I Could Breakaway...

I want to. Sigh. I didn't really have a bad day. It was okay. Haha.I'm listening to Breakaway by Kelly Clarkson.Ever since I came back,I felt sad.I mean like...Everyone around me is so grumpy.No smiling or whatever.The only person actually smiling is my sister.Everything else is so gloomy.It rained today too.Horrible.The good thing is that I had Kenny Rogers for lunch,at East Coast.Mom and dad didn't want to have Kenny Rogers so they had curry instead,at some stall opposite us.Like,ew.Oh wells.Gotta meet Brandy soon to pass her some stuff and catch up.Gotta go out with Dels after school to catch up too.Haven't gone out with her for a long time...She's always out with other people...And Gina might not be free after school too.I really miss Mel.Sigh.Shintaro.J.......,Jared.I feel so out of place here in Singapore.I don't fit in!Everybody is so boring over here.No life whatsoever.Just lying around and rotting.No smiling...Sigh.I miss those days when Dels,Gina,Mel,Sara,and I went out after school to have lunch.Now it seems that none of them want to do that anymore.Its as if there's no more connection.I really feel like going back to the past.My friends are all over the place.Its not the same as before.I feel like no one can hear me anymore.Sigh.Thank goodness Brandy still bothers to sms me.Ha!
Rabbit seems bored too.Poor guy.I miss my past.I miss those days.I miss them all.I miss Melanie.I miss..I miss..I don't know.I even miss those whom I used to hate.Its so sad.I miss school.I miss all my teachers.I miss choir.I miss.I miss.Hammie.Sigh.I remember so clearly.I don't want to remember.About 3 years ago.I don't want to remember.But I know she's in Heaven now.I don't have to worry.I won't forget all the ones that I love.Sigh.I want to go back into the past,before she died,before everything happened,then maybe she wouldn't have died that way,maybe I wouldn't have been forced to quit Gym in pri 2,then having to join again in pri 4.Maybe I could have joined choir right from the start.Maybe I didn't have to quit playing the piano.Maybe I could have stayed happy.Maybe I could have made my parents stay happy all their lives,not grumpy old people.Maybe I should have never been alive.I love all my friends.
Love them all forever,always in my memories. Love,Xiulin. *

Biggie Fries,With A 64oz. Milkshake!

YIPPEE!
I'm back from Hawaii!
It was much nicer there.Sigh.I wanna go back.It just doesn't seem right that I have to come home.The air's stuffy.I'm too used to the Honolulu timezone.Darn.I didn't sleep a wink all night!I went online at about 3am,writing testimonials for people.Well,after that,I got abit bored...So I went to watch TV.Stephen Chow.Bahaha.The trip to Hawaii was totally cool.Met lotsa people at the welcome dinner thingy.I miss Shintaro.Lolz! Anyways it was kinda cool.It's not everyday you get to meet people from all over the world!It rocked.
Life in Hawaii is so slow-paced,so free.The people there smile alot.And well,I loved the hotel stay too.Heh.Breakfast was a buffet.I had scrambled eggs!Woo hoo!I love it there.The beach was beautiful and the water was clear!Abit blue-ish too.I feel like going back.Its so gloomy here.Nobody ever smiles,nobody dresses in a funky way...nobody is...uh- I dunno. But I never knew Japanese guys were cute.Ha.Now I know.It's weird.I just went there,no jet lag or whatever.Before this trip,I've always wanted to go to America.Hawaii!Sigh.I wanna go back there.Over there,its never so hot.Well there is sun but still,its not as hot as Singapore.There,people have style!So the competition went well.Glad to miss a week of school.The schools are mostly mixed.Its really cool.People surf in Hawaii!I wanted to rent a surfboard but I thought,better not.I don't even know how!I'm too young to die.Lolz!I think New Zealand is more peaceful than Hawaii,but I love them both.I don't like Singapore.Its so...Its..I feel...sad.I still can't believe I came back.Its sad that we left earlier than the other schools,but I'm kinda happy.And I got to see Shintaro the day before we left,the day of the results.I got to see two other people too.Quite happy.I miss them already.Now,even Japan sounds better than Singapore.Sigh.I'm having my breakfast now.Already had a slice of ham,a fried egg,and a chicken patty thing.I think I spelt it wrongly.Was it pattie?Nevermind.Now I'm having chicken soup.Gonna have a glass of milk,then a peach.My rabbit has been out the whole night with me!It has been following me around.Around 4am,I went to cook a packet of instant noodles.I gave it some uncooked.I didn't even know rabbits ate uncooked noodles!My mom's getting a new phone today.K700i.Its hopeless!I want Shintaro's phone.Argh!Japan is too fast.Lolz.I don't know if I should go check out the phones with my mom.I mean,shopping with her can be good or bad.Its just scary.Should I go catch a movie by myself?Go to the beach?Ew.The beaches here suck.Maybe not.What other things can I do today?It's so hot!I'm melting even though the fan is directed at me,highest speed.Help!It's too hot!Should I just follow my mom out today?She said that after she bought her new phone,we could go out somewhere.Maybe I can somehow drag her to HMV?Hmmm.Argh forget it.Maybe I will,but if I don't,I'll just stay home and rot or something.Okay okay. Bye people Love. love love love -Xiulin.

I Want A Fat Babe!

LOLZ. lousy but cute title.
Got it from the remake of the song "I want it that way"
I've been listening to "I want a fat babe" all afternoon! woo hoo!!!!!
sigh. Today feelin sick but happy la. cos of the song.
Oh wells. I never stopped loving you*
I'm all tired out. Today after choir went out with nicxy for abit then went home.
Took flu medicine now I feel sleepy -.-" lolz. Will clean rabbit's cage,brush teeth,and sleep.
Thank God I've recorded "I want a fat babe" using my handphone.
Took some pictures of the cartoon too. such a cute cartoon.
Tomorrow got choir,from 7.30am to about 6.00pm. argh.
Then still need to pay Mrs Seah US$10. The note looks nice k. So..classy.
Clay is about 900km from here! In Aceh. The kids really love him. So cute.
So sweet don't you think? Flew all the way from Hawaii to help the kids out. Charming.
My dad just asked me if I wanted peaches. LOL. Too tired to eat la. Feeling drowzy too.
mark just came online again. sigh. (:
Anyways. getting really really tired now. See ya all. love you still* always and forever. -Xiu.

Happiness brings colour to your face.

Sigh.
Just bothered by lotsa memories la. Last night dreamt about acs -.-"
I know its lame but I still feel sad all the same. Memories,memories.
WOO HOO!
ahem. shall not say anything. happy now la. heh.
So my parents are sorting out their clothes. And well Im here reading messages and typing too. I'm bored. and I'm happy. ok. shall change my title. It was "Nothing to say,nothing to do,nothing to live up to"
What shall I change it to? hmm.
kk changed it to "Happiness brings colour to your face." So nice right? Ahh know.
Okay but try not to be too happy la. lolz.
I'm bored now. maybe. still can't bring myself to talk over msn. darn. anyway.....
uhm.Today went to Bugis. Bought lotsa stuff. Billabong bum bag. LOL. some shirts...and food....what else.Oh yeah. Nivea stuff. lolz. Boooring.Listening to "Never Be Replaced"
not bad a song. Lyrics fit me alot. lolz.I miss acs barker already.sigh. alot. Oh wells. Will wait for a reply again. I will wait until the end of time. Bubbyes everybodeh! Lurve. --Xiu

I Guess I Need You,Baby.

Sigh.
Today went to the ACS funfair. It really was fun! Although I went alone -.-" But then going there and seeing people I know,I've met before...stuff. Saw a couple of familiar people. mark,adriel,and matt. LOL.I dun think matt saw me though.ha!
Anyways I'm quite tired but happy la.Damn happy.mark looks better now.much better lolz.
Oh wells.I bought the ACS bear thingy with the tiny bag and pin.Quite cute la though it looks evil. lolz.Eating oreo cookies now. mmm.I lent adriel KFH vcd.I was watching mark play some game.Throw sponge.lolz he can aim man. Then-well,saw the girl whom cherre likes.uhm.whats her name? I dunno how to spell one la.but then...nvm.My dad just scolded me.LOL lame. he said must show him result all tt.I dunno whats he so angry for. well not really that angry la. lolz.I just showed him my report book.then I told him I passed 4 out of 8 subbies.I dun think he's that angry anyway.I mean common get real.IF I ever passed my math,my dad wun be happy anyway.tt time I pass also he nt happy,scold me so much summore wth.To hell with it la.Cannot get job then forget it la! make such a big damn fuss.spoilt my day.I shall not care. *hmph*
Oh wells. Going to the funfair brought back memories and stuff la. lolz.LOL my sis just came back and asked if the funfair was okay.Then she said "woah,whats that!" then she took my report book and is now flippin through it. lolz.WOO HOO! now the comp got sound alr! yays!
Sigh.I miss ACS already. lolz.I shall bring math and science notes to Hawaii to study. lolz and books to read! woo hoo!Listening to Clay Aiken now. my sis sitting beside me and eating her dina! lolz lammeeee. Hope to see you all again soon! Bubbyes. -Xiu =)

Celebration Time Common!

Hi everybodeh!
SYF choir auditions held today.I got in!wheee!I'm so...uh- relieved? maybe. I feel guilty though. One of my friends didn't get through.I feel so bad -.-" But nvm you'll have another chance next week. Go for it!
Argh.I was just doing some Clay jigsaws online.Quite fun actually.I used to hate jigsaws because I was so impatient.Now I see that these jigsaws are worth it because I get to see the finished result.I feel like watching Shaolin Soccer.Just feel like.I shall call my brother tomorrow night.I have to ask! My rabbit is running around in the dark again. LOL. smelling the table. -.-" lame.
I have to bring the tix tomorrow for my seniors.And the consent form for the teacher,20 dollars for choir jacket,3.70 for the science book(Its gotta be somewhere!),6 dollars to pay gina and dels. 4 bucks-> dels. 2 bucks->gina. Sigh. poor me man.But oh well.Hope I don't get scolded tomorrow for not doing art again.Its weird.I've always liked art.But I just don't like doing it as homework.I just know I'll be too lazy to bring it home to do.I know it would get crushed by my books and stuff.How to do? End up not completing.If we only do it during art lesson,I would have done it.But then...sigh. Today auditions,very scary.So stressful. lotsa tension.At least Miss Tham's not wearing black again.I mean,she wore black for the last audition.I thank God for getting me through.Today we sang lotsa rounds of Sok Herren.Now,the song's stuck in my head -.-" ARGH. irritating. lolz.Sigh.too tired to type much anymore.Sis is petting rabbit lolz. Okay people. buhz takkare sweet dreams yeah? Lurvvvee,Xiulin.

Baby I Loved You,Why Did You Let Me Go?

ITS A SONG!
pls.
anyways it was a boring day today.The only thing I enjoyed today was choir practice.We actually sounded good with only 22 people! woo hoo! Hope it lasts -.-" tends to wear off.
the furniture that dad and mom ordered weeks ago came in today.I'm kinda happy with my life at the moment.I guess so.I'm just worried that the clothes might be too-too- big. oh well they might be. but mostly not la. lolz. Clay looks so cute in thatpicture...
ahem.
LOL. where was I?Oh yeah.Mrs Tan got kinda mad again.I don't know for what reason.But I'll really take my pic this weekend k Mrs Tan?I'll have to take it sooner or later.I've been typing quite alot today.Its so early.Only 10.50pm.And I'm tired already?! maybe.I'll need energy for tomorrow.Might be going out with mom and all that.Hope that it'll be a typical Sunday.I need to buy some other stuff too. lolz. Hope so.I guess I'll have to type afew more lines.I'll feel weird if I don't. I just realised I forgot to reply Wy -.-" sorry wy. LOLZ. okok. Good night people. L.O.V.E

Cross This Line To The Only Thing That's True.

lol I supposed you've guessed the song.Argh!
Hi everybody!
I haven't blogged for a long long time...I think.There's choir again tomorrow. woo hoo? lol.Thank God the SYF auditions are only next Wednesday.Oh well...Sok Herren shouldn't be too difficult..I hope.Sigh.We're gonna be given a compo test for Eng cos most of us,maybe even all-failed.So well they can't accept the fail,neither can I.So well we're gonna be given another test.Hope it will be...an interesting topic.I can't seem to use my imagination nowadays.Well I can,but I can't come up with anything original.So well,reading too much really IS bad.I mean,when I do a compo,I start to think about the books I've read...and well my sister said I have ALOT of books -.-" Well I don't think so.But anyway thats what SHE said. -.-"
Just hope that the test won't be tomorrow.I'll be dead tired!I might fall asleep during choir!
That almost happened to me once.I had to struggle to stay awake.Serious!It was so...difficult.lolz
So anyway here I am now,typing and typing.My dad's blowing his nose -.-. my mom's just..just..uh.She just came out of the bath I guess,already in her PJs.My sis is playing the piano again,as usual.Its a nice night but maybe a little too hot.Its not too bad though.Today we did alot of packing in the room.Alot!There were bags and bags of rubbish.I had trouble forcing them down the chute by myself.I called for help.My dad didn't even budge.Evil man.Whatever.
My sis was cleaning the room so she didn't help either.I mean,well she HAD to clean the room right?But my dad just continued sitting there,staring at the darn television set.ew?
I mean common whats so nice about the boring news or somethin?! I don't even think much of the tellie,unless some people are on it.Well...This Sunday,7.30pm,Stephen Chow's gonna be on TV!!!!! YIPPEE! I mean come on!They showed SOME clips of it.He looks so blur on that show! LOL so cute. Oh yeah did I tell you people?I was staring at the sign thingy today in school.I was just staring at it.Uhm.Then after that I just felt really tired.I just slept in class.Well school was going to end REAL soon then so I just happened to fall asleep.So well I was really tired and all that,headache included.When I came home,I did some packing,revision,homework,rabbit stuff,and then I came online.Guess what!I went on the website where they provided meanings and stuff for these symbols.I looked for the symbol that I stared at today.It said that the symbol absorbs your energy. what the-.So freaky.LOL.Oh well at least its not too bad.I definately CANNOT stare at it tomorrow before choir practice.Can't afford to.Must-pay-attention...If the symbol really has that kind of power...oh well.I should try it again on friday or something.In school.I have to know if it wasn't just me.This is kinda freaky.lolz.well.I'll just have to wait till then to find out! btw,the Constantine book rawks,totally! Love,Xiu. -always.

Pachelbel Canon In D

Halo!
I'm listening to Canon In D now so I thought I'd just name this post it. LOL.
I'm kinda surprised I didn't fall asleep the minute I got home. We had to walk 15 km today!!!!!
Its some General Leadership thingy.I'm the 'follower'...Steph .........was. the """"leader"""".
Anyway,It was kinda interesting.There were monkeys and all that.We even saw a 'teenager' snake!LOL.I thought at first that the monkeys would come after me because I smelt like a banana.I sprayed on suntan oil before the hike...The brand was Bananaboat.So now you know why.But what a surprise,they didn't.Well I didn't understand why the others were so..scared of monkeys.I mean...we were all monkeys once right?Well thats what I heard.Heh.
Oh fine.My mom just scolded me.Damn it.evil woman.I shall not let that get to me. HA! Try harder mom!HA!
ok where was I?Oh yeah.There were lotsa turtles swimming and sunbathing. LOL.
Argh.I'm doing research on people again.I did research on Cherre's Wade Robson.Then after that I did research on Mrs Tan's Kris. LOL! I'm kinda confused right now.Oh wells I guess I'll type a short one tonight cos it really was a long day today.No energy. LOLZ. nevah! Buhz people good night and all that right? bubbyes people. buhz! -Xiu.

We Both Know,Its Better If We Just Let It Go.

Though I know I can never let it go anyway.Not so soon.
helos people.
Today did alot of rubbish.Didn't run in the morning because I had PE later on. HA! sad. anyway I'm listening to One Last now and drinking Shandy.well haha.Its only 1% alcohol. sigh.I went to the supermarket with my mom,and well,I saw vodka.It was like 55% alcohol so 1% alcohol is nothing. uhm,I bought a magazine with Keanu in it.lol it was local but I can't remember what mag it was.I don't know.I was just mooching around the magazine section,and I thought I'd just take a local teen magazine from the shelf to flip through.And well I just flipped it open and WOO HOO! It was Keanu! lolz so I happily grabbed a copy. ha!my dad just asked me if I wanted oranges. bahs. nevah! okok maybe. but not now.I'm just...drinking shandy.Too bad the half can of Carlsberg didn't have any effect on me last night. lolz.I read in a book that vodka doesn't taste bad with tonic.But then again,even though I've never tried,its not always like its in the books. lolz.I failed the darn math paper.well I didn't do too bad for section A. It was just section B dammit.I wanted to throw section B on the floor and stomp on it,only I didn't.I just put it on the table and stared. I stared and stared,then I was like "oh what the hell".I didn't say it that loud. I just...argh.I couldn't stand it anymore so I got a piece of foolscap paper and started sketching the Constantine logo. all greenish and stuff.Oh well.Can't be helped.I just hope my Eng/Lit can pull me up.It shouldn't be too difficult.Today's Lit paper was okay.Not too difficult.For some.Sigh.If I happen to fail Lit for some reason,I'll just...I'll just... ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
Today I went mad.During recess,I went to the bookshop to buy a penknife and two plasters.I was just..angry because of the math thing.So I bought it and well,I only had half of my sandwich for recess.I just wasn't hungry.Though I bought the brownie thingy.but ain't it a little expensive?I mean,I saw my money disappearing as fast as lightning! Okay maybe lightning is too fast.But still,well...since you guys managed to sell it all,maybe charge a little less next time? Think of the poor people.Sigh.even the canteen food is kinda...expensive. okok back to the point.So I actually abused the use of the penknife,yeah yeah whatever.I have exactly 11 cuts on my left hand.One extra one on the forth finger,don't know where it came from.So I was cutting during chinese and cme.I was just...bored and angry and stuff.So I cut.I was thinking more of the art knife stabbing in kind of thing but no,the art knife costs more so I just went with the darn penknife.Its quite a nice one actually.It actually has....colour and life.I mean..well..purple and white.not bad eh?so I cut my way through the last lesson of the day. sigh.
Punching doesn't really work for me.It hurts the cupboard. poor cupboard. LOL.
sigh.stupid math test.I HATE MATH!So much for our class getting a distinction. HA.unless I'm not part of the class,you can't say that. sigh. oh wells I'll end here for now. bye peeps. love xiu.

When She Said Yes.

Oh My God.
I went to watch Constantine again today.It seems to get better each time I watch it.Keanu Reeves seems to get cuter too. weird. Anyway I told myself on the way home to tell nothing but the truth.Oh well.I guess it did pay off.The timing for Constantine at EW cinemas was...4.30pm,so I went home kinda late.Well at least I didn't get punished much,cos I actually told the truth (a miracle).So yeah.My mom offered to buy me dinner and my dad offered me mango after that so,I guess its all okay.Telling the truth ain't that bad after all.I used to think that lying was more..well...I dunno.I used to think I can get away easily by lying my way through,but now I know,truth is always a better choice.On the way home,I kept holding on to the W.W.J.D. bracelet I had.I kept asking myself what Jesus would do.He would obviously tell nothing but the truth.So I did.And guess what!It had a happy end too. lolz.I'm lovin it!
And well my parents are drinking Carlsberg by the tellie. They're sharing one can and well,I drank abit too :D I was just curious.I mean I was wondering...if it really were that bitter,how can people enjoy it?So I decided to try.Its not too bad though.I dun feel a bit dizzy or anything.I'm feeling fine,in fact.haha.Well my mom cleared out my room today..I think with my dad.And well,they didn't mention anything about the $95 worth of ACS B funfair tix.They probably saw the block of wood too but they didn't mention anything about it either.Sigh. My dad didn't seem mad about it anyway so maybe its better if I didn't bring it up just in case he hasn't seen it..yet.
So I'm right here again,same time same place same...thing.Rabbit on the floor bored,I'm right here typing,my parents watching TV...I wonder what He has planned for me tomorrow.Sigh.
I'm kinda nervous.I'm afraid of getting back my Math paper just to see some words on em "Try Harder" or "Please See Me". Its been happening for years I know,but then again,nobody likes to fail.Sigh.I got back my Geog paper today all marked and stuff.I'm pretty surprised I actually managed to get a C. I thought I'd get a 10/40 or something but it turns out I just managed to pass.20/40.Not too happy with it though,but at least I passed my Geog...once.I know,the worst few papers for CA1 will be Chinese and Science.Really hopeless.I think for once my Math would actually be better than my Chinese,not that any one of those subjects are any easier than the other. Sigh.So well,lotsa people are falling for Keanu Reeves.Its not surprising,he really did look cute in Constantine.Its one of the best films so far.I feel like watching KungFu Hustle again. Argh,I hardly have the time nowadays.With the tests and choir practices and..well. stuff.Sigh.
Oh yeah,I got a deep cut on the forth finger on my left hand.It doesn't hurt at all.It was still..bleeding..but not much.There was a vein there too.I didn't feel any pain.I didn't know when or how I got it though.Its..weird.Very. Today.Mrs Tan said that the first half of our Eng Compre was okay.I think the first half was alot easier than the second.It was quite...deep.I don't know.But it seems to me that I'm not reading enough,although I read alot.Damn.people like me love Jacqueline Wilson books.They always have a happy and sad side,and alot of problems and stuff.And the stories...well...its quite similar to our everyday life,so its easy to understand.lolz.I didn't realise I've typed so much.I shall end here then. Bubbye people.Watch Constantine! -Xiu.
"Im Constantine.John Constantine,asshole." - Keanu Reeves [Constantine] Arghhh.

They Lit A Flame With The Match God Had Made...

Hi everyone.
My parents are currently out having dinner.All the way to Queenstown for dinner. Its crazy!
I didn't bother to go.I didn't want to.I don't like it there.So I just told them "I'm not going.Bye."
and I stayed sitting at the computer.I'm having my own dinner now.Vegetable soup and a big mug of chocolate milk.This is my kind of dinner.My rabbit is having his too,I think.Hold on I'll go check it out.No,it turns out he already finished his dinner and is lying down under the chair.What should I do now?I'm listening to 'One Last' by Taufik.I just finished my dinner.The chocolate milk and all.It was very balanced,with chicken and vegetables,and some milk.
I dreamt about Constantine last night.Its weird.It was sort of a nightmare but not that scary.I don't know.But it just wasn't the kind which made me wake up all sweaty.The dream.The dream was in a familiar place.I had all my thoughts mixed up so there were all kinds of characters there.I mean there were even people from Chinese films in my dream!So well,the place was kind of a Thompson Plaza-Takashimaya mix.Characters...Demons,animals,an irritating Chinese gay,my mom,some clerks,shoppers,and myself.It turned out I was the one killing demons.After each demon I got rid of,I looked into the mirror and saw someone beside me.Someone familiar.Someone with a blue-ish skin colour...I just can't remember who.I didn't finish the dream,but I know the last part was about the irritating Chinese gay chasing after me past a pet shop,doing gymnastics.It was so...weird.Mixed thoughts can be scary.I can actually remember which thought came from.I've probably watched too much of that Chinese show.I'll definately be watching Constantine again.I need to find out more.
"Im Constantine.John Constantine,asshole." -Keanu Reeves [Constantine]

They Won't Let Go,Its Beyond Their Control.

HALO!
today went to watch Constantine.
Keanu Reeves was cute!
ahem.
its kind of a sad show though. With suicide and stuff..and dying twice and going to hell.
well..and heaven
"The wager between heaven and hell is on earth"
yeah. LOL. He's cute!
anyway. I went alone actually. But so what? THE WHOLE DAMN CINEMA WAS FULL!
WOO HOO!
Looks like this movie's gonna be a big one this year. heh heh heh...
I feel like watchin it again! Its so cool.The effects and all.
Im eatin gum now. Chewing and chewing...Since just now actually.LOL cos I was bored so I just ate some gum and well...I think people can lose weight that way. I didn't finish my dinner cos chewing gum made me.. 'full'. well sorta.So I only ate about half my dinner (which i had to force down). I think thats a good way to lose weight yeah? Try it!
okok this thing is totally screwed.I'll end here yeahs. see ya'll tomorrow or smth! Luv Xiu

She'd Never Been Given The Chance

Hi everybody!
Im listening to "She Said Yes" now.Its a beautiful song about love that a couple won't let go.
sigh. so sad..and happy.okok Im lost. LOL
Boring.Drank coke.Rabbit on the floor sleeping..sorta.Dad on the phone with ...'grandma' LOL!
Mom watchin tv...some chinese show la. sigh.Im just...here. I have choir again tomorrow.Today was quite boring.Well as usual.I came at 7 sharp,I knew there wouldn't be enough time to run my 10 rounds for choir in the morning so I didn't run. sigh.It was a shame really.I was all decked out in my pe attire and ready to run...but I didn't have enough time.WHY IS IT ALWAYS ME?!
sigh.I think Im going to get scolded tomorrow during choir for not running enough.sigh.always getting scolded.IT REALLY WASN'T MY FAULT TODAY!!!There was a traffic jam and all.I mean not really traffic jam but just..traffic lights. ARGH!I LEFT THE HOUSE AT 6.30!!!! its not fair!I left the house quite early..and I get scolded because of the traffic jam.Okay I haven't been scolded yet but tomorrow...die. If I told Mrs Low that she'd probably scold me all the same. sigh.
why. why why?!?! why why tell me why?!No fair. Oh well.Today I wanted to watch Constantine..but ended up watching Hide And Seek instead cos Constantine's timings...not suitable la. So sara and I went with Hide And Seek.Its quite a...a...uhm. (no offence) lame movie.Cos its..about this guy whose wife died..and he went mad,sorta. And had double personality.One of a killer,the other as a dad.So his kid had to live with him after her mother died.And she made a new friend..Charlie.(The killer side) okok I wun spoil it for you guys. LOL
I still wanna watch Constantine!!! IT looks good. maybe. definately. well. ARGH. nitez love! -Xiu

My Love I Just Can't Hide.

Ha-lo!
Msn got prob.For me only I think lol. Smth about using an old version of msn. msn 6.2+msn plus very old meh. nonsense!
Msg for jie: miss yer!
ahem. as I was saying.
dels and I wokay alr la. LOL.
I feel like watching KungFu Hustle again. LOLLLLL.I just miss it.Cos the other day I was walking in TP,the underground pass thingy.There's a VCD shop there and I walked pass it la.I saw KungFu Hustle.I mean they were playing it.Losta people were there watching -.-"
Im drinking crysanthemum tea now.So lame!Well okay I finished it awhile ago. :D
So my rabbits circling me under the computer table,trying to lick me. wth. sigh.Boring without msn.I miss gina and dels.And melanie. sigh. sigh. sigh......I just realised.I learnt the "sigh" from my sister. lolllllllll.
Im bored. had a lousy dinner.Some porridge and fried egg...and some salted fish with black beans?Okok I didn't even touch the fish and beans. LOL.gave em to dad. -.- He likes it.
Sigh.Oh yeah.I found out stuff bout my mom. LOL the way she was last time.
years ago,she bought a hair styler for herself -.-" You know...the kind which styles...er. curl and straighten and stuff. lol.I called her vain-.-....Well I dun blame her though.After all,she used to have long hair too.Though I still can't believe it. lolz.
Sigh poor me.I play Runescape now.There's nothing else to play.Its kinda lame.I mean the characters are like...like..lego people? sigh.But its still okay.I mean,I still miss GB and all that.
But I still have this fear that I might "bump" into anybody I know online on GB so yeah.
I still play though.Im going this friday with gina.And lunch too.Dels wanna come along? :)
Im just sittin here now.My rabbit's on the floor. I mean like..It just flopped there. lolz
What should I do now?Play Runescape? -.-" wth.My parents are watching some TV program...which..which.ARGH!!!Its like...the people on TV are making abalone -.-"
I mean.Cooking. lolz. Something my parents enjoy. -.-
There's choir again tomorrow.Not that Im complaining >:)
LOL. On Thursday too.And on Saturday...at least Im free on Friday.I miss GB.
OKOK.I'll stop talking about that for now. lol.Bye now people! sigh. Love,Xiu.

Isn't She Lovely,Isn't She Wonderful?

Hey its a song!
Im in a funky mood tonight.LOL.So lame right. By right I should be drooping,a worried frown across my face.But ever since my dad told me about the VCD player,in our room in M'sia,I'm happy to go. YIPPEE! Cos I'll probably lock myself in,watching KungFu Hustle over and over. woo hoo! Maybe la.Or I'll be out in the garden. Sigh.I kinda dread trips to M'sia.Cos its like..I go there.I will be sad,bored,tired,all that.And RABBIT'S not coming along.how sad is that?!I'll miss it.Definately.I just hopes my brother FEEDS it.But my rabbit...It likes the taste of newspapers -.-" there's food there for it,it prefers to eat newspaper. weird rabbit I have.
ANYWAY.I did some training today. LOL. its VERY lame.I did 20 sec handstands,20 push ups guys style,20 sit ups,20 jumps,20 chair jumps,20 box jumps....veh lame one la.But the thing is..I din do stretches for splits and stuff. argh.must do tonight.Can't afford to go M'sia without..skills.lol.I kinda figured that martial arts need flexibility. so cool!
okok change subjects. you guys must be bored. lolz!
By the way. today dezi got prob. dunno why she angry with us for. its weird though.
lol Oh wells. boring day.I still have my room to pack and rabbit and hamster's cage to clean. Im such a sad case.But I gotta spend more time with rabbit!I'm gonna miss it so.
*sighs* Life is a road and I wanna keep going,Love is a river I wanna keep flowing...
okok Im just singing this song. Im so bored babbeh.I miss melanie. good old times. does she miss me? maybeh! [Do you,Mel?] sometimes im just sick of this world,people assuming this and that.Its all assumption and..and..Have you people ever hated someone to the core,but under all this hate,you still love the person to bits? --------------------yeah.---------------------
*Im suddenly standing at the beginning with you.* Good night people. Happy Chinese New Year,especially to *you. Love,Xiu.

All I Wanna Do Is Make You Mine.

hi.

stupid people. STUPID!!!!! LOL!
im quite sure steph wants to get me to lose as much as I can. she asked me to pay for the one lesson of tuition -.-" lame right? I know.
anyways.Sigh I have to say again man.I love ACS Br.The school dam nice!Its like got pool and all tt. and guess what?I got lost in there -.-"
The first time I went there was on April 16 2004 for a concert.Then the second time..was like. last week or so only? lolz. I love the school man.Anyway..had some stupid instant noodle thingy for lunch,and for dessert,had some canned fruit.Im so unhealthy. LOL
Mrs Tan,if you're reading this....you said something about us writing better on our blogs than in our compo.s? I think we'd fail. LOL cos we dun use proper english online. you know what I mean. :D
anyway my dad is currently out,collecting the car from some...car service thingy. sad.
I love being at home alone.Just my fish,my hamster,and I. lolz.Music Im listening to...One Last by Taufik Batisah. LOL. I love the book my sis bought for me.My second time reading it!Its called "Midnight" by Jacqueline Wilson.She's one fine writer. you guys should read more of her books. their good. :)
Boring afternoon.I feel like lifting my brother's weight thingys lol. its VERY boring.I might post more tonight if you're lucky. lolz. maybeh!My rabbit's sleeping under the chair. poor guy must be tired.SO SWEET! LOL.Oh well.I din go for the tuition today.I can't stand it anymore.The teacher. very bull**** one la ok.-.-" post more tonight people. Bye for now :p -Xiu <3

Baby When You Hold Me,Make Me Feel It.

and no,its not a pervy song.Its a song about love. so dun assume k :D
anyways. I HATE THE TUITION TEACHER DAMN IT!its all HER FAULT!
she badmouthed me? like wth! and then my dad shouted at me. damn. my rabbit got scared and ran under the chair. I just slammed my room door,leaving him to continue shouting outside. suipid tuition teacher. STUPID! who does she think she is? so great ah. she think she so good? she use all the methods i nvr see before one. wth. then she asked me to tell her the way I learnt ratio. then i explain then she tell me wrong. must do her way. wth right. she uses ways Ive never SEEN BEFORE IN MY BORING LIFE!dam her. tmr i have stupid old tuition again. if she badmouth me again behind my back to my father ah. she's gonna get it ok. damn her la.
all because of her,tt made my dad shout at me,tt made me cry in my room...cos. i mean how would you feel if your own father believes a stupid tuition teacher who tells lies about you,rather than believe his own daughter? you'd feel hurt right? damn her la. may she die early man.
Then I went to my room yesterday and started smashing the cupboard. stupid. all cos of her.
now my hand got one big bruise. tmr she badmouth me again I shall punch her la. stupid teacher. I dun understand,I even asked her to repeat another time leh. I DUN UNDERSTAND HER STUPID METHOD,THEN SHE COME AND TELL MY FATHER I NVR LISTEN. totally bullshit la.these kind of people dun deserve to live you know tt.They badmouth,and they assume stuff just because they dunno you well enough. like wth right.My dad just came out of his damn room and gave me a lecture.I care? no. the stupid tuition teacher did it all. then my dad still can say "she's trying to help you"
LIKE REAL LA. she badmouths you,is she helping? no. deserves to die la. next time I do tt to her. she deserves it. but no one will listen to me anyway.Gina thinks I left her in class with dels to finish the lit work on their own. like wth? I had to rush off for choir. cos on weds I have late day,so no matter how fast I rush there,Im always at least 5 mins late. so its like Mrs Low was already in the room? and lorna gave her our timetable,and Mrs Low let lorna and I have 10 mins for lunch. then I gobbled up my spaghetti. and then ah. I went to the drink stall right. with Lorna. then REGINA came down with STEPH and thought I left them on their own to finish up the damn work. then they accuse me. WTH LA. not my fault right? they dun have cca,I do ok. and they dun really care that much about their ccas anyway. they wanna pon,they will.
But i dun la.I love choir. why can't they understand? they just take one short glance at me,and they think that I left them on their own to finish the work all by themselves,and went to have lunch? listen. pls understand.Gina,you've known me for 8 years. how could you accuse me of smth not my fault?Think before you side anyone gina. thats all I can say. bye people. -Xiu.

To Hear You Say You Love Me,Like You Mean It.

Hey everybodeh!
Nice day I had today..until tuition time.IT SPOILT MY DAY PLS.*mutters smth*
stoopid tuition. use methods Ive NEVER SEEN BEFORE.serious. not anywhere leh!stupid teacher ah. no life one. then she teach me two times i also dun understand cos they use totally different methods. I told her I learnt it a different way she dun wanna listen. damn her.well to hell with her.Im never gna go to that tuition again,after the 3 more lessons.cus 4 lessons for 70 bucks. and its like ok la but if i dun learn anything,i might as well not pay right? lamer.stubborn.
stupid teacher.
ANYWAYS shall not talk about that lame tuition anymore. well I had an OK day.The only lesson I din like today was Math. ARGH.my math is so hopeless?U just have to take one look at my math and you know im hopeless. my rabbit is trying to lick my foot. LOL.its such a sweet rabbit.It can actually sense when Im angry or smth,then it will follow me arnd the hse and lick my foot. LOL so cute right.I have no idea how I managed to train it like that.Maybe it was just born smart LOL. dunno,but its so smart -.- smarter than me can already lolz.i can't believe it. im eating chocolate. LOL i just bit off the chocolate guy's head. so farnie. lolz! so lame.Today gina and I created 'sign languages' for afew words. LOL not rude ones anyway. just kinda nonsensical LOLZ.okok Im going on and on about my stupid day. I'll stop here kk. Takkare people. Luv u*

I Would Wait Until The End Of Time.

heyy. sigh.
today had quite a tiring day.but kinda happy now.
about 3 things tt made my day.
1)my compo chosen for some...competition thingy (sloppy work)
2)Ive mastered science,the chpter 2 thingy!(thanks miss teow!)
3)...dezi.
Today during chinese lesson,3 of *them were asked to go down for smth.I din know what it was at first.But i got to know about it soon after anyway. lolz.so *they went down...came back several times to take stuff..sometimes crying. sigh.So they were all kinda angry at our chinese teacher cos she..decided to send them out of chinese class..smth like tt.And well.....sigh. I mean who would want to feel unwanted?She had given up on them...but i could tell they still cared.Kinda.They wun be so angry if they din care.Its normal. this is life,what to do? :)
So I myself tt no matter what,I wun let them get out of class.Cos nobody's perfect.Nobody wants to be invisible and thrown aside like rubbish.And I wun let that happen.I told myself tt from today,I would listen in every class,boring or not.Because I really would suffer at the end.Ive thought about it.Sigh.A teacher's job is to make sure everyone understands.Teachers have to understand their students,or they really wun make it.Teachers...are people with skills,and their job is to pass on their skill to their students.They teach.Its the students' choice if they want to listen,to learn.But you can really tell tt they do,even if they shout back rude answers.They dun have to care at all.But they do.please understand,you were all like that once.teachers really are still kids inside.we all never want to be at the losing end.We want to win,therefore we do whatever it takes to win--being stubborn.Nobody is ever right or wrong.its just what people think.We were all created for a reason.Everyone has different weak points and strong ones.So we have to help one another.Accept others for who they are.Make a difference! :) bubbyes!<3>