This,have I done for my true love.

I'm feeling terrible.
Came down with a high fever the night before last.Totally horrid,although I have no idea how I got it.Feeling so weak...
You gotta be sick to know.When you're sick,all your energy just drains man.
I can't even decide what to have for breakfast,because I usually wake after.
I've just drunk a mug of water though.Flush out the toxins.Damn,why must I fall sick just before school starts?!
I don't want to miss the first day of school,thats suicide!Oh God,please don't let me have Mrs Khoo as my Math teacher again.I'm most worried about English,what will it be like?
I managed to sleep for 6 and a half hours last night.It's not too bad,compared to the past few nights.I could hardly sleep.So much for trying to rest.I want to be cured and sleep properly!I have to take like...12 tablets a day now.
Totally sucks,having to swallow pills.Some of them are so large!
You people have no idea.I'm stuck with nothing to do.Don't feel like doing anything 'cos I've got a splitting headache now.Hurts so much.
I should just go back into bed and rest or something.Sigh.
Whole..body...aching.....
I can't take it anymore!I'm going back to bed. Happy end-of-holidays. -Xiu =(

Merry Christmas,With Love!

Whew,after hours of intensive testimonial-e-mail typing,letter writing,online chatting,I'm finally free.
It's been another year,since last Christmas day!
A really challenging but...fruitful year.
Yeah.I suppose thats the right word to use.
I have learnt a lot from this past year alone,things that will be of use to me later on in life.Sigh,the wonders of teaching.
Ah well,this Christmas has been a disappointing one though.
The Christmas tree I made turned out lousy this time.Sigh.
No presents or anything,just a big big feast that could not be finished.
Lots of food left behind...Mom tried bribing me today with 500 bucks.LOL.
Whatever,I still want my handphone plan.Just spoke to my brother about it.
Ah.I-I- I wanna go offline now to watch Pirates of the Carribean on the comp.
I shall end here.
Merry Christmas everyone! <3 Xiu =)

Sing:Oh my love,oh my love,my love,my love.

S'me again!
Bored,as usual.Later tonight,I'm going to be watching Van Helsing.Y'know,the one with Richard Roxburgh innit.I've always wondered why the bad guys are never mentioned first,its always the heroes.
I feel like playing Monkey Island 4.Yet,I just wanna be online so I don't miss out on anything.I just finished typing a long e-mail for Kathleen.Hope she likes it =X
I just looked out the window.I need some fresh air.I've been kinda cooped up at home.I can't go out with anyone cos' everyone's so busy.I'll have to start sending out the Christmas gifts and cards.It's almost Christmas,and I haven't sent them!They're going to be late because of all the card traffic during this time of the year.Sigh.I need to think of something fast...Oh my goodness,its FRIDAY ALREADY!I didn't notice!Damn,they're so going to be late.I shall wake early tomorrow morning to post them and get some fresh air.Ah!I haven't gotten anything for mom and dad!Oh my god.JIE!SAVE ME!
You're killin me,you're really killin me. I'll see you tomorrow. Love! -Xiu =)

To call my true love to my dance

Hi.
Reading my older posts,I feel sad >.<
Actually,Dec 1st turned out to be the greatest day ever,apart from the fact that I almost lost my file.Argh!
Anyway I'm chatting to Dels on msn now,just finished tagging people's tagboards.Someone needs to invent a time machine.I want one!I can go back in time and re-do everything.When I get to this age,then I'll rewind again.LOL.
Lame,I know,but y'know,it may be fun.One can sorta walk in someone else's shoes.Okay I shall stop this time machine thing for now.
I'm currently waiting for my lunch cos dad went down to take it away."Chai Tao Kway",its called.I only returned from my trip to Thailand on the 19th,after which I was really tired.I didn't drop straight into bed though,still had to take a shower and all that.Sigh.
Lunch is home!Eating it now.Nice,warm food.
I watched two DVDs yesterday.One of which was called 'Mean Girls'.The other was called 'House Of Wax' !!!Tonight,I shall watch two more =X
One of them shall be 'Daddy Daycare'.I don't know what else I want to watch.I'll see.I'm bored.It's obvious that I'm trying to think of something to type.I do miss choir rehersals.They keep me busy,with something productive to do instead of watching TV and using the computer.Oh yeah,I bought a new organizer for 2006!I'll be pretty busy next year so I'll be needing one.Okay whatever,I shall end here. -Xiu =)

The New Moon In The Old Moon's Arms.

Yo.
Here I am,staring at the screen once again.
Did something crazy last night while I was on Friendster.
Oh wells.
I have choir rehersal later,over at Victoria Concert Hall.
I hope I won't be late...or too early?
I just hope I won't be late -.-"
Can't wait to sing those songs again.They've been stuck in my head all week!I mean,since Saturday.It's just not the same without singing with the whole choir.
I'm in love with the third song.
Anyway,this is my 101th post!Man,have I typed so much!Of course,it's not really endless.
Some of the earlier posts are a little hard to read because of the colours but nevermind,not very interesting either.Just don't!
Need to speak with Bath(Kath) about dinner tomorrow,before performance.Darn.There IS a Macdonald's nearby but we shall have to walk.It's quite big though.I'm feeling sad.After tomorrow night,I'll never get to sing those 3 songs again!Well,not for a while at least.Who knows?Maybe in a few year's time I might have to sing it again.I just hope.
Oh yeah.I watched Son Of The Mask on DVD yesterday,the guy playing Loki had cute hair!
I packed my room,looks much neater,I think.Well,thats what I think.IIIIIIII!I can't wait for tonight.I shall go spend my time wisely now.I'm going to read!Buhzz! -Xiu =)

Happy 27th Birthday,Clay!

Yo.
Bored.
Nothing to do.
It's 5.14pm now.
Thinking.
I had choir this morning.Early this morning.Didn't run as usual.It's been raining,ground was too wet.We might slip,fall,and die.Anyway I'm here staring at the screen.Mind's blank,don't know what to type.Typing what I'm thinking.Darn.I have someone to forgive,but don't know how.He's pretty stubborn though.Bleat.
I went to the library @ Esplanade yesterday with my sister.Our...aim was to not spend any money.See,we were allowed to borrow alot,so I did.The library had stuff mostly of multi-media,and music books.Musically-inclined people go there.I mean,who knows?It might seem so fun to them,they go there everyday.
Borrowed some old films (one videotape and some DVDs),my sister borrowed the whole first season of "XENA:The Warrior Princess" -.- Oh well.It's a teenager thing.Like me.
Today's Clay Aiken's birthday,as displayed on my MSN nickname.Every (one of his)birthday(s),I draw a picture at least one day before.On his 25th birthday,I traced out a picture of him quite carefully on tracing paper.It is kept in a safe place,where it belongs...
On his 26th birthday,I did the same:I traced out another one of his pictures,put it together with the other tracing.On his 27th birthday(which,I'm proud to say,is today)...No,no.Actually I did the drawing last night.I wanted to do something different.Tracing is like copying.It's...cheating?
I drew in my sketchbook instead.A simple,yet...stylish(?) drawing.I drew a face,only from the nosebridge down.The mouth had a microphone infront of it.If you have read my Friendster profile,you'd know that I've typed "He takes a deep breath and opens his mouth,getting ready to sing,to spread joy to the world".I totally adore my work,man.At least I'm original for once!
Oh yeah,I've been his fan for two years (and some months) now.I used to be crazy.People thought I was crazy.Maybe I was.I would play the same old song over and over,memorised all the lyrics,download all the videos.I still have my collection of "American Idol (II)" video tapes!Well okay not all of them.What I really do have are of the finale.1st part and 2nd part.Poor Clay.He knew that he was going to lose because he already saw the card that Seacrest was holding before they announced the results.He lost by less than 1% of the votes!
It's all over now.He's gotta move on,right?
All his fans will go off him one day,I'm quite sure,but what I'm sure of is that he will be respected for his heart. -Xiu =)

Tomorrow shall be my dancing day!

Ah!It will be.Maybe not tomorrow but someday =X
Went to a concert last night,let me recap.
MGS concert,called Cantabile.Held at ACS B's concert hall.
Sorta joint with the SYC though.
Miss Tham conducted the MGS for some,then for a really long song,Mr Tay conducted.He only conducted one song though.Some song about nature,I think.
His conductor's suit thingy seemed like it was too big for him lol.I guess he still looked okay.
After that,SYC sang afew songs with them,and by themselves.I saw my sis,but she didn't see me.Goodness.I was in the 3rd row,right in the middle!At least I knew Miss Tham saw me.
2nd part of the concert:SYC went upstairs to sit.MGS had a change of clothes.Drums and piano came in.Blah blah blah.I can't remember.I was so tired cos I was up at 9am yesterday,out by 10am,whole day till about 10.30pm so I was really worn out.Yea there was the flower-giving thingy too.Ms Tham and Mr Tay both got some gifts and a bunch of flowers each.Then it was The End.I called my sis and met up with her,saw Ady on the way out LOL.He looked a lil' different.Was too tired to notice much.Met with my sis and we went to Waffletown to have some food [double scoop ice-cream waffle(choc and strawberry),large ice milo,6 chicken wings] then we went home after that by MRT.Soooo very tired.At least I was happy.Don't know why,but I was happy.My day went like this: Morning:woke at 9am.Got ready for choir practice @ Stamford Arts Centre (thats in Bugis).Left house at 10am,took the MRT to Bugis,met up with some choir people and walked to SAC.Waited some time with the others before Mr Tay came along with the keys.We had to bring along our concert wear yesterday to show Ms Tham.So we were discussing that,while waiting for the door to be unlocked.Finally it was,and we got warming up and all that,didn't do much warming up before we started singing but it was fine.We got warmed up (literally) anyway.Few adults from the SLO adult's chorus came to join in "Tomorrow shall be my dancing day".Sounded great,actually.We finally got it.Well,sorta.I got hooked on it,sang it for the WHOLE day,making people irritated.It's a lovely song.Anyway after choir I went to have lunch by myself at Long John Silver's in Bugis.It started to rain but I was safe in there.So I took my time eating my lunch.This lady at the table opposite mine kept smiling at me.Freaky,I tell you.After lunch I went up to Kinokuiya to read.Got new books there but no money to buy lol.After reading went to Orchard to meet Gervin,walked around Popular,then went to meet Nisha.Shared Famous Amos cookies,went into Fox (Men) cos I wanted to see the model's picture.LOL!He's quite cute.
Went to have dinner with Gerv and Nisha.Got tired.Made our way to Newton MRT station.Met up with some people.Sam and I walked to Waffletown,she said she was hungry and wanted to buy something.We ended up walking out again and went into 7-eleven instead.She bought an ice-cream,asked for directions to ACS B while I called Gerv using her phone telling them that they should just go on their own cos we're opposite the school already.We walked.
Went to some place overlooking the swimming pool.Lotsa kids swimming.Couldn't see who was who so gave up and walked towards the concert hall and waited there till the doors opened and walked to the front and sat down,waiting for the concert to begin. -Xiu =)

I'll make a wish for you

Yoyoyo.
I'm writing this after a looong day.Day started out with my sister waking me and asking if I touched her phone.She was grumpy cos the alarm was on snooze and she overslept.She was late by 2 hours,I think.Mom told me.Anyway after that I went back to sleep,only woke up around maybe...12?Yeah.Mom was so excited about spending the day in Suntec City.She didn't end up buying anything.We went anyway.First for lunch all the way in Bukit Timah.It was a decent meal with chicken rice,fried kai lan with garlic,chicken,fish curry,and some soup that always comes with chicken rice.Forced dad to eat more.After that we drove my brother back to his camp.I was looking at the motto "Together as one". -.-
We drove off to Bishan where mom and I were dropped off.We went looking around Junction 8,then taking the MRT to City Hall.Went to Raffles City,there was this Batman show on.Ick.You know that kind.The mom tells the kid "There!Thats Batman!"And the kid cheers loudly,"BATMAN!BATMAN!"
It was totally lame.I was there,I know.Just passing by though.Looked around,then went out into the open and walked to Marina Square.We took a look there.I need clothes for my performance.I don't want to look like some old person on stage!Ohmy goodness.No thanks,mom.Man,you should've seen her picking out the clothes.I almost died!Thank goodness she didn't buy anything.We saw this nice skirt,perfect for my performance,but she said no.Sigh.Why can't she understand that we both have different tastes.You should see her selections.Really.She walks into those shops.I remembered seeing those old people looking at her-style clothes,speaking Hokkien and having totally out-of-shape figures.I mean it!Come shopping with me one day and I'll show you which shop it is!Anyway I treated us to dessert at Han's.I had some chocolate cake and a soup-of-the-day and she had a chicken pie with a coffee.I hate coffee.
I thought of taking away some Long John Silver's to eat on the way to Suntec City but didn't anyway.We walked to Suntec,stopping by at Levi's.When we finally got to Suntec City,we passed by the tour booth,you know,that one with all the Duck Tour and Hippo Tour things.Goodness,I can't believe that I'm actually going for one of those on Dec 3rd.We walked,and we walked,and we walked.I saw the newly-opened Ben & Jerry's!I so love Ben & Jerry's ice-cream.I wanted to buy some,but having already bought some sushi and Baby Dutch Edam cheese (individually packed!),I decided not to.We went over to some Delight eating place,with the stand-around tables to eat our food.Mom bought an ice lemon tea.She said it tasted funny.After eating my sushi,I saw an interesting selection...Of food on sticks.It's Japanese food,see,and there were these cute little scallops (dead,of course,and boiled) and wanted to try some,so I bought a stick.They added some sauce to it which I thought tasted too...salty.I liked the scallops though.They looked like shellfish on a stick,which they are.Tasted just like the kind you find in restaurants.After that,went home,had a bath,and here I am now.I haven't had my dinner yet,don't know if I am.Maybe I'll have something later.I shall go have my cheese!Bye now! Luv,Xiu =)

You and I collide.

Its me!
AHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA!
I get to do O level English next year!Wheee! (What on Earth is it anyway?)-.-"
Anyway,went to school for streaming results today,I got into my first choice,for some reason.I know it couldn't have been my results cos' I did kinda badly for Final Years.Don't blame me!The papers were much much tougher.Like,really.
Ooo dinner is served!
Anyway I'm gonna really miss all my teachers...Well only some -.-" Because total-some=the rest.The rest will still be teaching me next year,worst luck,because I totally dislike that subject.Lol.Mmm I'm getting my Omega-3s now.I sure hope that I'll be able to survive Sec 3.Sigh.Argh!Kathleen and Gervin get to do CHEMISTRY and BIO!Well I get to do bio too but not chem.No fair.But not much point anyway.Only Express people get to take it -.-"
Oh man.Bye teachers,I'll miss ya'll soooo much.Shall end here.Tata! -Xiulin =)

So much to say goes unspoken.

Hey,its me again.
Another day.
Went to sell food in school this morning (fund raising)...After that,went to the Singapore Polo Club to see horses lol.Touched horses,smelt horses,watched them have baths,and so on.We saw lotsa cats there too,wonder why?
Anyway so I'm back home now,having my lunch.Mmm,jiaozi.
I'm bored.I shall game later.Not going for food selling tomorrow,so what will I do?Maybe I should go to a gym?No one to go with?Sigh.I need to get a life.
Maybe I should go out on my own?It's not so bad,you know.Kinda peaceful.Nobody to keep telling me "I need to buy my Zara skirt!" -.- Thats just lame,right.I guess tomorrow for me will be gaming all day.Aw man got a form for the Choir Olympics thing,I need to pay a deposit of 50 dollars first.The total sum of it all is...close to 2000 dollars!I'm gonna be soooo broke,I tell you.But you know,its gonna be just like the Hawaii trip,just that this one's in China.Xiamen,was it?Gonna meet people from all over the world,just that this time,they all sing,unlike the Hawaii trip people,whom some played in an orchestra or something.Hahaha.Excitedddd.Oh well.I just finished my lunch,so I guess I shall end here.See yuh! -Xiu =)

W.W.C.D.?

What Would Clay Do?
Dunno.Sing?
S'me again.Boring afternoon,sis is at choir.Today was very very tiring,although its only 4.21pm.This morning,I woke up early..blah blah blah,went for choir practice with some SLO thing.Don't know,but it was kinda fun.Learnt two new songs.Christmas carols,just not the usual ones.The girls were mostly from my choir.Few other girls are from ? I have no idea where.They just came,and we sang.So yeah.After that,sis came to pick me up.She felt like such a star,I tell you.My friends totally worship her?We went off at last,walked to Raffles Hotel so that she could try her new choir gown thing.Wilson was already there.Aw man,the new choir gown looks like..looks like.Well she looked like some indian warrior when she put it on alright.You just have to see for yourself.Go watch them in concert!After they (finally) finished trying on the gowns,we went for lunch.Well see,on the way to Raffles Hotel,we were greeted by the stong smell of fried chicken wings,so after that we felt like having some.We walked downstairs...Past some branded shops and high class cafes...Crossed the street and came to a chicken rice stall -.-" Now,there wasn't much time to spare,so we just ate there.There were fried chicken wings!LOL!Oh well,its bad for me but I ate it anyway.We ordered a set for three people,which was alot really.Thank goodness he can eat alot... =P He saw his (old) teacher there..they chatted..and chatted..and chatted.Finally,she went off anyway and he continued eating.LOL!
So after that Kok Leong came along.He almost walked past us -.-" Talked.Talked.Talked some more.And then..BOOM!Okok not boom.We were talking about people singing for 3 hours every night and pianists playing for 10 hours everyday..and then getting backaches.Bahahahha.Whatever man!Ah,so after that both of them went back to Raffles Hotel for fitting,my sis walked me halfway to Raffles City.Sis went back to Waterloo Street,I went back home.Poor Miss Tham -.- She has to go from one choir to another.It's tiring enough just attending the practices.Imagine conducting them!Ah!But it is good money.LOL.
Shh,I didn't say that =X PRETEND!I'm going to game now.See yuh people!-Xiu.

Do you really have to go?

Nooo!
It might be the happiest day,but also the most..uhm. dreadful.
My Science teacher is going to TRANSFER!Luckily my form teacher ain't.She got some high class job in the school.Some head of something sec 2 2006.Oh why why why does miss teow have to leave?!(though she's not miss teow anymore,but she still likes it that way)But,it would definately be better if she transfers.Nobody can survive waking up everyday at 5am.Not for long anyway.So,its goodbye miss teow! =( we'll miss you.
So,we're on our own again.I'll probably be a loner next year.Hope I can go to 3/5.Results of posting of classes will be released on 11 nov.Can't wait,but dread it too.I needa start studying more man.I'll work on math and chinese next year.The worst!I gotta do it anyway.Dang it.Busy busy busy.I need to buy my new textbooks.I bet they're gonna cost a bomb (a really large one that will blow up the entire planet) I'm poor enough already!What with saving up for the trip to China and eating and stuff like that?Argh.Still,textbooks are a must.a.s.a.p. baby!
I've a sudden 'craving' for computer games.You know...role playing,cartoony computer games.I wish they would hurry up and create Monkey Island 5.name it Zombie Guybrush or something.The curse of the Zombie Guybrush?LOL.
I should go into that kinda thing,I'm made for it!
Sigh,time really goes by too fast huh.The whole of this year,all sorts of things happened.Bad stuff,good stuff,got scolded lots.It didn't turn out so bad after all.I'd be really happy to live through this whole year the way it was again.I regret now,but whats the point,I can't fight fate.
Oh man. I gotta follow mom to NTUC now.Sorry people bubbyes! Luv,Xiulin.

Je suis triste.

It's in French.Translate it yourself.
Yes,I am.
Tomorrow is the last day,THE LAST DAY!
I wanna take pictures with all my teachers.lol.I hope they'll allow me to.Dad allowed me to bring the family's digi cam to school tomorrow,but I'll have to be careful.Don't worry man.When it comes to belongings,I'm a very careful person =P I asked Lu lao shi if we could bring cameras tomorrow.She said she didn't know,but she'll be bringing one too.LOL.Melanie hasn't told me if Mrs Tan said that we could bring cameras.I hope so,because in my camera,my memories will be.You know.Everything from scoldings to glory.Bahahaha.I'll keep them secret though.You know how sensitive teachers are about taking pictures,unless in the yearbook.I bought em' gifts (woopee!) and I just hope they'll take just a picture or two with me? come on,memories!pictures that I'll pick up 10 years later and say "hey! this was my form teacher in 2005!"LOL.yep.I'm planning to do that =X anyways comp got prob,needa restart.I shall end my post here then!
Bye everybody!Wish me luck for tomorrow. Luvv! -Xiu =)

The Limping Angel.

Hey people,gotta make this a quick one.
I'm very very tired.
Tomorrow is the netball carnival!*sigh* I hate it.
I'm not involved in cheerleading (ick) or netball (ahh!) so I'm involved in the march past.Our theme was originally 'Gypsy' then turned to 'Old School'. Finally we decided on 'A little bit of everything' so we could wear whatever we wanted.How come I get the feeling that we're gonna get scolded because of our meaningless theme?Oh well.After the carnival I still have to make my way back all the way from Kallang back to school for choir till late.My life.Gosh,do I need sleep.I still need to worry about buying gifts and writing letters.Ahh.I'm dying.I'm gonna meet my 'buddy' tomorrow.Help!What should I say?Oh well.Not that I can say much anyway.I've made people happy,now I've got to say goodbye.Why is life always like that?!
I'll never see them again...sigh.
Goodnight people. love. -Xiulin =((

A human soul for a faceless world.

It's been a long long long time.AH!
A lot has happened over the weeks.It's all happening too quickly.Days zipping past as if nothing at all.Wish I could rewind the whole year.Maybe last year too?We need time machines,seriously,so that we can go back into the past to correct our wrongs that we've done in the past.You know,like-Ah.Nah.I'll only write it out in my personal diary.It cut me deep,and they were wrong.
Anyway..You know.After seeing some results for the EOYs,I feel kinda sad.
I see lotsa mistakes.Mistakes I shoulda seen when I checked them over,but no.
Only after they were marked did I see those mistakes.I guess life's like that.Yeah,and I'm starting to hate Lit.Don't ask me why,ask my Lit teacher -.-"
I'm gonna miss lessons with my teachers.If I did well in that subject,you know straight-away that they made very good teachers.I'm that kind of person who doesn't really score in anything.I read a lot,thats probably the reason why I can pass Eng.Don't talk about all the others.Ick.The only other paper that I'm quite happy about is Science.Hah!I made an effort to pass that one.Really!
Waking up one hour earlier before the usual time to study is not really my thing,but I did it for the sake of...well.Sort of a promise?
Well,I managed to keep that promise,and I'm proud of that.
I can't keep many promises though.I'm worried about a certain promise that I made to my form teacher.The only thing that can save me from breaking that promise now is my mid year results.I think 10% or so is taken from there.Sigh.
I'm finally having choir again,this Wednesday.I've been assigned to buddy another girl.Darn.It's gonna be difficult when I can't read music!Whats more,competition standards are very high,but I'm willing to give teaching a try.Maybe there's something about the joy of teaching that only teachers know.Hah,I must find out!I feel like going out for some cakes/ice cream stuff.Anyone willing to come with me,maybe go out and enjoy for afew hours,just tell me.I'm currently having a really cheesy cheesecake,the marble kind that my mom bought few days ago from Secret Recipes.It's not bad..Just that its starting to get a little too cheesy.BUT!I must not waste food.Lolz!
People halfway round the world (and closer) are starving with no food and no clean water..Here I am complaining of too much cheese >.<"
Aw man,I'm sure gonna miss this year.Y'know,if I had a time machine,I'd definately woulda done better than I did this time,knowing how difficult the Science paper would be.28 people failed!Imagine that.The number of people in my class is like...38.So I'm one of the 10 lucky people who DID pass.I sure feel good about that.Oh wells,gotta end here,goodnight everybody! Love! -Xiu =)

Incantation

Hey guys!
It's been almost a month since I last blogged.Sorry.Been....busy.
Went to watch Quidam!!!!1st October.I had to say,the show was FANTASTIC!
Especially the German Wheel act =p..... Ahem.
Anyway,the show was totally great.Yeah,enjoyed it.Was sad when I couldn't get the soundtrack.Maybe I'll wait for awhile.When I get my own credit card and get to buy stuff over the net,HAHAHAHAHA!
Anyway.I'm gonna be careful bout that.Only buy from trusted sites.Yeah yeah yeah.Listening to Incantation now.Part of it was played during the German Wheel act.(Thanks Edward for getting the file for me!I've been trying to look for it for a looonnnggg time.)Anyway,today during self-study,I did my Geography revision,then thought of this song,and wondered what 'Incantation' meant.I asked the teacher who was there for self study.Er,afternoon study,I mean.Anyway he told me something like 'a ritual for magic and witchcraft' or something like that.It made a lot of sense,actually,because this song sounds quite...mysterious and it sounds like people are dancing.Ha!Ask me if you want the file.I loved loved loved Quidam.It was so artistic.Found out that Quidam has been performed for the last nine years or something like that.Cool,aint it.I kinda envy the circus.They get to travel around the world and tour,but still work at the same time.It's quite hard work if you have to do 10 performances per week.But,its really kinda cool.Hah!I'm inspired again.Okay I shall stop talking about it.lolz!
Anyway for the past few weeks been really...bored.Been trying to lose weight,not that I need to but..Yeah you know.Don't like getting fat.Just had PE on Monday,worked out like crazy,and then finding out that it was the last PE lesson for this year.NOOOOOO!!!That means we'll all get fat because I know most of my class doesn't bother to go work out 20 mins,3 times a week.Sigh.They thought I was crazy when I ran 15 times around 3 basketball courts.-.-"Whats so crazy about that?I'm healthy,thats why.LOL.Nowadays,I've been eating good wholesome food.Well,I haven't eaten lots of vegetables today,so maybe I'll have some lettuce with some fruit later?I'm having chicken porridge now.Was whining about my dad turning the fan (blowing from my left side)on.It went something like this. I said,"Nooo!Don't turn on the fan!Wait my hair fly into the porridge!" He said,"Ni de tou fa zhe me 'wet' ,zhe miang' fly into your porridge?!" Then I just,"How you know it won't fly?"True enough,it IS flying into my face.Right this minute!LOL.Oh!I just went into the kitchen to inspect some chocolate cake from Coffee Bean.I stared at the slice of cake for awhile,and said to my brother,"Kor,you will have only half!" lol.Poor me.See lah,I'm so pitiful.One thin slice of cake also have to share.BUT!I must not eat too much junk food.One potato chip could be fatal.I could end up eating it all!
Must...hold...back...
Okay,I've typed quite a lot today man.Look at how much I typed!Okay not a lot but yeah.I'm gonna end off here.Good bye,everybodeh! <3 Xiulin

I'm through with hoping

Argh.Feeling depressed.
My life is all messed up.There are too many problems.Sigh.I mean,yeah I'm lucky enough to have a bed to sleep on,food to eat and stuff like that.I can understand that nobody's life is perfect.Sigh.I don't mind going through all the he-ll in secondary 2 again...I just don't wanna leave.I'd lose all my teachers.Sigh.
And,I'd be friend-less too.I wish I could rewind back to the first half of secondary 1,before everything happened.Maybe I should just rewind my life away -.-" Dad's going mad.He wants to buy TWO new digital cameras,which we don't need.He has already bought one,he's planning to buy another.He's crazy,he is.Just months ago,before he discovered the 'wonders of digital cameras',he was always drilling me about wasting money.Now here he is,doing exactly.The camera which he had bought costs about $700.Ugh.
Anyway nothing much has been happening recently.I started playing Ragnarok.It's a pretty cool game,actually.The colours are abit dull.Other than that the game's alright.I wanna get out of this house but I have no excuse to.I want to roam about for the day on my own but dad simply won't allow it.I just wanna go to MPH at Raffles City or something.Then maybe wander round The Marketplace,looking at the wide selection of cheese and stuff.Maybe get an ice-cream waffle at New Zealand Natural.Maybe after that go to Suntec City and walk around the shops,especially MPH and Carrefour...Sigh.No way am I going to be allowed out to be free.Dad would think I'm going out to meet some boy or something.Hah.Whatever.Oh,did I mention that I accidentally cut myself?I was cutting an ice block.Well,frozen milo packet,that is.And well the third finger on my left hand was under a thin strip of wrapper that I was trying to cut,and it gave way and the next thing I knew,there was a cut on my finger.It didn't really hurt because the ice block numbed it.So I was like 'cool'.I put that finger under the running water,then put a plaster over it.Somehow that seemed kinda fun.
Nevermind.I shall stay home all through this week,trapped.Sigh. -Xiu.

[Maybe I should run away.
Maybe I should disappear.
Maybe I should find a place where no one knows I'm there.
-Where do you go when the tears run dry?]
'Tears Run Dry' by Clay Aiken.

I Stand Here All Alone.

Woah!
I haven't blogged for a LONG LONG time!
Been too busy.
I think.
Anyway I'm pretty sad at the moment.Miss Koh (ARGH!I wanna strangle...) took my book away.It's Constantine (one of my most beloved books,but none can ever beat Learning To Sing.) but seriously,I can't even bear to leave it in class,I bring it with me during recess!Sigh.Why is my life like that.Nobody's happy that I passed my chinese.Instead,they're angry.Crazy.
I shall not bother.I'll just study my butt off and after that maybe take extra singing lessons (Maybe,Jie!).I asked Lorna to draw me that note table and the counts and names of stuff today.She did,of course.Thanks,Lorna.I'm currently trying to learn to read music,which I hope by the time my exams are over,I can read SOME.That way choir would be much easier too,I think.It could be quite fun to sing opera,although not very easy,I know.Darn...Oh well,I'm not good at anything else apart from singing so I just gotta make the most of it.Oh my God,that sounded so...uh. 'BHB'.Nevermind...
I went with my family to watch my sister in concert on Saturday.She was the pianist.The opera was called Street Scenes.Quite a sad story.Ha!
Sam:Rose,will you kiss me?
Rose:Why of couse I will,Sam!
BAHAHAHAHA!
I'll just have to spend my free time trying to read choir scores.I gotta watch my sister in concert (Again!) on September the 10th.Quite looking forward to it,actually.Those overtone ridge notes thingy.Heh.I'm so angry with Miss Koh.Eww.Just these few days I have been looking around the house for a good book to read.I can't find any,ending up with some childish book with pictures in it -.-" I feel sad.If she's not gonna return it to me by this week I'm gonna track her down.Serious.
[I keep coming back for more...] -Xiulin =)

Now That You're Gone...

Hey people.VERY tired.Just came back from the Honour's Day performance.Had my bath already,drinking carrot soup now.I'm sooo tired.Poor rabbit got stuck in the cage the whole day until I came back (10.30 pm sharp!)because my evil parents didn't let it out to run and stretch.Poor thing.Anyway The performance was overall okay,I guess.The Finnish songs were..well,everybody was abit anxious at first,but then it all became..calmer.Scarborough Fair was. well,English.With the rounded sound and all.Diu Diu Dang A...was a little messy around the middle.It turned out alright.I mean,how should the audience know if its right or wrong?We got a round of applause anyway.Heh!Evil us.Didn't get to steal some food for me on my way out of the concert hall. :( I was hungry!But oh well,pai seh to take so didn't take.What if I got stopped by some teacher saying that the food was only for our guests? -.-" Oh well.Good ol' carrot soup.Lol.Tired.Going to play some Maple Story now,need to train level -.-" So low.Anyways Love yer all man! -Xiu

The Woman Who Lived Up there 'Poor Thing'!

LOL!One of my sister's songs.Phew!Haven't blogged for quite a long time.
I just finished my homework. The English one. Science remedial worksheet,and the song for Geography (The Way by Clay Aiken!) only with different lyrics.I think Geog teacher gna scold me cos I didn't use all the points (I couldn't fit them in!) But!I'm quite happy with my song.Lol!It sounds abit crappy but they'll get used to it anyway.I need my group members to stay back one day and reherse!We haven't got much time until Thursday,and we have to sing it infront of the whole class!Argh.Poor me.Sigh.Anyway I'm here now.The class bbq was simply great!Had lotsa fun,finally got on with certain people from my class.For the first time we had teamwork.It was great.Played in the sea and stuff.Hmm,made campfire (it was rubbish cos the fire kept going out),our bbq pit fire kept going though.Had chicken wings (thanks Zui for bringing them) everybody loved it.Gina slaved over the bbq pit for a long time but she kinda enjoyed it lol.We kinda took tuns to cook the food,all of us.Cycled around East Coast too...At night still had to bathe when I was so tired.Lol!No problem sleeping.I didn't get to go online yesterday!So much has happened!!!Clay launched his Jukebox Tour,and the song list was loooongggg.I downloaded afew songs,and I loved 'Just You'.Its beautiful with lotsa high notes but he reached them easily (I think).Sis went back to hostel and bro went back to camp.Sad.They're gonna suffer.7th month,spooky.Sis said her hostel veh scary summore.Thanks Dels for the plaster for my finger.Abit of skin was ripped off but painful lol.Touch seawater even worse,was stinging so Dezi just happened to need a plaster for her foot so she bought a box and gave me one.After the plaster my finger was okay.My rabbit's being all nosy now.It just hopped here.Heh.So cute.I haven't uploaded some songs into my ipod mini but I'll do it another day cos its late already.Good night everyone,take care.Nitez.-X.

Soviet-Left of Zed

Its this cool funky song by the band Left of Zed.Its this hip indie band,not very famous but I think they're songs are nice.Lolz!So anyway Joe Dirt was great,really.It turned out quite sad actually,but with a happy ending..Did I already mention that?Blur already.So well school's fine,I can't believe I got scolded on my birthday but it didn't turn out so bad cos received an sms from him* that night,10.12pm.LOL!Was quite happy.Oh wells.^^ Anyway today I didn't do much.Went to school as usual,first lesson was English.We're doing this debate thing,different groups with different topics.My group's doing the topic 'School rules are not necessary".I know its kind of wrong but well we were given it,we couldn't choose!I think my team's so gonna lose the debate.I mean,how can I win it if I have people like Carolyn and Evelyn in my team?!They are totally WITH the school rules,although even more..Nevermind.I just forgot that word.LOL.I just think that working with them is not so bad after all.Anyway the rest of the day was okay,Science was fun,although three themometers broke and mercury came out and it was handled with care.LOL.Then Miss Teow talked to me along the way back from the Science lab.Heh.Fun.Anyway I've had a happy day.Dad's being all mean again.Don't care!See yer the next time I blog! Bye people!!! <3 Xiu =)

Adventures Of Joe Dirt

Wheeee!
Today went with mom and dad to Video Ezy where I rented 'Joe Dirt',the film I wanted 4 months ago!I've been checking HMV and Tower Records but to no avail.I've finally found it.My birthday on Tuesday!Dang,I have school.Hope it won't be one of those days when I have teachers yelling their heads off at me.Ick.If that happens,I'd go home and cry.Lolz.Anyways I've burnt a copy of the VCD 'Joe Dirt',and I'm happy.Its such a sad movie,he almost commited suicide.Sigh.But!He had a happy ending,driving off with his new family in a new car.Lolz.So well...Sigh.Gina's angry with me cos I din reply her the other day on MSN.Sorry gina but I was away!I came back to the comp and saw bad words on the screen -.-" Sorry k? Anyways.Dun think I wanna celebrate my birthday if it needs 300 bucks to pay for it.I mean...I don't HAVE 300 bucks.Even if I did I wouldn't spend it all at one shot.There are many many things I want..or need.Nah,I think if it means I have to fork out 300 bucks for my birthday celebration,its not worth it.I mean..I'm just one year older.My birthday is not worth that much.Sigh.Nobody would come anyway.Now that Gina's angry and stuff.Maybe only one or two people would actually bother.Oh well.Gonna end here now.Bye everybody! -Claymadness

You Look Like A Fool To Me.

Complicated by Avril Lavigne. That’s what I’m listening to now.I’m kinda bored.Gonna watch Aces Go Places on DVD later…Maybe like,11pm?I haven’t had my dinner,simply because I ate some junk foods just now.Not exactly junk food.The Chinese would call it healthy.Its some meat dumpling thingy.After that I ate some kway thingy that my mom bought.Did some homework today.Sigh.After doing I went to watch The Hunchback Of Notre Dame on DVD (again).Its a beautiful show!Maybe I just haven’t watched it for too long.Been thinking bout’ Jared lately.Sigh.Since I have no picture of him,I look at the younger Clay pictures.Jared looks like that!Especially like the one in Clay’s book,Learning To Sing.The one taken when he was 16 and afraid of drowning.Sigh again.I miss Jared.Poor Jon is fussed about the Jess thingy.Poor him.Anyway Shin is doin fine.I already learnt how to write his name in Hiragana!Woo hoo!There are eight characters.Ha!I’ve been writing it everywhere.Heh.Rabbit’s tired.I’d better stop here.See yuh people! <3>

Heaven's Light/Hellfire.

Hey everybodeh.
Tired -.-
Yesterday was kinda sick.Vomited in the morning,tried to sleep in the afternoon but was burning.As in,no fever but was burning like hell.Darn hot.Took a cold shower then went out for dinner with Mom at Causeway Point,Woodlands.Felt unwell.Went home,tried to sleep early,around 10.30pm.I couldn't sleep till 12.15am.Slept well till around 11am this morning,then woke up.Felt much better than yesterday,so I went out with Brenda,to town.Had Delifrance for 'lunch'.Had a pohtahtoh [tuna with bacon bits],with mushroom soup [tasted funny] and a glass of ice lemon tea.After that we went to walk around.Had instant noodles from 7-eleven for dinner[see,we're poor!],brought them into a food court,hoping that they wouldn't chase us out.They didn't,only because we bought a drink from the food court stall,to be on the safe side.When we finished dinner,we went home in the MRT.It was crowded,as usual.The Orchard MRT station is always crowded -.-"

I'd Hold You In My Arms And Never Let Go.

Hellooo!

Boo! Ok lame.
Sigh.Another boring day.I'm waiting for my sis to come home so I can play.
Gb I mean. Anyways today was okay.Kinda fun,I guess.Exams are over,so no more lessons..for now.Uh.Had choir today after school.We took this bus to that guy's house (sorry forgot his name) to record 'Kyrie'.My goodness!Sang it about 7 times over!!!Now I know how Clay feels.Poor Clay.Lolz.Hanyways!!!I'm bored and tired.Very.Record until no energy alr.Lolz!Went home from the MRT with Lorna.Both of us suffer k.Have to stand so long >.< I'm so tired.I still needa read before I sleep.I did so badly in English! Like omg! 81/110. I feel sad -.-I failed Science by 6 and 1/2 marks.Wth?!I studied a lot la!Really,really sad.Dammit like only 4 marks away from A1?!I'm angry.I shall go talk to rabbit about my day.Buhz people.Goodnight and stuff. ImS.-Xiu.

Knowing Them As They Will Never Know Me.

Heh.
I'm having pasta for dinner,made by mom.Tomorrow's Mother's Day.What'll I give her?!?!?!My sis only bought a card.I guess we'd probably go out with mom for something to celebrate tomorrow.After all,my mom's birthday is coming too.Mmmm.Pasta.I miss Shintaro.I put his name in my MSN nickname.Lolz.I miss Perry Smorgy's.I miss having breakfast there.I miss seeing them eat...Uhh,nevermind.I just finished eating the last mouthful of pasta.I watched mousehunt just about an hour ago.It used to seem so boring to me,I always stopped watching halfway.Now,I watch it again and it doesn't seem so bad.Man and animal made friends in the end and they set up a string cheese fatory.Ha!I seriously need to go to an internet cafe after my exams with my friends,if any of them are willing.Cos well,I can't play Gunbound at home cos.cos.My bro's still holding on to the admin account and if I'm not in it,Gunbound won't work.I really miss playing Gunbound.Killing people online.Lol,my way of chilling after exams.I used to do that when I still had the admin account on my comp,but now its different.So I'll just have to make a trip there.I'll ask my sis after exams if she's willing to go with me.I'll just have to suffer this week then. Bubbye people. ==Xiu.

All my life I've memorised their faces.

Okay,so I'm in love with a "new" show.It was out long ago,but I was too young back then to understand the movie.It's actually very touching.And well,it just seems all too familiar although before this,I've never seen the film before. The Hunchback Of Notre Dame.It's French but if I didn't hear wrongly,I heard "England".Weird... Thank goodness we're going to continue watching the show tomorrow during English class.I don't think I can wait a moment longer.I shifted in my seat during the movie because some of the songs..my choir sang them in Hawaii.Sigh. Sweet memories.What I really liked about the show is the story and the love.It's one of those shows where some poor guy gets bullied because of how he looks.And I think he totally can sing X) Must do research on the voice behind that character.Got two of them songs on my Disney CD already.Must do research on the show and find pictures and stuff,lotsa work.I know at this time I'm supposed to be worrying about my exams.I don't,usually.Nowadays people expect so much of me,I feel as if I'm gonna die!I'll try to think of that film when I get bored.Can't wait for tomorrow! Buhzzz!-X

Itchy and Scratchy-

Hey everybodyyy!!!
Feeling happy.I dunno why.
Everybody's moving on,thats why. Okay lame reason but really!
And well,I finally got Shintaro's e-mail addy!Through Jon (Thank You!!!).The whole of last night,I've been trying to search the net.Argh!Its so difficult,its like going around the whole world just searching for one person!Heh,if I ever DO go round the world to look for people,I'd visit Canada too. ;) Bahahaha.Jon figured out that I have a thing for Shintaro -.- sighh.He's helping me get a video too!
Woo hoo!I miss Hawaii muchies.I miss just sitting outside the hotel eating canned soup straight from the can!Or more from a glass or sumthin but it makes no difference.I bought the kind of soup edible straight from the can,just shove it in the microwave for a min.But well,it so happened that we didn't have one over there so I had to eat it cold.I remember what kind it was.Clam Chowder!If I knew at that time there was actually HOT SOUP FOR SALE...argh.Stupid me X( but anyways I miss Waikiki Beach too.All that freedom and the paradise!People surfing...I remember many years ago..I told myself,I shall surf one day.Its kinda like a goal or something.I shall try one day X) I didn't get to rent a surfboard in Hawaii cos..well,I didn't want to drown yet.LOL.Oh common,you can't just grab a board and surf,unless you've mastered the skill.So I shall go back one day to try.Heh.Hopefully to other parts of the world too.Like Egypt!I wanna see what its like in Cairo.Interesting.Camels and all.Tata vry'one!

Love Is Such A Beautiful Thing.

Eeeeeeee!!!!!!
So cuteee!
I've fallen in love with Clay all over again,I tell you. Again. LOL!
I was just watching an old American Idol clip,looking for the right lyrics to make my title.So well,I just got a line he sang.So cute,I tell you.Snarky.Heh!
Oh wells.I can't believe it.I'm in deep sh*t!Noooooooooooo!!!I like Anthony Fedorov?! No! Pls! NOOOO! I can't help it.I really don't wanna like him.Oh God.
I'm sinking deeper -.-" I'm gonna drown.Help.But really,its just some force thang.I dun wanna like him!Sick!He has a gf already btw.But common! It's a crush and I can't help it! I can't believe its on him though. Like,yuck,but also..ew.Lolz.Help me. Argh.This looks like one of those crushes which will stay for a long time.Help!But well,I still love Clay more.People around me are starting to ask why I love a man I've never met. Stupid question.Because Clay remained Clay all the while.He didn't change,and he's Holy.Answer good enough?No? Okay here's it.HE'S CUTE AND HE CAN SING.
Ok. Pls. Stop asking! -.-" I've been his fan for 2 years now.I'll always be :)
Today we had art after school.I thought I was doomed for sure.But well,I managed to hand in one sheet of work (supposed to be 4 sheets) and she said I'd get like.. 5/40??? I don't think I care that much.She's always hated me anyway.From what I heard,she hates everyone.Well at least the one thing I can be sure about is that everyone hates HER.Argh -.-" bias her.Damn it.
I shall not waste time talking about people like her. Today after art,I called dad to ask if he could pick me up,and if I could go swimming.I'd planned to go swimming by myself at TP swimming complex.But well,he said I couldn't go,and didn't give me a reason why -.-" So well I thought that was The End,I couldn't go swimming today.But well,when I went home,I asked my sis if she's free tmr morning.She didn't give me a definate answer.A while later,she came into the room and said "lets go swimming." Then I was like "when? now?" then she said yeah so we went to get changed and stuff then headed to the Bishan swimming complex! Woo hoo!Feels good after swimming.Heh. Brings back memories too.Argh! Should I remember? I'll never forget anyway. Love,Xiu! <3

To Love Somebody The Way I Love You.

Hey ppl!
I didn't have enough time for my last post so I just typed a bit of a song.heh.
Sigh.Its boring tonight.I miss choir already!The happiest time of the day is when I sing in the morning for school singers.Some hymn thingy.Heh.Anyways I plan to go swimming tomorrow.I don't think I'll be able to,though.There's art after school tomorrow,to make up for today's missed lessons.Argh.I hate the art in my school.My idea of art is to draw or paint anything that comes to mind,not to be forced to do something you don't wanna.Like,ew.Thats so un-creative.Oh well,I haven't done the art homework.I have no idea.I was absent during those few lessons cos I was really sick.When I came back,I asked if there was hw but well,nobody told me.I asked again but nobody heard me cos art lesson today was kinda noisy.So,nobody heard.Poor me.I still don't know where to start!Argh.I'm gonna get punished for sure!Oh well.So much for bothering to ask whats for hw.Sigh.Eng hw about the Japan thingy.I wanted to ask Mrs Tan if the earthquake really happened but didn't get a chance to.Oh well.I'm quite interested though.Its just because Shintaro's from Japan.LOL.So I need to find stuff.I looked in some books on Japan,but I couldn't find Kasukabe.Ha.Oh well,need to check back in the PBMF booklet (Pacific Basin Music Festival).I should go find a translation for Shintaro's name!You know,like the Jap words kind of thing.Its kewl.Decorate a book or smth with those words.Now thats creative.Lolz! (crap). I'm really bored now.Mellie beanie is praying.Jason just talked to me.I'm reallllyyy bored.I miss Hawaii.And You.Sigh.Love,nitez,stars.-X

You're Haunting Me,I Guess I Need You,Baby.

Baby,you don't know what its like.
Oh no,you don't know what its like,
To love somebody,
To love somebody,
The way I love you. Always and Forever.

Everytime I See You In My Dreams,I See Your Face...

Sigh.Lolz.
Feeling better today though nose is still a lil' runny.Still coughing a little too!Argh.This sucks -.-" Anyways.Today went out with my family.My bro didn't come.Or did he?Waaiit a minute.Oh yeah he did.LOL.We went to IKEA,the Swedish furniture thingy.Went to get a bookshelf and a bed.Bed for me.*sniff sniff* see im so poor no bed to sleep on..lolz.kidding.My current one is takin up space on the floor so I'm gettin a new one.Rabbit spent the whole day at home running about.Boring.Anyway had lunch at IKEA,costs 40 bucks (ohmygod!) and well it was different.At least we had roast beef and meatballs and stuff.Spaghetti and chicken wings.And some cakes.Ha!Was quite a nice lunch.After looking at all the furniture we went home(obviously...) and well,we didn't go straight home.We went to the police post thingy to file a report on the car accident my dad's car was involved in 2 weeks ago.Well something like that.So we went to file file file.File finish already then we went home.Heh.Watched White Chicks...Well,first disc of White Chicks,then did some Math with my sis for hour and a half.Then went to have a bath...then came online!My parents went out fer dina!So I was home alone,online looking for Joe Dirt pictures.I think I prefer David Spade with the Joe Dirt look.Lolz.Looks more..blur.I dunno.I just have weird taste.But I seriously like the Joe Dirt look.Maybe I'll pop down to the video store sometime to. uh. buy it?Hope they have it cos they might not.I mean,I've never heard of the film 'Joe Dirt' until I saw it on the tellie in Hawaii.So quite unlikely..Unless I actually have the time to pop down to the more English video stores.The chance of getting it there is higher...Oh wells.I like that show.Sighh.Shall stop here for the long long day.Good night everybodeh! Luv,Xiu--

*Cough cough,sneeze*

SICK.
I'm sick.lolz.I miss alot of people.Sigh.Miss talking to them and all that cos I haven't been able to come online for quite some time.About 5 days I guess.More than 5 days.But well my dad's out,my sis is playing piano,and I'm bored.So well,I came online!Its so nice to see people's faces in the pics on my comp. Heh.Argh,I gotta go offline soon.Why why tell me why? I gotta print out more pics though.Need to save em' in a diskette (did i spell it wrongly?) and bring them to the photo centre.I printed the jon and shintaro pic,it didn't turn out too bad.Turned out quite well,actually.The quality was goood.Lolz.I printed 3 copies,then I snipped one out to put in my wallet.Heh. lolz.Need to print out afew others.Like-.Sigh.lolz.Old photos la.Well not really old anyway.Was just last year or so.I think.I miss jon and shintaro.Argh!I wanna turn back time.before I went to hawaii.lolz.I really miss them.Sigh!shintaro is cute >.<
Anyways today was boring.we drew potato hearts during Science lesson.So lame one.Made me hungry.lolz.I was thinking of mash potato -.-" Mrs tan didn't come to school today,couldn't give my MC and $ for chocomania.Cough still quite bad,though fever gone down.Hey cool im talking to jon on msn now!Anyways.Why does he always have to come online as I'm about to go off -.-"
Lolz. weird guy,comes online before going to school.Anyways he just went offline.lolllll.Zigh.I feel like watching Constantine.Again.Argh!That reminds me.I haven't met up with adriel yeo to get KFH back.Do'h!Oh wells gonna sleep soon.Medicine taking effect.Lolz.Miss yer all,goodnight!!! =) Luv,Xiu

Some People Wait A Lifetime For A Moment Like This.

ARGHHHHHH!NO!PEOPLE DO NOT WAIT FOR MOMENTS LIKE THESE!
Noooooooooooooooooooo!I'm ruined.I love 2.4! *Cries* I can't run 2.4...Condition not good enough damnit.Sigh!Darn it.5 items all straight As.Then I have to run my 2.4 another time.Sighhhh.I think I'm kinda sick.I'm sweating for no reason.And I still have a funny kind of throat.Heh.My sis says I still have a fever.Darn it!I love 2.4....Poor me!Anyways.I thank God there's no choir tomorrow because my throat is still kinda funny.Hahaha. Sh*t!I just found out that 2.4 is next week's sat.YIPPEEE!I should be well by then.Alive and well babbeh!okok I gotta stop now.I can't stand my post being so short!Argh!Okok anyways good night everybody!She freakin blocked me! lalalala!LOL.-Xiu.

I'm Still Missing You

Yeah.I had a better day today.Not very good though.stupid! #%*&(*&*!@ !# $&^*&(!@^&*! damn you.
I feel better already.I must follow the Stephen Chow movie and scold the sea.Lolz.
Sigh. fine la. I only just started blogging then my sis ask me go offline. SIGH.Sigh.Home ec is getting boring already. so is science. science not so boring but then home ec is terrible.I'm more of right brain than left. haha.I went to print out their pics just now.Happy. one copy is in my wallet,one is. prob somewhere else i dunno lolz. then the last one lorna wants. she has to pay me $1.40 for it. argh.I'm bored now. tomorrow got SYF. must aim for gold.Hope get gold la. not very easy this time. lolz. wokay la missing you. er. all. lolz. bubbyes luv xiulin.

She Freakin' Blocked Me!

Ha!No,its just a song.Heh.Its sunny and bright outside!
No,I'm lying.
It's all dark and gloomy outside,and its raining heavily.
But screw those!I'm happy being online!So happy...lalalala!LOL!
But I'm kinda sad too because another fish in my dad's tank died today.And he didn't flush the toilet after dumping it there -.-"I had to flush it. Argh poor fish.
My sis wanted to steam the tiny fish.LOL. poor...
I'm popping grapes into my mouth as I type this.Listening to "She Blocked Me"
Lol!Yippee I'm being sent a group picture with Shintaro in it!This is so darn cool.And well,its all bright and sunny again,but still a little damp with all the rain.Sad.I haven't bought a new watch yet.I'm dying!This metal one sis too heavy!And it hurts my wrist.I need another watch.Sigh.Oh my gah.I so love that pic he(not Shintaro) sent me.LOL!Shintaro looks kinda weird but still good.In a way.aww man I'm hopping over stars now.LOL.Then I just fell and died.lol!Nope I'm kidding.Jon just went offline.And before going offline,he said he has seen 2 pics of me so far.And I was like 2?! (I only sent him one) The only person who could have sent him the pic is either nicxy or nat.ARGHHH! She's gonna die. But it depends la.Depends on weather I look okay in the pic anot.LOL! Hokay.I'm bored now.Everybody online has suddenly died.My sis is in the room playing piano,my mom's muttering something in Chinese.Sigh.My dad's sleeping.It's boring damnit!I shall go watch teevee nows. bubbyes people!Luvsss! -Xiuu.

I Could Breakaway...

I want to. Sigh. I didn't really have a bad day. It was okay. Haha.I'm listening to Breakaway by Kelly Clarkson.Ever since I came back,I felt sad.I mean like...Everyone around me is so grumpy.No smiling or whatever.The only person actually smiling is my sister.Everything else is so gloomy.It rained today too.Horrible.The good thing is that I had Kenny Rogers for lunch,at East Coast.Mom and dad didn't want to have Kenny Rogers so they had curry instead,at some stall opposite us.Like,ew.Oh wells.Gotta meet Brandy soon to pass her some stuff and catch up.Gotta go out with Dels after school to catch up too.Haven't gone out with her for a long time...She's always out with other people...And Gina might not be free after school too.I really miss Mel.Sigh.Shintaro.J.......,Jared.I feel so out of place here in Singapore.I don't fit in!Everybody is so boring over here.No life whatsoever.Just lying around and rotting.No smiling...Sigh.I miss those days when Dels,Gina,Mel,Sara,and I went out after school to have lunch.Now it seems that none of them want to do that anymore.Its as if there's no more connection.I really feel like going back to the past.My friends are all over the place.Its not the same as before.I feel like no one can hear me anymore.Sigh.Thank goodness Brandy still bothers to sms me.Ha!
Rabbit seems bored too.Poor guy.I miss my past.I miss those days.I miss them all.I miss Melanie.I miss..I miss..I don't know.I even miss those whom I used to hate.Its so sad.I miss school.I miss all my teachers.I miss choir.I miss.I miss.Hammie.Sigh.I remember so clearly.I don't want to remember.About 3 years ago.I don't want to remember.But I know she's in Heaven now.I don't have to worry.I won't forget all the ones that I love.Sigh.I want to go back into the past,before she died,before everything happened,then maybe she wouldn't have died that way,maybe I wouldn't have been forced to quit Gym in pri 2,then having to join again in pri 4.Maybe I could have joined choir right from the start.Maybe I didn't have to quit playing the piano.Maybe I could have stayed happy.Maybe I could have made my parents stay happy all their lives,not grumpy old people.Maybe I should have never been alive.I love all my friends.
Love them all forever,always in my memories. Love,Xiulin. *

Biggie Fries,With A 64oz. Milkshake!

YIPPEE!
I'm back from Hawaii!
It was much nicer there.Sigh.I wanna go back.It just doesn't seem right that I have to come home.The air's stuffy.I'm too used to the Honolulu timezone.Darn.I didn't sleep a wink all night!I went online at about 3am,writing testimonials for people.Well,after that,I got abit bored...So I went to watch TV.Stephen Chow.Bahaha.The trip to Hawaii was totally cool.Met lotsa people at the welcome dinner thingy.I miss Shintaro.Lolz! Anyways it was kinda cool.It's not everyday you get to meet people from all over the world!It rocked.
Life in Hawaii is so slow-paced,so free.The people there smile alot.And well,I loved the hotel stay too.Heh.Breakfast was a buffet.I had scrambled eggs!Woo hoo!I love it there.The beach was beautiful and the water was clear!Abit blue-ish too.I feel like going back.Its so gloomy here.Nobody ever smiles,nobody dresses in a funky way...nobody is...uh- I dunno. But I never knew Japanese guys were cute.Ha.Now I know.It's weird.I just went there,no jet lag or whatever.Before this trip,I've always wanted to go to America.Hawaii!Sigh.I wanna go back there.Over there,its never so hot.Well there is sun but still,its not as hot as Singapore.There,people have style!So the competition went well.Glad to miss a week of school.The schools are mostly mixed.Its really cool.People surf in Hawaii!I wanted to rent a surfboard but I thought,better not.I don't even know how!I'm too young to die.Lolz!I think New Zealand is more peaceful than Hawaii,but I love them both.I don't like Singapore.Its so...Its..I feel...sad.I still can't believe I came back.Its sad that we left earlier than the other schools,but I'm kinda happy.And I got to see Shintaro the day before we left,the day of the results.I got to see two other people too.Quite happy.I miss them already.Now,even Japan sounds better than Singapore.Sigh.I'm having my breakfast now.Already had a slice of ham,a fried egg,and a chicken patty thing.I think I spelt it wrongly.Was it pattie?Nevermind.Now I'm having chicken soup.Gonna have a glass of milk,then a peach.My rabbit has been out the whole night with me!It has been following me around.Around 4am,I went to cook a packet of instant noodles.I gave it some uncooked.I didn't even know rabbits ate uncooked noodles!My mom's getting a new phone today.K700i.Its hopeless!I want Shintaro's phone.Argh!Japan is too fast.Lolz.I don't know if I should go check out the phones with my mom.I mean,shopping with her can be good or bad.Its just scary.Should I go catch a movie by myself?Go to the beach?Ew.The beaches here suck.Maybe not.What other things can I do today?It's so hot!I'm melting even though the fan is directed at me,highest speed.Help!It's too hot!Should I just follow my mom out today?She said that after she bought her new phone,we could go out somewhere.Maybe I can somehow drag her to HMV?Hmmm.Argh forget it.Maybe I will,but if I don't,I'll just stay home and rot or something.Okay okay. Bye people Love. love love love -Xiulin.

I Want A Fat Babe!

LOLZ. lousy but cute title.
Got it from the remake of the song "I want it that way"
I've been listening to "I want a fat babe" all afternoon! woo hoo!!!!!
sigh. Today feelin sick but happy la. cos of the song.
Oh wells. I never stopped loving you*
I'm all tired out. Today after choir went out with nicxy for abit then went home.
Took flu medicine now I feel sleepy -.-" lolz. Will clean rabbit's cage,brush teeth,and sleep.
Thank God I've recorded "I want a fat babe" using my handphone.
Took some pictures of the cartoon too. such a cute cartoon.
Tomorrow got choir,from 7.30am to about 6.00pm. argh.
Then still need to pay Mrs Seah US$10. The note looks nice k. So..classy.
Clay is about 900km from here! In Aceh. The kids really love him. So cute.
So sweet don't you think? Flew all the way from Hawaii to help the kids out. Charming.
My dad just asked me if I wanted peaches. LOL. Too tired to eat la. Feeling drowzy too.
mark just came online again. sigh. (:
Anyways. getting really really tired now. See ya all. love you still* always and forever. -Xiu.

Happiness brings colour to your face.

Sigh.
Just bothered by lotsa memories la. Last night dreamt about acs -.-"
I know its lame but I still feel sad all the same. Memories,memories.
WOO HOO!
ahem. shall not say anything. happy now la. heh.
So my parents are sorting out their clothes. And well Im here reading messages and typing too. I'm bored. and I'm happy. ok. shall change my title. It was "Nothing to say,nothing to do,nothing to live up to"
What shall I change it to? hmm.
kk changed it to "Happiness brings colour to your face." So nice right? Ahh know.
Okay but try not to be too happy la. lolz.
I'm bored now. maybe. still can't bring myself to talk over msn. darn. anyway.....
uhm.Today went to Bugis. Bought lotsa stuff. Billabong bum bag. LOL. some shirts...and food....what else.Oh yeah. Nivea stuff. lolz. Boooring.Listening to "Never Be Replaced"
not bad a song. Lyrics fit me alot. lolz.I miss acs barker already.sigh. alot. Oh wells. Will wait for a reply again. I will wait until the end of time. Bubbyes everybodeh! Lurve. --Xiu

I Guess I Need You,Baby.

Sigh.
Today went to the ACS funfair. It really was fun! Although I went alone -.-" But then going there and seeing people I know,I've met before...stuff. Saw a couple of familiar people. mark,adriel,and matt. LOL.I dun think matt saw me though.ha!
Anyways I'm quite tired but happy la.Damn happy.mark looks better now.much better lolz.
Oh wells.I bought the ACS bear thingy with the tiny bag and pin.Quite cute la though it looks evil. lolz.Eating oreo cookies now. mmm.I lent adriel KFH vcd.I was watching mark play some game.Throw sponge.lolz he can aim man. Then-well,saw the girl whom cherre likes.uhm.whats her name? I dunno how to spell one la.but then...nvm.My dad just scolded me.LOL lame. he said must show him result all tt.I dunno whats he so angry for. well not really that angry la. lolz.I just showed him my report book.then I told him I passed 4 out of 8 subbies.I dun think he's that angry anyway.I mean common get real.IF I ever passed my math,my dad wun be happy anyway.tt time I pass also he nt happy,scold me so much summore wth.To hell with it la.Cannot get job then forget it la! make such a big damn fuss.spoilt my day.I shall not care. *hmph*
Oh wells. Going to the funfair brought back memories and stuff la. lolz.LOL my sis just came back and asked if the funfair was okay.Then she said "woah,whats that!" then she took my report book and is now flippin through it. lolz.WOO HOO! now the comp got sound alr! yays!
Sigh.I miss ACS already. lolz.I shall bring math and science notes to Hawaii to study. lolz and books to read! woo hoo!Listening to Clay Aiken now. my sis sitting beside me and eating her dina! lolz lammeeee. Hope to see you all again soon! Bubbyes. -Xiu =)

Celebration Time Common!

Hi everybodeh!
SYF choir auditions held today.I got in!wheee!I'm so...uh- relieved? maybe. I feel guilty though. One of my friends didn't get through.I feel so bad -.-" But nvm you'll have another chance next week. Go for it!
Argh.I was just doing some Clay jigsaws online.Quite fun actually.I used to hate jigsaws because I was so impatient.Now I see that these jigsaws are worth it because I get to see the finished result.I feel like watching Shaolin Soccer.Just feel like.I shall call my brother tomorrow night.I have to ask! My rabbit is running around in the dark again. LOL. smelling the table. -.-" lame.
I have to bring the tix tomorrow for my seniors.And the consent form for the teacher,20 dollars for choir jacket,3.70 for the science book(Its gotta be somewhere!),6 dollars to pay gina and dels. 4 bucks-> dels. 2 bucks->gina. Sigh. poor me man.But oh well.Hope I don't get scolded tomorrow for not doing art again.Its weird.I've always liked art.But I just don't like doing it as homework.I just know I'll be too lazy to bring it home to do.I know it would get crushed by my books and stuff.How to do? End up not completing.If we only do it during art lesson,I would have done it.But then...sigh. Today auditions,very scary.So stressful. lotsa tension.At least Miss Tham's not wearing black again.I mean,she wore black for the last audition.I thank God for getting me through.Today we sang lotsa rounds of Sok Herren.Now,the song's stuck in my head -.-" ARGH. irritating. lolz.Sigh.too tired to type much anymore.Sis is petting rabbit lolz. Okay people. buhz takkare sweet dreams yeah? Lurvvvee,Xiulin.

Baby I Loved You,Why Did You Let Me Go?

ITS A SONG!
pls.
anyways it was a boring day today.The only thing I enjoyed today was choir practice.We actually sounded good with only 22 people! woo hoo! Hope it lasts -.-" tends to wear off.
the furniture that dad and mom ordered weeks ago came in today.I'm kinda happy with my life at the moment.I guess so.I'm just worried that the clothes might be too-too- big. oh well they might be. but mostly not la. lolz. Clay looks so cute in thatpicture...
ahem.
LOL. where was I?Oh yeah.Mrs Tan got kinda mad again.I don't know for what reason.But I'll really take my pic this weekend k Mrs Tan?I'll have to take it sooner or later.I've been typing quite alot today.Its so early.Only 10.50pm.And I'm tired already?! maybe.I'll need energy for tomorrow.Might be going out with mom and all that.Hope that it'll be a typical Sunday.I need to buy some other stuff too. lolz. Hope so.I guess I'll have to type afew more lines.I'll feel weird if I don't. I just realised I forgot to reply Wy -.-" sorry wy. LOLZ. okok. Good night people. L.O.V.E

Cross This Line To The Only Thing That's True.

lol I supposed you've guessed the song.Argh!
Hi everybody!
I haven't blogged for a long long time...I think.There's choir again tomorrow. woo hoo? lol.Thank God the SYF auditions are only next Wednesday.Oh well...Sok Herren shouldn't be too difficult..I hope.Sigh.We're gonna be given a compo test for Eng cos most of us,maybe even all-failed.So well they can't accept the fail,neither can I.So well we're gonna be given another test.Hope it will be...an interesting topic.I can't seem to use my imagination nowadays.Well I can,but I can't come up with anything original.So well,reading too much really IS bad.I mean,when I do a compo,I start to think about the books I've read...and well my sister said I have ALOT of books -.-" Well I don't think so.But anyway thats what SHE said. -.-"
Just hope that the test won't be tomorrow.I'll be dead tired!I might fall asleep during choir!
That almost happened to me once.I had to struggle to stay awake.Serious!It was so...difficult.lolz
So anyway here I am now,typing and typing.My dad's blowing his nose -.-. my mom's just..just..uh.She just came out of the bath I guess,already in her PJs.My sis is playing the piano again,as usual.Its a nice night but maybe a little too hot.Its not too bad though.Today we did alot of packing in the room.Alot!There were bags and bags of rubbish.I had trouble forcing them down the chute by myself.I called for help.My dad didn't even budge.Evil man.Whatever.
My sis was cleaning the room so she didn't help either.I mean,well she HAD to clean the room right?But my dad just continued sitting there,staring at the darn television set.ew?
I mean common whats so nice about the boring news or somethin?! I don't even think much of the tellie,unless some people are on it.Well...This Sunday,7.30pm,Stephen Chow's gonna be on TV!!!!! YIPPEE! I mean come on!They showed SOME clips of it.He looks so blur on that show! LOL so cute. Oh yeah did I tell you people?I was staring at the sign thingy today in school.I was just staring at it.Uhm.Then after that I just felt really tired.I just slept in class.Well school was going to end REAL soon then so I just happened to fall asleep.So well I was really tired and all that,headache included.When I came home,I did some packing,revision,homework,rabbit stuff,and then I came online.Guess what!I went on the website where they provided meanings and stuff for these symbols.I looked for the symbol that I stared at today.It said that the symbol absorbs your energy. what the-.So freaky.LOL.Oh well at least its not too bad.I definately CANNOT stare at it tomorrow before choir practice.Can't afford to.Must-pay-attention...If the symbol really has that kind of power...oh well.I should try it again on friday or something.In school.I have to know if it wasn't just me.This is kinda freaky.lolz.well.I'll just have to wait till then to find out! btw,the Constantine book rawks,totally! Love,Xiu. -always.

Pachelbel Canon In D

Halo!
I'm listening to Canon In D now so I thought I'd just name this post it. LOL.
I'm kinda surprised I didn't fall asleep the minute I got home. We had to walk 15 km today!!!!!
Its some General Leadership thingy.I'm the 'follower'...Steph .........was. the """"leader"""".
Anyway,It was kinda interesting.There were monkeys and all that.We even saw a 'teenager' snake!LOL.I thought at first that the monkeys would come after me because I smelt like a banana.I sprayed on suntan oil before the hike...The brand was Bananaboat.So now you know why.But what a surprise,they didn't.Well I didn't understand why the others were so..scared of monkeys.I mean...we were all monkeys once right?Well thats what I heard.Heh.
Oh fine.My mom just scolded me.Damn it.evil woman.I shall not let that get to me. HA! Try harder mom!HA!
ok where was I?Oh yeah.There were lotsa turtles swimming and sunbathing. LOL.
Argh.I'm doing research on people again.I did research on Cherre's Wade Robson.Then after that I did research on Mrs Tan's Kris. LOL! I'm kinda confused right now.Oh wells I guess I'll type a short one tonight cos it really was a long day today.No energy. LOLZ. nevah! Buhz people good night and all that right? bubbyes people. buhz! -Xiu.

We Both Know,Its Better If We Just Let It Go.

Though I know I can never let it go anyway.Not so soon.
helos people.
Today did alot of rubbish.Didn't run in the morning because I had PE later on. HA! sad. anyway I'm listening to One Last now and drinking Shandy.well haha.Its only 1% alcohol. sigh.I went to the supermarket with my mom,and well,I saw vodka.It was like 55% alcohol so 1% alcohol is nothing. uhm,I bought a magazine with Keanu in it.lol it was local but I can't remember what mag it was.I don't know.I was just mooching around the magazine section,and I thought I'd just take a local teen magazine from the shelf to flip through.And well I just flipped it open and WOO HOO! It was Keanu! lolz so I happily grabbed a copy. ha!my dad just asked me if I wanted oranges. bahs. nevah! okok maybe. but not now.I'm just...drinking shandy.Too bad the half can of Carlsberg didn't have any effect on me last night. lolz.I read in a book that vodka doesn't taste bad with tonic.But then again,even though I've never tried,its not always like its in the books. lolz.I failed the darn math paper.well I didn't do too bad for section A. It was just section B dammit.I wanted to throw section B on the floor and stomp on it,only I didn't.I just put it on the table and stared. I stared and stared,then I was like "oh what the hell".I didn't say it that loud. I just...argh.I couldn't stand it anymore so I got a piece of foolscap paper and started sketching the Constantine logo. all greenish and stuff.Oh well.Can't be helped.I just hope my Eng/Lit can pull me up.It shouldn't be too difficult.Today's Lit paper was okay.Not too difficult.For some.Sigh.If I happen to fail Lit for some reason,I'll just...I'll just... ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
Today I went mad.During recess,I went to the bookshop to buy a penknife and two plasters.I was just..angry because of the math thing.So I bought it and well,I only had half of my sandwich for recess.I just wasn't hungry.Though I bought the brownie thingy.but ain't it a little expensive?I mean,I saw my money disappearing as fast as lightning! Okay maybe lightning is too fast.But still,well...since you guys managed to sell it all,maybe charge a little less next time? Think of the poor people.Sigh.even the canteen food is kinda...expensive. okok back to the point.So I actually abused the use of the penknife,yeah yeah whatever.I have exactly 11 cuts on my left hand.One extra one on the forth finger,don't know where it came from.So I was cutting during chinese and cme.I was just...bored and angry and stuff.So I cut.I was thinking more of the art knife stabbing in kind of thing but no,the art knife costs more so I just went with the darn penknife.Its quite a nice one actually.It actually has....colour and life.I mean..well..purple and white.not bad eh?so I cut my way through the last lesson of the day. sigh.
Punching doesn't really work for me.It hurts the cupboard. poor cupboard. LOL.
sigh.stupid math test.I HATE MATH!So much for our class getting a distinction. HA.unless I'm not part of the class,you can't say that. sigh. oh wells I'll end here for now. bye peeps. love xiu.

When She Said Yes.

Oh My God.
I went to watch Constantine again today.It seems to get better each time I watch it.Keanu Reeves seems to get cuter too. weird. Anyway I told myself on the way home to tell nothing but the truth.Oh well.I guess it did pay off.The timing for Constantine at EW cinemas was...4.30pm,so I went home kinda late.Well at least I didn't get punished much,cos I actually told the truth (a miracle).So yeah.My mom offered to buy me dinner and my dad offered me mango after that so,I guess its all okay.Telling the truth ain't that bad after all.I used to think that lying was more..well...I dunno.I used to think I can get away easily by lying my way through,but now I know,truth is always a better choice.On the way home,I kept holding on to the W.W.J.D. bracelet I had.I kept asking myself what Jesus would do.He would obviously tell nothing but the truth.So I did.And guess what!It had a happy end too. lolz.I'm lovin it!
And well my parents are drinking Carlsberg by the tellie. They're sharing one can and well,I drank abit too :D I was just curious.I mean I was wondering...if it really were that bitter,how can people enjoy it?So I decided to try.Its not too bad though.I dun feel a bit dizzy or anything.I'm feeling fine,in fact.haha.Well my mom cleared out my room today..I think with my dad.And well,they didn't mention anything about the $95 worth of ACS B funfair tix.They probably saw the block of wood too but they didn't mention anything about it either.Sigh. My dad didn't seem mad about it anyway so maybe its better if I didn't bring it up just in case he hasn't seen it..yet.
So I'm right here again,same time same place same...thing.Rabbit on the floor bored,I'm right here typing,my parents watching TV...I wonder what He has planned for me tomorrow.Sigh.
I'm kinda nervous.I'm afraid of getting back my Math paper just to see some words on em "Try Harder" or "Please See Me". Its been happening for years I know,but then again,nobody likes to fail.Sigh.I got back my Geog paper today all marked and stuff.I'm pretty surprised I actually managed to get a C. I thought I'd get a 10/40 or something but it turns out I just managed to pass.20/40.Not too happy with it though,but at least I passed my Geog...once.I know,the worst few papers for CA1 will be Chinese and Science.Really hopeless.I think for once my Math would actually be better than my Chinese,not that any one of those subjects are any easier than the other. Sigh.So well,lotsa people are falling for Keanu Reeves.Its not surprising,he really did look cute in Constantine.Its one of the best films so far.I feel like watching KungFu Hustle again. Argh,I hardly have the time nowadays.With the tests and choir practices and..well. stuff.Sigh.
Oh yeah,I got a deep cut on the forth finger on my left hand.It doesn't hurt at all.It was still..bleeding..but not much.There was a vein there too.I didn't feel any pain.I didn't know when or how I got it though.Its..weird.Very. Today.Mrs Tan said that the first half of our Eng Compre was okay.I think the first half was alot easier than the second.It was quite...deep.I don't know.But it seems to me that I'm not reading enough,although I read alot.Damn.people like me love Jacqueline Wilson books.They always have a happy and sad side,and alot of problems and stuff.And the stories...well...its quite similar to our everyday life,so its easy to understand.lolz.I didn't realise I've typed so much.I shall end here then. Bubbye people.Watch Constantine! -Xiu.
"Im Constantine.John Constantine,asshole." - Keanu Reeves [Constantine] Arghhh.

They Lit A Flame With The Match God Had Made...

Hi everyone.
My parents are currently out having dinner.All the way to Queenstown for dinner. Its crazy!
I didn't bother to go.I didn't want to.I don't like it there.So I just told them "I'm not going.Bye."
and I stayed sitting at the computer.I'm having my own dinner now.Vegetable soup and a big mug of chocolate milk.This is my kind of dinner.My rabbit is having his too,I think.Hold on I'll go check it out.No,it turns out he already finished his dinner and is lying down under the chair.What should I do now?I'm listening to 'One Last' by Taufik.I just finished my dinner.The chocolate milk and all.It was very balanced,with chicken and vegetables,and some milk.
I dreamt about Constantine last night.Its weird.It was sort of a nightmare but not that scary.I don't know.But it just wasn't the kind which made me wake up all sweaty.The dream.The dream was in a familiar place.I had all my thoughts mixed up so there were all kinds of characters there.I mean there were even people from Chinese films in my dream!So well,the place was kind of a Thompson Plaza-Takashimaya mix.Characters...Demons,animals,an irritating Chinese gay,my mom,some clerks,shoppers,and myself.It turned out I was the one killing demons.After each demon I got rid of,I looked into the mirror and saw someone beside me.Someone familiar.Someone with a blue-ish skin colour...I just can't remember who.I didn't finish the dream,but I know the last part was about the irritating Chinese gay chasing after me past a pet shop,doing gymnastics.It was so...weird.Mixed thoughts can be scary.I can actually remember which thought came from.I've probably watched too much of that Chinese show.I'll definately be watching Constantine again.I need to find out more.
"Im Constantine.John Constantine,asshole." -Keanu Reeves [Constantine]

They Won't Let Go,Its Beyond Their Control.

HALO!
today went to watch Constantine.
Keanu Reeves was cute!
ahem.
its kind of a sad show though. With suicide and stuff..and dying twice and going to hell.
well..and heaven
"The wager between heaven and hell is on earth"
yeah. LOL. He's cute!
anyway. I went alone actually. But so what? THE WHOLE DAMN CINEMA WAS FULL!
WOO HOO!
Looks like this movie's gonna be a big one this year. heh heh heh...
I feel like watchin it again! Its so cool.The effects and all.
Im eatin gum now. Chewing and chewing...Since just now actually.LOL cos I was bored so I just ate some gum and well...I think people can lose weight that way. I didn't finish my dinner cos chewing gum made me.. 'full'. well sorta.So I only ate about half my dinner (which i had to force down). I think thats a good way to lose weight yeah? Try it!
okok this thing is totally screwed.I'll end here yeahs. see ya'll tomorrow or smth! Luv Xiu

She'd Never Been Given The Chance

Hi everybody!
Im listening to "She Said Yes" now.Its a beautiful song about love that a couple won't let go.
sigh. so sad..and happy.okok Im lost. LOL
Boring.Drank coke.Rabbit on the floor sleeping..sorta.Dad on the phone with ...'grandma' LOL!
Mom watchin tv...some chinese show la. sigh.Im just...here. I have choir again tomorrow.Today was quite boring.Well as usual.I came at 7 sharp,I knew there wouldn't be enough time to run my 10 rounds for choir in the morning so I didn't run. sigh.It was a shame really.I was all decked out in my pe attire and ready to run...but I didn't have enough time.WHY IS IT ALWAYS ME?!
sigh.I think Im going to get scolded tomorrow during choir for not running enough.sigh.always getting scolded.IT REALLY WASN'T MY FAULT TODAY!!!There was a traffic jam and all.I mean not really traffic jam but just..traffic lights. ARGH!I LEFT THE HOUSE AT 6.30!!!! its not fair!I left the house quite early..and I get scolded because of the traffic jam.Okay I haven't been scolded yet but tomorrow...die. If I told Mrs Low that she'd probably scold me all the same. sigh.
why. why why?!?! why why tell me why?!No fair. Oh well.Today I wanted to watch Constantine..but ended up watching Hide And Seek instead cos Constantine's timings...not suitable la. So sara and I went with Hide And Seek.Its quite a...a...uhm. (no offence) lame movie.Cos its..about this guy whose wife died..and he went mad,sorta. And had double personality.One of a killer,the other as a dad.So his kid had to live with him after her mother died.And she made a new friend..Charlie.(The killer side) okok I wun spoil it for you guys. LOL
I still wanna watch Constantine!!! IT looks good. maybe. definately. well. ARGH. nitez love! -Xiu

My Love I Just Can't Hide.

Ha-lo!
Msn got prob.For me only I think lol. Smth about using an old version of msn. msn 6.2+msn plus very old meh. nonsense!
Msg for jie: miss yer!
ahem. as I was saying.
dels and I wokay alr la. LOL.
I feel like watching KungFu Hustle again. LOLLLLL.I just miss it.Cos the other day I was walking in TP,the underground pass thingy.There's a VCD shop there and I walked pass it la.I saw KungFu Hustle.I mean they were playing it.Losta people were there watching -.-"
Im drinking crysanthemum tea now.So lame!Well okay I finished it awhile ago. :D
So my rabbits circling me under the computer table,trying to lick me. wth. sigh.Boring without msn.I miss gina and dels.And melanie. sigh. sigh. sigh......I just realised.I learnt the "sigh" from my sister. lolllllllll.
Im bored. had a lousy dinner.Some porridge and fried egg...and some salted fish with black beans?Okok I didn't even touch the fish and beans. LOL.gave em to dad. -.- He likes it.
Sigh.Oh yeah.I found out stuff bout my mom. LOL the way she was last time.
years ago,she bought a hair styler for herself -.-" You know...the kind which styles...er. curl and straighten and stuff. lol.I called her vain-.-....Well I dun blame her though.After all,she used to have long hair too.Though I still can't believe it. lolz.
Sigh poor me.I play Runescape now.There's nothing else to play.Its kinda lame.I mean the characters are like...like..lego people? sigh.But its still okay.I mean,I still miss GB and all that.
But I still have this fear that I might "bump" into anybody I know online on GB so yeah.
I still play though.Im going this friday with gina.And lunch too.Dels wanna come along? :)
Im just sittin here now.My rabbit's on the floor. I mean like..It just flopped there. lolz
What should I do now?Play Runescape? -.-" wth.My parents are watching some TV program...which..which.ARGH!!!Its like...the people on TV are making abalone -.-"
I mean.Cooking. lolz. Something my parents enjoy. -.-
There's choir again tomorrow.Not that Im complaining >:)
LOL. On Thursday too.And on Saturday...at least Im free on Friday.I miss GB.
OKOK.I'll stop talking about that for now. lol.Bye now people! sigh. Love,Xiu.

Isn't She Lovely,Isn't She Wonderful?

Hey its a song!
Im in a funky mood tonight.LOL.So lame right. By right I should be drooping,a worried frown across my face.But ever since my dad told me about the VCD player,in our room in M'sia,I'm happy to go. YIPPEE! Cos I'll probably lock myself in,watching KungFu Hustle over and over. woo hoo! Maybe la.Or I'll be out in the garden. Sigh.I kinda dread trips to M'sia.Cos its like..I go there.I will be sad,bored,tired,all that.And RABBIT'S not coming along.how sad is that?!I'll miss it.Definately.I just hopes my brother FEEDS it.But my rabbit...It likes the taste of newspapers -.-" there's food there for it,it prefers to eat newspaper. weird rabbit I have.
ANYWAY.I did some training today. LOL. its VERY lame.I did 20 sec handstands,20 push ups guys style,20 sit ups,20 jumps,20 chair jumps,20 box jumps....veh lame one la.But the thing is..I din do stretches for splits and stuff. argh.must do tonight.Can't afford to go M'sia without..skills.lol.I kinda figured that martial arts need flexibility. so cool!
okok change subjects. you guys must be bored. lolz!
By the way. today dezi got prob. dunno why she angry with us for. its weird though.
lol Oh wells. boring day.I still have my room to pack and rabbit and hamster's cage to clean. Im such a sad case.But I gotta spend more time with rabbit!I'm gonna miss it so.
*sighs* Life is a road and I wanna keep going,Love is a river I wanna keep flowing...
okok Im just singing this song. Im so bored babbeh.I miss melanie. good old times. does she miss me? maybeh! [Do you,Mel?] sometimes im just sick of this world,people assuming this and that.Its all assumption and..and..Have you people ever hated someone to the core,but under all this hate,you still love the person to bits? --------------------yeah.---------------------
*Im suddenly standing at the beginning with you.* Good night people. Happy Chinese New Year,especially to *you. Love,Xiu.

All I Wanna Do Is Make You Mine.

hi.

stupid people. STUPID!!!!! LOL!
im quite sure steph wants to get me to lose as much as I can. she asked me to pay for the one lesson of tuition -.-" lame right? I know.
anyways.Sigh I have to say again man.I love ACS Br.The school dam nice!Its like got pool and all tt. and guess what?I got lost in there -.-"
The first time I went there was on April 16 2004 for a concert.Then the second time..was like. last week or so only? lolz. I love the school man.Anyway..had some stupid instant noodle thingy for lunch,and for dessert,had some canned fruit.Im so unhealthy. LOL
Mrs Tan,if you're reading this....you said something about us writing better on our blogs than in our compo.s? I think we'd fail. LOL cos we dun use proper english online. you know what I mean. :D
anyway my dad is currently out,collecting the car from some...car service thingy. sad.
I love being at home alone.Just my fish,my hamster,and I. lolz.Music Im listening to...One Last by Taufik Batisah. LOL. I love the book my sis bought for me.My second time reading it!Its called "Midnight" by Jacqueline Wilson.She's one fine writer. you guys should read more of her books. their good. :)
Boring afternoon.I feel like lifting my brother's weight thingys lol. its VERY boring.I might post more tonight if you're lucky. lolz. maybeh!My rabbit's sleeping under the chair. poor guy must be tired.SO SWEET! LOL.Oh well.I din go for the tuition today.I can't stand it anymore.The teacher. very bull**** one la ok.-.-" post more tonight people. Bye for now :p -Xiu <3

Baby When You Hold Me,Make Me Feel It.

and no,its not a pervy song.Its a song about love. so dun assume k :D
anyways. I HATE THE TUITION TEACHER DAMN IT!its all HER FAULT!
she badmouthed me? like wth! and then my dad shouted at me. damn. my rabbit got scared and ran under the chair. I just slammed my room door,leaving him to continue shouting outside. suipid tuition teacher. STUPID! who does she think she is? so great ah. she think she so good? she use all the methods i nvr see before one. wth. then she asked me to tell her the way I learnt ratio. then i explain then she tell me wrong. must do her way. wth right. she uses ways Ive never SEEN BEFORE IN MY BORING LIFE!dam her. tmr i have stupid old tuition again. if she badmouth me again behind my back to my father ah. she's gonna get it ok. damn her la.
all because of her,tt made my dad shout at me,tt made me cry in my room...cos. i mean how would you feel if your own father believes a stupid tuition teacher who tells lies about you,rather than believe his own daughter? you'd feel hurt right? damn her la. may she die early man.
Then I went to my room yesterday and started smashing the cupboard. stupid. all cos of her.
now my hand got one big bruise. tmr she badmouth me again I shall punch her la. stupid teacher. I dun understand,I even asked her to repeat another time leh. I DUN UNDERSTAND HER STUPID METHOD,THEN SHE COME AND TELL MY FATHER I NVR LISTEN. totally bullshit la.these kind of people dun deserve to live you know tt.They badmouth,and they assume stuff just because they dunno you well enough. like wth right.My dad just came out of his damn room and gave me a lecture.I care? no. the stupid tuition teacher did it all. then my dad still can say "she's trying to help you"
LIKE REAL LA. she badmouths you,is she helping? no. deserves to die la. next time I do tt to her. she deserves it. but no one will listen to me anyway.Gina thinks I left her in class with dels to finish the lit work on their own. like wth? I had to rush off for choir. cos on weds I have late day,so no matter how fast I rush there,Im always at least 5 mins late. so its like Mrs Low was already in the room? and lorna gave her our timetable,and Mrs Low let lorna and I have 10 mins for lunch. then I gobbled up my spaghetti. and then ah. I went to the drink stall right. with Lorna. then REGINA came down with STEPH and thought I left them on their own to finish up the damn work. then they accuse me. WTH LA. not my fault right? they dun have cca,I do ok. and they dun really care that much about their ccas anyway. they wanna pon,they will.
But i dun la.I love choir. why can't they understand? they just take one short glance at me,and they think that I left them on their own to finish the work all by themselves,and went to have lunch? listen. pls understand.Gina,you've known me for 8 years. how could you accuse me of smth not my fault?Think before you side anyone gina. thats all I can say. bye people. -Xiu.

To Hear You Say You Love Me,Like You Mean It.

Hey everybodeh!
Nice day I had today..until tuition time.IT SPOILT MY DAY PLS.*mutters smth*
stoopid tuition. use methods Ive NEVER SEEN BEFORE.serious. not anywhere leh!stupid teacher ah. no life one. then she teach me two times i also dun understand cos they use totally different methods. I told her I learnt it a different way she dun wanna listen. damn her.well to hell with her.Im never gna go to that tuition again,after the 3 more lessons.cus 4 lessons for 70 bucks. and its like ok la but if i dun learn anything,i might as well not pay right? lamer.stubborn.
stupid teacher.
ANYWAYS shall not talk about that lame tuition anymore. well I had an OK day.The only lesson I din like today was Math. ARGH.my math is so hopeless?U just have to take one look at my math and you know im hopeless. my rabbit is trying to lick my foot. LOL.its such a sweet rabbit.It can actually sense when Im angry or smth,then it will follow me arnd the hse and lick my foot. LOL so cute right.I have no idea how I managed to train it like that.Maybe it was just born smart LOL. dunno,but its so smart -.- smarter than me can already lolz.i can't believe it. im eating chocolate. LOL i just bit off the chocolate guy's head. so farnie. lolz! so lame.Today gina and I created 'sign languages' for afew words. LOL not rude ones anyway. just kinda nonsensical LOLZ.okok Im going on and on about my stupid day. I'll stop here kk. Takkare people. Luv u*

I Would Wait Until The End Of Time.

heyy. sigh.
today had quite a tiring day.but kinda happy now.
about 3 things tt made my day.
1)my compo chosen for some...competition thingy (sloppy work)
2)Ive mastered science,the chpter 2 thingy!(thanks miss teow!)
3)...dezi.
Today during chinese lesson,3 of *them were asked to go down for smth.I din know what it was at first.But i got to know about it soon after anyway. lolz.so *they went down...came back several times to take stuff..sometimes crying. sigh.So they were all kinda angry at our chinese teacher cos she..decided to send them out of chinese class..smth like tt.And well.....sigh. I mean who would want to feel unwanted?She had given up on them...but i could tell they still cared.Kinda.They wun be so angry if they din care.Its normal. this is life,what to do? :)
So I myself tt no matter what,I wun let them get out of class.Cos nobody's perfect.Nobody wants to be invisible and thrown aside like rubbish.And I wun let that happen.I told myself tt from today,I would listen in every class,boring or not.Because I really would suffer at the end.Ive thought about it.Sigh.A teacher's job is to make sure everyone understands.Teachers have to understand their students,or they really wun make it.Teachers...are people with skills,and their job is to pass on their skill to their students.They teach.Its the students' choice if they want to listen,to learn.But you can really tell tt they do,even if they shout back rude answers.They dun have to care at all.But they do.please understand,you were all like that once.teachers really are still kids inside.we all never want to be at the losing end.We want to win,therefore we do whatever it takes to win--being stubborn.Nobody is ever right or wrong.its just what people think.We were all created for a reason.Everyone has different weak points and strong ones.So we have to help one another.Accept others for who they are.Make a difference! :) bubbyes!<3>

Should I Believe The Magic In Your Eyes?

Hi!
Today WAS pretty boring.I woke up at about 12 plus LOL. too tired. Then I stayed in my room blasting music for about half an hour,then I went outside to switch on the comp. heh.played runescape,completed 2 quests.I haven't played GB for quite long already. sigh.my mom really not happy. i told her "i eat this kk?" then i held up some chinese new year tidbits leftover after my bro ate...then she glared at me and then turned back to the tv. wad did i do? she got prob one.i really long to go back to new zealand.sigh.sometimes i wished i could just be invisible to everyone.then i could be free. i like to be alone most of the time so it wun be a problem. sigh. sometimes i really hate weekends.i'll prob be going down later..maybe to rollerblade or just walk..or to the playground across the road.but i dun think i'll be allowed as it's near dinnertime..though nowadays i dun eat dinner with my family. maybe i should sms my friend to have dinner at jack's place with me?sigh.im never happy with my family anyway.or maybe i should go to jack's place alone? eat steak or smth?But being alone in such a posh place is so pathetic! ohmygod. sigh.I hate living in a flat.Living in a condo is the best la.get to know lotsa people.I hate my life. I love u. ARGH! the one tt I loved before. always and forever. :) -Xiuuu.

Baby When You Hold Me,Do You Feel It?

Heloz!
everybodeh!
Todeh was eh borin deh.
I wenth foh choir,cam bahk at one.
OK LA!I'll type properly -.-"
Then on the way home I listened to taufik LOL. I like his album.so..jazzy yet pop,r&b. LOL.I love one of his songs. Its called One Last. Im serious,listen to it! Its so choir-boyish. maybeh!
I took bus 851 home with lorna and her sisters.heh.Then on the over-head bridge,cos nobody there wad..then I sang -.- LOLZ so lame.I love earphones.They make u think that the whole world is filled with that song.Sorta.Surround sound babbeh!So nice. sigh <3
Ive been thinking of him lately. sorta.SIGH. I remember I used to write in my book "I love to mark papers" LOL. I miss u,if you're there.
ANYWAY,getting back to where I was. where was I? LOL. lost alr.
Im listening to One Last now. so nice! my dad just scolded me wth. everything also not happy. sigh. omg I feel like vomiting. cos my dinner was kinda...slimy. all the kway teow,and then I drank "heaven and earth" calamansi lime green tea. YUCK,i got headache now. Oh wells I better go now.Parents both not happy now. mad one.Its a wonder why Im not grumpy like them lolz.
Miss yer all. :) takkare yeahs? love! -Xiu :)