Well, the past few days have been depressing.
There were tests- Bio, Math. Tomorrow's Social Studies, and Physics on Monday.
I studied hard for Bio, not as hard for Math, and I haven't studied for Social Studies, let alone Physics. Not planning to do very much about Social Studies, though. Gonna just read through the chapter and memorise the steps.
Failed another test today- Accounts. Mrs Chow didn't tell me to drop Accounts this time, she just said there's been "some kind of improvement", even though I only got 6/25. I guess she's right, in a way. After she gave out all the papers, I needed to go to the toilet, but I refused to speak to Mrs Chow, so I didn't. Waited until her lesson was over.
Poor Mrs Khoo is still ill, coughing very badly. She's been sick for the past 2 or 3 weeks, and it's worrying. I wish she'd get more rest and recover. Must be hell having a form class like mine.
Chenlaoshi doesn't seem to hate us as much as she did last month. Last month, her face would turn black the minute she stepped into our class. Now she manages a smile or two, and doesn't scream so much for no reason (or with reason). She called me a good kid yesterday. Now, that's a miracle. Two. One is being called a "good kid", the other is being called that by Chenlaoshi.
Shall study hard for tingxie next week.
Tomorrow is going to be packed again. SS test in the morning, Choir after that, lunch, home to shower, then ballet @ Orchard. Gonna spend Sunday studying for Physics and doing Art.
Friday, February 22, 2008
Tuesday, February 19, 2008
Tuesday, February 19th 2008
Something's been bugging me.
Two weeks back, I failed an Accounts test. Terribly, too. Mrs Chow, my Accounts teacher, called another girl and I up to her desk to have a talk. She urged me to drop Accounts. It didn't seem like she wanted me gone, but she just wanted me to have more time for other subjects, but I was insulted all the same.
She insisted that I drop, and she's been insisting for the past two weeks, though only twice, thrice at most. Today, she urged me to drop it again, after I told her I discovered I did total rubbish for my Capital Accounts. I realised my mistake on my own, she didn't mention anything before, but she urged me to drop Accounts again.
Once again, I stubbornly replied, "No."
She keeps asking why, and I can't answer her because I don't know why. I guess it's partially because I don't want to seem like someone who can't cope, even if I am that sort of person. I don't want to be looked down upon, like I'm someone who can't study or something. I know myself as someone who can.
The other part of the reason, I just don't know.
Maybe it's because I know that even if I drop Accounts and get extra time for my weaker subjects, I won't use that time because I simply have insufficient discipline. I know myself well enough to say that.
I may not love myself enough, but I've known myself for 16 years, my whole life. I know I don't have much self-discipline, and nobody can deny that I know myself best, and for the longest time.
Two weeks back, I failed an Accounts test. Terribly, too. Mrs Chow, my Accounts teacher, called another girl and I up to her desk to have a talk. She urged me to drop Accounts. It didn't seem like she wanted me gone, but she just wanted me to have more time for other subjects, but I was insulted all the same.
She insisted that I drop, and she's been insisting for the past two weeks, though only twice, thrice at most. Today, she urged me to drop it again, after I told her I discovered I did total rubbish for my Capital Accounts. I realised my mistake on my own, she didn't mention anything before, but she urged me to drop Accounts again.
Once again, I stubbornly replied, "No."
She keeps asking why, and I can't answer her because I don't know why. I guess it's partially because I don't want to seem like someone who can't cope, even if I am that sort of person. I don't want to be looked down upon, like I'm someone who can't study or something. I know myself as someone who can.
The other part of the reason, I just don't know.
Maybe it's because I know that even if I drop Accounts and get extra time for my weaker subjects, I won't use that time because I simply have insufficient discipline. I know myself well enough to say that.
I may not love myself enough, but I've known myself for 16 years, my whole life. I know I don't have much self-discipline, and nobody can deny that I know myself best, and for the longest time.
Tuesday, February 12, 2008
Tuesday, February 12th 2008
It's been a real struggle trying to juggle studies, CCA and my personal life. There always seems to be homework and scores to memorise, and it's all pretty tedious at the moment. I'm lucky I have the time to blog!
I didn't come online solely to blog, though. I just sent Dawn a third batch of information for our Geog project.
Choir tomorrow, Accounts test on Thursday, Bio test on Monday. Gonna ace the Bio test, but not so sure about the Accounts test. Need to do Art as well.
My goodness!
I didn't come online solely to blog, though. I just sent Dawn a third batch of information for our Geog project.
Choir tomorrow, Accounts test on Thursday, Bio test on Monday. Gonna ace the Bio test, but not so sure about the Accounts test. Need to do Art as well.
My goodness!
Thursday, February 07, 2008
Thursday, February 7 2008
It's Chinese New Year, Day 1, and it's super-boring.
No visiting today, all crammed into tomorrow. Slept in today, woke up at 12.59pm, took a shower, ate a little and then came online.
Even my imagination seems more interesting.
Every year people give me Valentine's Day gifts but I never seem to give any. I admire the people who actually take the effort to pack a bag of sweets for every person in the class, or things like that. I was considering giving Art, but I don't think I'll have time.
Can't wait to start a sketchbook full of "excellent drawings". Only really good ones, and occasional notes on them. It'll be so artistic, and it'll also help me practice my drawing skills, since I plan to do illustration for my 'O' level Art.
Plenty of patience needed.
No visiting today, all crammed into tomorrow. Slept in today, woke up at 12.59pm, took a shower, ate a little and then came online.
Even my imagination seems more interesting.
Every year people give me Valentine's Day gifts but I never seem to give any. I admire the people who actually take the effort to pack a bag of sweets for every person in the class, or things like that. I was considering giving Art, but I don't think I'll have time.
Can't wait to start a sketchbook full of "excellent drawings". Only really good ones, and occasional notes on them. It'll be so artistic, and it'll also help me practice my drawing skills, since I plan to do illustration for my 'O' level Art.
Plenty of patience needed.
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