Friday, January 1st 2010

Since midnight I've been receiving text messages wishing me a "Happy New Year".
What's so happy about it?

I guess I do feel a little relieved to put the past year behind me. After all, it was pretty awful, but it helped me learn a few things about myself. With that said, I have a fear that history is going to repeat itself.
My results will be released in two weeks, and I don't feel ready for it. I still want to do so many things, been practising and revising for my voice lessons, painting, writing more stories...

I don't know what's going to happen to me. I think my voice teacher wants me to study music, because she wants to talk to me about "where I'm going if I don't get into any of the schools here", and I'm also considering going overseas to study if I can't get into the courses I want here. My parents are strangely supportive about the overseas-studying. I feel a need to get far away from here, it's suffocating me.