Sunday, October 29, 2006

Sun,Oct 29 2006

Lover All Alone - Clay Aiken

Maybe I've convinced myself
I've really been in love
And I've been wrong all along

For all I know the feeling and the picture
That I've tried so hard to find
Isn't mine

Could be it's all just a waiting game
Want to share my everything

And on my own it's hard
To tell my heart it'll be alright
This love it holds
Will one day find a home
As hard as love can be
It's harder still it seems
To be a lover all alone without love

Picking up the pieces makes me wonder if
I only build it all to watch it fall
The faster it can go away it means
The less of me is gone to stay
And I'm okay

But lonesome tomorrow comes anyway
I'm alone for another day, another day

And on my own it's hard
To tell my heart it'll be alright
That this love it holds
Will one day find a home
As hard as love can be
It's harder still it seems
To be a lover all alone without love

And on my own it's hard
To tell my heart it'll be alright
That this love it holds
Will one day find a home
As hard as love can be
It's harder still it seems
To be a lover all alone without love
A lover all alone without love

Maybe I've convinced myself
I've really been in love
But I've been wrong along

Wednesday, October 25, 2006

Tuesday,October 24th 2006

Something I stole from Kathleen's blog and re-did.

#1 Single, taken or crushing?
Single and crushing,I guess.
#2 Are you happy with your life?
No.
#3 When you meet the right person, do you fall in love with him/her fast?
It depends.
#4 Have you ever had your heart broken?
Unintentionally.
#5 Do you believe that there are some circumstances where cheating love is acceptable?
No.
#6 Would you ever take someone back if he/she cheated on you?
It depends.
#7 Have you talked about marriage with another before?
Generally or what?
#8 Do you want children?
Yes!
#9 How many?
Ya lah follow Kathleen.Two?
#10 Would u consider adoption?
Yes!
#11 If somebody likes you right now, what do you think is the best way to let you know his/her feeling?
Put it in writing or typing.
#12 Do you enjoy getting into a relationship?
It depends on whom with.
#13 Be honest, what is the furthest you and your ex did before?
Hug.
#14 Do you believe in first love?
Yes.
#15 Do you believe that you can change someone?
Yes.
#16 Are you romantic?
How should I know?!
#17 If you could get married anywhere, where would it be?
Yeah,in a church.One of those grand,high-roofed ones with really great acoustics.
#18 Do you easily give in in fighting?
Not really.Depends.
#19 Have you wished that you could have someone but messed it up?
Yes.
#20 Do you have feelings for someone right now?
Sigh,yes.
#21 Have you ever broken a heart?
Yes...
#22 If one day your best friend falls in love with the guy/girl whom you are deepy in love with, what will you do?
I dunno.Wait till it happens then I'll decide.
#23 Are u missing someone now?
Yes :(

Bloody hell,I'm not going to force anyone else to do this.

Sunday, October 22, 2006

It don't matter if you're black or white.

Michael Jackson!I think his songs have a very dance-like beat.
Yes,I know,I know.I haven't blogged in ages.When was the last time?Sunday,July 23!!It's October already!
I can't believe the whole year has just zipped by,just like that.I've had some experiences,good and bad,yet I don't wanna leave this year behind.It's been a great year despite all the bad stuff.I mean,I wouldn't mind going through it all again because I've really had some good times.
I remember at the end of last year,I didn't want to leave IT behind because I enjoyed being sec 2.I couldn't stop time anyway.It stops for no mouse!So I came to sec 3.Now I can't bear to leave it behind.
This year has been my most memorable so far.I've really been through a lot this year and grown up abit,but not quite grown up yet.I can still be pretty childish at times,thankfully.I'm only 15!10 years later I'd look back on this and think how childish I was.I don't think I even have to wait 10 years to think that.Looking back on my first few posts on this blog 2 years ago,I'm thinking how childish I was in sec 1,but I can just laugh.
Everybody grows up sooner or later.
Learning to see things from a responsible adult's point of view is difficult,but I'll give it time.
People keep telling me to have fun,relax,for I'm still 15.
As childish as I can be,I have to know when to stop sometimes.People get irritated if you don't,and then you really get hammered,because they don't care if you're 15 or not.They expect more.
And then my 15 year-old friends can't stand me because I keep telling them to stop fooling around during lesson-time.What to do?Well,they don't really listen to me anyway.
One thing I've learnt this year is that you should do what you want to,knowing your limits.If there's a role model you really want to follow,make sure you don't go too far.People don't like a clone.However,you shouldn't always agree to what other people say,or do what they tell you to do,because you have your own voice.
It's an individual thing.
Argh,maybe my explanation wasn't very clear.
You guys will learn by yourselves as you grow,don't worry about it.