My evening was spent on the computer. Initially, I intended to go for a jog at Bishan Park, but it started to drizzle, so I stayed home and lazed about. I wiled away my time watching interviews of Alan Cumming and Ewan Mcgregor on Youtube, and the first quarter of the film "Four Weddings and a Funeral". Very British, I like the humour. Interesting character portrayal, too.
Alan Cumming and Ewan Mcgregor are two of my most liked celebrities. They're very frank and open, and comfortable with themselves. Ewan Mcgregor doesn't try to hide anything when he's being interviewed, and as for Alan Cumming, he's openly bisexual and comfortable with himself, his own body. Confidence is the key. Where on earth do they get it?!
That aside, I went to lunch with Dad today before I went to the library. While eating, he suddenly said, "your birthday is coming, you know right?"
What made him think I don't know my own birthday? I usually wait silently until people start to realise that it's approaching, to see if they remember. It's always nice to receive something I've been wanting for a long time, but my parents don't know that what I want most can't be bought with money.
All I want is for my family to be more supportive, more loving, less negative. I want Dad to be a calm, wise and happy old man, my Mom a cheerful, happy-go-lucky woman, less paranoid, and my brother less of a selfish jerk. My sister's all right, but maybe with less mood-swings. I wouldn't mind not having enough to eat or afford luxury items, I just want a supportive, loving family. Think Charlie Bucket. No wonder he loves his family so much.
Dad has been going out for mahjong sessions more often nowadays, almost every day. I'm a little worried, because I don't like gambling. I like gamblers even less.
I'll only ever gamble with my life, never with money.
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