Monday, July 06, 2009
Monday, July 6th 2009
Didn't feel very well today, so spent most of my day sleeping. Had 9 hours of sleep last night, during which I had the most peculiar dream.
I dreamt I tried to kill myself six times. It was all quite real, I did it with a medium-sized steel blade. The first four times, I slit my throat, at the soft part below the chin. I did it not horizontally, but vertically, the blade travelling upwards. In my sleep, I could feel the blade slicing through the flesh at my throat. The pain was very sharp, and the blade was cold steel, a great contrast to the warm blood. The blood gushed upwards to my mouth, threatening to choke me.
The fifth time I tried to kill myself, I sliced through the veins in my left wrist. Perhaps it wasn't deep enough, because it didn't even go close to killing me. The sixth time, I sliced through the major artery under my left arm, where it adjoins the body. It's supposed to drain me in 2 minutes, but I didn't lose enough blood to die. I felt so disappointed in my dream. Why couldn't I die?!
Subscribe to:
Post Comments (Atom)
No comments:
Post a Comment