Monday, March 28, 2005

I Could Breakaway...

I want to. Sigh. I didn't really have a bad day. It was okay. Haha.I'm listening to Breakaway by Kelly Clarkson.Ever since I came back,I felt sad.I mean like...Everyone around me is so grumpy.No smiling or whatever.The only person actually smiling is my sister.Everything else is so gloomy.It rained today too.Horrible.The good thing is that I had Kenny Rogers for lunch,at East Coast.Mom and dad didn't want to have Kenny Rogers so they had curry instead,at some stall opposite us.Like,ew.Oh wells.Gotta meet Brandy soon to pass her some stuff and catch up.Gotta go out with Dels after school to catch up too.Haven't gone out with her for a long time...She's always out with other people...And Gina might not be free after school too.I really miss Mel.Sigh.Shintaro.J.......,Jared.I feel so out of place here in Singapore.I don't fit in!Everybody is so boring over here.No life whatsoever.Just lying around and rotting.No smiling...Sigh.I miss those days when Dels,Gina,Mel,Sara,and I went out after school to have lunch.Now it seems that none of them want to do that anymore.Its as if there's no more connection.I really feel like going back to the past.My friends are all over the place.Its not the same as before.I feel like no one can hear me anymore.Sigh.Thank goodness Brandy still bothers to sms me.Ha!
Rabbit seems bored too.Poor guy.I miss my past.I miss those days.I miss them all.I miss Melanie.I miss..I miss..I don't know.I even miss those whom I used to hate.Its so sad.I miss school.I miss all my teachers.I miss choir.I miss.I miss.Hammie.Sigh.I remember so clearly.I don't want to remember.About 3 years ago.I don't want to remember.But I know she's in Heaven now.I don't have to worry.I won't forget all the ones that I love.Sigh.I want to go back into the past,before she died,before everything happened,then maybe she wouldn't have died that way,maybe I wouldn't have been forced to quit Gym in pri 2,then having to join again in pri 4.Maybe I could have joined choir right from the start.Maybe I didn't have to quit playing the piano.Maybe I could have stayed happy.Maybe I could have made my parents stay happy all their lives,not grumpy old people.Maybe I should have never been alive.I love all my friends.
Love them all forever,always in my memories. Love,Xiulin. *

Sunday, March 27, 2005

Biggie Fries,With A 64oz. Milkshake!

YIPPEE!
I'm back from Hawaii!
It was much nicer there.Sigh.I wanna go back.It just doesn't seem right that I have to come home.The air's stuffy.I'm too used to the Honolulu timezone.Darn.I didn't sleep a wink all night!I went online at about 3am,writing testimonials for people.Well,after that,I got abit bored...So I went to watch TV.Stephen Chow.Bahaha.The trip to Hawaii was totally cool.Met lotsa people at the welcome dinner thingy.I miss Shintaro.Lolz! Anyways it was kinda cool.It's not everyday you get to meet people from all over the world!It rocked.
Life in Hawaii is so slow-paced,so free.The people there smile alot.And well,I loved the hotel stay too.Heh.Breakfast was a buffet.I had scrambled eggs!Woo hoo!I love it there.The beach was beautiful and the water was clear!Abit blue-ish too.I feel like going back.Its so gloomy here.Nobody ever smiles,nobody dresses in a funky way...nobody is...uh- I dunno. But I never knew Japanese guys were cute.Ha.Now I know.It's weird.I just went there,no jet lag or whatever.Before this trip,I've always wanted to go to America.Hawaii!Sigh.I wanna go back there.Over there,its never so hot.Well there is sun but still,its not as hot as Singapore.There,people have style!So the competition went well.Glad to miss a week of school.The schools are mostly mixed.Its really cool.People surf in Hawaii!I wanted to rent a surfboard but I thought,better not.I don't even know how!I'm too young to die.Lolz!I think New Zealand is more peaceful than Hawaii,but I love them both.I don't like Singapore.Its so...Its..I feel...sad.I still can't believe I came back.Its sad that we left earlier than the other schools,but I'm kinda happy.And I got to see Shintaro the day before we left,the day of the results.I got to see two other people too.Quite happy.I miss them already.Now,even Japan sounds better than Singapore.Sigh.I'm having my breakfast now.Already had a slice of ham,a fried egg,and a chicken patty thing.I think I spelt it wrongly.Was it pattie?Nevermind.Now I'm having chicken soup.Gonna have a glass of milk,then a peach.My rabbit has been out the whole night with me!It has been following me around.Around 4am,I went to cook a packet of instant noodles.I gave it some uncooked.I didn't even know rabbits ate uncooked noodles!My mom's getting a new phone today.K700i.Its hopeless!I want Shintaro's phone.Argh!Japan is too fast.Lolz.I don't know if I should go check out the phones with my mom.I mean,shopping with her can be good or bad.Its just scary.Should I go catch a movie by myself?Go to the beach?Ew.The beaches here suck.Maybe not.What other things can I do today?It's so hot!I'm melting even though the fan is directed at me,highest speed.Help!It's too hot!Should I just follow my mom out today?She said that after she bought her new phone,we could go out somewhere.Maybe I can somehow drag her to HMV?Hmmm.Argh forget it.Maybe I will,but if I don't,I'll just stay home and rot or something.Okay okay. Bye people Love. love love love -Xiulin.

Wednesday, March 16, 2005

I Want A Fat Babe!

LOLZ. lousy but cute title.
Got it from the remake of the song "I want it that way"
I've been listening to "I want a fat babe" all afternoon! woo hoo!!!!!
sigh. Today feelin sick but happy la. cos of the song.
Oh wells. I never stopped loving you*
I'm all tired out. Today after choir went out with nicxy for abit then went home.
Took flu medicine now I feel sleepy -.-" lolz. Will clean rabbit's cage,brush teeth,and sleep.
Thank God I've recorded "I want a fat babe" using my handphone.
Took some pictures of the cartoon too. such a cute cartoon.
Tomorrow got choir,from 7.30am to about 6.00pm. argh.
Then still need to pay Mrs Seah US$10. The note looks nice k. So..classy.
Clay is about 900km from here! In Aceh. The kids really love him. So cute.
So sweet don't you think? Flew all the way from Hawaii to help the kids out. Charming.
My dad just asked me if I wanted peaches. LOL. Too tired to eat la. Feeling drowzy too.
mark just came online again. sigh. (:
Anyways. getting really really tired now. See ya all. love you still* always and forever. -Xiu.

Monday, March 14, 2005

Happiness brings colour to your face.

Sigh.
Just bothered by lotsa memories la. Last night dreamt about acs -.-"
I know its lame but I still feel sad all the same. Memories,memories.
WOO HOO!
ahem. shall not say anything. happy now la. heh.
So my parents are sorting out their clothes. And well Im here reading messages and typing too. I'm bored. and I'm happy. ok. shall change my title. It was "Nothing to say,nothing to do,nothing to live up to"
What shall I change it to? hmm.
kk changed it to "Happiness brings colour to your face." So nice right? Ahh know.
Okay but try not to be too happy la. lolz.
I'm bored now. maybe. still can't bring myself to talk over msn. darn. anyway.....
uhm.Today went to Bugis. Bought lotsa stuff. Billabong bum bag. LOL. some shirts...and food....what else.Oh yeah. Nivea stuff. lolz. Boooring.Listening to "Never Be Replaced"
not bad a song. Lyrics fit me alot. lolz.I miss acs barker already.sigh. alot. Oh wells. Will wait for a reply again. I will wait until the end of time. Bubbyes everybodeh! Lurve. --Xiu

Sunday, March 13, 2005

I Guess I Need You,Baby.

Sigh.
Today went to the ACS funfair. It really was fun! Although I went alone -.-" But then going there and seeing people I know,I've met before...stuff. Saw a couple of familiar people. mark,adriel,and matt. LOL.I dun think matt saw me though.ha!
Anyways I'm quite tired but happy la.Damn happy.mark looks better now.much better lolz.
Oh wells.I bought the ACS bear thingy with the tiny bag and pin.Quite cute la though it looks evil. lolz.Eating oreo cookies now. mmm.I lent adriel KFH vcd.I was watching mark play some game.Throw sponge.lolz he can aim man. Then-well,saw the girl whom cherre likes.uhm.whats her name? I dunno how to spell one la.but then...nvm.My dad just scolded me.LOL lame. he said must show him result all tt.I dunno whats he so angry for. well not really that angry la. lolz.I just showed him my report book.then I told him I passed 4 out of 8 subbies.I dun think he's that angry anyway.I mean common get real.IF I ever passed my math,my dad wun be happy anyway.tt time I pass also he nt happy,scold me so much summore wth.To hell with it la.Cannot get job then forget it la! make such a big damn fuss.spoilt my day.I shall not care. *hmph*
Oh wells. Going to the funfair brought back memories and stuff la. lolz.LOL my sis just came back and asked if the funfair was okay.Then she said "woah,whats that!" then she took my report book and is now flippin through it. lolz.WOO HOO! now the comp got sound alr! yays!
Sigh.I miss ACS already. lolz.I shall bring math and science notes to Hawaii to study. lolz and books to read! woo hoo!Listening to Clay Aiken now. my sis sitting beside me and eating her dina! lolz lammeeee. Hope to see you all again soon! Bubbyes. -Xiu =)

Thursday, March 10, 2005

Celebration Time Common!

Hi everybodeh!
SYF choir auditions held today.I got in!wheee!I'm so...uh- relieved? maybe. I feel guilty though. One of my friends didn't get through.I feel so bad -.-" But nvm you'll have another chance next week. Go for it!
Argh.I was just doing some Clay jigsaws online.Quite fun actually.I used to hate jigsaws because I was so impatient.Now I see that these jigsaws are worth it because I get to see the finished result.I feel like watching Shaolin Soccer.Just feel like.I shall call my brother tomorrow night.I have to ask! My rabbit is running around in the dark again. LOL. smelling the table. -.-" lame.
I have to bring the tix tomorrow for my seniors.And the consent form for the teacher,20 dollars for choir jacket,3.70 for the science book(Its gotta be somewhere!),6 dollars to pay gina and dels. 4 bucks-> dels. 2 bucks->gina. Sigh. poor me man.But oh well.Hope I don't get scolded tomorrow for not doing art again.Its weird.I've always liked art.But I just don't like doing it as homework.I just know I'll be too lazy to bring it home to do.I know it would get crushed by my books and stuff.How to do? End up not completing.If we only do it during art lesson,I would have done it.But then...sigh. Today auditions,very scary.So stressful. lotsa tension.At least Miss Tham's not wearing black again.I mean,she wore black for the last audition.I thank God for getting me through.Today we sang lotsa rounds of Sok Herren.Now,the song's stuck in my head -.-" ARGH. irritating. lolz.Sigh.too tired to type much anymore.Sis is petting rabbit lolz. Okay people. buhz takkare sweet dreams yeah? Lurvvvee,Xiulin.

Sunday, March 06, 2005

Baby I Loved You,Why Did You Let Me Go?

ITS A SONG!
pls.
anyways it was a boring day today.The only thing I enjoyed today was choir practice.We actually sounded good with only 22 people! woo hoo! Hope it lasts -.-" tends to wear off.
the furniture that dad and mom ordered weeks ago came in today.I'm kinda happy with my life at the moment.I guess so.I'm just worried that the clothes might be too-too- big. oh well they might be. but mostly not la. lolz. Clay looks so cute in thatpicture...
ahem.
LOL. where was I?Oh yeah.Mrs Tan got kinda mad again.I don't know for what reason.But I'll really take my pic this weekend k Mrs Tan?I'll have to take it sooner or later.I've been typing quite alot today.Its so early.Only 10.50pm.And I'm tired already?! maybe.I'll need energy for tomorrow.Might be going out with mom and all that.Hope that it'll be a typical Sunday.I need to buy some other stuff too. lolz. Hope so.I guess I'll have to type afew more lines.I'll feel weird if I don't. I just realised I forgot to reply Wy -.-" sorry wy. LOLZ. okok. Good night people. L.O.V.E

Wednesday, March 02, 2005

Cross This Line To The Only Thing That's True.

lol I supposed you've guessed the song.Argh!
Hi everybody!
I haven't blogged for a long long time...I think.There's choir again tomorrow. woo hoo? lol.Thank God the SYF auditions are only next Wednesday.Oh well...Sok Herren shouldn't be too difficult..I hope.Sigh.We're gonna be given a compo test for Eng cos most of us,maybe even all-failed.So well they can't accept the fail,neither can I.So well we're gonna be given another test.Hope it will be...an interesting topic.I can't seem to use my imagination nowadays.Well I can,but I can't come up with anything original.So well,reading too much really IS bad.I mean,when I do a compo,I start to think about the books I've read...and well my sister said I have ALOT of books -.-" Well I don't think so.But anyway thats what SHE said. -.-"
Just hope that the test won't be tomorrow.I'll be dead tired!I might fall asleep during choir!
That almost happened to me once.I had to struggle to stay awake.Serious!It was so...difficult.lolz
So anyway here I am now,typing and typing.My dad's blowing his nose -.-. my mom's just..just..uh.She just came out of the bath I guess,already in her PJs.My sis is playing the piano again,as usual.Its a nice night but maybe a little too hot.Its not too bad though.Today we did alot of packing in the room.Alot!There were bags and bags of rubbish.I had trouble forcing them down the chute by myself.I called for help.My dad didn't even budge.Evil man.Whatever.
My sis was cleaning the room so she didn't help either.I mean,well she HAD to clean the room right?But my dad just continued sitting there,staring at the darn television set.ew?
I mean common whats so nice about the boring news or somethin?! I don't even think much of the tellie,unless some people are on it.Well...This Sunday,7.30pm,Stephen Chow's gonna be on TV!!!!! YIPPEE! I mean come on!They showed SOME clips of it.He looks so blur on that show! LOL so cute. Oh yeah did I tell you people?I was staring at the sign thingy today in school.I was just staring at it.Uhm.Then after that I just felt really tired.I just slept in class.Well school was going to end REAL soon then so I just happened to fall asleep.So well I was really tired and all that,headache included.When I came home,I did some packing,revision,homework,rabbit stuff,and then I came online.Guess what!I went on the website where they provided meanings and stuff for these symbols.I looked for the symbol that I stared at today.It said that the symbol absorbs your energy. what the-.So freaky.LOL.Oh well at least its not too bad.I definately CANNOT stare at it tomorrow before choir practice.Can't afford to.Must-pay-attention...If the symbol really has that kind of power...oh well.I should try it again on friday or something.In school.I have to know if it wasn't just me.This is kinda freaky.lolz.well.I'll just have to wait till then to find out! btw,the Constantine book rawks,totally! Love,Xiu. -always.