After spending the last few days in front of the television, I finally have the motivation to study again. Dad was out of the country for a while, so I watched whatever I wanted to watch, that I couldn't watch for a long time. It's really great to watch things in private. Good to laugh in private, cry in private, shout comments at the TV in private.
Total privacy!
I had to achieve a higher level of procrastination again, much like I did when I tried to study and work at the same time at the beginning of this year. Since working was like hell to me, I enjoyed studying and it became my comfort, and somewhat, relaxation, strange as it sounds. After I stopped working when my 3 months were up, I was happy, and could finally study in peace. All those months of work made me realise that I'd rather spend a lifetime studying than spend a month at some dead-end job, so I had my fuel. It went well until I finished an entire Sec 4 textbook in 5 months, cramming at least 3 years' worth of Math into my brain. Since I was never any good at Math (4/100!), it was like re-learning everything, and I'm darn proud of it now.
Anyway, after I finished that textbook, I slowed down a lot and lost my motivation. I've started on my second textbook, but haven't made much progress. Granted, I've been doing a lot of tuition work as well as TYS, but that's still no excuse. So, what I did these past few days was watch TV, film after film, programme after programme, until I got sick of it and started craving something else, something more wholesome and worthy of my time. Voila!
Went to Bugis library today after lunch, did my TYS and some bloody difficult ACS(I) prelim paper. Now I understand why they're always the kids getting into the top schools in the country. You'd never believe the standard of the paper, I wanted to rip it into confetti and throw a party with it.
Having spent a couple of hours slaving away at the ACS(I) paper, my TYS seemed relatively easy and I more or less breezed through it, so I'm not too upset. In fact, I'm pleased to say that I actually deserve to come online tonight.
My SS is still most worrying. It seems I can't stand SS so much that I can't bring myself to study it. I tried writing notes for it, and I can remember a lot, but it's not going well. I'm gonna try harder at it, at least get over the hate for now, until the exam is over, then I can hate again!
My Art is not going too well, but it's much better compared to SS, so you can more or less imagine how badly my SS is going.
On top of all this, I still have to transpose my exam music!!! (Not to mention, practise for the exam itself.) My brother is only willing to install it during the weekend, and I have a voice lesson tomorrow and Sunday, and I fear that my teacher will chop off my head for not transposing it. I need the computer programme to transpose it. If I did it by hand, goodness knows what might happen. I may compose a whole different piece altogether!
I'm hoping, though, that the programme is some cool thing that will allow me to compose music and listen to it being played by instruments. Electronic, but instruments nonetheless. It will be my outlet for stress after my voice exam, before and after my 'O's. I think it's quite a healthy outlet, as opposed to taking drugs or sniffing glue or whatever stupid things people do to relieve stress.
Watched "The Biggest Loser" again this evening, and I have inspiration and motivation to exercise again. The aim is to be fit, not thin, but if I should get thin while being/getting fit, so be it! Shall go for a jog again tomorrow after my voice lesson, I've been eating potato chips by the bag. Going rollerblading with Naz on Monday, she asked suddenly, so I agreed. Turns out she doesn't know how to rollerblade, but really wants to, so maybe I can teach her how, and learn something myself.
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