Friday, July 3rd 2009

Wanted to upload a photo of Alan Cumming but unfortunately, there's something wrong with Blogger at the moment, so I can't upload it. Next time, then.

I didn't do any Math today. This is really worrying, because I've started to dislike Math again since I got a tutor. It's so frustrating, I don't even want to type about it. Instead, I spent the entire afternoon sorting out my room. I packed some drawers, re-arranged my CD collection and hung up my new notice boards, all on my own! I have 4 surrounding my bed now, and each one is stuck with different things.
The one right at my head is stuck with pictures and words I love. It's full of things closest to my heart. Another board is stuck with my exam schedule, aims, motivations and quotes from my heroes. The two new ones are going to be the Strength board and the Etc board. Strength board is going to be filled with things to remind not to give up. Part of the board dedicated to Charlie Chaplin, to remind me of what he went through and who he eventually became. Also, his tramp character always remains positive.
I quote Charlie Chaplin, "A tramp, a gentleman, a poet, a dreamer, a lonely fellow, always hopeful of romance and adventure."

As of now, I have 2 days to my 18th birthday. I don't feel quite ready yet, I think I'll put off the club-visiting and all that stuff for another 3 years. It's just that I don't want to be an adult, their world is a sad, sad place. It's full of pain, war and sex. There's nothing great about being an adult except being able to buy your own plane tickets.

I've been revisiting my past over the last few days. I just wanted to remember what it was like growing up. The past 4 years of my life has been recorded in my ipod, every song tells a story, every song takes me back to where I was at that point of time I heard it. So, I took some time to re-charge my ipod mini and listened to each song on the player, revisiting my past, every moment. I forced myself to listen to the most painful songs, most difficult. It was painful, but a relief. It's a comfort.