Some thoughts in the car on the way home from dinner @ Queenstown:
1)If you think a lot,technically,you'd learn something from everything you feel,see,touch,smell,taste.
When you start out as a child,you'd touch something and discover if it's smooth or rough.As you grow a little older,you start to wonder what's it made of.Then,you wonder why it's rough or smooth.
Feelings can teach you things.Causes and impacts,and why you are feeling that way.
The others are basic senses,with which you discover different sights,smells and tastes.
It's quite fascinating how curiosity develops more and more as people grow,how thoughts get deeper with each maturing step they take.
2)What's the limit of a human mind,or does it even have a limit?
For every person,there are two worlds.The one inside,and the one outside.For every 88 people,there are 89 worlds.No two people's inside worlds are exactly the same,like thumbprints.
Every person shares the world outside,but each and every person rules their own one inside.The world outside can be so boring,because after so many years,we have accustomed to routine.People wake up,brush their teeth,have breakfast,go to work,etc.
People in the world outside think it's crazy to do certain things,like trying wingless flight,or eating other people (Hannibal!),things like that.In the world inside,however,you can choose what to put there.People whom you don't want there,you can get rid of them.You can choose what you want to happen there,anything at all.
It's like dreaming,and nothing can hurt you in that world.
I had my 2.4km run at NYJC today.Thought it would be easier for me since I exercise regularly,but noooo.The first round seemed easy enough,but by the middle of the second round,I felt like I was dying,and what was most depressing was that I had 4 1/2 more rounds to go,and a time limit to fall under.My air passage closed up halfway so it was really difficult to breathe.The sweltering heat made me feel like my legs and feet were on fire,despite having socks and shoes on.They burned as if they were held over an open stove,I could almost imagine the orange-red flames dancing.
I had a goal to reach,and it was to get an A for my 2.4km run,which meant that I had to complete the run under 14.11mins.I felt like giving up halfway,but I pushed myself to the limit,coming up with reasons not to give up.It felt like total hell.I wasn't even told whether it was my last round or not,and when I ran past the group sitting at those large stone steps,they shouted some confusing stuff about me having finished my run,I was so flustered.I was furious at them for that,thinking that I missed my A because of it.However,Iffah told me I got my A.Isabel almost fainted or something,so Iffah helped me record my timing.I went to the group of PE teachers sitting not far away,asked for the standards of A.When I found out I really did get an A,I smiled to myself,glad that I finally reached my goal of getting 30 points Gold for my PFT.I never could do it,and for years I tried,but I probably only really made the effort this year.You know,extra stretching and training and stuff.
Now I'm aching every possible place in my body,even walking hurts now,but I'm happy and satisfied with what I've achieved.
Saturday, March 31, 2007
Friday, March 30, 2007
Friday,March 30th 2007
What a long long week it's been.
It's been so tiring,so many things have happened and I've been struggling to catch up with homework all week.
Lets tackle these things one by one.
1)IJ Superstar:
It was terribly scary to have to go first.I was usually happy to have someone else go first,you know,so the rest of us had an example to follow,if we wanted to.Then I was picked to go first,because I had to rush off to choir practice anyway,I almost died.I had to set the benchmark.
Tried to keep calm and all,the keeping calm part didn't go too badly,but I couldn't walk around and sing,it felt as if my feet were nailed to the floor and when I tried to move them,I couldn't,so I just stood there,almost frozen save for a little bit of swaying through the song.
Well,sing I did,got nice comments from people,but I didn't make it through anyway.The judges were Mr Bernard Chan and Ms Lu Wenshi.I guess that explains a lot.I walked out of there knowing I did my best,and I didn't sound bad,so that was fine.
Kinda upset that Tiffy didn't make it.I mean,she deserves it.Nice voice,suited for Chinese pop,I guess,but I didn't get to hear her sing when her turn came because like I said,I had to rush off to choir prac.
Maybe I'll give it a shot again next year,we'll see.
2)Choir SYF Auditions:
Yes!I did it!I was practically shaking by the time I got to the Performing Arts room after IJ Superstar.The climbing down 6 stories contributed to the massive abdominal cramp I got just before choir started.Could hardly walk,felt dizzy,it hurt when I breathed.You can almost imagine how much I suffered.I felt so terrible,I almost gave up on recovering in time for the auditions.However,I knew I had to go for the auditions if I wanted to sing in SYF,so I asked Amanda if I could grab a bite because I hadn't had lunch and was feeling dizzy.She said yes,so I took the sausage roll thingy that mom bought the day before,and sat outside the room eating it.Thankfully,there was a tall stool there beside the shoe rack for me to sit on.I did,and I had to cling onto the shoe rack with one arm to keep myself from falling.I ate with the other hand.
I started to get better as my tummy filled up with food.I didn't have time for lunch before IJ Superstar lah. It still hurt a bit by the time I went in,but I was much much better than before,so I went to sit with my group and got ready for the auditions.
Somehow I still felt so scared from the IJ Superstar experience,I didn't feel nervous about the choir SYF auditions at all!I just sorta breezed through it.Surprisingly,my group sounded pretty good.We sounded confident.At least in tune.Some groups ended on really terrible chords.
Anxiety can destroy a lot of things,I've learnt.
I've also learnt never to miss lunch before doing something that requires a lot of courage.
3) PFT (5 Items)
Another accomplishment!Last year,I was so mad at myself when I only got Gold 28 points.I've been getting that for years now,I don't want to sustain,I want to improve,so I really pushed myself to the limit this time.I made sure I planned my time properly.My class' slot was at 4pm,we had to assemble in the hall at 3.45pm.We ended lessons at 1.35pm.I really took my time.Had lunch,then went up to class to waste some time for the food to digest.I had a lor mai kai,a white lotus paste pau,and an orange for lunch.I was the lame person who passed time by changing the words that were written on the board by Mr Fausta Tan when he came in for SS lesson before.It was some stuff about "Healthcare in S'pore",and there was a lot of stuff about that written on it.We did a draft on answering the question.I changed the topic on the board to "Hathcae in pore",whatever that is/was.I just had to entertain myself.
At around 3.15pm,the people who were in class got stretching.I stretched and stretched and stretched.I couldn't afford to miss an A in "Sit and Reach" by 0.5cm again.What's worse is that last year I was younger so I had less to reach A.This year's is increased by a few cm.I had to reach 45cm.Stretched until it felt so easy to reach so far forward I couldn't bend anymore.Hurt,but I forced myself.My aim was to get an A in every item so I could get 30 points Gold,including my 2.4km.Then,we ran around the 3rd level once,and then went to the hall.
First station was sit-ups.I managed 40 in a minute,darn.Shall aim for 50 next year.One second is clearly enough for a sit-up.
I can't remember what came next,it was all a blur,so I'll just type out what I got.Managed to reach 49cm for "Sit and Reach",185cm for Standing Broad Jump,11.25 seconds for Shuttle Run (I hate that),and 29 for Inclined Pull-ups.I improved from 27,which was all I managed to do last year,but somehow it wasn't as satisfying as I hoped.I need to get into the 50 push-ups-a-day routine again soon.
I got all As,and it was all just such a beautiful blur.I was so happy.Then I walked to class to pack my bag,ready to go home.Watched the Guitar Ensemble play for awhile.I reached level 1 after climbing down the stairs,suddenly felt really terrible.
Went into the chapel,cried and cried.
It's been so tiring,so many things have happened and I've been struggling to catch up with homework all week.
Lets tackle these things one by one.
1)IJ Superstar:
It was terribly scary to have to go first.I was usually happy to have someone else go first,you know,so the rest of us had an example to follow,if we wanted to.Then I was picked to go first,because I had to rush off to choir practice anyway,I almost died.I had to set the benchmark.
Tried to keep calm and all,the keeping calm part didn't go too badly,but I couldn't walk around and sing,it felt as if my feet were nailed to the floor and when I tried to move them,I couldn't,so I just stood there,almost frozen save for a little bit of swaying through the song.
Well,sing I did,got nice comments from people,but I didn't make it through anyway.The judges were Mr Bernard Chan and Ms Lu Wenshi.I guess that explains a lot.I walked out of there knowing I did my best,and I didn't sound bad,so that was fine.
Kinda upset that Tiffy didn't make it.I mean,she deserves it.Nice voice,suited for Chinese pop,I guess,but I didn't get to hear her sing when her turn came because like I said,I had to rush off to choir prac.
Maybe I'll give it a shot again next year,we'll see.
2)Choir SYF Auditions:
Yes!I did it!I was practically shaking by the time I got to the Performing Arts room after IJ Superstar.The climbing down 6 stories contributed to the massive abdominal cramp I got just before choir started.Could hardly walk,felt dizzy,it hurt when I breathed.You can almost imagine how much I suffered.I felt so terrible,I almost gave up on recovering in time for the auditions.However,I knew I had to go for the auditions if I wanted to sing in SYF,so I asked Amanda if I could grab a bite because I hadn't had lunch and was feeling dizzy.She said yes,so I took the sausage roll thingy that mom bought the day before,and sat outside the room eating it.Thankfully,there was a tall stool there beside the shoe rack for me to sit on.I did,and I had to cling onto the shoe rack with one arm to keep myself from falling.I ate with the other hand.
I started to get better as my tummy filled up with food.I didn't have time for lunch before IJ Superstar lah. It still hurt a bit by the time I went in,but I was much much better than before,so I went to sit with my group and got ready for the auditions.
Somehow I still felt so scared from the IJ Superstar experience,I didn't feel nervous about the choir SYF auditions at all!I just sorta breezed through it.Surprisingly,my group sounded pretty good.We sounded confident.At least in tune.Some groups ended on really terrible chords.
Anxiety can destroy a lot of things,I've learnt.
I've also learnt never to miss lunch before doing something that requires a lot of courage.
3) PFT (5 Items)
Another accomplishment!Last year,I was so mad at myself when I only got Gold 28 points.I've been getting that for years now,I don't want to sustain,I want to improve,so I really pushed myself to the limit this time.I made sure I planned my time properly.My class' slot was at 4pm,we had to assemble in the hall at 3.45pm.We ended lessons at 1.35pm.I really took my time.Had lunch,then went up to class to waste some time for the food to digest.I had a lor mai kai,a white lotus paste pau,and an orange for lunch.I was the lame person who passed time by changing the words that were written on the board by Mr Fausta Tan when he came in for SS lesson before.It was some stuff about "Healthcare in S'pore",and there was a lot of stuff about that written on it.We did a draft on answering the question.I changed the topic on the board to "Hathcae in pore",whatever that is/was.I just had to entertain myself.
At around 3.15pm,the people who were in class got stretching.I stretched and stretched and stretched.I couldn't afford to miss an A in "Sit and Reach" by 0.5cm again.What's worse is that last year I was younger so I had less to reach A.This year's is increased by a few cm.I had to reach 45cm.Stretched until it felt so easy to reach so far forward I couldn't bend anymore.Hurt,but I forced myself.My aim was to get an A in every item so I could get 30 points Gold,including my 2.4km.Then,we ran around the 3rd level once,and then went to the hall.
First station was sit-ups.I managed 40 in a minute,darn.Shall aim for 50 next year.One second is clearly enough for a sit-up.
I can't remember what came next,it was all a blur,so I'll just type out what I got.Managed to reach 49cm for "Sit and Reach",185cm for Standing Broad Jump,11.25 seconds for Shuttle Run (I hate that),and 29 for Inclined Pull-ups.I improved from 27,which was all I managed to do last year,but somehow it wasn't as satisfying as I hoped.I need to get into the 50 push-ups-a-day routine again soon.
I got all As,and it was all just such a beautiful blur.I was so happy.Then I walked to class to pack my bag,ready to go home.Watched the Guitar Ensemble play for awhile.I reached level 1 after climbing down the stairs,suddenly felt really terrible.
Went into the chapel,cried and cried.
Tuesday, March 27, 2007
Tuesday,March 27th 2007
RUBBISH!!!
I feel like rubbish.So much homework to do.Also,dad "offered" to sit with me and do Math for an hour everyday.Actually,it's as good as death.
I'd rather die than sit with him and do Math for an hour everyday.I tried doing Math with him before,I couldn't survive a week of it.Awhile (one word or two?) of doing Math with him could make we crack.
I absolutely refuse to sit with him and do Math,even though it's nice of him to want to sacrifice his time for me.
It always ends in tears.
IJ Superstar semi-final rounds are tomorrow.I wonder if people will be allowed into the Dance Studio to watch?Most of me prays that people won't be allowed in,so as to save me the embarrassment if I don't sound good tomorrow.The acoustics there might suck.
You know,I don't think I'll care very much about whether I'd gotten past the semi-finals or not.I wanna walk out of that room knowing that I sounded good,and that I tried my best.
If they don't like it,they can jolly well kick me out.
Like I said,the people who said things were mostly the ones who didn't know a thing about singing.
Wish me luck! :)
I feel like rubbish.So much homework to do.Also,dad "offered" to sit with me and do Math for an hour everyday.Actually,it's as good as death.
I'd rather die than sit with him and do Math for an hour everyday.I tried doing Math with him before,I couldn't survive a week of it.Awhile (one word or two?) of doing Math with him could make we crack.
I absolutely refuse to sit with him and do Math,even though it's nice of him to want to sacrifice his time for me.
It always ends in tears.
IJ Superstar semi-final rounds are tomorrow.I wonder if people will be allowed into the Dance Studio to watch?Most of me prays that people won't be allowed in,so as to save me the embarrassment if I don't sound good tomorrow.The acoustics there might suck.
You know,I don't think I'll care very much about whether I'd gotten past the semi-finals or not.I wanna walk out of that room knowing that I sounded good,and that I tried my best.
If they don't like it,they can jolly well kick me out.
Like I said,the people who said things were mostly the ones who didn't know a thing about singing.
Wish me luck! :)
Thursday, March 22, 2007
Thursday,Mar 22 2007
How do you find joy in telling the truth when people think that everything you say is a lie?
Monday, March 19, 2007
Monday,March 19th 2007
I wish I had Celine Dion's voice.
When she hits certain notes,her voice just rings in this wonderfully pleasant way.I love her singing in "I'm Alive".The only thing in it I have to pick at is when she hits this long,high note on "my life",her placement changes and you can hear it so clearly.Darn,if only she didn't change her placement in the middle of that note.Must remind myself never to do that sort of thing.
Thanks,WY,for getting me the songs I wanted.
Ahh,still panicking.I haven't found someone who can remove vocals from a song,making it a minus-one track.Went to bed at around 12 midnight after watching a short DVD.Couldn't sleep."Woke up" tired this morning,but I survived the day.Terrible terrible day.
I still can't bring myself to show my parents my report book.I mean,yes,I finally passed Chinese,but that was only one of the many Chinese tests I took,and that was the only one I managed to pass,if only by 2 marks.In my report book,it's shown that I only passed 3 subjects.Dude.I wish they added the Physics/Bio marks into the combined Science marks.Can't remember which one they left out,but they did for one.I failed by a little for Art and Science.Damn it.
Passed 3 subjects,but that's only because Ms Kalpana allowed us to bring it home to re-do,and she keyed in those marks we got after we re-did it.Chinese,well,I didn't even know we were taking a CA.There was a Chinese test every week,so I guess they picked the one with the best results achieved generally.
If you don't count those two,I'd have only passed one subject-English.
I guess you could say that it's my fall-back subject.You know,like a cushion at the bottom of a pit in which I'll fall,if I ever.However,it's not as if my English is terrific.
People don't care about how hard it is for you to get there,they only want to see good results.They don't know how difficult it is,going up a notch.Suddenly you're forced to work a lot harder,and regardless of how hard you work,your grades start to slip because you came from the notch below.Watching your own grades drop,you start to feel hopeless because everyone around you is that notch higher.Your parents don't understand that either.They just want to see the same results you achieved when you were that notch lower.If your grades have become borderline,they assume you've become so much worse acadamically.See how it works now?
It's like that time my choir got a silver medal at the Choir Olympics 2006.
We've always been a "gold" choir,you see,at least for a while.Mrs Low always mentioned the gold medals whenever something about us was (being) announced.She's very proud of the golds.It's a reputation thing,you know?
When we came back with a silver medal in July 2006,I could hear the voices.Sneers.Smirks.Glares.
The girls at school were saying things.
You see,we were a "gold" choir.Having suddenly gotten a silver,it seemed as if we dropped a level.People don't care how a big deal that silver is to us,people don't care how much work it took to get there,they don't care how difficult that competition is/was.They just want to see the gold medal.
What gets to me most is that the people who said things,majority of them didn't know about singing.
Oh,yes,singing.What,pop songs?
Sure.
When she hits certain notes,her voice just rings in this wonderfully pleasant way.I love her singing in "I'm Alive".The only thing in it I have to pick at is when she hits this long,high note on "my life",her placement changes and you can hear it so clearly.Darn,if only she didn't change her placement in the middle of that note.Must remind myself never to do that sort of thing.
Thanks,WY,for getting me the songs I wanted.
Ahh,still panicking.I haven't found someone who can remove vocals from a song,making it a minus-one track.Went to bed at around 12 midnight after watching a short DVD.Couldn't sleep."Woke up" tired this morning,but I survived the day.Terrible terrible day.
I still can't bring myself to show my parents my report book.I mean,yes,I finally passed Chinese,but that was only one of the many Chinese tests I took,and that was the only one I managed to pass,if only by 2 marks.In my report book,it's shown that I only passed 3 subjects.Dude.I wish they added the Physics/Bio marks into the combined Science marks.Can't remember which one they left out,but they did for one.I failed by a little for Art and Science.Damn it.
Passed 3 subjects,but that's only because Ms Kalpana allowed us to bring it home to re-do,and she keyed in those marks we got after we re-did it.Chinese,well,I didn't even know we were taking a CA.There was a Chinese test every week,so I guess they picked the one with the best results achieved generally.
If you don't count those two,I'd have only passed one subject-English.
I guess you could say that it's my fall-back subject.You know,like a cushion at the bottom of a pit in which I'll fall,if I ever.However,it's not as if my English is terrific.
People don't care about how hard it is for you to get there,they only want to see good results.They don't know how difficult it is,going up a notch.Suddenly you're forced to work a lot harder,and regardless of how hard you work,your grades start to slip because you came from the notch below.Watching your own grades drop,you start to feel hopeless because everyone around you is that notch higher.Your parents don't understand that either.They just want to see the same results you achieved when you were that notch lower.If your grades have become borderline,they assume you've become so much worse acadamically.See how it works now?
It's like that time my choir got a silver medal at the Choir Olympics 2006.
We've always been a "gold" choir,you see,at least for a while.Mrs Low always mentioned the gold medals whenever something about us was (being) announced.She's very proud of the golds.It's a reputation thing,you know?
When we came back with a silver medal in July 2006,I could hear the voices.Sneers.Smirks.Glares.
The girls at school were saying things.
You see,we were a "gold" choir.Having suddenly gotten a silver,it seemed as if we dropped a level.People don't care how a big deal that silver is to us,people don't care how much work it took to get there,they don't care how difficult that competition is/was.They just want to see the gold medal.
What gets to me most is that the people who said things,majority of them didn't know about singing.
Oh,yes,singing.What,pop songs?
Sure.
Friday, March 16, 2007
Friday,March 16th 2007
Another terrible day,but I really don't want to type about it.
Only that I went for Chinese supplementary lessons this morning at school.Turned out 2 girls couldn't make it,so there were only Rebecca,Lao Shi and I.The only thing comforting about the lesson was when Lao Shi told me that "ting xie" won't be next week because it's Sports Day on Thurs.That gives me another week to study.How come everything is being postponed all of a sudden?IJ Superstar has also been postponed.
Man,everyone should be so excited about Sports Day.We'll all be roasting,squashed together and made to cheer until our throats are sore.If you didn't already know,if you're a singer,losing your voice is the worst thing ever.
Some thoughts:
Wouldn't the world be a nicer place if we all never grew up?I wish Adam and Eve hadn't eaten from that tree.If not for them,we'd still be little children running around the garden.
Children are so innocent.Most of them don't know what's right or wrong,so they just go around doing things so innocently,you can't even bear to punish them.When you're a child,the world is your playground.Anything can be your playground.I remember when I was little,I used to turn a chair over and climb over and under it,it was fun.
Being a child also means that one can escape/be excused from the responsibility an adult has to carry.You know how growing up is.All the bad things come flooding into your life,all just because you're getting to be an adult.People dump responsibility on you,regardless of whether you're ready or not.All the right and wrongs are more understandable,more distinguished,all because you're getting smarter,more mature.
What a curse.Adults have been alive for far too long.They get bored with their own lives so they start fiddling with yours.
If only we could all die by the age of 16.That's not even innocent enough.We won't even be children anymore.
I was walking to Borders from Orchard MRT station today.This little girl and her father were walking infront of me.The little girl was carrying a little furry giraffe backpack,complete with a giraffe keychain.She kept looking back at me,I don't know why.Maybe she was from some primary IJ,and I was wearing my uniform.
I thought about how little kids could get away with almost everything.Even carrying that backpack.You know how little kids always look so cute,whatever they do/say or whatever they wear?You also know once that little girl grows older,she won't be able to wear that backpack anymore.Society is so bloody cruel.
That little girl would be insulted,picked on,teased mercilessly by her peers if they saw her carrying it.Rumours would spread like wildfire.Just for carrying that little backpack,she might even get beaten up by older kids.
She'd grow up fearing everything,everyone,because kids aren't strong enough to withstand this kind of pressure.Kids were not made that way.Adults were not made that way either.She wouldn't just wake up one day and say/decide "I'm not going to be bullied anymore" because it wouldn't come true,even if she starts carrying a normal backpack.Her peers would just go up to her and ask "where's your little furry giraffe backpack,little girl?"
She'd be scarred for life,all because of a little furry giraffe backpack.
Now you know how cruel society is.
Only that I went for Chinese supplementary lessons this morning at school.Turned out 2 girls couldn't make it,so there were only Rebecca,Lao Shi and I.The only thing comforting about the lesson was when Lao Shi told me that "ting xie" won't be next week because it's Sports Day on Thurs.That gives me another week to study.How come everything is being postponed all of a sudden?IJ Superstar has also been postponed.
Man,everyone should be so excited about Sports Day.We'll all be roasting,squashed together and made to cheer until our throats are sore.If you didn't already know,if you're a singer,losing your voice is the worst thing ever.
Some thoughts:
Wouldn't the world be a nicer place if we all never grew up?I wish Adam and Eve hadn't eaten from that tree.If not for them,we'd still be little children running around the garden.
Children are so innocent.Most of them don't know what's right or wrong,so they just go around doing things so innocently,you can't even bear to punish them.When you're a child,the world is your playground.Anything can be your playground.I remember when I was little,I used to turn a chair over and climb over and under it,it was fun.
Being a child also means that one can escape/be excused from the responsibility an adult has to carry.You know how growing up is.All the bad things come flooding into your life,all just because you're getting to be an adult.People dump responsibility on you,regardless of whether you're ready or not.All the right and wrongs are more understandable,more distinguished,all because you're getting smarter,more mature.
What a curse.Adults have been alive for far too long.They get bored with their own lives so they start fiddling with yours.
If only we could all die by the age of 16.That's not even innocent enough.We won't even be children anymore.
I was walking to Borders from Orchard MRT station today.This little girl and her father were walking infront of me.The little girl was carrying a little furry giraffe backpack,complete with a giraffe keychain.She kept looking back at me,I don't know why.Maybe she was from some primary IJ,and I was wearing my uniform.
I thought about how little kids could get away with almost everything.Even carrying that backpack.You know how little kids always look so cute,whatever they do/say or whatever they wear?You also know once that little girl grows older,she won't be able to wear that backpack anymore.Society is so bloody cruel.
That little girl would be insulted,picked on,teased mercilessly by her peers if they saw her carrying it.Rumours would spread like wildfire.Just for carrying that little backpack,she might even get beaten up by older kids.
She'd grow up fearing everything,everyone,because kids aren't strong enough to withstand this kind of pressure.Kids were not made that way.Adults were not made that way either.She wouldn't just wake up one day and say/decide "I'm not going to be bullied anymore" because it wouldn't come true,even if she starts carrying a normal backpack.Her peers would just go up to her and ask "where's your little furry giraffe backpack,little girl?"
She'd be scarred for life,all because of a little furry giraffe backpack.
Now you know how cruel society is.
Tuesday, March 13, 2007
Tuesday,March 13th 2007
"Hannibal Rising" was absolutely awesome.
Didn't enquire about age restrictions with other cinemas,so I watched it at Eng Wah,TPEC branch.Yesss!It was the perfect movie.My first NC 16 movie.I also see why it's rated NC 16.
I mean,it had History and everything!
I still don't understand why critics give/gave it such a low rating.
Who would've thought that hatred could do so much?Love is such a dangerous thing.Poor Hannibal.
Didn't enquire about age restrictions with other cinemas,so I watched it at Eng Wah,TPEC branch.Yesss!It was the perfect movie.My first NC 16 movie.I also see why it's rated NC 16.
I mean,it had History and everything!
I still don't understand why critics give/gave it such a low rating.
Who would've thought that hatred could do so much?Love is such a dangerous thing.Poor Hannibal.
Sunday, March 11, 2007
Sunday,March 11th 2007
Help!
I've been trying to remember something my choir conductor said a few days ago.Something meaningful,but I can't remember what it was!
Hopefully,it'll come back soon.
Lets see...Sarah Ho wants me to go to school at 10.30am tomorrow for some senior peer thingy in her leadership camp.It was nice of her to ask,but why me?!I'm in no position to judge her,she's a prefect and I'm just about...of no good status whatsoever.I'm afraid that maybe some teachers who hated me would be there tomorrow and wonder "why on earth is she here",you know.It's just so horrible,but I'm gonna do it for her.
How come people are suddenly asking me things?
For instance,take Fionn's birthday party thingy.It's unbelievable I got invited.I can't even remember the last time I got invited to someone's birthday party.
Argh,I hope Singapore imports the "Hannibal Rising" paperback soon.I don't think I can afford to pay $32 for the hardcover.I'm getting poorer by the day.
Slept at around 1am this morning,woke up at 10+,had to pee.Felt tired,so thought I'd go back to sleep till 10.30am when my alarm was set to ring.Was so tired,switched off my alarm when it rang and slept till 2.30pm+.Idled around all day,watched another disc of "The Simpsons".
What an unproductive day it's been.
I've been sneezing more than usual,maybe I'm coming down with something.I can't afford to,semi-finals are coming soon!!!
I've been trying to remember something my choir conductor said a few days ago.Something meaningful,but I can't remember what it was!
Hopefully,it'll come back soon.
Lets see...Sarah Ho wants me to go to school at 10.30am tomorrow for some senior peer thingy in her leadership camp.It was nice of her to ask,but why me?!I'm in no position to judge her,she's a prefect and I'm just about...of no good status whatsoever.I'm afraid that maybe some teachers who hated me would be there tomorrow and wonder "why on earth is she here",you know.It's just so horrible,but I'm gonna do it for her.
How come people are suddenly asking me things?
For instance,take Fionn's birthday party thingy.It's unbelievable I got invited.I can't even remember the last time I got invited to someone's birthday party.
Argh,I hope Singapore imports the "Hannibal Rising" paperback soon.I don't think I can afford to pay $32 for the hardcover.I'm getting poorer by the day.
Slept at around 1am this morning,woke up at 10+,had to pee.Felt tired,so thought I'd go back to sleep till 10.30am when my alarm was set to ring.Was so tired,switched off my alarm when it rang and slept till 2.30pm+.Idled around all day,watched another disc of "The Simpsons".
What an unproductive day it's been.
I've been sneezing more than usual,maybe I'm coming down with something.I can't afford to,semi-finals are coming soon!!!
Saturday, March 10, 2007
Saturday,March 10th 2007
Oh,I get to blog again!The bliss...
I feel terribly exhausted but I'm determined to post an entry.
I've been pretty busy,I don't quite know what's going on.Was stoning a little during choir today because I didn't get enough sleep last night.Choir got scolding,and then when my neck got painful and I had to let it relax and flop down,someone said something about "the people who are really paying attention are the ones who are looking up and listening".
Darn.Wrong timing.
After choir,Kat had to rush home for tuition,poor her.I waited for Gerv,she had to stay back for comm. meeting.Ended up eating really good chicken rice in Toa Payoh with some comm. members.I can't believe the people whom with I was eating are leaving in a few months,some even less.I can't believe I'll be the only Sec 5 there next year.The oldest kid in choir.I can't believe I'll be alone all over again.
This is probably worse.I'd be alone in choir, too.
After I got home I had my shower,then I wasted the rest of the day watching part of the sixth season of "The Simpsons".I couldn't even complete the 2nd disc because I was too tired.Here I am blogging now.
I am gonna sleep so well tonight.
I went to AMK and TP's Eng Wah cinemas today to find out about the age restrictions.Gosh,I even stuttered to the people at the counter.I asked if I would be allowed into NC16 movies if I'm turning 16 later this year.They said I'd be allowed because they go by year.As long as I was born in 1991.Cool.
I absolutely can't wait to watch "Hannibal Rising".Should I watch it by myself?I don't know if I prefer peace while watching movies or not.Don't like people insulting my tastes,esp in movies and such.
I just remembered I have to attend Fionn's birthday party on Wednesday night!I have choir on that day which ends at 4.30pm.Do'h!
I'm thinking of how to rush to and fro.
Gosh,I'm so tired,I barely know what I'm typing about.
Oh,I forgot to type about my dinner tonight.Mom ordered Pizza Hut home delivery,which was/were(I'm so tired,I can't tell which one to use) 2 regular pan pizzas,baked chicken meatballs,honey glazed chicken ribs..and she made soup.You know,the Campbell chicken soup.I ate about 3-4 slices of pizza,half a bowl of soup,one rib,3 meatballs...A little Shandy.Gosh,I ate like a monster.LOL,I felt like I hadn't eaten in years,I ate like there was no tomorrow.Ate ate ate,but there were still leftovers in the end.
Oh well.
I feel terribly exhausted but I'm determined to post an entry.
I've been pretty busy,I don't quite know what's going on.Was stoning a little during choir today because I didn't get enough sleep last night.Choir got scolding,and then when my neck got painful and I had to let it relax and flop down,someone said something about "the people who are really paying attention are the ones who are looking up and listening".
Darn.Wrong timing.
After choir,Kat had to rush home for tuition,poor her.I waited for Gerv,she had to stay back for comm. meeting.Ended up eating really good chicken rice in Toa Payoh with some comm. members.I can't believe the people whom with I was eating are leaving in a few months,some even less.I can't believe I'll be the only Sec 5 there next year.The oldest kid in choir.I can't believe I'll be alone all over again.
This is probably worse.I'd be alone in choir, too.
After I got home I had my shower,then I wasted the rest of the day watching part of the sixth season of "The Simpsons".I couldn't even complete the 2nd disc because I was too tired.Here I am blogging now.
I am gonna sleep so well tonight.
I went to AMK and TP's Eng Wah cinemas today to find out about the age restrictions.Gosh,I even stuttered to the people at the counter.I asked if I would be allowed into NC16 movies if I'm turning 16 later this year.They said I'd be allowed because they go by year.As long as I was born in 1991.Cool.
I absolutely can't wait to watch "Hannibal Rising".Should I watch it by myself?I don't know if I prefer peace while watching movies or not.Don't like people insulting my tastes,esp in movies and such.
I just remembered I have to attend Fionn's birthday party on Wednesday night!I have choir on that day which ends at 4.30pm.Do'h!
I'm thinking of how to rush to and fro.
Gosh,I'm so tired,I barely know what I'm typing about.
Oh,I forgot to type about my dinner tonight.Mom ordered Pizza Hut home delivery,which was/were(I'm so tired,I can't tell which one to use) 2 regular pan pizzas,baked chicken meatballs,honey glazed chicken ribs..and she made soup.You know,the Campbell chicken soup.I ate about 3-4 slices of pizza,half a bowl of soup,one rib,3 meatballs...A little Shandy.Gosh,I ate like a monster.LOL,I felt like I hadn't eaten in years,I ate like there was no tomorrow.Ate ate ate,but there were still leftovers in the end.
Oh well.
Thursday, March 08, 2007
Thursday,March 8th 2007
I'm finding more and more comfort in blogging nowadays.
You know,knowing that some people actually do read my blog.Thanks to those people.
Going for choir in the morning @ 8.30am tomorrow,and to a concert at night @ VCH.I hope I won't forget to bring Kathleen's ticket as well as my own.
Just took a look at Xueli and Daphne's English blog project,some points in the first post were repeated several times,but it was thoughtful.I never knew Xueli's name was "Tracy".
Today hadn't (hasn't?) been bad.Much much better than Tuesday.Maybe this is God's way of apologising.I remember complaining to Him about how bad Tuesday was.
Guess what His apology was?
I got past the auditions,am going into semi-finals!
Am trying not to get too happy,because it'll only hurt more when I get kicked out next round.I'm pretty sure,because clearly I'm not the best singer around.
When my friends came to tell me "bad news" during recess,I thought I was doomed for sure.I don't know...My mind ran wild.Thoughts like "Oh no,I didn't make it.This competition is harder than I thought,,they chose really good singers" went through my mind.I tried not to show my fear,though.Imagine what it would've been like if I really didn't get in?Mention of "bad news" got me so worked up already.
Thankfully,they were just joking.Some of them couldn't keep their faces straight anymore,so they blurted out ,"you got in!".At first,I thought they were really joking.How could I have gotten in?My audition wasn't bad,but it certainly wasn't good either.I said,"Are you serious?",and I went to look for myself.I was hoping so much Tiffy would get in,was so relieved when I saw her name below mine on that list.No,the names were just arranged according to what our queue numbers were,nothing to do with how well we sang.
She sang well,I was eavesdropping when she did her audition.LOL.
I'm hoping I can get my hands on some kind of music-editing software soon so I can edit out the artist's singing.They will disqualify us if we don't provide the minus-one or tracks without the original artist's singing for the semi-finals and finals.If I really can't,I hope Justina can help me.Heard from Belnice that she's good at that kinda thing.
Rebecca was even more excited for me than I was when she heard the news about me getting past the auditions.It was nice to know she's happy for me.Thanks,Becca.I appreciate it a lot.
A few other good things happened today,but I'm not going to type about them.I just don't feel like.
Seeing my name on that list suddenly made me feel like I have/had a status.You know,accomplishing something.Getting to that level shows people that you've met the requirements,at least for that level.
Becca was going,"Xiulin!You can sing!"
Even good days have/has it's bad sides.
When I told Dad about getting past the auditions,he didn't express any emotion,nor did he say anything at all.No "congratulations!" or "well done".He just kept his eyes on the road,remained silent until he asked me if I have had lunch yet.
How come parents just can't be happy with what their children are good at?He hates my CCA,and he says I read too much.
You know,knowing that some people actually do read my blog.Thanks to those people.
Going for choir in the morning @ 8.30am tomorrow,and to a concert at night @ VCH.I hope I won't forget to bring Kathleen's ticket as well as my own.
Just took a look at Xueli and Daphne's English blog project,some points in the first post were repeated several times,but it was thoughtful.I never knew Xueli's name was "Tracy".
Today hadn't (hasn't?) been bad.Much much better than Tuesday.Maybe this is God's way of apologising.I remember complaining to Him about how bad Tuesday was.
Guess what His apology was?
I got past the auditions,am going into semi-finals!
Am trying not to get too happy,because it'll only hurt more when I get kicked out next round.I'm pretty sure,because clearly I'm not the best singer around.
When my friends came to tell me "bad news" during recess,I thought I was doomed for sure.I don't know...My mind ran wild.Thoughts like "Oh no,I didn't make it.This competition is harder than I thought,,they chose really good singers" went through my mind.I tried not to show my fear,though.Imagine what it would've been like if I really didn't get in?Mention of "bad news" got me so worked up already.
Thankfully,they were just joking.Some of them couldn't keep their faces straight anymore,so they blurted out ,"you got in!".At first,I thought they were really joking.How could I have gotten in?My audition wasn't bad,but it certainly wasn't good either.I said,"Are you serious?",and I went to look for myself.I was hoping so much Tiffy would get in,was so relieved when I saw her name below mine on that list.No,the names were just arranged according to what our queue numbers were,nothing to do with how well we sang.
She sang well,I was eavesdropping when she did her audition.LOL.
I'm hoping I can get my hands on some kind of music-editing software soon so I can edit out the artist's singing.They will disqualify us if we don't provide the minus-one or tracks without the original artist's singing for the semi-finals and finals.If I really can't,I hope Justina can help me.Heard from Belnice that she's good at that kinda thing.
Rebecca was even more excited for me than I was when she heard the news about me getting past the auditions.It was nice to know she's happy for me.Thanks,Becca.I appreciate it a lot.
A few other good things happened today,but I'm not going to type about them.I just don't feel like.
Seeing my name on that list suddenly made me feel like I have/had a status.You know,accomplishing something.Getting to that level shows people that you've met the requirements,at least for that level.
Becca was going,"Xiulin!You can sing!"
Even good days have/has it's bad sides.
When I told Dad about getting past the auditions,he didn't express any emotion,nor did he say anything at all.No "congratulations!" or "well done".He just kept his eyes on the road,remained silent until he asked me if I have had lunch yet.
How come parents just can't be happy with what their children are good at?He hates my CCA,and he says I read too much.
Tuesday, March 06, 2007
Tuesday,6th March 2007
Have you ever cracked under pressure?
It's been quite a terrible day.No,not because of the auditions.They went fine.Today had been terrible because of 2 experiences.
Ms Ho yelled at me again.Not sure if she considers that yelling but I almost went deaf.What she yelled hurt me more.It's funny when something you say so easily and casually can hurt someone so much.
I almost yelled back at her.
The one thing she yelled that stuck in my mind was/is "What do you want,Xiulin?",that was a question,really asking about what I want(ed?) in life or in Art.
To tell you guys the truth,I don't really know the answer to that question myself.Of course,everyone has hopes and dreams,but not everyone achieves/reaches them.Nowadays,you almost can't do anything without good academic results.It's as if the world depends on academics now.
People tell you you'll become a nobody without good results.People think you're not smart enough,etc.
If you know me well enough,you'd know that I'm not strong academically.Not at all,actually.Don't count English,that's a "cheat" subject,not that I'm good at it anyway.Things like Math I can't seem to pass.My current ambition requires a certain level of academic qualification(s?),so without good results,I can't get what I want even if I want(ed?) it.
Second experience made me crack.No,it was definitely not as bad as the first experience.I don't even know why it made me crack.I guess I just can't stand people yelling at me.
I went out of my room in the middle of doing my Math assignment to tell Dad about me attending another concert this Friday night.I tried to explain that this Friday was also a holiday in lieu of the O and N thingies,but in the middle of my explanation he cut me off by asking "Where is the concert" with his voiced raised.I slowly answered,"Victoria Concert Hall",then I went back to my room,cried and cried.
Typing about it now,it feels like I'm someone who watched the actions of this girl who went into her room to cry after being yelled at,after having a bad day.I want to reach out to her and tell her to be strong,to stick it out and win the battle,to have the patience to wait.I want to hug and comfort her,telling her that she needn't have to worry about all these problems anymore,they'll disappear soon,she can just go back to being a little kid and not having to take any responsibility,she doesn't have to care or understand,and would be forgiven for all the wrong she does/has/had done.
How can I reach out to her,to make her see that she needs to hold on?She might push me away.
It's been quite a terrible day.No,not because of the auditions.They went fine.Today had been terrible because of 2 experiences.
Ms Ho yelled at me again.Not sure if she considers that yelling but I almost went deaf.What she yelled hurt me more.It's funny when something you say so easily and casually can hurt someone so much.
I almost yelled back at her.
The one thing she yelled that stuck in my mind was/is "What do you want,Xiulin?",that was a question,really asking about what I want(ed?) in life or in Art.
To tell you guys the truth,I don't really know the answer to that question myself.Of course,everyone has hopes and dreams,but not everyone achieves/reaches them.Nowadays,you almost can't do anything without good academic results.It's as if the world depends on academics now.
People tell you you'll become a nobody without good results.People think you're not smart enough,etc.
If you know me well enough,you'd know that I'm not strong academically.Not at all,actually.Don't count English,that's a "cheat" subject,not that I'm good at it anyway.Things like Math I can't seem to pass.My current ambition requires a certain level of academic qualification(s?),so without good results,I can't get what I want even if I want(ed?) it.
Second experience made me crack.No,it was definitely not as bad as the first experience.I don't even know why it made me crack.I guess I just can't stand people yelling at me.
I went out of my room in the middle of doing my Math assignment to tell Dad about me attending another concert this Friday night.I tried to explain that this Friday was also a holiday in lieu of the O and N thingies,but in the middle of my explanation he cut me off by asking "Where is the concert" with his voiced raised.I slowly answered,"Victoria Concert Hall",then I went back to my room,cried and cried.
Typing about it now,it feels like I'm someone who watched the actions of this girl who went into her room to cry after being yelled at,after having a bad day.I want to reach out to her and tell her to be strong,to stick it out and win the battle,to have the patience to wait.I want to hug and comfort her,telling her that she needn't have to worry about all these problems anymore,they'll disappear soon,she can just go back to being a little kid and not having to take any responsibility,she doesn't have to care or understand,and would be forgiven for all the wrong she does/has/had done.
How can I reach out to her,to make her see that she needs to hold on?She might push me away.
Monday, March 05, 2007
Monday,March 5th 2007
Why can't I be as lucky as those other people are?
Oh,I guess I must be wishin' on someone else's star.
Auditions are tomorrow,but that's not the song I'm singing,though I'm tempted,but since I didn't work on it,I'm not gonna choose that song.
There were auditions held today,but I didn't go for today's,neither did I get a chance to hear/peek at the people who sang today.I thought I could learn a thing or two,to and not to do during the auditions.I'm actually nervous about the auditions.I was nervous about today's even though I wasn't going for it.Weird.
I'm panicking about the background music I will need to provide for semi/final rounds.Don't know if I'll even get that far,but these things can't be left to the last minute.Don't know what to do.If I can find sound-editing software,maybe I can use that to edit out the vocal singing in the songs,but if I don't?!Who would help me record the file(s)?Who would offer to help to play a musical instrument according to how the song goes?!
I failed my Geog test.CA or whatever you wanna call it.We didn't have enough time,it wasn't fair!I didn't even get to complete my first question.I got a 6/15,if you must know.However,if you count it in such a way that 6 is out of the total marks for the first question,I'd get 6/8.See,that sounds so much more impressive and convincing already!
Recently got interested in "Hannibal Rising".I don't know.It's so alluring.You know,so mysterious and seductive.
Feel like catching that movie,only I'm not sure (if) I can get in to watch it.The rating is NC 16.Am I allowed?Does Cathay Cine or somewhere go by year?Quite desperate to catch it,only I'm not sure if anyone would want to go watch it with me.Most secondary school girls are the squeamish type.
Sigh.
Anyway,today wasn't bad.Nothing really bad happened,except maybe I felt insulted by Ms Ho this morning,but I got over it during Math lesson when I got absorbed in my assignment.Technically,the day isn't over yet,so who knows,something bad may happen later.Sometimes it's like that.
Don't know why something I say always rubs someone the wrong way,so I prefer to just keep my mouth shut around people.
It's hard to believe that the really large pile of rubble where the former (and temporary) NTUC once stood was a place of food shopping last year,or as early as end Jan this year.I was so surprised/shocked at what I saw,when I looked out the window just now and saw all that rubble.
It's amazing how something is so easily reduced to nothing,but that something took so long and much to build up.
Oh,I guess I must be wishin' on someone else's star.
Auditions are tomorrow,but that's not the song I'm singing,though I'm tempted,but since I didn't work on it,I'm not gonna choose that song.
There were auditions held today,but I didn't go for today's,neither did I get a chance to hear/peek at the people who sang today.I thought I could learn a thing or two,to and not to do during the auditions.I'm actually nervous about the auditions.I was nervous about today's even though I wasn't going for it.Weird.
I'm panicking about the background music I will need to provide for semi/final rounds.Don't know if I'll even get that far,but these things can't be left to the last minute.Don't know what to do.If I can find sound-editing software,maybe I can use that to edit out the vocal singing in the songs,but if I don't?!Who would help me record the file(s)?Who would offer to help to play a musical instrument according to how the song goes?!
I failed my Geog test.CA or whatever you wanna call it.We didn't have enough time,it wasn't fair!I didn't even get to complete my first question.I got a 6/15,if you must know.However,if you count it in such a way that 6 is out of the total marks for the first question,I'd get 6/8.See,that sounds so much more impressive and convincing already!
Recently got interested in "Hannibal Rising".I don't know.It's so alluring.You know,so mysterious and seductive.
Feel like catching that movie,only I'm not sure (if) I can get in to watch it.The rating is NC 16.Am I allowed?Does Cathay Cine or somewhere go by year?Quite desperate to catch it,only I'm not sure if anyone would want to go watch it with me.Most secondary school girls are the squeamish type.
Sigh.
Anyway,today wasn't bad.Nothing really bad happened,except maybe I felt insulted by Ms Ho this morning,but I got over it during Math lesson when I got absorbed in my assignment.Technically,the day isn't over yet,so who knows,something bad may happen later.Sometimes it's like that.
Don't know why something I say always rubs someone the wrong way,so I prefer to just keep my mouth shut around people.
It's hard to believe that the really large pile of rubble where the former (and temporary) NTUC once stood was a place of food shopping last year,or as early as end Jan this year.I was so surprised/shocked at what I saw,when I looked out the window just now and saw all that rubble.
It's amazing how something is so easily reduced to nothing,but that something took so long and much to build up.
Saturday, March 03, 2007
Sunday,March 3rd 2007
Oh my gosh,I feel sad.
Sigh.Can't get my hands on my "childhood movie", "My Boyfriend's Back" (1993).I remember watching it 11 years ago on television,I remember singing a song from it in the shower when I was 4.
It's about this guy who likes this girl and he gets shot "for" her.He comes back from the dead as a zombie.Stuff happens and in the end I remember a scene where he dances with that girl at the prom,and then he collapses (sp?).Very sweet story.
Kinda grew up with it.
Now,I can't find it anywhere!Not even HMV/Borders/Video Ezy carries(y?) it!Mom forgot that she once told me to check the price online for order over the internet.She said "since when?",that made me want to cry.I guess I can't blame her for forgetting that.She seems to be forgetting things nowadays.It hurts all the same.
I don't have a credit card or something I can order and make payment with for the DVD if I order over the net.The darn show is nowhere to be found in Singapore!
Costs a lot to order over the net,too.I think it's about 16+ US dollars,which is about 30+ Singapore $.Sigh.How many more years will I have to wait?I've waited about 11 years already.A few more won't make much of a difference,actually.It's already been more than half my life.
But-well,I want it so much.It's just this longing for something long ago,good times and memories when I was just a little kid and oblivious to the problems that people faced around me,oblivious to my own problems,actually.It's that carefree feeling.
When you don't have to care about anything else but the movie.No problems,no worries whatsoever.
Sigh.Can't get my hands on my "childhood movie", "My Boyfriend's Back" (1993).I remember watching it 11 years ago on television,I remember singing a song from it in the shower when I was 4.
It's about this guy who likes this girl and he gets shot "for" her.He comes back from the dead as a zombie.Stuff happens and in the end I remember a scene where he dances with that girl at the prom,and then he collapses (sp?).Very sweet story.
Kinda grew up with it.
Now,I can't find it anywhere!Not even HMV/Borders/Video Ezy carries(y?) it!Mom forgot that she once told me to check the price online for order over the internet.She said "since when?",that made me want to cry.I guess I can't blame her for forgetting that.She seems to be forgetting things nowadays.It hurts all the same.
I don't have a credit card or something I can order and make payment with for the DVD if I order over the net.The darn show is nowhere to be found in Singapore!
Costs a lot to order over the net,too.I think it's about 16+ US dollars,which is about 30+ Singapore $.Sigh.How many more years will I have to wait?I've waited about 11 years already.A few more won't make much of a difference,actually.It's already been more than half my life.
But-well,I want it so much.It's just this longing for something long ago,good times and memories when I was just a little kid and oblivious to the problems that people faced around me,oblivious to my own problems,actually.It's that carefree feeling.
When you don't have to care about anything else but the movie.No problems,no worries whatsoever.
Friday, March 02, 2007
Friday,March 2nd 2007
Yes!
This is the final post for the 10-days-straight thingy.I wanted to see if I could post an entry each day for 10 days straight!
Anyway,today was boring.We had PE first,our teacher didn't come again.Why is she given several classes if she's so busy all the time?She disappears for at least half a lesson each time.Today,she didn't appear at all,but that was because she's at Sec 3 Adventure Camp.
I mean,it's just stupid to force yourself to take up so many things when you know you can't cope,what with your busy schedule and all.
We ran 6 rounds,did 20 push-ups,20 sit-ups,and then we could play our own games.I chose to play badminton again.Somehow no matter how much you play it,you('ll?) never feel satisfied.Maybe that's only me.
Felt giddy after PE,probably due to exercise during PE and lack of sleep the night before.I was practicing my singing till about 12.45am.Had a bad headache after PE,so I slept through Accounts.Ms Kalpana was just writing examples on the board for people to copy.She wasn't focused either,because the O/A (which one?) level results were released today.
After Accounts was Geog,and we had a test.I studied,okay!I knew how to answer all the questions,but the bad thing was we were given so little time,I didn't even get to complete my first question.The answers were all from/in the source given!It's as if we were given 15-20 mins to complete the whole test!We did mention to Ms Yip that there wasn't enough time for us to finish it,so she said she'd mark leniently.
I think no matter how lenient she marks this test of mine,I'll still fail.
Darn.
I can't remember what happened during Accounts after recess.English was fine,we had to do a table for points for summary from a passage.Didn't have enough time,so Ms Yip allowed us to bring it home to complete.
I've seen enough Geography today.I've even gotten it drilled into my head that "Tourism refers to the activity of tourists and the industry that caters to their needs".
What is a tourist?I think it was something to do with "someone who travels to another country for more than 24 hours but not more than a year" or something like that.
Brain-dead now,almost fell asleep at dinner just now.It wasn't even anything grand,just take-away chicken porridge at home reading "Totto-chan".That book's quite sweet,although maybe a little basic.Need to eat stuff like chicken porridge.I've been doing intensive singing these few days,especially during the SYF preliminary auditions on Wednesday.Practiced singing last night,gonna sing tomorrow at some exchange thingy,singing again on Monday/Tues for auditions.
Concert to attend on Sunday at NUS cultural centre.Still planning with Jia and Gerv about transport/dinner/meeting.Darn,why isn't Kat going?
Gosh,I'm so tired now,my eyes are closing.Eyelids so heavy.
Sigh,what a terrible week it's been.Oh,it isn't even over yet.There's still tomorrow.
What will tomorrow bring?
This is the final post for the 10-days-straight thingy.I wanted to see if I could post an entry each day for 10 days straight!
Anyway,today was boring.We had PE first,our teacher didn't come again.Why is she given several classes if she's so busy all the time?She disappears for at least half a lesson each time.Today,she didn't appear at all,but that was because she's at Sec 3 Adventure Camp.
I mean,it's just stupid to force yourself to take up so many things when you know you can't cope,what with your busy schedule and all.
We ran 6 rounds,did 20 push-ups,20 sit-ups,and then we could play our own games.I chose to play badminton again.Somehow no matter how much you play it,you('ll?) never feel satisfied.Maybe that's only me.
Felt giddy after PE,probably due to exercise during PE and lack of sleep the night before.I was practicing my singing till about 12.45am.Had a bad headache after PE,so I slept through Accounts.Ms Kalpana was just writing examples on the board for people to copy.She wasn't focused either,because the O/A (which one?) level results were released today.
After Accounts was Geog,and we had a test.I studied,okay!I knew how to answer all the questions,but the bad thing was we were given so little time,I didn't even get to complete my first question.The answers were all from/in the source given!It's as if we were given 15-20 mins to complete the whole test!We did mention to Ms Yip that there wasn't enough time for us to finish it,so she said she'd mark leniently.
I think no matter how lenient she marks this test of mine,I'll still fail.
Darn.
I can't remember what happened during Accounts after recess.English was fine,we had to do a table for points for summary from a passage.Didn't have enough time,so Ms Yip allowed us to bring it home to complete.
I've seen enough Geography today.I've even gotten it drilled into my head that "Tourism refers to the activity of tourists and the industry that caters to their needs".
What is a tourist?I think it was something to do with "someone who travels to another country for more than 24 hours but not more than a year" or something like that.
Brain-dead now,almost fell asleep at dinner just now.It wasn't even anything grand,just take-away chicken porridge at home reading "Totto-chan".That book's quite sweet,although maybe a little basic.Need to eat stuff like chicken porridge.I've been doing intensive singing these few days,especially during the SYF preliminary auditions on Wednesday.Practiced singing last night,gonna sing tomorrow at some exchange thingy,singing again on Monday/Tues for auditions.
Concert to attend on Sunday at NUS cultural centre.Still planning with Jia and Gerv about transport/dinner/meeting.Darn,why isn't Kat going?
Gosh,I'm so tired now,my eyes are closing.Eyelids so heavy.
Sigh,what a terrible week it's been.Oh,it isn't even over yet.There's still tomorrow.
What will tomorrow bring?
Thursday, March 01, 2007
Thursday,March 1st 2007
I finally got back my essay on "Flight".Somehow the people sitting around me got it back weeks/months ago.I only got it back today.
Shall type it out,here it is:
"Only yesterday during lesson-time,I was staring out my classroom window,my gaze fixed on a black-feathered bird lightly hopping on the ledge.I thought of how lucky wild birds were,for they could go almost anywhere in the world with their ability to fly.How happy I would be if I never had to fear falling,for if birds lost their footing,they only had to flap their wings to fly,to save them from the hard concrete ground that lies so far below.
I have always wished that I could fly.That could solve many problems like having to take public transport.Also,flying is so much faster than walking.It would also be a way for me to escape from the stress in my life.I would just flap my wings and fly to all the beautiful places in the world.I wonder what flying feels like?Does it become such a habit for birds that they no longer find joy in flying?
Flight is such a beautiful thing,to be able to soar through the air,not having to worry about falling.How would it feel to have wind beneath my wings,if I were a bird?Would my feathers be so thick,I would not be able to feel the cool water vapour condense on my skin?
As much as flying may be wonderful,everything is good and bad.What if I were soaring happily in the sky,free from all worries,and suddenly a bullet is shot through my wing?I would then start to fall,watching the heavens get further and further away."
I thought it was/is a terrible compo.It was more of thoughts than a compo.It was done by me on Jan 4th 2007,first English lesson of the year.No wonder it was/is terrible.
Ms Yip gave it a 7 1/2 upon 10 (only),her comments on the paper are/were "Interesting piece, Xiulin!Well-written, too!"
I was quite surprised at this.Then I read the compo again and couldn't believe I wrote it.
The last line is like poetry.
Shall type it out,here it is:
"Only yesterday during lesson-time,I was staring out my classroom window,my gaze fixed on a black-feathered bird lightly hopping on the ledge.I thought of how lucky wild birds were,for they could go almost anywhere in the world with their ability to fly.How happy I would be if I never had to fear falling,for if birds lost their footing,they only had to flap their wings to fly,to save them from the hard concrete ground that lies so far below.
I have always wished that I could fly.That could solve many problems like having to take public transport.Also,flying is so much faster than walking.It would also be a way for me to escape from the stress in my life.I would just flap my wings and fly to all the beautiful places in the world.I wonder what flying feels like?Does it become such a habit for birds that they no longer find joy in flying?
Flight is such a beautiful thing,to be able to soar through the air,not having to worry about falling.How would it feel to have wind beneath my wings,if I were a bird?Would my feathers be so thick,I would not be able to feel the cool water vapour condense on my skin?
As much as flying may be wonderful,everything is good and bad.What if I were soaring happily in the sky,free from all worries,and suddenly a bullet is shot through my wing?I would then start to fall,watching the heavens get further and further away."
I thought it was/is a terrible compo.It was more of thoughts than a compo.It was done by me on Jan 4th 2007,first English lesson of the year.No wonder it was/is terrible.
Ms Yip gave it a 7 1/2 upon 10 (only),her comments on the paper are/were "Interesting piece, Xiulin!Well-written, too!"
I was quite surprised at this.Then I read the compo again and couldn't believe I wrote it.
The last line is like poetry.
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