Ah well,this Christmas has been a disappointing one though.
The Christmas tree I made turned out lousy this time.Sigh.
No presents or anything,just a big big feast that could not be finished.
Lots of food left behind...Mom tried bribing me today with 500 bucks.LOL.
Whatever,I still want my handphone plan.Just spoke to my brother about it.
Ah.I-I- I wanna go offline now to watch Pirates of the Carribean on the comp.
I shall end here.
Merry Christmas everyone! <3 Xiu =)

Sing:Oh my love,oh my love,my love,my love.

S'me again!
Bored,as usual.Later tonight,I'm going to be watching Van Helsing.Y'know,the one with Richard Roxburgh innit.I've always wondered why the bad guys are never mentioned first,its always the heroes.
I feel like playing Monkey Island 4.Yet,I just wanna be online so I don't miss out on anything.I just finished typing a long e-mail for Kathleen.Hope she likes it =X
I just looked out the window.I need some fresh air.I've been kinda cooped up at home.I can't go out with anyone cos' everyone's so busy.I'll have to start sending out the Christmas gifts and cards.It's almost Christmas,and I haven't sent them!They're going to be late because of all the card traffic during this time of the year.Sigh.I need to think of something fast...Oh my goodness,its FRIDAY ALREADY!I didn't notice!Damn,they're so going to be late.I shall wake early tomorrow morning to post them and get some fresh air.Ah!I haven't gotten anything for mom and dad!Oh my god.JIE!SAVE ME!
You're killin me,you're really killin me. I'll see you tomorrow. Love! -Xiu =)

To call my true love to my dance

Hi.
Reading my older posts,I feel sad >.<
Actually,Dec 1st turned out to be the greatest day ever,apart from the fact that I almost lost my file.Argh!
Anyway I'm chatting to Dels on msn now,just finished tagging people's tagboards.Someone needs to invent a time machine.I want one!I can go back in time and re-do everything.When I get to this age,then I'll rewind again.LOL.
Lame,I know,but y'know,it may be fun.One can sorta walk in someone else's shoes.Okay I shall stop this time machine thing for now.
I'm currently waiting for my lunch cos dad went down to take it away."Chai Tao Kway",its called.I only returned from my trip to Thailand on the 19th,after which I was really tired.I didn't drop straight into bed though,still had to take a shower and all that.Sigh.
Lunch is home!Eating it now.Nice,warm food.
I watched two DVDs yesterday.One of which was called 'Mean Girls'.The other was called 'House Of Wax' !!!Tonight,I shall watch two more =X
One of them shall be 'Daddy Daycare'.I don't know what else I want to watch.I'll see.I'm bored.It's obvious that I'm trying to think of something to type.I do miss choir rehersals.They keep me busy,with something productive to do instead of watching TV and using the computer.Oh yeah,I bought a new organizer for 2006!I'll be pretty busy next year so I'll be needing one.Okay whatever,I shall end here. -Xiu =)

The New Moon In The Old Moon's Arms.

Yo.
Here I am,staring at the screen once again.
Did something crazy last night while I was on Friendster.
Oh wells.
I have choir rehersal later,over at Victoria Concert Hall.
I hope I won't be late...or too early?
I just hope I won't be late -.-"
Can't wait to sing those songs again.They've been stuck in my head all week!I mean,since Saturday.It's just not the same without singing with the whole choir.
I'm in love with the third song.
Anyway,this is my 101th post!Man,have I typed so much!Of course,it's not really endless.
Some of the earlier posts are a little hard to read because of the colours but nevermind,not very interesting either.Just don't!
Need to speak with Bath(Kath) about dinner tomorrow,before performance.Darn.There IS a Macdonald's nearby but we shall have to walk.It's quite big though.I'm feeling sad.After tomorrow night,I'll never get to sing those 3 songs again!Well,not for a while at least.Who knows?Maybe in a few year's time I might have to sing it again.I just hope.
Oh yeah.I watched Son Of The Mask on DVD yesterday,the guy playing Loki had cute hair!
I packed my room,looks much neater,I think.Well,thats what I think.IIIIIIII!I can't wait for tonight.I shall go spend my time wisely now.I'm going to read!Buhzz! -Xiu =)

Happy 27th Birthday,Clay!

Yo.
Bored.
Nothing to do.
It's 5.14pm now.
Thinking.
I had choir this morning.Early this morning.Didn't run as usual.It's been raining,ground was too wet.We might slip,fall,and die.Anyway I'm here staring at the screen.Mind's blank,don't know what to type.Typing what I'm thinking.Darn.I have someone to forgive,but don't know how.He's pretty stubborn though.Bleat.
I went to the library @ Esplanade yesterday with my sister.Our...aim was to not spend any money.See,we were allowed to borrow alot,so I did.The library had stuff mostly of multi-media,and music books.Musically-inclined people go there.I mean,who knows?It might seem so fun to them,they go there everyday.
Borrowed some old films (one videotape and some DVDs),my sister borrowed the whole first season of "XENA:The Warrior Princess" -.- Oh well.It's a teenager thing.Like me.
Today's Clay Aiken's birthday,as displayed on my MSN nickname.Every (one of his)birthday(s),I draw a picture at least one day before.On his 25th birthday,I traced out a picture of him quite carefully on tracing paper.It is kept in a safe place,where it belongs...
On his 26th birthday,I did the same:I traced out another one of his pictures,put it together with the other tracing.On his 27th birthday(which,I'm proud to say,is today)...No,no.Actually I did the drawing last night.I wanted to do something different.Tracing is like copying.It's...cheating?
I drew in my sketchbook instead.A simple,yet...stylish(?) drawing.I drew a face,only from the nosebridge down.The mouth had a microphone infront of it.If you have read my Friendster profile,you'd know that I've typed "He takes a deep breath and opens his mouth,getting ready to sing,to spread joy to the world".I totally adore my work,man.At least I'm original for once!
Oh yeah,I've been his fan for two years (and some months) now.I used to be crazy.People thought I was crazy.Maybe I was.I would play the same old song over and over,memorised all the lyrics,download all the videos.I still have my collection of "American Idol (II)" video tapes!Well okay not all of them.What I really do have are of the finale.1st part and 2nd part.Poor Clay.He knew that he was going to lose because he already saw the card that Seacrest was holding before they announced the results.He lost by less than 1% of the votes!
It's all over now.He's gotta move on,right?
All his fans will go off him one day,I'm quite sure,but what I'm sure of is that he will be respected for his heart. -Xiu =)

Tomorrow shall be my dancing day!

Ah!It will be.Maybe not tomorrow but someday =X
Went to a concert last night,let me recap.
MGS concert,called Cantabile.Held at ACS B's concert hall.
Sorta joint with the SYC though.
Miss Tham conducted the MGS for some,then for a really long song,Mr Tay conducted.He only conducted one song though.Some song about nature,I think.
His conductor's suit thingy seemed like it was too big for him lol.I guess he still looked okay.
After that,SYC sang afew songs with them,and by themselves.I saw my sis,but she didn't see me.Goodness.I was in the 3rd row,right in the middle!At least I knew Miss Tham saw me.
2nd part of the concert:SYC went upstairs to sit.MGS had a change of clothes.Drums and piano came in.Blah blah blah.I can't remember.I was so tired cos I was up at 9am yesterday,out by 10am,whole day till about 10.30pm so I was really worn out.Yea there was the flower-giving thingy too.Ms Tham and Mr Tay both got some gifts and a bunch of flowers each.Then it was The End.I called my sis and met up with her,saw Ady on the way out LOL.He looked a lil' different.Was too tired to notice much.Met with my sis and we went to Waffletown to have some food [double scoop ice-cream waffle(choc and strawberry),large ice milo,6 chicken wings] then we went home after that by MRT.Soooo very tired.At least I was happy.Don't know why,but I was happy.My day went like this: Morning:woke at 9am.Got ready for choir practice @ Stamford Arts Centre (thats in Bugis).Left house at 10am,took the MRT to Bugis,met up with some choir people and walked to SAC.Waited some time with the others before Mr Tay came along with the keys.We had to bring along our concert wear yesterday to show Ms Tham.So we were discussing that,while waiting for the door to be unlocked.Finally it was,and we got warming up and all that,didn't do much warming up before we started singing but it was fine.We got warmed up (literally) anyway.Few adults from the SLO adult's chorus came to join in "Tomorrow shall be my dancing day".Sounded great,actually.We finally got it.Well,sorta.I got hooked on it,sang it for the WHOLE day,making people irritated.It's a lovely song.Anyway after choir I went to have lunch by myself at Long John Silver's in Bugis.It started to rain but I was safe in there.So I took my time eating my lunch.This lady at the table opposite mine kept smiling at me.Freaky,I tell you.After lunch I went up to Kinokuiya to read.Got new books there but no money to buy lol.After reading went to Orchard to meet Gervin,walked around Popular,then went to meet Nisha.Shared Famous Amos cookies,went into Fox (Men) cos I wanted to see the model's picture.LOL!He's quite cute.
Went to have dinner with Gerv and Nisha.Got tired.Made our way to Newton MRT station.Met up with some people.Sam and I walked to Waffletown,she said she was hungry and wanted to buy something.We ended up walking out again and went into 7-eleven instead.She bought an ice-cream,asked for directions to ACS B while I called Gerv using her phone telling them that they should just go on their own cos we're opposite the school already.We walked.
Went to some place overlooking the swimming pool.Lotsa kids swimming.Couldn't see who was who so gave up and walked towards the concert hall and waited there till the doors opened and walked to the front and sat down,waiting for the concert to begin. -Xiu =)

I'll make a wish for you

Yoyoyo.
I'm writing this after a looong day.Day started out with my sister waking me and asking if I touched her phone.She was grumpy cos the alarm was on snooze and she overslept.She was late by 2 hours,I think.Mom told me.Anyway after that I went back to sleep,only woke up around maybe...12?Yeah.Mom was so excited about spending the day in Suntec City.She didn't end up buying anything.We went anyway.First for lunch all the way in Bukit Timah.It was a decent meal with chicken rice,fried kai lan with garlic,chicken,fish curry,and some soup that always comes with chicken rice.Forced dad to eat more.After that we drove my brother back to his camp.I was looking at the motto "Together as one". -.-
We drove off to Bishan where mom and I were dropped off.We went looking around Junction 8,then taking the MRT to City Hall.Went to Raffles City,there was this Batman show on.Ick.You know that kind.The mom tells the kid "There!Thats Batman!"And the kid cheers loudly,"BATMAN!BATMAN!"
It was totally lame.I was there,I know.Just passing by though.Looked around,then went out into the open and walked to Marina Square.We took a look there.I need clothes for my performance.I don't want to look like some old person on stage!Ohmy goodness.No thanks,mom.Man,you should've seen her picking out the clothes.I almost died!Thank goodness she didn't buy anything.We saw this nice skirt,perfect for my performance,but she said no.Sigh.Why can't she understand that we both have different tastes.You should see her selections.Really.She walks into those shops.I remembered seeing those old people looking at her-style clothes,speaking Hokkien and having totally out-of-shape figures.I mean it!Come shopping with me one day and I'll show you which shop it is!Anyway I treated us to dessert at Han's.I had some chocolate cake and a soup-of-the-day and she had a chicken pie with a coffee.I hate coffee.
I thought of taking away some Long John Silver's to eat on the way to Suntec City but didn't anyway.We walked to Suntec,stopping by at Levi's.When we finally got to Suntec City,we passed by the tour booth,you know,that one with all the Duck Tour and Hippo Tour things.Goodness,I can't believe that I'm actually going for one of those on Dec 3rd.We walked,and we walked,and we walked.I saw the newly-opened Ben & Jerry's!I so love Ben & Jerry's ice-cream.I wanted to buy some,but having already bought some sushi and Baby Dutch Edam cheese (individually packed!),I decided not to.We went over to some Delight eating place,with the stand-around tables to eat our food.Mom bought an ice lemon tea.She said it tasted funny.After eating my sushi,I saw an interesting selection...Of food on sticks.It's Japanese food,see,and there were these cute little scallops (dead,of course,and boiled) and wanted to try some,so I bought a stick.They added some sauce to it which I thought tasted too...salty.I liked the scallops though.They looked like shellfish on a stick,which they are.Tasted just like the kind you find in restaurants.After that,went home,had a bath,and here I am now.I haven't had my dinner yet,don't know if I am.Maybe I'll have something later.I shall go have my cheese!Bye now! Luv,Xiu =)

You and I collide.

Its me!
AHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA!
I get to do O level English next year!Wheee! (What on Earth is it anyway?)-.-"
Anyway,went to school for streaming results today,I got into my first choice,for some reason.I know it couldn't have been my results cos' I did kinda badly for Final Years.Don't blame me!The papers were much much tougher.Like,really.
Ooo dinner is served!
Anyway I'm gonna really miss all my teachers...Well only some -.-" Because total-some=the rest.The rest will still be teaching me next year,worst luck,because I totally dislike that subject.Lol.Mmm I'm getting my Omega-3s now.I sure hope that I'll be able to survive Sec 3.Sigh.Argh!Kathleen and Gervin get to do CHEMISTRY and BIO!Well I get to do bio too but not chem.No fair.But not much point anyway.Only Express people get to take it -.-"
Oh man.Bye teachers,I'll miss ya'll soooo much.Shall end here.Tata! -Xiulin =)

So much to say goes unspoken.

Hey,its me again.
Another day.
Went to sell food in school this morning (fund raising)...After that,went to the Singapore Polo Club to see horses lol.Touched horses,smelt horses,watched them have baths,and so on.We saw lotsa cats there too,wonder why?
Anyway so I'm back home now,having my lunch.Mmm,jiaozi.
I'm bored.I shall game later.Not going for food selling tomorrow,so what will I do?Maybe I should go to a gym?No one to go with?Sigh.I need to get a life.
Maybe I should go out on my own?It's not so bad,you know.Kinda peaceful.Nobody to keep telling me "I need to buy my Zara skirt!" -.- Thats just lame,right.I guess tomorrow for me will be gaming all day.Aw man got a form for the Choir Olympics thing,I need to pay a deposit of 50 dollars first.The total sum of it all is...close to 2000 dollars!I'm gonna be soooo broke,I tell you.But you know,its gonna be just like the Hawaii trip,just that this one's in China.Xiamen,was it?Gonna meet people from all over the world,just that this time,they all sing,unlike the Hawaii trip people,whom some played in an orchestra or something.Hahaha.Excitedddd.Oh well.I just finished my lunch,so I guess I shall end here.See yuh! -Xiu =)

W.W.C.D.?

What Would Clay Do?
Dunno.Sing?
S'me again.Boring afternoon,sis is at choir.Today was very very tiring,although its only 4.21pm.This morning,I woke up early..blah blah blah,went for choir practice with some SLO thing.Don't know,but it was kinda fun.Learnt two new songs.Christmas carols,just not the usual ones.The girls were mostly from my choir.Few other girls are from ? I have no idea where.They just came,and we sang.So yeah.After that,sis came to pick me up.She felt like such a star,I tell you.My friends totally worship her?We went off at last,walked to Raffles Hotel so that she could try her new choir gown thing.Wilson was already there.Aw man,the new choir gown looks like..looks like.Well she looked like some indian warrior when she put it on alright.You just have to see for yourself.Go watch them in concert!After they (finally) finished trying on the gowns,we went for lunch.Well see,on the way to Raffles Hotel,we were greeted by the stong smell of fried chicken wings,so after that we felt like having some.We walked downstairs...Past some branded shops and high class cafes...Crossed the street and came to a chicken rice stall -.-" Now,there wasn't much time to spare,so we just ate there.There were fried chicken wings!LOL!Oh well,its bad for me but I ate it anyway.We ordered a set for three people,which was alot really.Thank goodness he can eat alot... =P He saw his (old) teacher there..they chatted..and chatted..and chatted.Finally,she went off anyway and he continued eating.LOL!
So after that Kok Leong came along.He almost walked past us -.-" Talked.Talked.Talked some more.And then..BOOM!Okok not boom.We were talking about people singing for 3 hours every night and pianists playing for 10 hours everyday..and then getting backaches.Bahahahha.Whatever man!Ah,so after that both of them went back to Raffles Hotel for fitting,my sis walked me halfway to Raffles City.Sis went back to Waterloo Street,I went back home.Poor Miss Tham -.- She has to go from one choir to another.It's tiring enough just attending the practices.Imagine conducting them!Ah!But it is good money.LOL.
Shh,I didn't say that =X PRETEND!I'm going to game now.See yuh people!-Xiu.

Do you really have to go?

Nooo!
It might be the happiest day,but also the most..uhm. dreadful.
My Science teacher is going to TRANSFER!Luckily my form teacher ain't.She got some high class job in the school.Some head of something sec 2 2006.Oh why why why does miss teow have to leave?!(though she's not miss teow anymore,but she still likes it that way)But,it would definately be better if she transfers.Nobody can survive waking up everyday at 5am.Not for long anyway.So,its goodbye miss teow! =( we'll miss you.
So,we're on our own again.I'll probably be a loner next year.Hope I can go to 3/5.Results of posting of classes will be released on 11 nov.Can't wait,but dread it too.I needa start studying more man.I'll work on math and chinese next year.The worst!I gotta do it anyway.Dang it.Busy busy busy.I need to buy my new textbooks.I bet they're gonna cost a bomb (a really large one that will blow up the entire planet) I'm poor enough already!What with saving up for the trip to China and eating and stuff like that?Argh.Still,textbooks are a must.a.s.a.p. baby!
I've a sudden 'craving' for computer games.You know...role playing,cartoony computer games.I wish they would hurry up and create Monkey Island 5.name it Zombie Guybrush or something.The curse of the Zombie Guybrush?LOL.
I should go into that kinda thing,I'm made for it!
Sigh,time really goes by too fast huh.The whole of this year,all sorts of things happened.Bad stuff,good stuff,got scolded lots.It didn't turn out so bad after all.I'd be really happy to live through this whole year the way it was again.I regret now,but whats the point,I can't fight fate.
Oh man. I gotta follow mom to NTUC now.Sorry people bubbyes! Luv,Xiulin.

Je suis triste.

It's in French.Translate it yourself.
Yes,I am.
Tomorrow is the last day,THE LAST DAY!
I wanna take pictures with all my teachers.lol.I hope they'll allow me to.Dad allowed me to bring the family's digi cam to school tomorrow,but I'll have to be careful.Don't worry man.When it comes to belongings,I'm a very careful person =P I asked Lu lao shi if we could bring cameras tomorrow.She said she didn't know,but she'll be bringing one too.LOL.Melanie hasn't told me if Mrs Tan said that we could bring cameras.I hope so,because in my camera,my memories will be.You know.Everything from scoldings to glory.Bahahaha.I'll keep them secret though.You know how sensitive teachers are about taking pictures,unless in the yearbook.I bought em' gifts (woopee!) and I just hope they'll take just a picture or two with me? come on,memories!pictures that I'll pick up 10 years later and say "hey! this was my form teacher in 2005!"LOL.yep.I'm planning to do that =X anyways comp got prob,needa restart.I shall end my post here then!
Bye everybody!Wish me luck for tomorrow. Luvv! -Xiu =)

The Limping Angel.

Hey people,gotta make this a quick one.
I'm very very tired.
Tomorrow is the netball carnival!*sigh* I hate it.
I'm not involved in cheerleading (ick) or netball (ahh!) so I'm involved in the march past.Our theme was originally 'Gypsy' then turned to 'Old School'. Finally we decided on 'A little bit of everything' so we could wear whatever we wanted.How come I get the feeling that we're gonna get scolded because of our meaningless theme?Oh well.After the carnival I still have to make my way back all the way from Kallang back to school for choir till late.My life.Gosh,do I need sleep.I still need to worry about buying gifts and writing letters.Ahh.I'm dying.I'm gonna meet my 'buddy' tomorrow.Help!What should I say?Oh well.Not that I can say much anyway.I've made people happy,now I've got to say goodbye.Why is life always like that?!
I'll never see them again...sigh.
Goodnight people. love. -Xiulin =((

A human soul for a faceless world.

It's been a long long long time.AH!
A lot has happened over the weeks.It's all happening too quickly.Days zipping past as if nothing at all.Wish I could rewind the whole year.Maybe last year too?We need time machines,seriously,so that we can go back into the past to correct our wrongs that we've done in the past.You know,like-Ah.Nah.I'll only write it out in my personal diary.It cut me deep,and they were wrong.
Anyway..You know.After seeing some results for the EOYs,I feel kinda sad.
I see lotsa mistakes.Mistakes I shoulda seen when I checked them over,but no.
Only after they were marked did I see those mistakes.I guess life's like that.Yeah,and I'm starting to hate Lit.Don't ask me why,ask my Lit teacher -.-"
I'm gonna miss lessons with my teachers.If I did well in that subject,you know straight-away that they made very good teachers.I'm that kind of person who doesn't really score in anything.I read a lot,thats probably the reason why I can pass Eng.Don't talk about all the others.Ick.The only other paper that I'm quite happy about is Science.Hah!I made an effort to pass that one.Really!
Waking up one hour earlier before the usual time to study is not really my thing,but I did it for the sake of...well.Sort of a promise?
Well,I managed to keep that promise,and I'm proud of that.
I can't keep many promises though.I'm worried about a certain promise that I made to my form teacher.The only thing that can save me from breaking that promise now is my mid year results.I think 10% or so is taken from there.Sigh.
I'm finally having choir again,this Wednesday.I've been assigned to buddy another girl.Darn.It's gonna be difficult when I can't read music!Whats more,competition standards are very high,but I'm willing to give teaching a try.Maybe there's something about the joy of teaching that only teachers know.Hah,I must find out!I feel like going out for some cakes/ice cream stuff.Anyone willing to come with me,maybe go out and enjoy for afew hours,just tell me.I'm currently having a really cheesy cheesecake,the marble kind that my mom bought few days ago from Secret Recipes.It's not bad..Just that its starting to get a little too cheesy.BUT!I must not waste food.Lolz!
People halfway round the world (and closer) are starving with no food and no clean water..Here I am complaining of too much cheese >.<"
Aw man,I'm sure gonna miss this year.Y'know,if I had a time machine,I'd definately woulda done better than I did this time,knowing how difficult the Science paper would be.28 people failed!Imagine that.The number of people in my class is like...38.So I'm one of the 10 lucky people who DID pass.I sure feel good about that.Oh wells,gotta end here,goodnight everybody! Love! -Xiu =)

Incantation

Hey guys!
It's been almost a month since I last blogged.Sorry.Been....busy.
Went to watch Quidam!!!!1st October.I had to say,the show was FANTASTIC!
Especially the German Wheel act =p..... Ahem.
Anyway,the show was totally great.Yeah,enjoyed it.Was sad when I couldn't get the soundtrack.Maybe I'll wait for awhile.When I get my own credit card and get to buy stuff over the net,HAHAHAHAHA!
Anyway.I'm gonna be careful bout that.Only buy from trusted sites.Yeah yeah yeah.Listening to Incantation now.Part of it was played during the German Wheel act.(Thanks Edward for getting the file for me!I've been trying to look for it for a looonnnggg time.)Anyway,today during self-study,I did my Geography revision,then thought of this song,and wondered what 'Incantation' meant.I asked the teacher who was there for self study.Er,afternoon study,I mean.Anyway he told me something like 'a ritual for magic and witchcraft' or something like that.It made a lot of sense,actually,because this song sounds quite...mysterious and it sounds like people are dancing.Ha!Ask me if you want the file.I loved loved loved Quidam.It was so artistic.Found out that Quidam has been performed for the last nine years or something like that.Cool,aint it.I kinda envy the circus.They get to travel around the world and tour,but still work at the same time.It's quite hard work if you have to do 10 performances per week.But,its really kinda cool.Hah!I'm inspired again.Okay I shall stop talking about it.lolz!
Anyway for the past few weeks been really...bored.Been trying to lose weight,not that I need to but..Yeah you know.Don't like getting fat.Just had PE on Monday,worked out like crazy,and then finding out that it was the last PE lesson for this year.NOOOOOO!!!That means we'll all get fat because I know most of my class doesn't bother to go work out 20 mins,3 times a week.Sigh.They thought I was crazy when I ran 15 times around 3 basketball courts.-.-"Whats so crazy about that?I'm healthy,thats why.LOL.Nowadays,I've been eating good wholesome food.Well,I haven't eaten lots of vegetables today,so maybe I'll have some lettuce with some fruit later?I'm having chicken porridge now.Was whining about my dad turning the fan (blowing from my left side)on.It went something like this. I said,"Nooo!Don't turn on the fan!Wait my hair fly into the porridge!" He said,"Ni de tou fa zhe me 'wet' ,zhe miang' fly into your porridge?!" Then I just,"How you know it won't fly?"True enough,it IS flying into my face.Right this minute!LOL.Oh!I just went into the kitchen to inspect some chocolate cake from Coffee Bean.I stared at the slice of cake for awhile,and said to my brother,"Kor,you will have only half!" lol.Poor me.See lah,I'm so pitiful.One thin slice of cake also have to share.BUT!I must not eat too much junk food.One potato chip could be fatal.I could end up eating it all!
Must...hold...back...
Okay,I've typed quite a lot today man.Look at how much I typed!Okay not a lot but yeah.I'm gonna end off here.Good bye,everybodeh! <3 Xiulin

I'm through with hoping

Argh.Feeling depressed.
My life is all messed up.There are too many problems.Sigh.I mean,yeah I'm lucky enough to have a bed to sleep on,food to eat and stuff like that.I can understand that nobody's life is perfect.Sigh.I don't mind going through all the he-ll in secondary 2 again...I just don't wanna leave.I'd lose all my teachers.Sigh.
And,I'd be friend-less too.I wish I could rewind back to the first half of secondary 1,before everything happened.Maybe I should just rewind my life away -.-" Dad's going mad.He wants to buy TWO new digital cameras,which we don't need.He has already bought one,he's planning to buy another.He's crazy,he is.Just months ago,before he discovered the 'wonders of digital cameras',he was always drilling me about wasting money.Now here he is,doing exactly.The camera which he had bought costs about $700.Ugh.
Anyway nothing much has been happening recently.I started playing Ragnarok.It's a pretty cool game,actually.The colours are abit dull.Other than that the game's alright.I wanna get out of this house but I have no excuse to.I want to roam about for the day on my own but dad simply won't allow it.I just wanna go to MPH at Raffles City or something.Then maybe wander round The Marketplace,looking at the wide selection of cheese and stuff.Maybe get an ice-cream waffle at New Zealand Natural.Maybe after that go to Suntec City and walk around the shops,especially MPH and Carrefour...Sigh.No way am I going to be allowed out to be free.Dad would think I'm going out to meet some boy or something.Hah.Whatever.Oh,did I mention that I accidentally cut myself?I was cutting an ice block.Well,frozen milo packet,that is.And well the third finger on my left hand was under a thin strip of wrapper that I was trying to cut,and it gave way and the next thing I knew,there was a cut on my finger.It didn't really hurt because the ice block numbed it.So I was like 'cool'.I put that finger under the running water,then put a plaster over it.Somehow that seemed kinda fun.
Nevermind.I shall stay home all through this week,trapped.Sigh. -Xiu.

[Maybe I should run away.
Maybe I should disappear.
Maybe I should find a place where no one knows I'm there.
-Where do you go when the tears run dry?]
'Tears Run Dry' by Clay Aiken.