To Hear You Say You Love Me,Like You Mean It.

Hey everybodeh!
Nice day I had today..until tuition time.IT SPOILT MY DAY PLS.*mutters smth*
stoopid tuition. use methods Ive NEVER SEEN BEFORE.serious. not anywhere leh!stupid teacher ah. no life one. then she teach me two times i also dun understand cos they use totally different methods. I told her I learnt it a different way she dun wanna listen. damn her.well to hell with her.Im never gna go to that tuition again,after the 3 more lessons.cus 4 lessons for 70 bucks. and its like ok la but if i dun learn anything,i might as well not pay right? lamer.stubborn.
stupid teacher.
ANYWAYS shall not talk about that lame tuition anymore. well I had an OK day.The only lesson I din like today was Math. ARGH.my math is so hopeless?U just have to take one look at my math and you know im hopeless. my rabbit is trying to lick my foot. LOL.its such a sweet rabbit.It can actually sense when Im angry or smth,then it will follow me arnd the hse and lick my foot. LOL so cute right.I have no idea how I managed to train it like that.Maybe it was just born smart LOL. dunno,but its so smart -.- smarter than me can already lolz.i can't believe it. im eating chocolate. LOL i just bit off the chocolate guy's head. so farnie. lolz! so lame.Today gina and I created 'sign languages' for afew words. LOL not rude ones anyway. just kinda nonsensical LOLZ.okok Im going on and on about my stupid day. I'll stop here kk. Takkare people. Luv u*

I Would Wait Until The End Of Time.

heyy. sigh.
today had quite a tiring day.but kinda happy now.
about 3 things tt made my day.
1)my compo chosen for some...competition thingy (sloppy work)
2)Ive mastered science,the chpter 2 thingy!(thanks miss teow!)
3)...dezi.
Today during chinese lesson,3 of *them were asked to go down for smth.I din know what it was at first.But i got to know about it soon after anyway. lolz.so *they went down...came back several times to take stuff..sometimes crying. sigh.So they were all kinda angry at our chinese teacher cos she..decided to send them out of chinese class..smth like tt.And well.....sigh. I mean who would want to feel unwanted?She had given up on them...but i could tell they still cared.Kinda.They wun be so angry if they din care.Its normal. this is life,what to do? :)
So I myself tt no matter what,I wun let them get out of class.Cos nobody's perfect.Nobody wants to be invisible and thrown aside like rubbish.And I wun let that happen.I told myself tt from today,I would listen in every class,boring or not.Because I really would suffer at the end.Ive thought about it.Sigh.A teacher's job is to make sure everyone understands.Teachers have to understand their students,or they really wun make it.Teachers...are people with skills,and their job is to pass on their skill to their students.They teach.Its the students' choice if they want to listen,to learn.But you can really tell tt they do,even if they shout back rude answers.They dun have to care at all.But they do.please understand,you were all like that once.teachers really are still kids inside.we all never want to be at the losing end.We want to win,therefore we do whatever it takes to win--being stubborn.Nobody is ever right or wrong.its just what people think.We were all created for a reason.Everyone has different weak points and strong ones.So we have to help one another.Accept others for who they are.Make a difference! :) bubbyes!<3>

Should I Believe The Magic In Your Eyes?

Hi!
Today WAS pretty boring.I woke up at about 12 plus LOL. too tired. Then I stayed in my room blasting music for about half an hour,then I went outside to switch on the comp. heh.played runescape,completed 2 quests.I haven't played GB for quite long already. sigh.my mom really not happy. i told her "i eat this kk?" then i held up some chinese new year tidbits leftover after my bro ate...then she glared at me and then turned back to the tv. wad did i do? she got prob one.i really long to go back to new zealand.sigh.sometimes i wished i could just be invisible to everyone.then i could be free. i like to be alone most of the time so it wun be a problem. sigh. sometimes i really hate weekends.i'll prob be going down later..maybe to rollerblade or just walk..or to the playground across the road.but i dun think i'll be allowed as it's near dinnertime..though nowadays i dun eat dinner with my family. maybe i should sms my friend to have dinner at jack's place with me?sigh.im never happy with my family anyway.or maybe i should go to jack's place alone? eat steak or smth?But being alone in such a posh place is so pathetic! ohmygod. sigh.I hate living in a flat.Living in a condo is the best la.get to know lotsa people.I hate my life. I love u. ARGH! the one tt I loved before. always and forever. :) -Xiuuu.

Baby When You Hold Me,Do You Feel It?

Heloz!
everybodeh!
Todeh was eh borin deh.
I wenth foh choir,cam bahk at one.
OK LA!I'll type properly -.-"
Then on the way home I listened to taufik LOL. I like his album.so..jazzy yet pop,r&b. LOL.I love one of his songs. Its called One Last. Im serious,listen to it! Its so choir-boyish. maybeh!
I took bus 851 home with lorna and her sisters.heh.Then on the over-head bridge,cos nobody there wad..then I sang -.- LOLZ so lame.I love earphones.They make u think that the whole world is filled with that song.Sorta.Surround sound babbeh!So nice. sigh <3
Ive been thinking of him lately. sorta.SIGH. I remember I used to write in my book "I love to mark papers" LOL. I miss u,if you're there.
ANYWAY,getting back to where I was. where was I? LOL. lost alr.
Im listening to One Last now. so nice! my dad just scolded me wth. everything also not happy. sigh. omg I feel like vomiting. cos my dinner was kinda...slimy. all the kway teow,and then I drank "heaven and earth" calamansi lime green tea. YUCK,i got headache now. Oh wells I better go now.Parents both not happy now. mad one.Its a wonder why Im not grumpy like them lolz.
Miss yer all. :) takkare yeahs? love! -Xiu :)

When You Say You Love Me,Do You Mean It?

Hey people.
I din sleep for the whole night.Believe it? I can't. lolz.
Things kinda cleared up abit for me.And for dels too I guess lolz.cos she was so excited about her phone,I finally made her see sense.heh.
so lame.Today my parents and I went to Bishan junction 8...They went to see refridgerators cos ours is spoilt.So they finally bought a fridge..and well,I bought alot more than they did.lols.I bought Taufik's album,Blessings. I bought a book,animal farm,and a magazine,8 days from MPH.
I wanted to buy KungFu Hustle VCD,but ended up not buying it cos my dad was there.He's the stingy type,u all know.So I actually wanted to buy tmr,but dels say she and gina buying it for me on monday,so I'll just wait till then.Good things come to those who wait right? LOL!!!
Oh wells anyway..Tmr I have choir.Early morning. 7.45 am babbeh! LOL.
fir dir bir dir.Today i went mad again.I longed to hear breakaway so I did,and it brought back memories dammit.Oh wells better end here.My parents nagging at me.crazy. lols jkjk. bye! -Xiu

I Guess I Must Be Wishin On Someone Else's Star.

Hi people.

Sigh.

I had the most horrible day.And it hasn't ended yet.
We were having science.
Then mrs pat ho tan came in and started screaming.First at the class,then maria,then the class again.I suppose we deserved it.We didn't help with the deco,only some of us did.Sigh.Im so angry,I dunno why.Im so disappointed. I hate myself.I hate everything.Im so slow.I dun understand the stupid topic.Science chapter 2 damn it.WHATS WRONG WITH ME!
I sat during science lesson,staring at the piece of paper,while everyone around me is busy writing stuff down,working it out,knowing what to do.Me?Im CLUELESS.
Im still me,but Im sad now.Is it really my fault?Maybe it is. It always is. WHY?!

Then miss teow talked to me about science and stuff. Outside the staffroom. ha. sigh.It made me feel better,kindof. But then we got screamed at again when dels went to Kitchen 2 to look for mrs pat ho tan for *something*.Then she screamed again.This is never going to end.I hope it will,soon.Oh my God I've been typing crap. CRAP CRAP CRAP EVERYTHING IS CRAP.
whatever.Nobody can understand,not even one.Dun try asking. bye everybody. -xiu

Zhi Yao Wei Ni Huo Yi Tian

I love that song...I just love it.It sounds so..glorious. LOL go search for the song,VERY NICE!
LOLLLLL.The song is..kinda lovish,like saying"I will live one day just for you" kind of thingy lol.
Its so sweet.I got to know the song from KungFu Hustle.Sigh I just love that movie.I hope that it'll still be in the cinemas next week so that maybe I can watch it again? maybeh!
Today I came home quite late.I came back home around 7.30pm. Argh got headache now.If I lay down on my bed,I think I could fall asleep straightaway!Too tired.I can't wait to get my phone. sigh.ohmygod I'm seriously tired.Tomorrow going to a tuition centre for tuition for the first time in my life.I wonder how it'll be like?Never experienced before. sigh. Poor me.I'm more of a "I wanna be alone" kind of thing.I prefer to be alone.Cos I can talk to something and it won't shoot rude answers back at me.And I can sing to myself.I wanted to remain at the back during Math lesson,but she just had to move me infront for some reason...but I kinda like it all by myself at the back.Its more peaceful,more free.When somebody is looking straight at you,just looking or watching,you try to impress that person,and that means extra effort..even stress!When Im all by myself at the back,I feel free.No tension,no whatsoever.Everyone needs time alone.To reflect,and to plan,sometimes just think. You people should know what I mean. lolz.
I think of my freedom as somewhere peaceful,beautiful scenery,fresh air...Somewhere like New Zealand.I miss that place.The only time I went there was when I was pri 4.I can still remember every detail of it,even when my cousin and I went through the park,getting all the ducks to follow us LOL.It was kinda funny.Then we went to the rose garden and started picking.We even stayed in this resort-hotel thingy,and it smelt of smth.And well,the temperature in NZ at that time was pretty low,but we still ate ice cream! How fun,those happy days.Now its all sad sad sad.
sigh.Okay I shall end here right?If I go on,you people would just die. LOL bye love everyone!-X

Oh,I Can't Help Myself,I Love You And Nobody Else

YOOOOO!!!
Weekend!!! Its saturday today la. Had choir practice.Performed for sec 1 orientation.
Does it sound boring? Maybeh!It was ok.Just that I have a darn flu and my nose is runny.Not that runny..it doesn't drip. lolz.ewww.
Change subject!
Boring afternoon.I went to the gas station just now with my parents (who unexpectedly picked me up from school) and I bought a tiny cup of Ben and Jerry's!!! Yum,cookie dough ice cream.
You people should try their Cherry Garcia,Cookie Dough(not that nice),and Vanilla! Those are good. heh. I have two plasters on my right foot,one on my left.I got a cut and two sorta-blisters from walking too much yesterday in them shoes.We saw mel off.I miss her.everyone does.She's always been the heart of the class..she makes it come alive.Now that she's gone to Aus,our class has died.Sigh its so sad.Anyways about the shoes again. I dunno how I actually got the cut.Probably from the back of the shoe thingy. LOL and the blisters were...well you should know. bahahaha.My parents are downstairs in NTUC,probably raiding the shelves.They said "u want abalone anot" then I "sui bian" LOLZ. I mean...so what if its abalone? It doesn't really make a difference to me.Clams are like abalone too! Just that I have a fear of one type of clam..I forgot what its called.But I kept them as pets few years ago (common dun laugh,I was young!)
and well they dried up and I was still watering them daily. LOL so stupid right? Then few days later it started decomposing and well...there were stuff growing on it.Dun stop eating clams because im telling you this kk. There were worms. Long,white,earthworm-like. It was so gross I ran to my room and shouted for my dad to throw it away LOLL so farnie.

ANYWAY!Tis' so fun.My rabbit keeps trying to run into my brother's room when it thinks Im not looking. LOLL. Evil rabbit -.-
Woah kay la.Will end here since there's nothing else..not really. Bye people love ya all! :) -Xiu

Oooh Sugarpie Honeybunch,You Know That I Love You!

LOL hi everybodeh!
Long time no blog.
Today had a fun day in school...I think. sigh journal. i love journals. LOL
today all the teachers were in a good mood..kind of.Except miss liem. sadness. but she wokay la. not that evil now. All the other teachers were in a good mood. dunno why. maybe something happened. heh. LOLZ!
ohmygod. my father is so dam evil.He came out of the kitchen.then he shouted at me "qu chong liang ah! now ah!" sigh. his chinese...sigh.easy for him to speak English he dun wanna speak -.-
lamer.
ANYWAYS.gosh teachers dun start on me. My dad has always been like that for 13 YEARS and..sadness.can u believe it,Ive been suffering my whole life.I came back from choir at about 6.30.then I had my dinner,I ate like Ive been starving hungry for few years. LOLZ. cos I had a sore throat this morning,couldn't eat recess.. no time to eat lunch,so whole day din eat until dinnertime.
I just let my rabbit out to run lols. Poor little guy in the cage whole day. Its quite facinating,how mrs tan manages her pets,family and work at the same time. quite.Cos I JUST realized that teachers go home abt 6+ or later lolz.poor them. poor me. poor everybodeh!
I miss him. i mean. er. him. HIM LA. m***. anyway...can't wait to go hawaii in march. this sat have performance for the orientation thingy. i think i spelt it wrongly but nevermind. bahahha!
have to memorize "When I Fall In Love" lol.
Oh yeah. just today I realized Ive been slow all my life. IN EVERYTHING. math,chinese,english,science,choir,Clay,Kungfu Hustle,music.
EVERYTHING OMG!
I can't believe Im so slow. -.-"""
Im just another sad case la OK.
okok I shall go bathe now.. sigh -.-" kk bye people takkare all of u kk. bye teachers. -.-" <3 Xiu.

After All Ive Waited For,I Could Not Ask For More.

Hi everyone.Its gna be a short one tonight cos i have less than half an hour online.But Im thankful for it cos i spent ALOT of time bugging my parents for it.help.sigh my life is horrible.My math teacher wants to get me tuition..cos i think i failed my most recently taken math test,and im scared she told my choir teacher but seems unlikely.And after choir,cos I was released late...and I called my dad...and got scolded by him upon telling him. sigh.then i went back in a packed bus..and got squashed like a pancake..then i walked home.It felt so wonderful walking on the overhead bridge,wind blowing,skies getting dark,free from all the troubles at home or in school.Just by myself,free to do what I want.I sang on the overhead bridge.It was just so beautiful to have some quiet time alone.No problems...no worries.But then the minute I got off the overhead bridge,it all came back to me.The hamster's death,the maths test,mom,DAD.My biggest problem of all.sigh sometimes I wish..nevermind.You people will never understand.I dun understand why Singaporeans are so kiasu.I can't stand it.I wish I could fly away,all by myself,no worries,no whatsoever.And that means...dying.You people would just think Im crazy,after my hamster's death.But no,Im serious.I'll end here.Bye people love u!-Xiu:(

These Are The Moments I Remember All My Life.

Its the first day of school.
It was totally horrible.
I entered the classroom of 2/5...I was late.It was so horrible.The teacher asked me why was I late...and I said it was because I stayed up half the night. Then she asked why,and I had to tell her "because my pet died".
IT WAS SO HORRIBLE.There I was,fighting to hold back the tears.
Then she asked me to go sit down.And I did.
and guess what? Dels said the day before she was gonna sit with me.And then I saw her sitting with gina at the back.It was so horrible.And I felt frozen,under the fan.I had my jacket on,but it wasn't helping.I felt so hurt.The night before I got scolded by my dad.And this morning before going to school too.I had a horrible day in school,I tell you.Everyone was so different.But our form teacher was nice,really.She kinds of understands us.And we got Mrs Chiam as our chinese teacher.Again.We were happy,but I dun think she was.I kinda feel sorry for her.Anyways Mrs Tan talked about ACSB and memories came back to me.I hated those memories.I wanna forget them,but I can't seem to.Maybe I dun want to.There's something inside me that tells me its gna take a very long time.And..I still love him.For some reason I don't know.But its over now. sigh.
I saw it die.The hamster.It was so sad.I could see its tears.And it was heaving and heaving,then it had to try so hard to breathe.It suffered so much.So I told myself that if it din die by 2am,I had to make it.I couldn't let it suffer for the whole night till morning.But then again I din have to kill it.It died.I knew that it died cos its little heart stopped beating.And it got stiff quite fast.
(I dun wanna go into details what I did.)
Then,I put it in a little box and wrapped it with a cloth,then threw it down the bin.It was 2 am,what could I do?I din want it to decompose.So I said another prayer,then threw it down the bin.I was crying like crazy.I saw it die.Was I the one who has caused its death?Why did I let it? Because it was suffering,or because I was tired and selfish? I couldn't sleep the whole remaining night,asking myself these questions over and over again.So I was kinda listless in school.sigh.
My life is another sad case.I'll stop here for now.Bye everybody.Love u all. -Xiu :(