These Are The Moments I Thank God That I'm Alive

Yoooo Everybodeh!

Merry Claymas Eve!

[I Could Not Ask For More]



Lying here with you
Listening to the rain
Smile just to see the smile upon your face
These are the moments I thank God that I'm alive
These are the moments I'll remember all my life
I've found all I've waited for
And I could not ask for more


I could not ask for more than this time together
I could not ask for more than this time with you
And every prayer has been answered
Every dream I've had's come true
Yeah, right here in this moment
Is right where I'm meant to be
Here with you here with me


Oh I could not ask for more
Than this love you gave me
Cause it's all I've waited for
And I could not ask for more
Oh No, I could not ask for more

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Tis here is a beautiful and meaningful song.This song is about a guy,and how thankful he is to be alive,side by side with his loved one listening to the rain.He is really satisfied with all that love,and he could not ask for more,he has everything he always wanted.
Its a sweet song.Its by Diane Warren.I think.I got to know about this song through American Idol,when Clay re-sang it.It was beautiful..and I got hooked on it.I got to know about it late...cos well... I was going through my AI2 video collection of Clay,and I heard this song..And like some force,I got hooked.LOL so farnie.Oh wells.

Yeah nothing much today,just that while my bro used the internet,I baked christmas cookies.heh.And packed em all into an air tight tin..and scotchtaped it so that my bro would not sneak into the kitchen at night to grab some cookies.He's that evil anyway sigh.Tomorrow is Christmas.....Merry Christmas,With Love everyone!!! BABBEH. or maybe Merry Claymas heh..
Doh wells.Goinna watch tv nows.Oh yeah I needa know the chapters to study for the welcome back math test at the beginning of year 2 in ij dammit.I NEED TO KNOW.tell meh!
Clay sooo rocks forever man. Merry Claymas! Love,Xiu. ^^

Oh Night Divine.

Oh Holy night...
Hey everyone!Finally got time to blog once again heh.Kinda bored,so decided to blog.Din blog for 7 days already! Surprising eh? LOL!

1)O Holy Night
2)Winter Wonderland
3)Silent Night
4)Medley:Hark The Herald Angels Sing/O Come All Ye Faithful
5)Have Yourself A Merry Little Christmas
6)Mary,Did You Know
7)Joy To The World
8)The Christmas Song (Chestnuts Roasting On An Open Fire)
9)Don't Save It All For Christmas Day
10)Merry Christmas With Love
11)Sleigh Ride
12)What Are You Doing On New Years Eve

This Is The Track Listing For The Album By Clay Aiken,Merry Christmas With Love. LOL!!
I was just bored so just as I was listening to it,I just typed out the track listing.heh. *grins*
I Think on Christmas Eve I'll have to bake cookies...For Christmas heh.And well...I'll sms *some people to wish em a Merry Christmas...Just to greet them and stuff.You want,you can delete,For all I care.Dels and mel,I have to meet up with u guys to give yer your christmas presents man.I still dunno what to give my brother...His belt...I think he got a new one..cheapskate one LOL.Oh wells.I dun have enough $ anyways.Gotta brainstorm for something else lor.sadness.I miss Brenda too.Really miss yer.Gotta think of your pressie too! Must. heh.Oh wells...Yea this Christmas..Gonna miss alot of people yeah.This past year,Alot has happened....well...stuff.So Those people who receive Christmas SMSes from moi,read it carefully k!There'll always be afew words that mean alot.I mean,not personally la...just...there. lol I dunno what to say kk.Nowadays kinda boring.Last week,Everyday got choir.Kewl.Our few major scores currently...Sok Herren,.....some japanese song....,Sunset,Disney Movie Magic!!!
Its kinda weird having to re-learn the Disney songs in Choir parts,but I think it should be okay...I hope.I Luv It! LOL nono pls,I was just typing it...cos I saw "I Luv It" on some file not far from where Im sitting.LOL.Oh yeah...afew really weird questions you'd think I'd never ask.
*How do earthworms reproduce?
*Why is Earth considered to be a 'She'?
*Who gave birth to God? (no offence please)

I just can't find an answer to em.I dunno,but Ive tried to cut an earthworm into half ONCE.. cos I was curious...(I read in my Science textbook that they grow back and become 2 earthworms)
But both parts died. -.-"""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""LOLLLLLLLL
sadness la.We buried it and said a prayer,dun worry.But Im still curious to how Earthworms reproduce.I wonder who our Science teacher will be next year..Hopefully not Teowteow.LOLZ!
Science is such a complicated thing,I just realized.No thanks to the reading Jacqueline Wilson books everynight.I love Clay's lifestory too!Its so sweet.You guys should read it!Its really sad. :(
Anyways it seems I've written too much..I think.So I'd better stop here arrriiight.Later going NTUC maybeh! LOL but I'd soon rather go to The Marketplace.Nicer and more....posh and Englishy.LOL.Woah kay stop here la.I'll miss *you.
Though we've drifted apart,You'll still be in my heart.
I Love You ALL!!! *Smuackz* <3 ^^ Lotsa Hugz n Love,Xiu.

Figures Dancing Gracefully,Across My Memory...

Heyyy everybody!
Its been quite long since I last blogged.oh wells.Im supposed to be at choir now.But I just happen to have a really bad sore throat,dun care la lol.i miss choir -.- sigh :(
was talking to my sis online just now on msn.kewl.Nothing much happened the last few days...just that I went mad over the movie "Anastasia"...a really beautiful movie.go watch it,trust me.and yesterday went out to dinner with my cuzzie's family. so fun lol. dunno lah. but then one thing thats weird is that he and I dun dare to talk to each other face to face one,must sms,even when were sitting opposite each other across the table LOL.it was damn funny yesterday la k.You just had to be THERE,to know. heh.yeah I really enjoyed it yesterday. *evil grin*Today I dun plan to do much...just be on the computer. and maybe pop down to the guardian pharmacy to buy lozenges that my sis recommended. oh my God I dunno if I spelt it correctly or not.oh wells.Nowadays got nth to do..sometimes will go internetcafe aka cybercafe to play GB. sigh. only sometimes la.but hopefully...nevermind.I would like to try and play Maple Story.I play Runescape now but its kinda lame and boring -.- lol.I think GB more fun.especially when using nak,weapon 2 goes underground heh.Habbohotel's not too bad..but its kinda boring,just places and this one big chatroom -.-"Im bored now.My rabbit seems bored too,lying on the floor under the ironing board -.-"oh ya,if I didn't tell you,dad's fish died.It all started with goldfishes..lots of em.then all the goldfishes died.then my bro brought home 3 luo hans.One died,one got freed in the pond,and one died just recently.sadness.
Oh yeah yesterday went for the CAS Bash damn fun.Lotsa Clay! enjoyed it alot.For once,its nice to be around people who don't insult Clay,who don't say he's a freak or nerd who can't sing. He's cute that way,and we Claymates like him to stay like that ok.Think about what you're going to say before you say it.Thats my only advice.
back lol.My rabbit chased me to the kitchen then it started eating its food,so I sneaked away and came back heh.I know im evil.And I like it.lolz.Im like really bored now.nth to do,so I'll go back to playing the lame game Runescape.See ya'll some other time man.Bye people! Love,Xiulin. ^^

HAPPY 26TH BIRTHDAY,CLAY AIKEN!

heyyyyy peepsss!!


ITS CLAY'S BIRTHDAY TODAY!
i love you Clay. =D
have a happy birthday,Clay! I wish you Health,Happiness and HOPE. Like you always wish us.
May the coming year bring you new surprises.Enjoy being 26 man! Claymates Love Clay Aiken!

-done Clay related stuff all day- -I LOVE U CLAY!- Love,Xiulin.

She Heard Voices Outside Start To Sing.

Hey again peeps.
Ive been kinda busy the last few days,so wasn't able to blog yeah....sorry lolz. anyways..update on the last few days... here goes!
I got Merry Christmas With Love.Listened to it and went mad.
I got Learning To Sing,Hearing The Music In Your Life.A Really sad book that can make your heart break into a million pieces.Its his really saddening life story till now,and how he got bullied as a kid,and was considered a nerd in school,until he began singing.Poor Clay.And he really was poor when he was a young boy.His mother was the strong one that kept the family in order.She hid their financial problems and kept the family happy.Clay always stuck with his mother,and was afraid of the thought of being seperated from her,just for afew minutes ^^ so cute!He had a really lonely childhood,but he grew up to be a presentable man.This book is really inspirational,and it's worth every cent out of the $39.95 that I paid for it.If you guys wanna find out more about his interesting life,go get the book! Its really worth it.To find out how much he went through to become the man he is today.Go on,you know you wanna!! ^^
Yeah so...Just yesterday I started reading the book a second time round,and,armed with a pencil and a dictionary,I looked up all the difficult words in the book and wrote them down.LOL I mean common man! He's like..13 years older than me,and there's definately alot to learn from him!Probably more good stuff than the bad to learn...but still,Accept him for who he is.He's just..there.And everyone has to accept each other for who they are.God made everyone for a reason.And if you don't understand this whole chunk of information I've typed,lemme explain.
Nobody likes to be picked on or be left out.So if insulting other people amuses you,you're just a hopeless soul without a use for itself.Why don't you go out there and make a difference instead of craving for attention like a pathetic little brat?Go out there and give to other people,and it will be given to you.You never know unless you try.So before you come and crave for attention like a pathetic brat again,go out there and give.Be nice and people will be nice to you.Everyone does things for a reason.And if everyone in the world accepts each other for who they are,There'd be no chaos at all.Try to think about what I've typed.Just think about it.It would be useful if you actually listened to it.There are many people out there who need help.everyone around you needs help in one way or another.How about those starving children?How about the elderly,with no one to care for them?How about the poor,out in the streets with no home,left to fend for themselves?If everyone lent a helping hand to those people out there,it would be a great help,and one day,they will give back to you.Think about it.And try it too.It would help. Thank you for actually reading all this...well just thanks to all out there.Thanks.Love,Xiulin. ^^ <3

And Just As A Tear Made Its Way To The Floor...

Heyy again peeps.
Long time never update so sorry yeah -.-" cos busy..I guess.hahaha.Anywayz...Happy..cos friday...got the Christmas CD by Clay Aiken @ CD Rama Orchard MRT. I was in the cybercafe playing Gunbound..when I got a call from them saying that the CD has arrived..By that time...I was over the moon yeahs. BAHAHAHAHAA.So happy...I wanted to go to Borders to check out the book Learning To Sing by Clay Aiken but then it was getting late,and scared my dad scold me so I went home.HA! On the MRT,I popped the Christmas CD into my discman and practically started melting the minute I heard it.Its so..Christmassy. lolz!So..I went home and all yeah.
my two fav songs are merry christmas with love and mary did you know.both are beautiful songs.merry christmas with love is about a girl,carol.its kinda sad.then it has a happy ending where she sings along.then mary did you know is a song about mary and her son jesus.about jesus being god and all the good things happening like the dead coming back to life and the blind seeing and stuff.both of them are equally beautiful songs.I love em both :)oh yeah did i mention? poor baby is sick.Clay has a cold and well..vocal cord damage:( I was like heartbroken! sigh poor baby.anyways i dunno why.but the song merry christmas with love reminds me of Clay.such a sweet boy really.ARGH POOR BABY! he looks soo sick! poor baby :'( Hope he gets well soon :( take care baby I love you! :( all the Claymates love you ok Clay? takkare! Love,Xiu.

Dreamt A Hundred Thousand Dreams Before,Now I Finally Realize...

Hey everyone...today had a really...uhm..fun day?wokay only la.haha.coz today had choir in the morning....then Miss Tham said she wants to finish Sok Herren by friday.lolz.then Mag Low gave out the forms for paying money -.-"wahhhh alot of money lehs...by this THURSDAY DAMMIT.haiz.$680 -.-"sooo muchhhh.haiz can't wait to go hawaii yay. oh yea..my mom wants me to go aus in dec..OF ALL PLACES AND TIMES. arghhhhh and of all cities,it has to be perth.wth??????????? ok nvm.i dun wanna go anyway..coz of some reasons..and I can't anyway coz i got choir practices in dec.yay.hahahaa.sighhhh then todayyy..after choir went to clare's house. hahaha.her little brother is autistic so cute! its so sweet la.lolz.then eat wan ton mee -.- omg then cannot eat in peace her mom tok tok tok...tok till it becomes like a buzz from the radio speakers arggghhhh.dunno wad tok about studies all those crap.can't stand it.luckily we managed to have some quiet time to read.....hahaa..then escape from the house liao then we take bus go amk library. went there to read and eat...and then i saw st nicks friends haha.vanessa,erica and pauline -.-" can't believe it.it was kinda horrible haha.and anyways,then i went home,listening to "Dreams" by Diana Degarmo.then when i reached home...i switched on the comp,as usual.then go online..lotsa people were online lahz.let my rabbit out to run around.haha.
ok fu*k.fu*k it all.ha.ok nvm no one will understand me.bye people goodnight...to you too. love,Xiulin

I Can See It In The Stars Across The Sky...

ok..well hi everyone! I had a GREAT day today!!!! I woke up at 6 am to breathe in the fresh morning air...cold in the morning but having a warm cup of fruit tea to warm up...so good! and then I wore a smile on my face even when I was in the lift! And then I walked to my dad's car and took it to school! It was so comfy! Then I went to school and in class,......i got scolded by miss neo.LOLZ so funny.
no la..today was total bullsh*t.kinda I think.anyways..I woke up at about 6.15 this morning having a really bad headache..so I told myself..I'll be late today.Coz it was a really bad headache..and Im having one now anyway.nvm as I was saying..so I slept till about 7.03..and got ready and stuff..then left the house at about 7.38am....yea and took my dad's car.was still having the bad headache then so I TRIED to sleep in my dad's car on the way to school...but then.some seatbelt thingy was in the way so I couldn't sleep properly.Then I went to school...and went up the stairs.......and to my classroom.I thought of what miss neo would say..but then she was outside speaking to someone I couldn't remember who.There was another teacher in the classroom giving a 'lecture' on a math test next year.lamer.anyways...and miss neo told me "xiulin,you are very early." and I just gave a tired smile.wth. lolz coz I was still having the damn bad headache..so I went to the back of the classroom......and there was no seat for me..so I just dumped my bag on the floor and went to idayu's seat to sit down lor.lolz dunno why also.dun really care coz today was kinda....uhm..casual.coz people were eating sweets in class infront of miss neo's face -.-" and stuff like that....maria's discman got confiscated lolz? sigh not really a good thing la.I think she got it back anyway.so then,I started talking and stuff..sigh it was kinda boring la.then there was a REALLY BORING TALK by miss tan...our school principal.yeah well...she kept repeating the same topics until it was like some fly buzzing,I couldn't hear what it was saying to me.Yea I really couldn't understand.She showed us a video of some guy called John Coutis..half a bodied man.spoke with a really hard to identify australian accent..and the sound quality of the video was SO BAD.omg.It was almost impossible to hear them talking! and after that she talked about the guy and our new school building.haha.some crap la.
then after that we went back to class to do some crappy surveys. haiz so boring.bahahaha.we do so many surveys...then after that got free time we take pics. last day of school must take mah.then ah.....neoneo came in..and she gave us our report books.I din get coz i need to return library books first.but dun care..not anxious to get my report book.people like mel..she said"if I din get it today,I'll die!" lolz she mad mad one la.uh huh...then after school went home lor..haha my dad fetch me from the bus stop outside school.wth I din want one lor.haha nvm.okok seems like I've posted enough yeah? oh wells.I miss someone.but nevermind.haha.yea..move on with life yea.I got new choir pieces to learn dammit.argh.horrible.one from Japan,the other from Norway.argh help meee....those are pieces for SYF and the Hawaii trip thingy.haha so fun.Can't wait.gotta practice more...haiz.but nvm.hope can go to Hawaii woot! lolz.okies wells.gonna end here.Good night people...good night to you*.Byeeeee! Lotsa Love,Xiulin.

Tutto sembrera migliore...

Hey there everyone..sorry for the caps post..just that I was kinda pissed coz the thingy wasn't working..haha so yea Im here now.sigh.today was quite a boring day.Though kinda sad..Still feel sad remembering yesterday..the retreat -.-"haiz damn it.anywayyys.today i got back three papers in all..EVERYONE did horribly for history! omg only two people passed damn it! but anyway.math..haiz.never got 40+ for math before..now im feeling happy..as well as sad la coz so near to passing yet so far. then chinese..ayah dun need to say.hopeless man! but Im still quite surprised I got some questions correct.I CAN'T BELIEVE IT.ok im not that pathetic but still..haiz nvm hehe.then me and mel went to gina's hse to watch quill and go swimming. the quill show damn nice..started off as a newborn puppy damn cute.and then grew older guiding a blind midde aged man with an illness. in the end the guy died..then the dog did too.so sad.the dog die so drama -.-" can fall down one wth.anyways..the dog very cute la..so guai.haha and then we went swimming.swim swim swim..tired man! very. then went back to gina's hse to change then i said goodbye to her dog and went home with mel in the bus.though she went off earlier and I walked back to the mrt station by myself..taking the route that I ran after mark that time..and remembering everything.yea.sighh..somehow I still love him.I miss him ok.hopefully can talk to him next time he comes online haha.hopefully. anyways! I had dinner just now..mac and cheese..haha cheddar cheese.taste kinda funny but nvm lolz.then had a coconut -.-" lol always got coconut one.haha and then ah.. now my rabbit is walking over my pinafore..which I let it play with lolz.evil.its scratching it -.-" lame.uh huh! tomorrow going to esplanade with dezi and gina.dunno if mel gg anot.but i dun mind if mel go..just that she should start spending her $ on food lor.she like...act so poor damn it -.-"argh up to now..I HAVE SO MANY THINGS TO BUY OMG.after my mom comes back from thailand...Im so gonna drag her out shopping.O need ALOT. earphones,lion king 2 soundtrack,a compilation album,aladdin dvd (getting it only coz they re-released it coz they added Clay's song in it),and some jacqueline wilson books from kinokuniya! woot! see so much to buy.haiz and still got a Clay book and Clay christmas cd to buy soon.Im so damn poor lor hahaz.but nvm.will SOMEHOW get it all.if there's a will,theres a way.ok so lame
okies anyways I shall end here yeah? See ya'll soon! buhs people.baby i love u ^^ -Love,Xiu.

Is That,Is That,Is That..How You Measure A Man?

HI DAMN FREAKING PEOPLE THIS IS THE THIRD TIME IM TYPING THIS DAMN THING AND ITS NOT WORKING DAMMIT IM DAMN FREAKING PISSED AND I HATE MISS NEO WHO CARES IF SHE READS THIS COZ THIS IS MY FREAKING PRIVACY AND GO AWAY MISS NEO YOU WOULDN'T LIKE US TO READ YOUR JOURNAL ABOUT WHAT YOU DO EVERYDAY RIGHT DAMMIT? YOU GO AWAY RIGHT NOW! I HATE MY LIFE.EVERYTHING IS WRONG OK.EVEN EVERYTHING ABOUT YESTERDAY..CRIED ABOUT SOME DAMN FREAKING THING..ABOUT PEOPLE TALKING ABOUT MY FATHER DAMN IT I HATE THEM AND THEY MADE ME WONDER WHY I DIN HAVE SUCH A NICE DAD AND I WAS FREAKING ANGRY I JUST BROKE DOWN AND CRIED OK IN THE DAMN AVA ROOM I HATE MY LIFE.I SUSPECT MISS WAN HAD SOMETHING TO DO WITH THEM SUDDENLY MENTIONING DADS.I DON'T KNOW WHY...BUT SHE'S THE ONLY TEACHER WHO KNOWS THAT I REALLY HATE HATE HATE MY FATHER OK.THANK YOU EVERYBODY FOR YOUR ATTENTION ARGH!BULL.GOOD NIGHT.XIULIN.DAMN IT.

Is That,Is That,Is That..How You Measure A Man?

Hey there people..Im typing this for last night.Coz last night when I typed finish,my internet connection cut off..and its a lil screwy..so I couldn't save what I typed..It was about my day yesterday..and well,it definately wasn't a good one.It hurt alot.I cried too much.
So we had to go to this retreat thingy..and a group of Christ believers came to our school,specially trained for young people.so then they were talking talking..then they switched off the lights..and suddenly started talking about fathers.dads.and the guy said "think about the good things he did for you." and he started naming them..assuming again. and I thought "why couldn't I have a nice dad too?" so I just broke down and cried..and I couldn't stop.haiz so sad.then whats more..I dunno...then when I eventually stopped crying..my eyes hurt so much I had to blink alot..and they were kinda red too.and everyone was just asking if I was ok..and I just cried again.it was just so awful.they kept reminding me.I have a feeling ms wan had something to do with them talking about fathers.haiz it was so awful..then that night I went home..and got scolded by my mom (also got anger contorl problem one) and she scold like hell.and then I got so mad...my dad even had to be the damn extra and sided my mom.and they both scolded me. when i din do a heck wrong! WHAT DID I DO.and I went to my room and cried and cried and cried.and I had a little word with God..and I asked him "why did I have such a horrible father..why am I here on Earth?"I mean its like..The world wouldn't be any different with or without me right? I din do anything for the world..except donate for charities of course.other than that..I think its all...sigh.I just cried it all out la k.hiding in my room with music playing..yea sigh.poor me..and my parents? still outside happily gossiping about me wtf.they really no damn feeling one la.I had no problem sleeping last night too coz I simply cried myself to sleep.yea sorta.sighhh okies will end here for yesterday's post kk.see ya guys.

Would He Give His Life Up To Be All He Can...

Hi people..feeling down today dunno why also.haha...booring.today nothing much happened la.actually wanted to go sentosa but then check the weather forecast it rained so din go lor.freaking tired now and I miss my baby. haha poor guy. anyways...listening to some josh groban song in latin or smth called "Canto Alla Vita" haha..might not be latin though..might be french or something..ARGH WHO CARES!song nice can already haha.sighhhhh tomorrow going school again.I think if I see mag low around in school I will cry man!I will really freakin cry..Im scared of school.School's TOMORROW help me!Im scared.....is there a phobia for school?Coz I think I have it.shall go check it out tmr.whats the name for phobia of school..sighh.Im really sad..Im depressed.I have to go to school tomorrow!HELP MEEE.I DUN WANNA.the worst thing is going to choir..but thank God choir's not until next wednesday.haha my rabbit running around the house now.today went to a pet shop sooo cute! there were guinea pigs,rabbits,and hamsters...and they sold doggie treats.I bought a bone for my rabbit haha.and then the guinea pig there the hair comb until so shuai[dels said that] HAHAHAHA.she mad mad one la.anyways.quite a boring day la.It rained today. :'( haiz so sad.Im scared about tomorrow.I scared they gonna give back exam papers or smth..or will I have to face miss wan/mag low?Omg this is slowly turning into a nightmare..a very serious nightmare.God please help me I dun wanna die yet..haiz.poor me.okok I go offline now kay..too sad liao.Bye people..love you baby.Love,Xiulin

Would He Stand Before You When Its Down To The Wire...

Omg hi people Im SO TIRED....I got a headache now -.- and yea...feeling down,as usual..now this time not for myself. lol hahaha..-.-"Today was the last exam paper-MATHS..ARGHHHH.nooooooooo..the first part of the paper was a lot more difficult than the second part..I think I even left a few questions blank for the first part.lolz the second part was ok la..but I think I'll fail anyway -.-" doh' so tired...two nights never sleep liao.cannot sleep.haiz so tired..
but I wanna wait till my bro come back home so that I can ask him help me install gb..I need gb... I miss gb I really miss it.HAIZ.i miss my darling la..I really do.but the question is: does he miss me?
that I can't be sure.anyway today was pretty boring.I finally got the blank cds to burn the song into em' the song damn nice.Its an old christmas carol. now resung by Clay Aiken,called "Mary Did You Know"...its about someone telling Mary about her baby boy Jesus Christ..and about Him being the Lamb of God and all that.Its a really beautiful song..especially the blending chorus part.haiz. Im so tired...am I suffering from fatigue?(lack of sleep) haiz so tired..but I can't help it..its not my fault that I can't sleep.I just can't..sorry if this post is a bit crappy..Im just sooo tired...but I still have to clean rabbit's cage..argh.arggghhh nnnoooooo.my headache very pain sigh..poor moi dun u think?sighhhhhh....I miss markie.. =( SIGH.okok where was I..i think i just had a short doze-off hahaha.............................SIGH..omg my headache very pain.I think I'll go offline now bye people..Love ya all..especially you...do u love me? see ya all soon.Love,Xiu.

Would He Run Through Fire...

Hey people...
sup today? I had quite a boring day..though not exactly boring trying to run from 2 guys -.-" I ran through popular and cd rama! haiz.Then took cover in Macs LOLZ.then in the end felt bad so I went to tpe to look for em.haiz I tell you the whole story k.

I went to tpc by walking of course..with Dezi and Gina. uh huh.We were chewing on gum on the way there la.lolz and then got few ij girls run past playing -.- and then one drop the belt lol and din know. finally she realised..and Dezi picked up her belt and gave it to her..and scolded her -.-" hhahahaaha so lame! Then reach tpc. went to look at red circle.still quite early coz all the shops not open yet -.-" so went to breadtalk to buy some food.Gina bought the milky bread thingy,Dels bought the HOTdog (obviously becoz she was thinking of something..) and I bought the curry naan (kinda tasteless though) LOL so we went eating...and went to macs..I mean the macs in the interchange there.and saw our friends there la.uh..were they friends? i dunno lolz anywayys.MY DAMN FREAKING FATHER JUST SCOLDED ME FOR NO REASON! what the hell dammit I din do anything!haiz eating dinner now.dammit my dad go problem one la dun care abt him.anyways.after my friends ditched me today coz they no patience already,I went to mrt station..before entering the gate of the mrt station thingy where u flash your ez link,I stopped.I thought"if I left now,there would be no turning back,dun regret it later" and I turned back,and took the escalator up to the red circle,and ran all the way to tpe.dunno why.and then I walk walk walk..I was alone.I walked past macdonalds..pass the glass of the place..and saw wy.he was kindof bending over so I only saw him -.-" Then scary man..i din want him to see me so i covered my face with my wallet..unfortunately unsuccessful.They came running after me -.- through hdb hub and all. very scary.LOL.damn funny I was muttering too.. stuff like "Bless Me God,this isn't happening!" LOL so funny.Then went to macs to take cover. lolz.Then felt bad...but then scared -.-" so i no choice ask mel follow moi go tpe.Then pass letter already..then go back to tpc..then mel got scolded by stephanie lolz.funny sia,everyone also started running from steph in the end so yeah. BAHAHAHHAHAAA.steph a bit mad mad one la.lolz.Yea then go to DQ and sit with nicole,sara and lavaa..and read the letters from my baby..and started laughing LOLZ. the other people were chatting so noisily I couldn't concentrate!! argh lolz but managed to read it anyway lolz.So funny.His letter all so cute one.hey people I have to go now coz my dad gonna scold again soon k? BUHS!! I LOVE YOU BABY FOREVER!! my darling baby angel ^^ so cute. Lotsa Love,Xiulin.

Would He Walk On Water...

Hey there peeps.My dad just scolded me..and my mom just lectured me..how nice.Talking to dels,gina,and mia now on msn.sighh I miss them lots.haiz having lit exam tomorrow..we get let off early so me,dels n gina going tp study for upcoming exams.oh God my dad is watching me now.help.he's coming for me now.right this minute
HELP....I have my lit book right infront of me.turned to "Phone Call" page.I highlighted it abit towards the bottom..so retarded.haiz...Can't wait till tomorrow so I can study with my friends.I finally got the DnT textbook 2..finally.Gina is being super irritating by laughing for no damn reason.SIGHH..haiz Im reading the lit story now. well my day today was quite okay..just that wasn't very nice.My bro din want to install gb.thats a bad thing.he said after my exams then install.I hope.Then I went to NTUC and Popular with my mom..got food..and a black pen,and the DnT textbook,and a storybook.Its pretty cool today..my rabbit really enjoyed the "coolness" LOLZ.I dunno.. then came online in the evening..and then finally,Markie came online.missed him so much.talked about wednesday and stuff like that.hhmm typical.Hmmm..I miss my rabbit.I guess I'll go play with it later..lolz and clean its cage and stuff like that.I'll have to read the four stories and program them into my head later.sigh.Okay I'll end here k? Today's post is a bit short sorry bout it.Buhs people take care.Miss my baby lots... Forever will be my Darling Baby Angel ^^ Bye peeps Love,Xiu.

If I Could Just See You Tonight.

I Feel So Alone.
Am I really all alone?Why am I here?What is my reason to live?Coz let me tell you something.I really don't know what to do right now.My life is a total wreck..Im..Lost.
Hi people its me again..and I feel so alone..I dunno.well,there's mia talking to me on msn..but I just don't know..I feel so alone.I mean..Nobody's talking at all..My parents are obviously.but still..There's nothing to reply.They don't communicate properly.So I have been living my whole life with them like that.Yea I have gotten used to it already.So it doesn't matter.But its like..NOBODY'S TALKING!I don't know..Alot has been happening in my life recently.Mostly bad stuff.I don't remember any good stuff happening recently.Not at all.Read the few earlier posts..sigh I feel all alone right now.Oh God I just got a splitting headache! omg omg omg.darn headache.I din do much today.My life would have been more interesting if my mom actually let me out of the house to meet gina at tpc.but that din happen anyway.I had a feeling that my mom wanted me to stay home to rot.I have this empty feeling now...Its as if everyone around me..arn't real.As if they're programmed.I just don't know.Im lost! I really am.I don't know how tomorrow will be.It definately won't be good.At night,I won't be able to sleep.I lie in the dark thinking about my baby..or what bad stuff will happen the next day.Too much has been happening ok.What about my damn Math teacher lecturing me,and telling my choir teacher smth about me that I don't know...sighh I just don't know.I miss Mark so much...I miss him.I can hardly wait until I see him again on Wednesday.How am I going to survive till then?! Tell me man!! I mean..everynight,I think about what would happen the next day..It wouldn't be a pleasant one anyway.Okay I'd better end here.I don't want to go on typing all this crap.My life is a total wreck.Take care everyone.Wherever you are now baby,I love you.Always will.Love,Xiu.

Cause You Know I'd Walk A Thousand Miles..

Hi everyone..still kinda pissed about yesterday.Im just so angry...so dun mind if Im snappy online.I still feel pissed.I miss my baby so much...you have no idea man!haiz Im feeling so annoyed now online.especially when Gina keeps on saying "lame" and laughing for no reason haiz. just like mel la.thats one of the reasons Im so irritated..Im sorry I just am.Im irritated with school...thats why I went late today.so I could miss the first period.ITS FINALLY THE WEEKEND...and Im thankful to God that it is.I can't stick school any longer this week man.Im so irritated..my mom's talking to me haiz. cool...im eating grapes now..haiz sorry if today's bloggie post is abit short or smth..or issit?dunno...coz i haven't finished yet ^^
okok..today in school,we had this science walk thingy..and NICOLE..DAMN U...SHE wanted to go to mag low's block..and guess what? WE SAW MAG LOW THERE dammit.and she looked at me la..haiz i even cried a bit coz i was so scared.dammit la....then walk walk walk..then went near the chapel..and saw mag low again.im so freaking angry lor.then after recess then wrote my baby the black letter..the deco was all black to match my bad mood.i was so pissed..and then..math lesson came.it was the last two periods of the day and i should've been happy but still..i couldn't face it that well.haiz Im just so angry with Miss wan k.I hate her I hate her I hate her!!! I WILL ALWAYS HATE HER ARGH.well..something along those lines -.-"sigh the letter I wrote today abit ugly yea..coz no mood to decorate..but tried to anyway.I miss my baby so much..I miss him.Wonder whats he doing now? sighh yesterday when I was punished..for dunno wat. sighh I just thought of smth "I've been waiting forever but I dunno wat Im waiting for"...coz ms wan made me wait outside for dunno how long.and I dunno why she did that anyway..I din do anything wrong did I? I dun understand..sometimes this world can't be any worse..ok it can.My dad is scolding me right this minute dammit.sighhhh I hate this I hate this..Im listening to Vindicated right now..okok I'll listen to A Thousand Miles ok?!hhmmm I have this bad feeling that Ms wan said smth to my parents about me...how come they can suddenly ask the question "where got scold you too much?" omg its damn scary can..u have no idea.haiz I miss my baby so much...Its pretty dead online right now.. uh huh and my mom just scolded me...and she was the one who suggested the damn freaking 2 hours..and now she said I cannot use at all next week.WHAT THE ****. i dun care I'll be online..but maybe from wed onwards wun be online till exams over...coz wed I got phone to survive.. :D and partly the reason is coz my baby will get back his phone after his exams so....hhmmm thats a pretty good thing though :D Can't wait!haiz im angry with my parents now sighhhhh...hope they dun demand another good night from me later..I simply do NOT wish to say goodnight to them.that time they scold me...then they expect a goodnight from me..I mean what the hell..you scold someone..then u want a goodnight from them? its totally senseless I tell you.Ms wan just doesn't understand me at all ok.all her assumptions were WRONG...okk will stop here for tonight kay? I miss my baby lots....Will post again tomorrow..see ya all.well gonna suffer tmr anyways.Love my baby always and forever Darling Baby Angel! Love,Xiu! Oh yea..adding a little bit here..I had a science test just yesterday..and I got a B3 for it! woo hoo! 34and a 1/2 upon 55....wasn't so bad was it?..WAS IT?

Do You Think Time Would Pass Me By...

I REALLY AM DAMN FREAKIN PISSED DAMMIT!
I AM SO FREAKIN PISSED WITH MISS WAN.so freakin pissed!! to think she actually had a damn conversation about me with Mag Low..my CHOIR teacher! and damn ms wan lectured me..and talked about my grades..and my father.and she asked me if I wanted to see the school counsellor.dun mind if its spelled wrongly..BUT WTF!its so irritating.. Im afraid that Mag Low will kick me out of choir.but anyway after that..maybe I might not be living anymore..okay as in..I might just get killed by either Mag Low or Ms Wan right?so whats the freakin point? maybe Im just getting pissed over nothing.they're nothing.im nothing too.whatever.I hate this freakin day la ok.it totally sucked.
okok watever dun wanna tok about those losers anymore.it will just make me depressed again wtf-.-
anywayyyyss.on msn with dezi now lolz..
HAIZ SO BORED...I miss my baby so much.last night got an sms from him I was so happy -.- It was such a sweet sms! lolz poor him.poor baby!I miss him so much!! My Darling Baby Angel...sighh *sniff* I really miss him so much.
hhmm dels wants me to go out with her tmr go meet mia,watch White Chicks again..but then tmr..haiz oh shit maths the last lesson. i bo $ to go out tmr la.dun think I even have the $ to eat in school tmr haiz poor me. =(
freak my mom just scolded me dammit -.- in chinese dunno wat she toking abt also -.-
NOW MY FREAKING DAD SCOLDING ME LA. haiz why is my life so bad?! Why can't they just leave me ALONE! what the hell is wrong with them la.
sighhhh mel got serious problem k
she really got too serious problem.THERE'S A PROBLEM WITH EVERYONE! except some of course ^^ I miss my baby lots.Love him forever
and ever...and always..and...uhm.forever.LOLZ I LOVE YOU MY DARLING BABY ANGEL!
Lotsa hugs,kisses,and love. -Xiulin-

If I Could Fall Into The Sky...

Hie people..Today siao siao one la.Everything is siao siao one...nicole got scolded by jo teo wth. then mel scream in tpec and got a long angry stare from a woman working there -.-"
Coz mel angry with us mah.(wat for again?) then she angry.then we sit in the middle of tpc there.infront of an air con shop -.- but no air one la lolz.Then we went to Mos burger and bought food.then when we came back Dels dunno why so angry for what -.- even got her bag away from our table.MY DAD SCREAMING AT ME NOW LA..FREAK. anyways dun care la.He got serious problem one la I can't stand him anymore k.I HATE HIM. anyway...Then we offer dels they all fries but she said dun want -.- so we din ka jiao them anymore lor.Then we started singing "A Thousand Miles"... Sara...sing VERY out of tune man!!! lolz we were all laughing like mad.Then I ask mel,dels,mia and wy they all look but they dun want.instead they give me dao face -.-" wad did i do man? haiz dun get it la.then went to tp mrt station to go home..then suddenly wy pop up out of nowhere and I was like..speechless la lolz.I thought he stayed with mia they all wad.So went home in mrt la but he far away la k. hhhmmm first time wy no dao face la. then went home lor...went home on hp and smsed wy ask him why he din stay with them at Mos. dunno wat he replied la..I forgot already.but then he said he not going out with us anymore...then I ask him why.Then i can't remember wat he said.But then I ended up saying "we thought u studying so we din say anything"..coz in Mos he was very quiet.I think he felt left out or something. haiz so sorry wy.
anyway! now listening to A thousand miles. such a nice song..like the movie dammit.The White Chicks rox!! OH YA damn maths teacher.my math teacher Ms Wan like not happy liddat today she stare at me then I asked her "wat?" then she was like "I should be asking you wat" then I said "I dunno" and I walked out of the room.wth right I really have to freakin idea wat she toking about lor! she still ask me wat,as if she expects something from me liddat.I din even do anything to her lor.wtf la I can't stand her la.I can't stand people like that.Like my father lor -.-" these kind of people ah..can scold for no freakin reason..accuse me of doing something I've not done...and expecting me to know something but I really have to freakin idea wat they talking about.Its so irritating haiz.
I miss my babie so much.hope I get to see him online soon..He's having geog exam tomorrow
=( poor guy.haiz I miss him so muchhhh.I miss him I miss him I miss him I miss him I miss him I miss him I miss him I miss him I miss him I miss him I miss him I MISS HIM!arghhhh!
really can die without him.haiz I miss him...soo much.Good luck baby for your exams ^^
Just had dinner..rice with melon soup,and corn.I love corn..lolz.Boring same old dinner haiz.Nothing tastes right anymore..not without my babie.I miss him loads.oh yea few days ago bought another Maksim CD..woo hoo.Got afew songs in the CD..ROCKS! lolz Im mad la.My fav song at the moment is A Thousand Miles.
Phrases from The White Chicks:
"Hey common you want a piece of me?!"
"Its not just a bag,Its Prada."
"Oh!What a beautiful chocolate man!"
"Lets go shopping!"
"Dont you 'Hey Baby' me!"
Lolz all so funny..I miss the show man.
I miss the show so much =( I've watched it twice already. and I LOVE THE SHOW!..I wanna watch it again..soon.hopefully go with dels.or alone also can.as long as I watch it again.Will definately buy the DVD/VCD when its officially released :D its a must.
Okies people will end here for the day kays? Will post again tomorrow! See ya all soon.I miss my baby lots..=( my Darling Baby Angel! I LOVE YOU! forever more ^^ Lotsa Love,Xiulin

What Would It Take To Make You See That I'm Alive?

HAIZ so tired.Just came back from the movies with dezi.The movie was sooo sweet!! I wanna watch it again! lolz.even if it means by myself..nevermind I will watch it again! I miss the show already =( LOLZ the show damn funny. dunno why wy suddenly turn up there lolz.saw him when dels and I were buying tickets.din really talk to him la.But he was like alone and I felt bad.lolz but then I went into the movies and watch and sang along and laugh wth -.- lolz..then after the movie in tpc I was laughing and smiling..there were some people who thought I was crazy so..but nvm the movie was damn sweet..the ending was so touching ^^ lolz. sigh so bored.mia just came online and tok to me LOL. talking to gina now too..I MISS MY BABIE SO MUCH =(okies have to go bathe now -.- I be back later kays? miss my baby!!
Back again! its 10.05 pm now.I miss my baby so much dammit. haiz just received sms from wy.Im so damn tired now lor...can't describe..hhmm okok shall change style of talkin. hmm
So tomorrow I ain't knowing wats gonna happen after school..after all,wats there to do anyway? So tomorrow will be another boring day man..U have no damn idea. The whole day is just a big mess.Hopefully it'll be a good day tomorrow..hopefully.No one's ever said life's easy anyway.sighh I miss him so much. So everyday Im writing letters for my dear baby in class during lesson.It takes alot but I don't care man,I just miss him too much..you can't blame me! I even have trouble sleeping dammit.I miss you baby..wherever you are and whatever you are doin right now.I just miss you lots...and I miss the movie White Chicks.I wanna watch it again man! Its so cool!Oh yea..and I had a really lousy dinner too.instant noodles yet again.This sux.Im all depressed now and stuff.Its just so difficult without my baby.I wonder why the stupid school has to delay the damn exams anyway.If not,I would be ending the exams much earlier man!!!! Its so unfair.I can't stand it anymoreeee.I just got another sms from wy...sighh Im bored.dammit my mom just came out from the toilet
OH MAH GAWD SHE JUST READ THIS DAMN POST DAMMIT.thank god I switched windows.help she's a' comin again.oh phew she just went into the room and shut the door behind her.I miss my baby so very much :'( sighhh. Okies people I'll end here,dun get mad at me okay?Im so freakin tired.I miss my Darling Baby Angel..I love you lots baby! See ya guys! bubbyes!

Still In Your Dreams,Why Can't I Bring You Into My Life...

Hie again people...
I MISS MY BABIE!

hi again people...thats all I have to say for now k.I just miss him LOTS. bubbyes people!

Are You Really Alone...

Hey everybody!!!
Today had chinese oral.now its only 4.05 pm..today the chinese oral..haiz I talk alot of crap lolz!haiz Im attracted to a song now. hhmm.."a thousand miles" by vanessa carlton. a really cool song.a high and low song..haiz.Got to know about it after watching The White Chicks.wish to watch that show again.so nice! the ending was damn funny lolz.haiz Im so poor.I just realized I need alot of stuff now.I need a book,and 3 cds -.-" my mom's gonna die. lolz or more of her cash cards gonna die? hmm dunno. lolz the book-the white chicks. HAIZ. and I need 3 cds -.-" gonna drag my mom out to buy tmr. 3 cds-celtic quest,maksim,the white chicks soundtrack. the show damn nice I need to watch it again.dels say go with me to watch but then i said 15 then go watch lolz.its a really beautiful and funny show. my fav lolz!I miss my baby lots.this morning when I was in class,waiting for my chinese oral thingy,I went online using the school comp ^^ and saw my baby online! I typed some stuff then went offline lolz.I miss him.
today after oral,went to meet mia again with dels,mel,and gina.met yao also.and then after that go library...mia and dels hold hand and ..
then outside the library...gina and yao hug.
WOO HOOO.so cool! lolz this is so fun.
hhhmm quite bored now.I miss my darling haiz.I can't wait for the 15th of October to come..wanna see him again sigh. omg I just asked my mom to buy the three cds,and she said see first.but she happy now wad.so should be a yes lolz.and I told her it costs about $60 in all..and I still need a book,then she said woah kay LOLZ. I gtg bathe now,I continue later. kks see ya peeps!
BACK AGAIN people!! lolz sorry coz after I went to bathe,my parents dragged me out for dinner.so far haiz -.-" anyways damn happy coz my mom agreed to buy me the 3 cds tomorrow! im gonna drag her to 3 places tomorrow lolz.novena for the celtic quest cd,sembawang cd center for the soundtrack,and cd rama for the maksim cd! WOO HOO she is so gonna die tomorrow lolz.Oh yea..and I need the book too..of The White Chicks movie lolz.I love the movie,its so nice..I needa watch it again dammit! I dunno why I felt like running,right after I watched the movie -.- lolz inspirational movie woot! I miss my baby.Hope to see him again soon. LOLZ got another sms from him lolz.Gina revealed my damn secret on my taggie -.-" DUN LOOK..or at least dun say anything lolz.lolz but I still love u gina dun worry lolz.and thanks,for revealing it..so I dun have to reveal the secret myself -.-"lolz evil. omg he just replied my sms.He guessed my secret again haiz. I can't believe Im saying all this.lolz it was supposed to be a secret,but it seems like everyone knows now -.-" LOLZ.Gina and I did each other a favour. lolz very serious favours indeed -.- if it wasn't for me,she wouldn't be so happy going on about her hug with yao..yep you guessed it,I forced her to hug him LOL.
ok.now everyone chill for the next moment.
I LOVE MY DARLING BABY ANGEL!!! FOREVER!!...he agreed.he agreed! HE AGREED WOO HOOOO! everything suddenly rocks in this world now! Thank You Lord...thanks baby!
okok where was I before this..LOLZ.Im lost now.TOO many things have happened today! FAR TOO MANY THIS DAY ROCKS! I luv it! lolz.first,gina hugged yao.Then dels and mia kissed on the cheeks. Then my friend got a new hp.Then he agreed.AND HE JUST REPLIED MY SMS. yay? definately a yay.I miss him so much! he came online!! yay.I just yawned.haiz. OH WELLS.post another time people! I LOVE MY DARLING BABY ANGEL FOREVER! Love Xiu!

I Wish I Could Be A Fly On Your Wall...

Heya people! yet again.wth my dad sitting behind me now haiz dunno wat he wanna see la ok
lolz ok he's gone..at last.dunno wat he was hoping to see la but he's weird.Im feeling so cold now argh coz Im sitting like..beside the open window bla bla bla.and my fingers are freezing.lolz today released early from school coz got English exam woot.Then went to novena square,eating lollipop on the way there LOLZ. then we go novena square dels wanted to buy a cd,so i brought her to this cd shop..and I heard a really beautiful song they were playing.And I asked the woman at the counter which cd it was.She pointed to a cd on the table and started nattering on about some flutist playing the songs,more of an irish side.lolz.I WANT THE DAMN CD argh lolz so nice.might just drag my mom there during the weekend to get it,or maybe just save up and buy it without telling her -.-" maybe it should be that way,but dun wanna waste my $ so shall make her buy it lolz.evil I know >=) lolz. Then after that take mrt go meet my baby and his friends.well,wy and mia. lolz oh no my dad coming dammit.so cold tonight.. oh yea.then went to ljs with them..then dunno wat happened la.then keep trying to look at markie lolz.very nice to look at..I agree with my friends.look at his face will laugh lolz.his face so cute of course it brings joy to others LOLZ.then after that was playing in HDB HUB lolz very funny.then gina siao ask me walk first,then she ask markie to walk with me -.-" lolz missed him so much! I still miss him now.and im damn hungry now dunno why dammit.I still can remember his hair SO CUTE! lolz its called NATURAL spike ^^veh funny la lolz.then went home in mrt din get a chance to say goodbye to my baby then later on the mrt felt so guilty dammit haiz.anyways he was online just now and talked to him la ok lolz oh damn my dad shouting at me now haiz why always liddat its not as if I commited a crime or smth la he siao one got problem sigh I wish he wasn't my dad -.-" Im irritated with him and I can't stand him la ok.He needs to get a life.
anywaysss....where was I? dunno la lolz lost already all THANKS TO MY DAD haiz wth right. nvm its pretty late now.yay my baby agreed to take neoprints again.must take nicer ones this time.I wanna see his sweet face which brings joy to people around LOLZ. just too cute.Okies will end here for tonight k.see you all...miss my baby lots..my Darling Baby Angel! Love,Xiulin!<3

Whatcha Doing Tonight...

Yes you guessed it..Im listening to INVISIBLE! by Clay Aiken woo hoo! lolz the song rox.It makes me think of how anxious I got over the mention of Clay before his CD was released lolz.sorry I haven't posted ever since..the 26th lolz but tomorrow's my English exam haiz I hope I'll pass.I got back my lit paper today fail by 1/2 mark dammit.nvm at least i dun get zero or smth,I din even bother to study for the test lolz din read the book haiz.Oh cool my baby just came online! poor boy his older bro always watching him -.-" evil lolz.now listening to "Measure Of A Man" A really beautiful song!
lolz and NOW listening to This Is The Night haiz. Lolz...Oh no!! nooo!My poor baby got headache! Poor boy.haiz his bro ALWAYS watching him lolz.His older bro is plain evil la ok lolz.omg my dad just came and ask me finish up the fishcake and I told him "its inedible.totally tasteless" lolz evil.I miss my baby so much.Today got lit lesson we were left to do some passage thingy by ourselves while the teacher went to setup some laptop thingy in the hall lolz.She said she would return to class at 12 noon.Quite afew people slept la.Gina,Dels and I slept lolz..after finishing our work of course ;p lolz Then after I woke up it was 12 noon already but teacher haven come so I took out tracing paper and started drawing some patterny thingy on it in pink.Then during history I finished up the letter for my baby lolz.then started folding the patterny tracing paper with pink ink on it..into some folder like thingy.Then decorated the letter which I wrote for my baby...then before Chinese teacher came,dels put the two letters into the folder like thingy and I stapled it up lolz and wrote all the "to markie from xiu" all that lolz.Then I put it in my bad front pouch lolz.BAHAHAHA so detailed. anyways..after school ended,I went to toilet to look at myself..my hair and all that...my hair damn messy,natural spike in the middle ontop one -.-"then Dels suddenly come into the toilet(dunno how she knew I was in there) and told me she can go meet mia they all. So she went to call her father while I washed my face with clean and clear facial foam LOLZ school give one la.then after that talked to the toilet auntie for awhile she ask me for the time but i suddenly forgot how to say in chinese then I said"liang dian sanshi fen"(2.30) then she said "liang dian shen me?"(2 o clock what?)"liang dian ban ah?"(2.30 ah?) then I was like so maluated lor lolz dunno how to tell time in chinese but nvm I said "yaya" lolz then she ask me what kind of ren am I..where did i come from la.she thought i was some..english person thingy lolz coz i dunno how to speak chinese LOLZ.then I just told her ya I was english -.-" so lame.Then wait awhile more then dezi came back up and told me to go already dun waste time.Then we go down the stairs already out onto the carpark road then saw mel,gina,nicole,sara,and cherre.Then walk down the slope together I used the art mask to cover my head from the rain wth lolz.The art was part of our CA but so long already and neoneo said she was gonna throw away if we leave ANYTHING under our desks.so I brought home lor but then luckily I brought home coz I put over my head la lolz.shelter me hahahahahahaa.but then anyway coz of the rain it went soggy coz it was made of those paper mache thingies.So I tore off my name that piece of paper attached to it,and threw the mask away. lolz so funny but what a waste haiz.Then went to novena in bus 851 lolz.saw cherre walking to somewhere la lolz.she din go with the others coz the taxi no space haiz.then in the bus I pull down my socks and stuff liddat and then make the hair and stuff with dels lolz.Then got off the bus.crossed the road,and went down the escalator..and when I got to the bottom with dezi I saw them.I saw them all just standing near the control station lolz so funny.then dunno why I suddenly feel so shy dun dare to talk to them lolz dels did it all.I dun dare to pass my baby the letter coz it was so..GIRL lolz.so I asked dels help me pass to him lolz.Then he passed me a letter awhile later.abit crumpled SO CUTE! lolz its just so adorable sometimes ^^ Then I was so shy -.- dunno why la dun blame me.maybe coz of too much scolding at home tts why now too shy lolz! nah just kidding lolz.then dels go and call her dad.then kb and matt went home I think lolz. mia and wy still there waiting
-.-" lolz then..we all go cold storage there.then dunno wat la I went home. dels still waiting for her father there lolz.saw mia and wy standing infront of kfc -.-"lolz then wait for the train to come..not long la.Then on the train began to read my baby's letter so cute! lolz his handwriting so small lolz.I remember he wrote this"Teacher spouting rubbish" or smth liddat lolz so cute! I was smiling on the train dammit.Then got one old lady look at me coz I was smiling haiz.She thought I was mad la k lolz.But din care anyway. Then after reading the letter felt so happy.Then my stop came and I went off..Then went to 7-11 to buy slurpee lolz.frozen cola and some grape thingy mix.so cool! then walk home slowly thinking about my baby.I dunno why crossing roads I always think of him lolz.Hmm then went home have to put belt freakin high again coz dad will scold one they kiasu one mah.then I go home run up the stairs to 8 level lolz.hhmm then went home play music and on my phone then got msg from wy this morning one lolz din get to see it coz off my phone too fast it said "bye xiulin" lolz then I laugh at the msg lolz.then I go out to the kitchen feed my rabbit then on the comp and surf awhile.lolz so fun.then do some nonsense..then he came online! lolz his bro was there so he couldn't really talk much lolz.then dunno what la...until now.me and dels gonna bathe same time at 9 pm lolz.3 more mins dammit no time to post argh!yep coming online again later lolz.Miss my baby lots and lots..always and forever woot! I love you markie baby!*hugz n kisses for my Darling Baby Angel* Love,Xiu!

There's a smile there's a truth in your eyes...

I miss my baby lots!
just now my parents dragged me out to early dinner haiz.I think I made him wait.I feel so bad now argh.Im looking through a New Zealand booklet thingy.My parents got it from some travelling agency thing.They plan to go to shanghai and bangkok help.Thank God they said I din have to go ^^ If not I will die.lolz coz its like..they're going right after my exams so..Markie wun be going to perth just yet. lolz haiz I miss him so much.Hope he gets back his phone soon.Can't wait to sms him again ^^ this morning got an sms from him lolz.early in the morning before church lolz. I only woke up at 1.30+pm today..so late I know -.-"
hmmm..Mel just came online and told me she had to go dinner brb lolz.Im so boreddd online without my baby...argh...sighh.Finally going to meet him again tomorrow..I feel like dying already,so long never see him lolz.Eating yoghurt now.I feel like eating something but I dunno what.Should I eat? Im really hungry lolz. dunno why.I din eat much during dinner though.Argh going to eat something now.My damn father just told me to go offline wth.haiz he want me to have a haircut but i talk back to him saying its my own hair and I do whatever I like with it. to hell with him la my hair also want to bother -.-" he bo liao nothing better to do la,scold me.Sometimes I wonder if he's even my dad at all..I dun even take after him..haiz can't stand him dun care la lolz.tomorrow I MIGHT swim only.have to finish reading a book by tomorrow..I aim for that.Tomorrow got history test Im gonna study tonight.woot see Im so good lolz.omg wth my dad just asked me to go offline again.haiz he really bo liao laa.I miss my baby so much.Can't wait till tomorrow after school lolz.I hope gina going la.lolz she said she would so..lolz hmm.All the best to me then. lolz Hope I dun go alone coz so extra -.-" Gonna end here for tonight kay?Good nitez to all..and my DARLING BABY ANGEL woot.Love you!Love Xiulin <3

In The Way You Look At Me...

Hey people yet again! Im pretty bored now..very.My baby's probably at the full colour thingy now lolz.Its 7.20 now haiz.Miss him so much.Listening to "Its Raining Men" now lolz.Okies Im gonna go bathe now later will edit this post see ya all later people!Love my baby 4 eva!

Hey again peepale! lolz sigh. Miss my baby so much.Its 9.46 now booring.Today I had a boring day,a really boring day indeed.A BORING DAY COZ MY STUPID FATHER WUN ALLOW ME TO GO OUT DAMMIT.its totally hopeless.I try not to act so pathetic infront of them. -.-"Haiz believe it..Im so lame.On my contact list got afew pri 6 people so Im wishing them good luck for psle.Im really so bo liao now lolz. AND MY STUPID BRO WUN INSTALL GUNBOUND FOR ME.DAMN IT! Worst come to worst I ask my parents force him to install..or even worse..go cybercafe lolz! just below my house -.-" Anyway I will do anything ok.I must get my hands on gb no matter what.lolz I just changed my desktop wallpaper again.Change it everyday lolz..... sigh too bored now.I changed my wallpaper to yet another Claypaper lolz.Chatting to gina now but I know she wun tok to me one la coz she got yao.. *ahem*

Woot its 12:12 am now chatting with my baby.Was freaking sad just now,thinking about my dad and stuff.actually cried a bit la but only a bit. haiz omg my bro coming.... just beside me. lolz okies I have to let my bro use now kay?
See ya peeps..Nitez to all.Nitez.lolz oh my god my dad just behind me now see ya all love xiu.

There Is Something That I See...

Hey people! Long time no blog..or maybe..not? lolz still abit angry from last night la.today had stupid art.cried during that lesson in the art studio coz was thinking about my parents scolding me. Then dels ask me shut up also..felt kinda hurt so dun care then cry lor. Just feel sad la k.angry too.pissed at my parents..later they dragging me out to have dinner at some relative's place DAMMIT.i hate dinner with my parents.I always get scolded for some reason or even no reason dammit.I hate it.I hate them.But im gonna go since at home nth to do coz my baby also not online wad..
Oh cool now I just edited my post sighh.On the phone with my baby now ^^ so happy lolz.He's just too cute!hhmmm Monday..its fine with me..anytime for my baby lolz.yep we just put down coz his sis wanted to use or smth lolz.omg I just turned up the volume and the song by Blue [you make me wanna] just blasted help.my bro ask me why so loud -.-" always against me.Miss you lots now.lolz so fast.dunno how Im gonna survive while u r in perth but nvm ^^I miss youuuu.I think I'll die without you.lolz just now on the phone u said u will die in perth lolz.nah u wun.If you die I will also die k lolz.hhmm yea today..booring.went to watch movie after school today.some ghost show la k. One Missed Call -.-"damn scary but was sleeping halfway lolz lean on gina now my neck pain lolz.dunno la but got one really sick part of the show the girl got her head twisted off. disgusting >.<>Love my Darling Baby Angel 4 eva!Lotsa Love,Xiulin.

~:~:~This Is The Night~:~:~

Woot Hey everyone! not sad or depressed anymore..or pissed. Im happy happy happy! today lotsa good things happened..well only one bad thing happened so far,and its not that bad anyway.Okay...bad news or good news first? ok bad news first. get it over and done with.I failed my chinese test badly....
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AND THEN.The good news >=) lolz evil smile again.Today got dental checkup..hmmm typical. I love going to the dentist.From my point of view,its fun. lolz. then got my math and chinese test back.my chi test fail but my math pass.i just got scolded by my freaking parents. I HATE THEM LA.I PASS MY MATHS FOR THEM THEY NOT HAPPY IZZIT. SO NEXT TIME I BETTER FAIL FOR THEM TO SEE LA.I HATE MY PARENTS CAN. I HATE THEM ALLL!
haiz why.WHY?! crying now la.i hate my parents k.they don't appreciate that i actually PASSED my maths dammit.they got problem one la. Next time I fail any tests dun blame me.Its their fault for dashing my hopes. My hope of actually passing my tests and exams.now its all gone.all gone!
I really need my baby badly now. I miss him.poor boy broke his glasses,so he has to wear contacts tomorrow. haiz,poor me i suffer so much. im gonna have to call dels tonight to talk.I wanna talk to her about my parents dammit.I miss my baby.I miss dels.I miss everyone! freak it all my brother just came home.trouble is here.sigh really poor me.They are all going out for some wedding dinner tomorrow thank God im not going with them.I can't stick them anymore. If i go I'll just get scolded for some stupid reason,or even no damn reason at all.Im just frustrated now sorry k.I love my baby forever and ever.Will never leave ya. Miss you lots.*hugz n kisses*Love Xiulin<3>

I've Been Waiting Forever For This...

Hey baby!
Im feeling damn sad for mia now.dun disturb me.no mood to laugh dammit.
I miss my baby lots.He came online then went off again poor boy. I just had my dinner,carrot cake.lousy dinner. listening to Proud Of Your Boy by Clay Aiken now.Its a nice song really,If you ever have the time in your life to listen to it.coz everybody seems so caught up with everything and they move on with life far too fast.They end up with no time to themselves..no nature..so scenery.No LIFE. they will die eventually on the inside. mentally.There are people in this cruel world with no food and water to live on,not even a place to stay or sleep.No money,no love,eventually they die,one way or the other.Everyone,please cherish what you already have in your life.
I can't take it anymore. Please God help me.Im depressed.for people.for mia. Please bless him.I love my baby so much.Markie where are you..I miss you so much baby.You mean the most to me Im needing you so much now.Im lost.totally lost in my life right now.
what am I to do.I need to get your advice when I next get the chance to communicate with you baby.This problem ain't about me.Its about... nvm.I'll get to you people soon k? I promise. Will do.I miss my baby.I love you lots baby.DARLING BABY ANGEL! I LOVE YOU! Love Xiulin. <3

If You Told Me That Is What Heaven Is Well,You'd Be Right...

omg blogger seriously had smth wrong lor. I blogged yesterday but all that was posted was a blank one. SIGH,so i have to re-type the whole thingy man!
omg Adriel yeo is pestering me now argh lolz.
anyways Hie People!! I miss my baby!! (Darling Baby Angel) lolz. today ah..
had a horrible math test dammit.In the middle of the test suddenly daydream about Mark then after about 20 mins then only went back to work -.-" lolz. its gonna be another one of those tests I'll be failing coz I din study for it.Not that I could even if I tried.I would just start singing and walking around lolz,then will sit down and stone,thinking about Mark lolz.I wonder whats he doing now..I miss him lots.Today din get to say a proper goodbye coz wy was there.. lolz.I hated my day at school today..but the end of school was okay..involving a teacher-friend talk with our DnT teacher,Mrs How Yip. lolz I just know Im gonna get killed by her tomorrow.I haven even bought the DnT book yet -.-"dun care la.whatever she thinks of me being better last term than this and wose last year,argh she doesn't know a thing about my life. really.I din know I was meeting Markie they all today.I really din know.it was kinda last minute so..so me and dels went to tpc to meet the guys,then to KFC to meet gina and mel. then all went to LJS for lunch.lolz it was fun.then writing letters in LJS. so fun.then I had to go home. so I walked out.. out of the building..out..out... then my baby came running after me! yay!lolz I thought he was gonna stay behind with the others..lolz. then could hear gina,mel and dels screaming in LJS "gogogo!" I was like -.-" lolz so funny. thenme and markie talk n talk.then reach till the mrt going through the gates that time,then wy caught up with us lolz. then so sad never said a proper goodbye. lolz but at least got to wave at my baby.he's just too cute.then so sad when the train left..next time I must miss my train for him lolz.always got special train moments one.dunno why infront of his friends shy but when alone not shy. omg my dad just scolded me.so scary can die one lolz.when I was just getting to the interesting part too. argh just my luck dammit I hate him sigh.
omg he's just behind me now help me Im not gonna survive tonight. PHEW he just closed the room door behind him ^^ now have peace again. as I was saying... then I ran all the way home from ang mo kio mrt station. lolz then my mom din scold me anyway. but she cleared my room.. by herself..without my consent.. argh. why must she do this to me?! okok nvm.
now eating pop tarts.some American export thingy la lolz. so cool.English food mm.. lolz jkjk. I miss my baby so much.Hope to see him online sometime again! I love you baby always and forever! MY DARLING BABY ANGEL WOOO HOOOO. lolz!! Im mad. Nitez! Love Xiu.

Lift Me Up,In Your Eyes...

Hey everybody!
sorry din blog last night coz my internet connection got problem lolz.I missed my markie so much!He's not really grounded anymore..still can go online lolz.yips he replied my friendster message! lolz.i miss him.so bored now.my rabbit's running around the house.. my mom's home..sighh.lolz doing some crap. I miss him so much.can't wait too chat with him tonight on msn. he'll be tired..poor boy.
yay now editing this post lolz so its like..what I typed above is all..this afternoon type one lolz.I miss my baby. just now conference..mark,mia,dels,wy,me. lolz wy say dels line like got hurricane LOLZ. veh funny. Im hungry now and I miss my baby so much.so poor thing wy said markie's parents standing beside him so he cannot call lol.poor boy! lolz I love him so much ^^He means the most to me.. and Im hungry.Today's saturday..hhmmm sleeping late. last night i was conferencing with dels and mia.then after put down the phone.i just fell asleep lolz.then woke up at about 6 am the room light was still on.then went to feed rabbit,then off the light and went back to sleep.then till 1pm plus then my mom disturb me. -.- I was still tired lolz coz wake up early morning wad lolz.am happy coz my dad went to malaysia yesterday.yay no scolding from him till sunday night! woo hoo. but not long to go though..argh tomorrow night. im not speaking to my mom either coz while I was being a good girl and followed her to the gold smith's,i get scolded.its like WTH lor!! im damn angry coz she scolded me so I walked out of the shop and went to mos burger for lunch by myself,then after that popular bookshop to read comics lolz.dunno why but I picked out some kiasu comic which was so lame i din even understand it -.-" I miss my baby so much! he actually replied my friendster message lolz.dels just told me to say I love her wth -.-" lolz I miss my baby so much..when will I get to talk to him again..when will I get to see him again..ARGH.
I LOVE U BABY WHEREVER YOU ARE OUT THERE!!...
sry lolz. I just miss him so much ='(
I will love u always baby forever..Tired now..though not really tired coz I miss my baby so much dammit,I will always miss him.to you baby,*hugz and kisses* lotsa love!!! Love Xiulin. I Love U.

Cause Every Kiss Is A Kiss You Can Never Get Back...

I LOVE MY BABY!!!
anyways..poor boy.he was tired even before he had his game tonight lolz.poor boy.lolz I miss him so much.I suddenly can't wait to see him again...in person I mean lolz.can stare at him all day long (in a good way) also can.. lolz.He looks so sweet! my darling baby angel lolz.
omg i dunno wad im writing.thinking of contact lenses now. dunno wad im thinking about..im staring at the keyboard typing...help me someone.I need Markie my baby for inspiration.I wonder where he is...wats he doing now....hellp me someone help me find him..help me God..help me find him..I wanna talk to him I need him to live argh.Im totally blank now.He looks so sweet face to face...he smiles... and then seeing him smile..I smile too..then everyone's smiling..God made everyone to smile...not frown..I love his smile..its so cute,showing his teeth lolz just sooo adorable.my dad just asked me to off the comp wth.
OMG HE CAME ONLINE! MY BABY MARK CAME ONLINE WOOOOT!!!!!
CELEBRATION TIME COMMON!
finally!! so happy I missed my baby so much!okok my dad scolding me already lolz. okie I gotta go nowz baby!! I LOVE YOU SO MUCH..MY DARLING BABY ANGEL!!! WHEEEE!
HUGS AND KISSES KISSES KISSES KISSES KISSES KISSES KISSES.LOVE U BABY!love,Xiu!

But Im Not Gonna Wait When A Moment Can Vanish So Fast...

Hey everybody! so happy today talked to my baby.Poor thing he missed the train for me^^ so cute. then I was so sad had to go home then he still have to wait for the train again -.-"today I went mad in Macdonalds using my phone to take pics of Markie lolz. so funny I look at him..he smiled..*sighh*
lolz daydreaming..or more of nightdreaming? I MISS HIM!I miss him so much.My lil baby! ^^ just so adorable.
Today he followed me all the way to the mrt station. then only after his train doors closed,then suddenly he pop up beside me there -.-" so scary I thought he went already lolz.
then I actually wanted to say more to him when my train arrived. sighh no time to say "I Love You" but nvm,I'll say it next time. must.then so nice..through the people,I waved goodbye to him and smiled. and the train doors closed..and I was still looking at him..sigh I miss him.then as the train began to run,I looked at him..lolz he so cute stand at the side there..lolz then in the tunnel already I immediately took out my phone look at his pic. [Kelly Clarkson's A Moment Like This]"Some people wait a lifetime for a moment like this"
coz I missed him..today he wore a dark blue swimming team shirt,baggyish pants and slippers. so cute!just too cute
lolz....sigh feel so empty again without him online.poor boy still have swimming training lolz.
today really was a moment.. lols okok...
anyways,I went home,threw my bag on my room floor, fed my rabbit,then went to bathe lolz.Then after I finished bathing,I went online..ate my dinner infront of the comp lolz.then till now.....I miss my baby so much. Hopefully he comes online before my dad screams at me to go offline lolz.awww now listening to She Will Be Loved.. nice song,really.
okie will stop here for tonight lolz typed so much.still waiting for my baby to come online tts why lolz. Okayyy,byee everyone,I love Baby Markie! My darling baby angel lolz.Love Xiulin

I Could Take All The Time I Had...

Woo Hoo Babie!! I miss you lots now.lolz chatting on taggies with you...bahaha you so pro got game tomorrow..lolz pro sia.everytime also got game ^^ lolz.The Esplanade concert was great! totally great! felt so happy after it lolz.sigh I lurvee you.. lolz last night sleep so well coz so tired..was kinda worried coz I missed your call remember?bahaha I think you sound asleep already lolz.oh my God my bro's home.gonna get him to fix msn for me now k? will end here ^^ see ya people.Love Ya Baby! Love Xiulin

When The World Wasn't Upside Down...

Hey everybody!!!Its meeeee!! Wasup!! Im happy coz i just got to chat with my baby online!Then added Jes on msn ^^ Miss my Markie...
okay okay..Tomorrow is The Big Day. ESPLANADE PERFORMANCE "BEAUTIFUL SUNDAY" AT 3 PM!wooo hooo! Its finally happening! Biggest performance in my life. I just hope I dun sing wrongly.. hope so. I looked through my scores today. hmm. "scarborough scarborough" lolz.
I miss my baby lots and lots now. It was great talking to Jes.yea..we had a lil gal talk there.. *heh* sighh My baby so sweet!!!!! I miss you!! Will give it my all tomorrow. I will think of my baby while singing! =D so fun! Wish me luck! have ter go offline now.. scared wun be able to wake up at 6 am tomorrow lolz. SEE YA PEOPLE!!I LOVE U BABY FOREVER MY DARLING BABY ANGEL!! WOOO HOOO! God please bless me tomorrow. Love u baby! Love Xiu. :P:P:P

You Never Say Goodbye...

Hey People! I miss my baby darling Markie! Soo cute! lolz.Its another fun day!We Had choir,and we ended early!! woot!and my choir mates dragged me out for lunch and neoprints at Junction 8! Then after that I came home and went online..and I can't remember..but i think awhile after I came online,Markie came online.wooot! Oh Joy! lolz.
Then at night..hm I mean just now..He came online again! so happy.get to see my baby online so many times today.bahahahaha!!! And my dad just scolded me -.-"...sometimes I just wanna strangle him..
nvm..as I was saying..I was thinking about Markie today..and Was kinda daydreaming about colourful flowers...windmills...beautiful beaches..dunno..its called daydreaming! so fun!
It just brings you to a wonderful dreamland with no worries..so carefree..so light..that you feel like reaching up into the sky.. [Kelly Clarkson's Breakaway] "I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly,I'll do what it takes till I touch the sky.."
kewl!See,songs ARE meaningful after all huh? lolz!okok..I just miss My Markie,but I dun feel empty today coz I chat so much with him today..will be sad tomorrow coz he's going on a camp thingy..going back home on Sunday..
Oh yea that reminds me! SUNDAY IS THE PERFORMANCE AT ESPLANADE!noooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo...
Im scared I'll make mistakes..Im afraid..sigh.Just do my best..
[Clay Aiken's Measure of a Man] "Would he give his life up to be all he can?"
hmmm...another meaningful song! Yay!
okok,This is a long one today,I'd better end here before my Dad screams more. Nth better to do la he... anyways,Gooobye people!! I Love Markie Baby!I Love You!!!!!! Luurvvee,Xiu!!
[Micheal Jackson's You Are Not Alone] "You never said goodbye..." Oh cut it out!!! ;P <3>

You're Not Here With Me...

Honey..I miss you so much..
Its me again..Sigh today was a pretty boring day though I had a fun time in Choir..It was pretty scary though..I had to say a few things on wad to think of when performing.And I gave a silly grin. wad a nice start.sigh.I miss my baby so much.feel so empty..so sad...so...alone...So worried about this Sunday's performance at Esplanade.Hope I dun get pulled out last minute.Its pretty scary.Very.Just have to hope for the best this Sunday..I feel so depressed without him online.Just feel so empty..Hope I get to talk to him soon in some way..God please give me a sign that he's okay..will be waiting for that sign.I Love You Markie Baby.Forever....Love Xiu.

How Could This Be...

I'm so alone.
I miss him.
My Baby. Mark.
Sighh,he's probably at the game against Chinese High now.. its 7.59 now. His game starts at 8.In Clementi..
Good luck to him..May God bless him.
I had a really boring day today..It was really a surprise when I saw him online at 3+ in the afternoon. lolz he was at his aunt's house...Sigh its all dull and boring without him online.Nothing seems right without him...I miss him so much..I even dreamt about him last night -.-"
He just looks so adorable. My Darling Baby Angel..Sighh. Listening to "Everytime" now...Its such a sad song..well kindof.
"Everytime I Try To Fly,I Fall Without My Wings,I feel So Small,I Guess I Need You Baby"
I Do Need You.I Miss You So Much Baby.Will Be Waiting To Hear From You Soon. Love Xiu. <3

I'm Still All Alone...

Hihi people!! I miss my baby!!!so sad coz he..he..got grounded. sigh i feel like dying.thank God he still can sneak online,lolz.finally gonna blog everyday now.sighhh choir concert this sunday..hope can sing for it.Esplanade..."bobby shaftoe's gone to sea,silver buckles on his knee.." lolz.bahahaha so bored now.I miss my baby so much. the poor guy,grounded when he's my darling baby angel!seriously,his mom is mad. kinda,always scold him... poor guy. "gotta let u know you're the one that i treasure.." lolz.all songs.
"I am nothing without you,just a shadow passing through.." argh i really am nothing without you.Though im trying to get to double wooden hammer on Gunbound..sigh. -I MISS YOU- I do!!
Love u lots baby always and forever.............LOVE......................................................Xiulin.

Another day has gone...

MY BABY ROCKS!
lolz.baby if u reading this,u know who u are! I Love You! lolz.yea choir was fun today. and the performance is this Sunday..Im just afraid...what if i dun get chosen to sing for it???
nvm about that now^^ lolz.my English compo...oh no.what if i fail?? what if- argh.if i fail english,there's no other hope for me to survive sec 1.I might as well just die -.-
anyways...my friends went to the movies without me today...with...uhm...some people.lolz.my baby din go..at first he thought he had training.but after that he said he din have training coz he's playing against Chinese High tomorrow...lolz so pro!
sighhh eating soup pasta now..so warm and nice..yummy!okie,shall stop here yea? Love my baby forever!!! Love everyone!! Love myself!! Love...my pets!!! Love..you..Love,Xiu!