I Want A Fat Babe!

LOLZ. lousy but cute title.
Got it from the remake of the song "I want it that way"
I've been listening to "I want a fat babe" all afternoon! woo hoo!!!!!
sigh. Today feelin sick but happy la. cos of the song.
Oh wells. I never stopped loving you*
I'm all tired out. Today after choir went out with nicxy for abit then went home.
Took flu medicine now I feel sleepy -.-" lolz. Will clean rabbit's cage,brush teeth,and sleep.
Thank God I've recorded "I want a fat babe" using my handphone.
Took some pictures of the cartoon too. such a cute cartoon.
Tomorrow got choir,from 7.30am to about 6.00pm. argh.
Then still need to pay Mrs Seah US$10. The note looks nice k. So..classy.
Clay is about 900km from here! In Aceh. The kids really love him. So cute.
So sweet don't you think? Flew all the way from Hawaii to help the kids out. Charming.
My dad just asked me if I wanted peaches. LOL. Too tired to eat la. Feeling drowzy too.
mark just came online again. sigh. (:
Anyways. getting really really tired now. See ya all. love you still* always and forever. -Xiu.

Happiness brings colour to your face.

Sigh.
Just bothered by lotsa memories la. Last night dreamt about acs -.-"
I know its lame but I still feel sad all the same. Memories,memories.
WOO HOO!
ahem. shall not say anything. happy now la. heh.
So my parents are sorting out their clothes. And well Im here reading messages and typing too. I'm bored. and I'm happy. ok. shall change my title. It was "Nothing to say,nothing to do,nothing to live up to"
What shall I change it to? hmm.
kk changed it to "Happiness brings colour to your face." So nice right? Ahh know.
Okay but try not to be too happy la. lolz.
I'm bored now. maybe. still can't bring myself to talk over msn. darn. anyway.....
uhm.Today went to Bugis. Bought lotsa stuff. Billabong bum bag. LOL. some shirts...and food....what else.Oh yeah. Nivea stuff. lolz. Boooring.Listening to "Never Be Replaced"
not bad a song. Lyrics fit me alot. lolz.I miss acs barker already.sigh. alot. Oh wells. Will wait for a reply again. I will wait until the end of time. Bubbyes everybodeh! Lurve. --Xiu

I Guess I Need You,Baby.

Sigh.
Today went to the ACS funfair. It really was fun! Although I went alone -.-" But then going there and seeing people I know,I've met before...stuff. Saw a couple of familiar people. mark,adriel,and matt. LOL.I dun think matt saw me though.ha!
Anyways I'm quite tired but happy la.Damn happy.mark looks better now.much better lolz.
Oh wells.I bought the ACS bear thingy with the tiny bag and pin.Quite cute la though it looks evil. lolz.Eating oreo cookies now. mmm.I lent adriel KFH vcd.I was watching mark play some game.Throw sponge.lolz he can aim man. Then-well,saw the girl whom cherre likes.uhm.whats her name? I dunno how to spell one la.but then...nvm.My dad just scolded me.LOL lame. he said must show him result all tt.I dunno whats he so angry for. well not really that angry la. lolz.I just showed him my report book.then I told him I passed 4 out of 8 subbies.I dun think he's that angry anyway.I mean common get real.IF I ever passed my math,my dad wun be happy anyway.tt time I pass also he nt happy,scold me so much summore wth.To hell with it la.Cannot get job then forget it la! make such a big damn fuss.spoilt my day.I shall not care. *hmph*
Oh wells. Going to the funfair brought back memories and stuff la. lolz.LOL my sis just came back and asked if the funfair was okay.Then she said "woah,whats that!" then she took my report book and is now flippin through it. lolz.WOO HOO! now the comp got sound alr! yays!
Sigh.I miss ACS already. lolz.I shall bring math and science notes to Hawaii to study. lolz and books to read! woo hoo!Listening to Clay Aiken now. my sis sitting beside me and eating her dina! lolz lammeeee. Hope to see you all again soon! Bubbyes. -Xiu =)

Celebration Time Common!

Hi everybodeh!
SYF choir auditions held today.I got in!wheee!I'm so...uh- relieved? maybe. I feel guilty though. One of my friends didn't get through.I feel so bad -.-" But nvm you'll have another chance next week. Go for it!
Argh.I was just doing some Clay jigsaws online.Quite fun actually.I used to hate jigsaws because I was so impatient.Now I see that these jigsaws are worth it because I get to see the finished result.I feel like watching Shaolin Soccer.Just feel like.I shall call my brother tomorrow night.I have to ask! My rabbit is running around in the dark again. LOL. smelling the table. -.-" lame.
I have to bring the tix tomorrow for my seniors.And the consent form for the teacher,20 dollars for choir jacket,3.70 for the science book(Its gotta be somewhere!),6 dollars to pay gina and dels. 4 bucks-> dels. 2 bucks->gina. Sigh. poor me man.But oh well.Hope I don't get scolded tomorrow for not doing art again.Its weird.I've always liked art.But I just don't like doing it as homework.I just know I'll be too lazy to bring it home to do.I know it would get crushed by my books and stuff.How to do? End up not completing.If we only do it during art lesson,I would have done it.But then...sigh. Today auditions,very scary.So stressful. lotsa tension.At least Miss Tham's not wearing black again.I mean,she wore black for the last audition.I thank God for getting me through.Today we sang lotsa rounds of Sok Herren.Now,the song's stuck in my head -.-" ARGH. irritating. lolz.Sigh.too tired to type much anymore.Sis is petting rabbit lolz. Okay people. buhz takkare sweet dreams yeah? Lurvvvee,Xiulin.

Baby I Loved You,Why Did You Let Me Go?

ITS A SONG!
pls.
anyways it was a boring day today.The only thing I enjoyed today was choir practice.We actually sounded good with only 22 people! woo hoo! Hope it lasts -.-" tends to wear off.
the furniture that dad and mom ordered weeks ago came in today.I'm kinda happy with my life at the moment.I guess so.I'm just worried that the clothes might be too-too- big. oh well they might be. but mostly not la. lolz. Clay looks so cute in thatpicture...
ahem.
LOL. where was I?Oh yeah.Mrs Tan got kinda mad again.I don't know for what reason.But I'll really take my pic this weekend k Mrs Tan?I'll have to take it sooner or later.I've been typing quite alot today.Its so early.Only 10.50pm.And I'm tired already?! maybe.I'll need energy for tomorrow.Might be going out with mom and all that.Hope that it'll be a typical Sunday.I need to buy some other stuff too. lolz. Hope so.I guess I'll have to type afew more lines.I'll feel weird if I don't. I just realised I forgot to reply Wy -.-" sorry wy. LOLZ. okok. Good night people. L.O.V.E

Cross This Line To The Only Thing That's True.

lol I supposed you've guessed the song.Argh!
Hi everybody!
I haven't blogged for a long long time...I think.There's choir again tomorrow. woo hoo? lol.Thank God the SYF auditions are only next Wednesday.Oh well...Sok Herren shouldn't be too difficult..I hope.Sigh.We're gonna be given a compo test for Eng cos most of us,maybe even all-failed.So well they can't accept the fail,neither can I.So well we're gonna be given another test.Hope it will be...an interesting topic.I can't seem to use my imagination nowadays.Well I can,but I can't come up with anything original.So well,reading too much really IS bad.I mean,when I do a compo,I start to think about the books I've read...and well my sister said I have ALOT of books -.-" Well I don't think so.But anyway thats what SHE said. -.-"
Just hope that the test won't be tomorrow.I'll be dead tired!I might fall asleep during choir!
That almost happened to me once.I had to struggle to stay awake.Serious!It was so...difficult.lolz
So anyway here I am now,typing and typing.My dad's blowing his nose -.-. my mom's just..just..uh.She just came out of the bath I guess,already in her PJs.My sis is playing the piano again,as usual.Its a nice night but maybe a little too hot.Its not too bad though.Today we did alot of packing in the room.Alot!There were bags and bags of rubbish.I had trouble forcing them down the chute by myself.I called for help.My dad didn't even budge.Evil man.Whatever.
My sis was cleaning the room so she didn't help either.I mean,well she HAD to clean the room right?But my dad just continued sitting there,staring at the darn television set.ew?
I mean common whats so nice about the boring news or somethin?! I don't even think much of the tellie,unless some people are on it.Well...This Sunday,7.30pm,Stephen Chow's gonna be on TV!!!!! YIPPEE! I mean come on!They showed SOME clips of it.He looks so blur on that show! LOL so cute. Oh yeah did I tell you people?I was staring at the sign thingy today in school.I was just staring at it.Uhm.Then after that I just felt really tired.I just slept in class.Well school was going to end REAL soon then so I just happened to fall asleep.So well I was really tired and all that,headache included.When I came home,I did some packing,revision,homework,rabbit stuff,and then I came online.Guess what!I went on the website where they provided meanings and stuff for these symbols.I looked for the symbol that I stared at today.It said that the symbol absorbs your energy. what the-.So freaky.LOL.Oh well at least its not too bad.I definately CANNOT stare at it tomorrow before choir practice.Can't afford to.Must-pay-attention...If the symbol really has that kind of power...oh well.I should try it again on friday or something.In school.I have to know if it wasn't just me.This is kinda freaky.lolz.well.I'll just have to wait till then to find out! btw,the Constantine book rawks,totally! Love,Xiu. -always.

Pachelbel Canon In D

Halo!
I'm listening to Canon In D now so I thought I'd just name this post it. LOL.
I'm kinda surprised I didn't fall asleep the minute I got home. We had to walk 15 km today!!!!!
Its some General Leadership thingy.I'm the 'follower'...Steph .........was. the """"leader"""".
Anyway,It was kinda interesting.There were monkeys and all that.We even saw a 'teenager' snake!LOL.I thought at first that the monkeys would come after me because I smelt like a banana.I sprayed on suntan oil before the hike...The brand was Bananaboat.So now you know why.But what a surprise,they didn't.Well I didn't understand why the others were so..scared of monkeys.I mean...we were all monkeys once right?Well thats what I heard.Heh.
Oh fine.My mom just scolded me.Damn it.evil woman.I shall not let that get to me. HA! Try harder mom!HA!
ok where was I?Oh yeah.There were lotsa turtles swimming and sunbathing. LOL.
Argh.I'm doing research on people again.I did research on Cherre's Wade Robson.Then after that I did research on Mrs Tan's Kris. LOL! I'm kinda confused right now.Oh wells I guess I'll type a short one tonight cos it really was a long day today.No energy. LOLZ. nevah! Buhz people good night and all that right? bubbyes people. buhz! -Xiu.

We Both Know,Its Better If We Just Let It Go.

Though I know I can never let it go anyway.Not so soon.
helos people.
Today did alot of rubbish.Didn't run in the morning because I had PE later on. HA! sad. anyway I'm listening to One Last now and drinking Shandy.well haha.Its only 1% alcohol. sigh.I went to the supermarket with my mom,and well,I saw vodka.It was like 55% alcohol so 1% alcohol is nothing. uhm,I bought a magazine with Keanu in it.lol it was local but I can't remember what mag it was.I don't know.I was just mooching around the magazine section,and I thought I'd just take a local teen magazine from the shelf to flip through.And well I just flipped it open and WOO HOO! It was Keanu! lolz so I happily grabbed a copy. ha!my dad just asked me if I wanted oranges. bahs. nevah! okok maybe. but not now.I'm just...drinking shandy.Too bad the half can of Carlsberg didn't have any effect on me last night. lolz.I read in a book that vodka doesn't taste bad with tonic.But then again,even though I've never tried,its not always like its in the books. lolz.I failed the darn math paper.well I didn't do too bad for section A. It was just section B dammit.I wanted to throw section B on the floor and stomp on it,only I didn't.I just put it on the table and stared. I stared and stared,then I was like "oh what the hell".I didn't say it that loud. I just...argh.I couldn't stand it anymore so I got a piece of foolscap paper and started sketching the Constantine logo. all greenish and stuff.Oh well.Can't be helped.I just hope my Eng/Lit can pull me up.It shouldn't be too difficult.Today's Lit paper was okay.Not too difficult.For some.Sigh.If I happen to fail Lit for some reason,I'll just...I'll just... ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
Today I went mad.During recess,I went to the bookshop to buy a penknife and two plasters.I was just..angry because of the math thing.So I bought it and well,I only had half of my sandwich for recess.I just wasn't hungry.Though I bought the brownie thingy.but ain't it a little expensive?I mean,I saw my money disappearing as fast as lightning! Okay maybe lightning is too fast.But still,well...since you guys managed to sell it all,maybe charge a little less next time? Think of the poor people.Sigh.even the canteen food is kinda...expensive. okok back to the point.So I actually abused the use of the penknife,yeah yeah whatever.I have exactly 11 cuts on my left hand.One extra one on the forth finger,don't know where it came from.So I was cutting during chinese and cme.I was just...bored and angry and stuff.So I cut.I was thinking more of the art knife stabbing in kind of thing but no,the art knife costs more so I just went with the darn penknife.Its quite a nice one actually.It actually has....colour and life.I mean..well..purple and white.not bad eh?so I cut my way through the last lesson of the day. sigh.
Punching doesn't really work for me.It hurts the cupboard. poor cupboard. LOL.
sigh.stupid math test.I HATE MATH!So much for our class getting a distinction. HA.unless I'm not part of the class,you can't say that. sigh. oh wells I'll end here for now. bye peeps. love xiu.

When She Said Yes.

Oh My God.
I went to watch Constantine again today.It seems to get better each time I watch it.Keanu Reeves seems to get cuter too. weird. Anyway I told myself on the way home to tell nothing but the truth.Oh well.I guess it did pay off.The timing for Constantine at EW cinemas was...4.30pm,so I went home kinda late.Well at least I didn't get punished much,cos I actually told the truth (a miracle).So yeah.My mom offered to buy me dinner and my dad offered me mango after that so,I guess its all okay.Telling the truth ain't that bad after all.I used to think that lying was more..well...I dunno.I used to think I can get away easily by lying my way through,but now I know,truth is always a better choice.On the way home,I kept holding on to the W.W.J.D. bracelet I had.I kept asking myself what Jesus would do.He would obviously tell nothing but the truth.So I did.And guess what!It had a happy end too. lolz.I'm lovin it!
And well my parents are drinking Carlsberg by the tellie. They're sharing one can and well,I drank abit too :D I was just curious.I mean I was wondering...if it really were that bitter,how can people enjoy it?So I decided to try.Its not too bad though.I dun feel a bit dizzy or anything.I'm feeling fine,in fact.haha.Well my mom cleared out my room today..I think with my dad.And well,they didn't mention anything about the $95 worth of ACS B funfair tix.They probably saw the block of wood too but they didn't mention anything about it either.Sigh. My dad didn't seem mad about it anyway so maybe its better if I didn't bring it up just in case he hasn't seen it..yet.
So I'm right here again,same time same place same...thing.Rabbit on the floor bored,I'm right here typing,my parents watching TV...I wonder what He has planned for me tomorrow.Sigh.
I'm kinda nervous.I'm afraid of getting back my Math paper just to see some words on em "Try Harder" or "Please See Me". Its been happening for years I know,but then again,nobody likes to fail.Sigh.I got back my Geog paper today all marked and stuff.I'm pretty surprised I actually managed to get a C. I thought I'd get a 10/40 or something but it turns out I just managed to pass.20/40.Not too happy with it though,but at least I passed my Geog...once.I know,the worst few papers for CA1 will be Chinese and Science.Really hopeless.I think for once my Math would actually be better than my Chinese,not that any one of those subjects are any easier than the other. Sigh.So well,lotsa people are falling for Keanu Reeves.Its not surprising,he really did look cute in Constantine.Its one of the best films so far.I feel like watching KungFu Hustle again. Argh,I hardly have the time nowadays.With the tests and choir practices and..well. stuff.Sigh.
Oh yeah,I got a deep cut on the forth finger on my left hand.It doesn't hurt at all.It was still..bleeding..but not much.There was a vein there too.I didn't feel any pain.I didn't know when or how I got it though.Its..weird.Very. Today.Mrs Tan said that the first half of our Eng Compre was okay.I think the first half was alot easier than the second.It was quite...deep.I don't know.But it seems to me that I'm not reading enough,although I read alot.Damn.people like me love Jacqueline Wilson books.They always have a happy and sad side,and alot of problems and stuff.And the stories...well...its quite similar to our everyday life,so its easy to understand.lolz.I didn't realise I've typed so much.I shall end here then. Bubbye people.Watch Constantine! -Xiu.
"Im Constantine.John Constantine,asshole." - Keanu Reeves [Constantine] Arghhh.

They Lit A Flame With The Match God Had Made...

Hi everyone.
My parents are currently out having dinner.All the way to Queenstown for dinner. Its crazy!
I didn't bother to go.I didn't want to.I don't like it there.So I just told them "I'm not going.Bye."
and I stayed sitting at the computer.I'm having my own dinner now.Vegetable soup and a big mug of chocolate milk.This is my kind of dinner.My rabbit is having his too,I think.Hold on I'll go check it out.No,it turns out he already finished his dinner and is lying down under the chair.What should I do now?I'm listening to 'One Last' by Taufik.I just finished my dinner.The chocolate milk and all.It was very balanced,with chicken and vegetables,and some milk.
I dreamt about Constantine last night.Its weird.It was sort of a nightmare but not that scary.I don't know.But it just wasn't the kind which made me wake up all sweaty.The dream.The dream was in a familiar place.I had all my thoughts mixed up so there were all kinds of characters there.I mean there were even people from Chinese films in my dream!So well,the place was kind of a Thompson Plaza-Takashimaya mix.Characters...Demons,animals,an irritating Chinese gay,my mom,some clerks,shoppers,and myself.It turned out I was the one killing demons.After each demon I got rid of,I looked into the mirror and saw someone beside me.Someone familiar.Someone with a blue-ish skin colour...I just can't remember who.I didn't finish the dream,but I know the last part was about the irritating Chinese gay chasing after me past a pet shop,doing gymnastics.It was so...weird.Mixed thoughts can be scary.I can actually remember which thought came from.I've probably watched too much of that Chinese show.I'll definately be watching Constantine again.I need to find out more.
"Im Constantine.John Constantine,asshole." -Keanu Reeves [Constantine]

They Won't Let Go,Its Beyond Their Control.

HALO!
today went to watch Constantine.
Keanu Reeves was cute!
ahem.
its kind of a sad show though. With suicide and stuff..and dying twice and going to hell.
well..and heaven
"The wager between heaven and hell is on earth"
yeah. LOL. He's cute!
anyway. I went alone actually. But so what? THE WHOLE DAMN CINEMA WAS FULL!
WOO HOO!
Looks like this movie's gonna be a big one this year. heh heh heh...
I feel like watchin it again! Its so cool.The effects and all.
Im eatin gum now. Chewing and chewing...Since just now actually.LOL cos I was bored so I just ate some gum and well...I think people can lose weight that way. I didn't finish my dinner cos chewing gum made me.. 'full'. well sorta.So I only ate about half my dinner (which i had to force down). I think thats a good way to lose weight yeah? Try it!
okok this thing is totally screwed.I'll end here yeahs. see ya'll tomorrow or smth! Luv Xiu

She'd Never Been Given The Chance

Hi everybody!
Im listening to "She Said Yes" now.Its a beautiful song about love that a couple won't let go.
sigh. so sad..and happy.okok Im lost. LOL
Boring.Drank coke.Rabbit on the floor sleeping..sorta.Dad on the phone with ...'grandma' LOL!
Mom watchin tv...some chinese show la. sigh.Im just...here. I have choir again tomorrow.Today was quite boring.Well as usual.I came at 7 sharp,I knew there wouldn't be enough time to run my 10 rounds for choir in the morning so I didn't run. sigh.It was a shame really.I was all decked out in my pe attire and ready to run...but I didn't have enough time.WHY IS IT ALWAYS ME?!
sigh.I think Im going to get scolded tomorrow during choir for not running enough.sigh.always getting scolded.IT REALLY WASN'T MY FAULT TODAY!!!There was a traffic jam and all.I mean not really traffic jam but just..traffic lights. ARGH!I LEFT THE HOUSE AT 6.30!!!! its not fair!I left the house quite early..and I get scolded because of the traffic jam.Okay I haven't been scolded yet but tomorrow...die. If I told Mrs Low that she'd probably scold me all the same. sigh.
why. why why?!?! why why tell me why?!No fair. Oh well.Today I wanted to watch Constantine..but ended up watching Hide And Seek instead cos Constantine's timings...not suitable la. So sara and I went with Hide And Seek.Its quite a...a...uhm. (no offence) lame movie.Cos its..about this guy whose wife died..and he went mad,sorta. And had double personality.One of a killer,the other as a dad.So his kid had to live with him after her mother died.And she made a new friend..Charlie.(The killer side) okok I wun spoil it for you guys. LOL
I still wanna watch Constantine!!! IT looks good. maybe. definately. well. ARGH. nitez love! -Xiu

My Love I Just Can't Hide.

Ha-lo!
Msn got prob.For me only I think lol. Smth about using an old version of msn. msn 6.2+msn plus very old meh. nonsense!
Msg for jie: miss yer!
ahem. as I was saying.
dels and I wokay alr la. LOL.
I feel like watching KungFu Hustle again. LOLLLLL.I just miss it.Cos the other day I was walking in TP,the underground pass thingy.There's a VCD shop there and I walked pass it la.I saw KungFu Hustle.I mean they were playing it.Losta people were there watching -.-"
Im drinking crysanthemum tea now.So lame!Well okay I finished it awhile ago. :D
So my rabbits circling me under the computer table,trying to lick me. wth. sigh.Boring without msn.I miss gina and dels.And melanie. sigh. sigh. sigh......I just realised.I learnt the "sigh" from my sister. lolllllllll.
Im bored. had a lousy dinner.Some porridge and fried egg...and some salted fish with black beans?Okok I didn't even touch the fish and beans. LOL.gave em to dad. -.- He likes it.
Sigh.Oh yeah.I found out stuff bout my mom. LOL the way she was last time.
years ago,she bought a hair styler for herself -.-" You know...the kind which styles...er. curl and straighten and stuff. lol.I called her vain-.-....Well I dun blame her though.After all,she used to have long hair too.Though I still can't believe it. lolz.
Sigh poor me.I play Runescape now.There's nothing else to play.Its kinda lame.I mean the characters are like...like..lego people? sigh.But its still okay.I mean,I still miss GB and all that.
But I still have this fear that I might "bump" into anybody I know online on GB so yeah.
I still play though.Im going this friday with gina.And lunch too.Dels wanna come along? :)
Im just sittin here now.My rabbit's on the floor. I mean like..It just flopped there. lolz
What should I do now?Play Runescape? -.-" wth.My parents are watching some TV program...which..which.ARGH!!!Its like...the people on TV are making abalone -.-"
I mean.Cooking. lolz. Something my parents enjoy. -.-
There's choir again tomorrow.Not that Im complaining >:)
LOL. On Thursday too.And on Saturday...at least Im free on Friday.I miss GB.
OKOK.I'll stop talking about that for now. lol.Bye now people! sigh. Love,Xiu.

Isn't She Lovely,Isn't She Wonderful?

Hey its a song!
Im in a funky mood tonight.LOL.So lame right. By right I should be drooping,a worried frown across my face.But ever since my dad told me about the VCD player,in our room in M'sia,I'm happy to go. YIPPEE! Cos I'll probably lock myself in,watching KungFu Hustle over and over. woo hoo! Maybe la.Or I'll be out in the garden. Sigh.I kinda dread trips to M'sia.Cos its like..I go there.I will be sad,bored,tired,all that.And RABBIT'S not coming along.how sad is that?!I'll miss it.Definately.I just hopes my brother FEEDS it.But my rabbit...It likes the taste of newspapers -.-" there's food there for it,it prefers to eat newspaper. weird rabbit I have.
ANYWAY.I did some training today. LOL. its VERY lame.I did 20 sec handstands,20 push ups guys style,20 sit ups,20 jumps,20 chair jumps,20 box jumps....veh lame one la.But the thing is..I din do stretches for splits and stuff. argh.must do tonight.Can't afford to go M'sia without..skills.lol.I kinda figured that martial arts need flexibility. so cool!
okok change subjects. you guys must be bored. lolz!
By the way. today dezi got prob. dunno why she angry with us for. its weird though.
lol Oh wells. boring day.I still have my room to pack and rabbit and hamster's cage to clean. Im such a sad case.But I gotta spend more time with rabbit!I'm gonna miss it so.
*sighs* Life is a road and I wanna keep going,Love is a river I wanna keep flowing...
okok Im just singing this song. Im so bored babbeh.I miss melanie. good old times. does she miss me? maybeh! [Do you,Mel?] sometimes im just sick of this world,people assuming this and that.Its all assumption and..and..Have you people ever hated someone to the core,but under all this hate,you still love the person to bits? --------------------yeah.---------------------
*Im suddenly standing at the beginning with you.* Good night people. Happy Chinese New Year,especially to *you. Love,Xiu.

All I Wanna Do Is Make You Mine.

hi.

stupid people. STUPID!!!!! LOL!
im quite sure steph wants to get me to lose as much as I can. she asked me to pay for the one lesson of tuition -.-" lame right? I know.
anyways.Sigh I have to say again man.I love ACS Br.The school dam nice!Its like got pool and all tt. and guess what?I got lost in there -.-"
The first time I went there was on April 16 2004 for a concert.Then the second time..was like. last week or so only? lolz. I love the school man.Anyway..had some stupid instant noodle thingy for lunch,and for dessert,had some canned fruit.Im so unhealthy. LOL
Mrs Tan,if you're reading this....you said something about us writing better on our blogs than in our compo.s? I think we'd fail. LOL cos we dun use proper english online. you know what I mean. :D
anyway my dad is currently out,collecting the car from some...car service thingy. sad.
I love being at home alone.Just my fish,my hamster,and I. lolz.Music Im listening to...One Last by Taufik Batisah. LOL. I love the book my sis bought for me.My second time reading it!Its called "Midnight" by Jacqueline Wilson.She's one fine writer. you guys should read more of her books. their good. :)
Boring afternoon.I feel like lifting my brother's weight thingys lol. its VERY boring.I might post more tonight if you're lucky. lolz. maybeh!My rabbit's sleeping under the chair. poor guy must be tired.SO SWEET! LOL.Oh well.I din go for the tuition today.I can't stand it anymore.The teacher. very bull**** one la ok.-.-" post more tonight people. Bye for now :p -Xiu <3

Baby When You Hold Me,Make Me Feel It.

and no,its not a pervy song.Its a song about love. so dun assume k :D
anyways. I HATE THE TUITION TEACHER DAMN IT!its all HER FAULT!
she badmouthed me? like wth! and then my dad shouted at me. damn. my rabbit got scared and ran under the chair. I just slammed my room door,leaving him to continue shouting outside. suipid tuition teacher. STUPID! who does she think she is? so great ah. she think she so good? she use all the methods i nvr see before one. wth. then she asked me to tell her the way I learnt ratio. then i explain then she tell me wrong. must do her way. wth right. she uses ways Ive never SEEN BEFORE IN MY BORING LIFE!dam her. tmr i have stupid old tuition again. if she badmouth me again behind my back to my father ah. she's gonna get it ok. damn her la.
all because of her,tt made my dad shout at me,tt made me cry in my room...cos. i mean how would you feel if your own father believes a stupid tuition teacher who tells lies about you,rather than believe his own daughter? you'd feel hurt right? damn her la. may she die early man.
Then I went to my room yesterday and started smashing the cupboard. stupid. all cos of her.
now my hand got one big bruise. tmr she badmouth me again I shall punch her la. stupid teacher. I dun understand,I even asked her to repeat another time leh. I DUN UNDERSTAND HER STUPID METHOD,THEN SHE COME AND TELL MY FATHER I NVR LISTEN. totally bullshit la.these kind of people dun deserve to live you know tt.They badmouth,and they assume stuff just because they dunno you well enough. like wth right.My dad just came out of his damn room and gave me a lecture.I care? no. the stupid tuition teacher did it all. then my dad still can say "she's trying to help you"
LIKE REAL LA. she badmouths you,is she helping? no. deserves to die la. next time I do tt to her. she deserves it. but no one will listen to me anyway.Gina thinks I left her in class with dels to finish the lit work on their own. like wth? I had to rush off for choir. cos on weds I have late day,so no matter how fast I rush there,Im always at least 5 mins late. so its like Mrs Low was already in the room? and lorna gave her our timetable,and Mrs Low let lorna and I have 10 mins for lunch. then I gobbled up my spaghetti. and then ah. I went to the drink stall right. with Lorna. then REGINA came down with STEPH and thought I left them on their own to finish up the damn work. then they accuse me. WTH LA. not my fault right? they dun have cca,I do ok. and they dun really care that much about their ccas anyway. they wanna pon,they will.
But i dun la.I love choir. why can't they understand? they just take one short glance at me,and they think that I left them on their own to finish the work all by themselves,and went to have lunch? listen. pls understand.Gina,you've known me for 8 years. how could you accuse me of smth not my fault?Think before you side anyone gina. thats all I can say. bye people. -Xiu.

To Hear You Say You Love Me,Like You Mean It.

Hey everybodeh!
Nice day I had today..until tuition time.IT SPOILT MY DAY PLS.*mutters smth*
stoopid tuition. use methods Ive NEVER SEEN BEFORE.serious. not anywhere leh!stupid teacher ah. no life one. then she teach me two times i also dun understand cos they use totally different methods. I told her I learnt it a different way she dun wanna listen. damn her.well to hell with her.Im never gna go to that tuition again,after the 3 more lessons.cus 4 lessons for 70 bucks. and its like ok la but if i dun learn anything,i might as well not pay right? lamer.stubborn.
stupid teacher.
ANYWAYS shall not talk about that lame tuition anymore. well I had an OK day.The only lesson I din like today was Math. ARGH.my math is so hopeless?U just have to take one look at my math and you know im hopeless. my rabbit is trying to lick my foot. LOL.its such a sweet rabbit.It can actually sense when Im angry or smth,then it will follow me arnd the hse and lick my foot. LOL so cute right.I have no idea how I managed to train it like that.Maybe it was just born smart LOL. dunno,but its so smart -.- smarter than me can already lolz.i can't believe it. im eating chocolate. LOL i just bit off the chocolate guy's head. so farnie. lolz! so lame.Today gina and I created 'sign languages' for afew words. LOL not rude ones anyway. just kinda nonsensical LOLZ.okok Im going on and on about my stupid day. I'll stop here kk. Takkare people. Luv u*

I Would Wait Until The End Of Time.

heyy. sigh.
today had quite a tiring day.but kinda happy now.
about 3 things tt made my day.
1)my compo chosen for some...competition thingy (sloppy work)
2)Ive mastered science,the chpter 2 thingy!(thanks miss teow!)
3)...dezi.
Today during chinese lesson,3 of *them were asked to go down for smth.I din know what it was at first.But i got to know about it soon after anyway. lolz.so *they went down...came back several times to take stuff..sometimes crying. sigh.So they were all kinda angry at our chinese teacher cos she..decided to send them out of chinese class..smth like tt.And well.....sigh. I mean who would want to feel unwanted?She had given up on them...but i could tell they still cared.Kinda.They wun be so angry if they din care.Its normal. this is life,what to do? :)
So I myself tt no matter what,I wun let them get out of class.Cos nobody's perfect.Nobody wants to be invisible and thrown aside like rubbish.And I wun let that happen.I told myself tt from today,I would listen in every class,boring or not.Because I really would suffer at the end.Ive thought about it.Sigh.A teacher's job is to make sure everyone understands.Teachers have to understand their students,or they really wun make it.Teachers...are people with skills,and their job is to pass on their skill to their students.They teach.Its the students' choice if they want to listen,to learn.But you can really tell tt they do,even if they shout back rude answers.They dun have to care at all.But they do.please understand,you were all like that once.teachers really are still kids inside.we all never want to be at the losing end.We want to win,therefore we do whatever it takes to win--being stubborn.Nobody is ever right or wrong.its just what people think.We were all created for a reason.Everyone has different weak points and strong ones.So we have to help one another.Accept others for who they are.Make a difference! :) bubbyes!<3>

Should I Believe The Magic In Your Eyes?

Hi!
Today WAS pretty boring.I woke up at about 12 plus LOL. too tired. Then I stayed in my room blasting music for about half an hour,then I went outside to switch on the comp. heh.played runescape,completed 2 quests.I haven't played GB for quite long already. sigh.my mom really not happy. i told her "i eat this kk?" then i held up some chinese new year tidbits leftover after my bro ate...then she glared at me and then turned back to the tv. wad did i do? she got prob one.i really long to go back to new zealand.sigh.sometimes i wished i could just be invisible to everyone.then i could be free. i like to be alone most of the time so it wun be a problem. sigh. sometimes i really hate weekends.i'll prob be going down later..maybe to rollerblade or just walk..or to the playground across the road.but i dun think i'll be allowed as it's near dinnertime..though nowadays i dun eat dinner with my family. maybe i should sms my friend to have dinner at jack's place with me?sigh.im never happy with my family anyway.or maybe i should go to jack's place alone? eat steak or smth?But being alone in such a posh place is so pathetic! ohmygod. sigh.I hate living in a flat.Living in a condo is the best la.get to know lotsa people.I hate my life. I love u. ARGH! the one tt I loved before. always and forever. :) -Xiuuu.

Baby When You Hold Me,Do You Feel It?

Heloz!
everybodeh!
Todeh was eh borin deh.
I wenth foh choir,cam bahk at one.
OK LA!I'll type properly -.-"
Then on the way home I listened to taufik LOL. I like his album.so..jazzy yet pop,r&b. LOL.I love one of his songs. Its called One Last. Im serious,listen to it! Its so choir-boyish. maybeh!
I took bus 851 home with lorna and her sisters.heh.Then on the over-head bridge,cos nobody there wad..then I sang -.- LOLZ so lame.I love earphones.They make u think that the whole world is filled with that song.Sorta.Surround sound babbeh!So nice. sigh <3
Ive been thinking of him lately. sorta.SIGH. I remember I used to write in my book "I love to mark papers" LOL. I miss u,if you're there.
ANYWAY,getting back to where I was. where was I? LOL. lost alr.
Im listening to One Last now. so nice! my dad just scolded me wth. everything also not happy. sigh. omg I feel like vomiting. cos my dinner was kinda...slimy. all the kway teow,and then I drank "heaven and earth" calamansi lime green tea. YUCK,i got headache now. Oh wells I better go now.Parents both not happy now. mad one.Its a wonder why Im not grumpy like them lolz.
Miss yer all. :) takkare yeahs? love! -Xiu :)

When You Say You Love Me,Do You Mean It?

Hey people.
I din sleep for the whole night.Believe it? I can't. lolz.
Things kinda cleared up abit for me.And for dels too I guess lolz.cos she was so excited about her phone,I finally made her see sense.heh.
so lame.Today my parents and I went to Bishan junction 8...They went to see refridgerators cos ours is spoilt.So they finally bought a fridge..and well,I bought alot more than they did.lols.I bought Taufik's album,Blessings. I bought a book,animal farm,and a magazine,8 days from MPH.
I wanted to buy KungFu Hustle VCD,but ended up not buying it cos my dad was there.He's the stingy type,u all know.So I actually wanted to buy tmr,but dels say she and gina buying it for me on monday,so I'll just wait till then.Good things come to those who wait right? LOL!!!
Oh wells anyway..Tmr I have choir.Early morning. 7.45 am babbeh! LOL.
fir dir bir dir.Today i went mad again.I longed to hear breakaway so I did,and it brought back memories dammit.Oh wells better end here.My parents nagging at me.crazy. lols jkjk. bye! -Xiu

I Guess I Must Be Wishin On Someone Else's Star.

Hi people.

Sigh.

I had the most horrible day.And it hasn't ended yet.
We were having science.
Then mrs pat ho tan came in and started screaming.First at the class,then maria,then the class again.I suppose we deserved it.We didn't help with the deco,only some of us did.Sigh.Im so angry,I dunno why.Im so disappointed. I hate myself.I hate everything.Im so slow.I dun understand the stupid topic.Science chapter 2 damn it.WHATS WRONG WITH ME!
I sat during science lesson,staring at the piece of paper,while everyone around me is busy writing stuff down,working it out,knowing what to do.Me?Im CLUELESS.
Im still me,but Im sad now.Is it really my fault?Maybe it is. It always is. WHY?!

Then miss teow talked to me about science and stuff. Outside the staffroom. ha. sigh.It made me feel better,kindof. But then we got screamed at again when dels went to Kitchen 2 to look for mrs pat ho tan for *something*.Then she screamed again.This is never going to end.I hope it will,soon.Oh my God I've been typing crap. CRAP CRAP CRAP EVERYTHING IS CRAP.
whatever.Nobody can understand,not even one.Dun try asking. bye everybody. -xiu

Zhi Yao Wei Ni Huo Yi Tian

I love that song...I just love it.It sounds so..glorious. LOL go search for the song,VERY NICE!
LOLLLLL.The song is..kinda lovish,like saying"I will live one day just for you" kind of thingy lol.
Its so sweet.I got to know the song from KungFu Hustle.Sigh I just love that movie.I hope that it'll still be in the cinemas next week so that maybe I can watch it again? maybeh!
Today I came home quite late.I came back home around 7.30pm. Argh got headache now.If I lay down on my bed,I think I could fall asleep straightaway!Too tired.I can't wait to get my phone. sigh.ohmygod I'm seriously tired.Tomorrow going to a tuition centre for tuition for the first time in my life.I wonder how it'll be like?Never experienced before. sigh. Poor me.I'm more of a "I wanna be alone" kind of thing.I prefer to be alone.Cos I can talk to something and it won't shoot rude answers back at me.And I can sing to myself.I wanted to remain at the back during Math lesson,but she just had to move me infront for some reason...but I kinda like it all by myself at the back.Its more peaceful,more free.When somebody is looking straight at you,just looking or watching,you try to impress that person,and that means extra effort..even stress!When Im all by myself at the back,I feel free.No tension,no whatsoever.Everyone needs time alone.To reflect,and to plan,sometimes just think. You people should know what I mean. lolz.
I think of my freedom as somewhere peaceful,beautiful scenery,fresh air...Somewhere like New Zealand.I miss that place.The only time I went there was when I was pri 4.I can still remember every detail of it,even when my cousin and I went through the park,getting all the ducks to follow us LOL.It was kinda funny.Then we went to the rose garden and started picking.We even stayed in this resort-hotel thingy,and it smelt of smth.And well,the temperature in NZ at that time was pretty low,but we still ate ice cream! How fun,those happy days.Now its all sad sad sad.
sigh.Okay I shall end here right?If I go on,you people would just die. LOL bye love everyone!-X

Oh,I Can't Help Myself,I Love You And Nobody Else

YOOOOO!!!
Weekend!!! Its saturday today la. Had choir practice.Performed for sec 1 orientation.
Does it sound boring? Maybeh!It was ok.Just that I have a darn flu and my nose is runny.Not that runny..it doesn't drip. lolz.ewww.
Change subject!
Boring afternoon.I went to the gas station just now with my parents (who unexpectedly picked me up from school) and I bought a tiny cup of Ben and Jerry's!!! Yum,cookie dough ice cream.
You people should try their Cherry Garcia,Cookie Dough(not that nice),and Vanilla! Those are good. heh. I have two plasters on my right foot,one on my left.I got a cut and two sorta-blisters from walking too much yesterday in them shoes.We saw mel off.I miss her.everyone does.She's always been the heart of the class..she makes it come alive.Now that she's gone to Aus,our class has died.Sigh its so sad.Anyways about the shoes again. I dunno how I actually got the cut.Probably from the back of the shoe thingy. LOL and the blisters were...well you should know. bahahaha.My parents are downstairs in NTUC,probably raiding the shelves.They said "u want abalone anot" then I "sui bian" LOLZ. I mean...so what if its abalone? It doesn't really make a difference to me.Clams are like abalone too! Just that I have a fear of one type of clam..I forgot what its called.But I kept them as pets few years ago (common dun laugh,I was young!)
and well they dried up and I was still watering them daily. LOL so stupid right? Then few days later it started decomposing and well...there were stuff growing on it.Dun stop eating clams because im telling you this kk. There were worms. Long,white,earthworm-like. It was so gross I ran to my room and shouted for my dad to throw it away LOLL so farnie.

ANYWAY!Tis' so fun.My rabbit keeps trying to run into my brother's room when it thinks Im not looking. LOLL. Evil rabbit -.-
Woah kay la.Will end here since there's nothing else..not really. Bye people love ya all! :) -Xiu

Oooh Sugarpie Honeybunch,You Know That I Love You!

LOL hi everybodeh!
Long time no blog.
Today had a fun day in school...I think. sigh journal. i love journals. LOL
today all the teachers were in a good mood..kind of.Except miss liem. sadness. but she wokay la. not that evil now. All the other teachers were in a good mood. dunno why. maybe something happened. heh. LOLZ!
ohmygod. my father is so dam evil.He came out of the kitchen.then he shouted at me "qu chong liang ah! now ah!" sigh. his chinese...sigh.easy for him to speak English he dun wanna speak -.-
lamer.
ANYWAYS.gosh teachers dun start on me. My dad has always been like that for 13 YEARS and..sadness.can u believe it,Ive been suffering my whole life.I came back from choir at about 6.30.then I had my dinner,I ate like Ive been starving hungry for few years. LOLZ. cos I had a sore throat this morning,couldn't eat recess.. no time to eat lunch,so whole day din eat until dinnertime.
I just let my rabbit out to run lols. Poor little guy in the cage whole day. Its quite facinating,how mrs tan manages her pets,family and work at the same time. quite.Cos I JUST realized that teachers go home abt 6+ or later lolz.poor them. poor me. poor everybodeh!
I miss him. i mean. er. him. HIM LA. m***. anyway...can't wait to go hawaii in march. this sat have performance for the orientation thingy. i think i spelt it wrongly but nevermind. bahahha!
have to memorize "When I Fall In Love" lol.
Oh yeah. just today I realized Ive been slow all my life. IN EVERYTHING. math,chinese,english,science,choir,Clay,Kungfu Hustle,music.
EVERYTHING OMG!
I can't believe Im so slow. -.-"""
Im just another sad case la OK.
okok I shall go bathe now.. sigh -.-" kk bye people takkare all of u kk. bye teachers. -.-" <3 Xiu.

After All Ive Waited For,I Could Not Ask For More.

Hi everyone.Its gna be a short one tonight cos i have less than half an hour online.But Im thankful for it cos i spent ALOT of time bugging my parents for it.help.sigh my life is horrible.My math teacher wants to get me tuition..cos i think i failed my most recently taken math test,and im scared she told my choir teacher but seems unlikely.And after choir,cos I was released late...and I called my dad...and got scolded by him upon telling him. sigh.then i went back in a packed bus..and got squashed like a pancake..then i walked home.It felt so wonderful walking on the overhead bridge,wind blowing,skies getting dark,free from all the troubles at home or in school.Just by myself,free to do what I want.I sang on the overhead bridge.It was just so beautiful to have some quiet time alone.No problems...no worries.But then the minute I got off the overhead bridge,it all came back to me.The hamster's death,the maths test,mom,DAD.My biggest problem of all.sigh sometimes I wish..nevermind.You people will never understand.I dun understand why Singaporeans are so kiasu.I can't stand it.I wish I could fly away,all by myself,no worries,no whatsoever.And that means...dying.You people would just think Im crazy,after my hamster's death.But no,Im serious.I'll end here.Bye people love u!-Xiu:(

These Are The Moments I Remember All My Life.

Its the first day of school.
It was totally horrible.
I entered the classroom of 2/5...I was late.It was so horrible.The teacher asked me why was I late...and I said it was because I stayed up half the night. Then she asked why,and I had to tell her "because my pet died".
IT WAS SO HORRIBLE.There I was,fighting to hold back the tears.
Then she asked me to go sit down.And I did.
and guess what? Dels said the day before she was gonna sit with me.And then I saw her sitting with gina at the back.It was so horrible.And I felt frozen,under the fan.I had my jacket on,but it wasn't helping.I felt so hurt.The night before I got scolded by my dad.And this morning before going to school too.I had a horrible day in school,I tell you.Everyone was so different.But our form teacher was nice,really.She kinds of understands us.And we got Mrs Chiam as our chinese teacher.Again.We were happy,but I dun think she was.I kinda feel sorry for her.Anyways Mrs Tan talked about ACSB and memories came back to me.I hated those memories.I wanna forget them,but I can't seem to.Maybe I dun want to.There's something inside me that tells me its gna take a very long time.And..I still love him.For some reason I don't know.But its over now. sigh.
I saw it die.The hamster.It was so sad.I could see its tears.And it was heaving and heaving,then it had to try so hard to breathe.It suffered so much.So I told myself that if it din die by 2am,I had to make it.I couldn't let it suffer for the whole night till morning.But then again I din have to kill it.It died.I knew that it died cos its little heart stopped beating.And it got stiff quite fast.
(I dun wanna go into details what I did.)
Then,I put it in a little box and wrapped it with a cloth,then threw it down the bin.It was 2 am,what could I do?I din want it to decompose.So I said another prayer,then threw it down the bin.I was crying like crazy.I saw it die.Was I the one who has caused its death?Why did I let it? Because it was suffering,or because I was tired and selfish? I couldn't sleep the whole remaining night,asking myself these questions over and over again.So I was kinda listless in school.sigh.
My life is another sad case.I'll stop here for now.Bye everybody.Love u all. -Xiu :(

These Are The Moments I Thank God That I'm Alive

Yoooo Everybodeh!

Merry Claymas Eve!

[I Could Not Ask For More]



Lying here with you
Listening to the rain
Smile just to see the smile upon your face
These are the moments I thank God that I'm alive
These are the moments I'll remember all my life
I've found all I've waited for
And I could not ask for more


I could not ask for more than this time together
I could not ask for more than this time with you
And every prayer has been answered
Every dream I've had's come true
Yeah, right here in this moment
Is right where I'm meant to be
Here with you here with me


Oh I could not ask for more
Than this love you gave me
Cause it's all I've waited for
And I could not ask for more
Oh No, I could not ask for more

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Tis here is a beautiful and meaningful song.This song is about a guy,and how thankful he is to be alive,side by side with his loved one listening to the rain.He is really satisfied with all that love,and he could not ask for more,he has everything he always wanted.
Its a sweet song.Its by Diane Warren.I think.I got to know about this song through American Idol,when Clay re-sang it.It was beautiful..and I got hooked on it.I got to know about it late...cos well... I was going through my AI2 video collection of Clay,and I heard this song..And like some force,I got hooked.LOL so farnie.Oh wells.

Yeah nothing much today,just that while my bro used the internet,I baked christmas cookies.heh.And packed em all into an air tight tin..and scotchtaped it so that my bro would not sneak into the kitchen at night to grab some cookies.He's that evil anyway sigh.Tomorrow is Christmas.....Merry Christmas,With Love everyone!!! BABBEH. or maybe Merry Claymas heh..
Doh wells.Goinna watch tv nows.Oh yeah I needa know the chapters to study for the welcome back math test at the beginning of year 2 in ij dammit.I NEED TO KNOW.tell meh!
Clay sooo rocks forever man. Merry Claymas! Love,Xiu. ^^

Oh Night Divine.

Oh Holy night...
Hey everyone!Finally got time to blog once again heh.Kinda bored,so decided to blog.Din blog for 7 days already! Surprising eh? LOL!

1)O Holy Night
2)Winter Wonderland
3)Silent Night
4)Medley:Hark The Herald Angels Sing/O Come All Ye Faithful
5)Have Yourself A Merry Little Christmas
6)Mary,Did You Know
7)Joy To The World
8)The Christmas Song (Chestnuts Roasting On An Open Fire)
9)Don't Save It All For Christmas Day
10)Merry Christmas With Love
11)Sleigh Ride
12)What Are You Doing On New Years Eve

This Is The Track Listing For The Album By Clay Aiken,Merry Christmas With Love. LOL!!
I was just bored so just as I was listening to it,I just typed out the track listing.heh. *grins*
I Think on Christmas Eve I'll have to bake cookies...For Christmas heh.And well...I'll sms *some people to wish em a Merry Christmas...Just to greet them and stuff.You want,you can delete,For all I care.Dels and mel,I have to meet up with u guys to give yer your christmas presents man.I still dunno what to give my brother...His belt...I think he got a new one..cheapskate one LOL.Oh wells.I dun have enough $ anyways.Gotta brainstorm for something else lor.sadness.I miss Brenda too.Really miss yer.Gotta think of your pressie too! Must. heh.Oh wells...Yea this Christmas..Gonna miss alot of people yeah.This past year,Alot has happened....well...stuff.So Those people who receive Christmas SMSes from moi,read it carefully k!There'll always be afew words that mean alot.I mean,not personally la...just...there. lol I dunno what to say kk.Nowadays kinda boring.Last week,Everyday got choir.Kewl.Our few major scores currently...Sok Herren,.....some japanese song....,Sunset,Disney Movie Magic!!!
Its kinda weird having to re-learn the Disney songs in Choir parts,but I think it should be okay...I hope.I Luv It! LOL nono pls,I was just typing it...cos I saw "I Luv It" on some file not far from where Im sitting.LOL.Oh yeah...afew really weird questions you'd think I'd never ask.
*How do earthworms reproduce?
*Why is Earth considered to be a 'She'?
*Who gave birth to God? (no offence please)

I just can't find an answer to em.I dunno,but Ive tried to cut an earthworm into half ONCE.. cos I was curious...(I read in my Science textbook that they grow back and become 2 earthworms)
But both parts died. -.-"""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""LOLLLLLLLL
sadness la.We buried it and said a prayer,dun worry.But Im still curious to how Earthworms reproduce.I wonder who our Science teacher will be next year..Hopefully not Teowteow.LOLZ!
Science is such a complicated thing,I just realized.No thanks to the reading Jacqueline Wilson books everynight.I love Clay's lifestory too!Its so sweet.You guys should read it!Its really sad. :(
Anyways it seems I've written too much..I think.So I'd better stop here arrriiight.Later going NTUC maybeh! LOL but I'd soon rather go to The Marketplace.Nicer and more....posh and Englishy.LOL.Woah kay stop here la.I'll miss *you.
Though we've drifted apart,You'll still be in my heart.
I Love You ALL!!! *Smuackz* <3 ^^ Lotsa Hugz n Love,Xiu.

Figures Dancing Gracefully,Across My Memory...

Heyyy everybody!
Its been quite long since I last blogged.oh wells.Im supposed to be at choir now.But I just happen to have a really bad sore throat,dun care la lol.i miss choir -.- sigh :(
was talking to my sis online just now on msn.kewl.Nothing much happened the last few days...just that I went mad over the movie "Anastasia"...a really beautiful movie.go watch it,trust me.and yesterday went out to dinner with my cuzzie's family. so fun lol. dunno lah. but then one thing thats weird is that he and I dun dare to talk to each other face to face one,must sms,even when were sitting opposite each other across the table LOL.it was damn funny yesterday la k.You just had to be THERE,to know. heh.yeah I really enjoyed it yesterday. *evil grin*Today I dun plan to do much...just be on the computer. and maybe pop down to the guardian pharmacy to buy lozenges that my sis recommended. oh my God I dunno if I spelt it correctly or not.oh wells.Nowadays got nth to do..sometimes will go internetcafe aka cybercafe to play GB. sigh. only sometimes la.but hopefully...nevermind.I would like to try and play Maple Story.I play Runescape now but its kinda lame and boring -.- lol.I think GB more fun.especially when using nak,weapon 2 goes underground heh.Habbohotel's not too bad..but its kinda boring,just places and this one big chatroom -.-"Im bored now.My rabbit seems bored too,lying on the floor under the ironing board -.-"oh ya,if I didn't tell you,dad's fish died.It all started with goldfishes..lots of em.then all the goldfishes died.then my bro brought home 3 luo hans.One died,one got freed in the pond,and one died just recently.sadness.
Oh yeah yesterday went for the CAS Bash damn fun.Lotsa Clay! enjoyed it alot.For once,its nice to be around people who don't insult Clay,who don't say he's a freak or nerd who can't sing. He's cute that way,and we Claymates like him to stay like that ok.Think about what you're going to say before you say it.Thats my only advice.
back lol.My rabbit chased me to the kitchen then it started eating its food,so I sneaked away and came back heh.I know im evil.And I like it.lolz.Im like really bored now.nth to do,so I'll go back to playing the lame game Runescape.See ya'll some other time man.Bye people! Love,Xiulin. ^^

HAPPY 26TH BIRTHDAY,CLAY AIKEN!

heyyyyy peepsss!!


ITS CLAY'S BIRTHDAY TODAY!
i love you Clay. =D
have a happy birthday,Clay! I wish you Health,Happiness and HOPE. Like you always wish us.
May the coming year bring you new surprises.Enjoy being 26 man! Claymates Love Clay Aiken!

-done Clay related stuff all day- -I LOVE U CLAY!- Love,Xiulin.

She Heard Voices Outside Start To Sing.

Hey again peeps.
Ive been kinda busy the last few days,so wasn't able to blog yeah....sorry lolz. anyways..update on the last few days... here goes!
I got Merry Christmas With Love.Listened to it and went mad.
I got Learning To Sing,Hearing The Music In Your Life.A Really sad book that can make your heart break into a million pieces.Its his really saddening life story till now,and how he got bullied as a kid,and was considered a nerd in school,until he began singing.Poor Clay.And he really was poor when he was a young boy.His mother was the strong one that kept the family in order.She hid their financial problems and kept the family happy.Clay always stuck with his mother,and was afraid of the thought of being seperated from her,just for afew minutes ^^ so cute!He had a really lonely childhood,but he grew up to be a presentable man.This book is really inspirational,and it's worth every cent out of the $39.95 that I paid for it.If you guys wanna find out more about his interesting life,go get the book! Its really worth it.To find out how much he went through to become the man he is today.Go on,you know you wanna!! ^^
Yeah so...Just yesterday I started reading the book a second time round,and,armed with a pencil and a dictionary,I looked up all the difficult words in the book and wrote them down.LOL I mean common man! He's like..13 years older than me,and there's definately alot to learn from him!Probably more good stuff than the bad to learn...but still,Accept him for who he is.He's just..there.And everyone has to accept each other for who they are.God made everyone for a reason.And if you don't understand this whole chunk of information I've typed,lemme explain.
Nobody likes to be picked on or be left out.So if insulting other people amuses you,you're just a hopeless soul without a use for itself.Why don't you go out there and make a difference instead of craving for attention like a pathetic little brat?Go out there and give to other people,and it will be given to you.You never know unless you try.So before you come and crave for attention like a pathetic brat again,go out there and give.Be nice and people will be nice to you.Everyone does things for a reason.And if everyone in the world accepts each other for who they are,There'd be no chaos at all.Try to think about what I've typed.Just think about it.It would be useful if you actually listened to it.There are many people out there who need help.everyone around you needs help in one way or another.How about those starving children?How about the elderly,with no one to care for them?How about the poor,out in the streets with no home,left to fend for themselves?If everyone lent a helping hand to those people out there,it would be a great help,and one day,they will give back to you.Think about it.And try it too.It would help. Thank you for actually reading all this...well just thanks to all out there.Thanks.Love,Xiulin. ^^ <3

And Just As A Tear Made Its Way To The Floor...

Heyy again peeps.
Long time never update so sorry yeah -.-" cos busy..I guess.hahaha.Anywayz...Happy..cos friday...got the Christmas CD by Clay Aiken @ CD Rama Orchard MRT. I was in the cybercafe playing Gunbound..when I got a call from them saying that the CD has arrived..By that time...I was over the moon yeahs. BAHAHAHAHAA.So happy...I wanted to go to Borders to check out the book Learning To Sing by Clay Aiken but then it was getting late,and scared my dad scold me so I went home.HA! On the MRT,I popped the Christmas CD into my discman and practically started melting the minute I heard it.Its so..Christmassy. lolz!So..I went home and all yeah.
my two fav songs are merry christmas with love and mary did you know.both are beautiful songs.merry christmas with love is about a girl,carol.its kinda sad.then it has a happy ending where she sings along.then mary did you know is a song about mary and her son jesus.about jesus being god and all the good things happening like the dead coming back to life and the blind seeing and stuff.both of them are equally beautiful songs.I love em both :)oh yeah did i mention? poor baby is sick.Clay has a cold and well..vocal cord damage:( I was like heartbroken! sigh poor baby.anyways i dunno why.but the song merry christmas with love reminds me of Clay.such a sweet boy really.ARGH POOR BABY! he looks soo sick! poor baby :'( Hope he gets well soon :( take care baby I love you! :( all the Claymates love you ok Clay? takkare! Love,Xiu.

Dreamt A Hundred Thousand Dreams Before,Now I Finally Realize...

Hey everyone...today had a really...uhm..fun day?wokay only la.haha.coz today had choir in the morning....then Miss Tham said she wants to finish Sok Herren by friday.lolz.then Mag Low gave out the forms for paying money -.-"wahhhh alot of money lehs...by this THURSDAY DAMMIT.haiz.$680 -.-"sooo muchhhh.haiz can't wait to go hawaii yay. oh yea..my mom wants me to go aus in dec..OF ALL PLACES AND TIMES. arghhhhh and of all cities,it has to be perth.wth??????????? ok nvm.i dun wanna go anyway..coz of some reasons..and I can't anyway coz i got choir practices in dec.yay.hahahaa.sighhhh then todayyy..after choir went to clare's house. hahaha.her little brother is autistic so cute! its so sweet la.lolz.then eat wan ton mee -.- omg then cannot eat in peace her mom tok tok tok...tok till it becomes like a buzz from the radio speakers arggghhhh.dunno wad tok about studies all those crap.can't stand it.luckily we managed to have some quiet time to read.....hahaa..then escape from the house liao then we take bus go amk library. went there to read and eat...and then i saw st nicks friends haha.vanessa,erica and pauline -.-" can't believe it.it was kinda horrible haha.and anyways,then i went home,listening to "Dreams" by Diana Degarmo.then when i reached home...i switched on the comp,as usual.then go online..lotsa people were online lahz.let my rabbit out to run around.haha.
ok fu*k.fu*k it all.ha.ok nvm no one will understand me.bye people goodnight...to you too. love,Xiulin

I Can See It In The Stars Across The Sky...

ok..well hi everyone! I had a GREAT day today!!!! I woke up at 6 am to breathe in the fresh morning air...cold in the morning but having a warm cup of fruit tea to warm up...so good! and then I wore a smile on my face even when I was in the lift! And then I walked to my dad's car and took it to school! It was so comfy! Then I went to school and in class,......i got scolded by miss neo.LOLZ so funny.
no la..today was total bullsh*t.kinda I think.anyways..I woke up at about 6.15 this morning having a really bad headache..so I told myself..I'll be late today.Coz it was a really bad headache..and Im having one now anyway.nvm as I was saying..so I slept till about 7.03..and got ready and stuff..then left the house at about 7.38am....yea and took my dad's car.was still having the bad headache then so I TRIED to sleep in my dad's car on the way to school...but then.some seatbelt thingy was in the way so I couldn't sleep properly.Then I went to school...and went up the stairs.......and to my classroom.I thought of what miss neo would say..but then she was outside speaking to someone I couldn't remember who.There was another teacher in the classroom giving a 'lecture' on a math test next year.lamer.anyways...and miss neo told me "xiulin,you are very early." and I just gave a tired smile.wth. lolz coz I was still having the damn bad headache..so I went to the back of the classroom......and there was no seat for me..so I just dumped my bag on the floor and went to idayu's seat to sit down lor.lolz dunno why also.dun really care coz today was kinda....uhm..casual.coz people were eating sweets in class infront of miss neo's face -.-" and stuff like that....maria's discman got confiscated lolz? sigh not really a good thing la.I think she got it back anyway.so then,I started talking and stuff..sigh it was kinda boring la.then there was a REALLY BORING TALK by miss tan...our school principal.yeah well...she kept repeating the same topics until it was like some fly buzzing,I couldn't hear what it was saying to me.Yea I really couldn't understand.She showed us a video of some guy called John Coutis..half a bodied man.spoke with a really hard to identify australian accent..and the sound quality of the video was SO BAD.omg.It was almost impossible to hear them talking! and after that she talked about the guy and our new school building.haha.some crap la.
then after that we went back to class to do some crappy surveys. haiz so boring.bahahaha.we do so many surveys...then after that got free time we take pics. last day of school must take mah.then ah.....neoneo came in..and she gave us our report books.I din get coz i need to return library books first.but dun care..not anxious to get my report book.people like mel..she said"if I din get it today,I'll die!" lolz she mad mad one la.uh huh...then after school went home lor..haha my dad fetch me from the bus stop outside school.wth I din want one lor.haha nvm.okok seems like I've posted enough yeah? oh wells.I miss someone.but nevermind.haha.yea..move on with life yea.I got new choir pieces to learn dammit.argh.horrible.one from Japan,the other from Norway.argh help meee....those are pieces for SYF and the Hawaii trip thingy.haha so fun.Can't wait.gotta practice more...haiz.but nvm.hope can go to Hawaii woot! lolz.okies wells.gonna end here.Good night people...good night to you*.Byeeeee! Lotsa Love,Xiulin.

Tutto sembrera migliore...

Hey there everyone..sorry for the caps post..just that I was kinda pissed coz the thingy wasn't working..haha so yea Im here now.sigh.today was quite a boring day.Though kinda sad..Still feel sad remembering yesterday..the retreat -.-"haiz damn it.anywayyys.today i got back three papers in all..EVERYONE did horribly for history! omg only two people passed damn it! but anyway.math..haiz.never got 40+ for math before..now im feeling happy..as well as sad la coz so near to passing yet so far. then chinese..ayah dun need to say.hopeless man! but Im still quite surprised I got some questions correct.I CAN'T BELIEVE IT.ok im not that pathetic but still..haiz nvm hehe.then me and mel went to gina's hse to watch quill and go swimming. the quill show damn nice..started off as a newborn puppy damn cute.and then grew older guiding a blind midde aged man with an illness. in the end the guy died..then the dog did too.so sad.the dog die so drama -.-" can fall down one wth.anyways..the dog very cute la..so guai.haha and then we went swimming.swim swim swim..tired man! very. then went back to gina's hse to change then i said goodbye to her dog and went home with mel in the bus.though she went off earlier and I walked back to the mrt station by myself..taking the route that I ran after mark that time..and remembering everything.yea.sighh..somehow I still love him.I miss him ok.hopefully can talk to him next time he comes online haha.hopefully. anyways! I had dinner just now..mac and cheese..haha cheddar cheese.taste kinda funny but nvm lolz.then had a coconut -.-" lol always got coconut one.haha and then ah.. now my rabbit is walking over my pinafore..which I let it play with lolz.evil.its scratching it -.-" lame.uh huh! tomorrow going to esplanade with dezi and gina.dunno if mel gg anot.but i dun mind if mel go..just that she should start spending her $ on food lor.she like...act so poor damn it -.-"argh up to now..I HAVE SO MANY THINGS TO BUY OMG.after my mom comes back from thailand...Im so gonna drag her out shopping.O need ALOT. earphones,lion king 2 soundtrack,a compilation album,aladdin dvd (getting it only coz they re-released it coz they added Clay's song in it),and some jacqueline wilson books from kinokuniya! woot! see so much to buy.haiz and still got a Clay book and Clay christmas cd to buy soon.Im so damn poor lor hahaz.but nvm.will SOMEHOW get it all.if there's a will,theres a way.ok so lame
okies anyways I shall end here yeah? See ya'll soon! buhs people.baby i love u ^^ -Love,Xiu.

Is That,Is That,Is That..How You Measure A Man?

HI DAMN FREAKING PEOPLE THIS IS THE THIRD TIME IM TYPING THIS DAMN THING AND ITS NOT WORKING DAMMIT IM DAMN FREAKING PISSED AND I HATE MISS NEO WHO CARES IF SHE READS THIS COZ THIS IS MY FREAKING PRIVACY AND GO AWAY MISS NEO YOU WOULDN'T LIKE US TO READ YOUR JOURNAL ABOUT WHAT YOU DO EVERYDAY RIGHT DAMMIT? YOU GO AWAY RIGHT NOW! I HATE MY LIFE.EVERYTHING IS WRONG OK.EVEN EVERYTHING ABOUT YESTERDAY..CRIED ABOUT SOME DAMN FREAKING THING..ABOUT PEOPLE TALKING ABOUT MY FATHER DAMN IT I HATE THEM AND THEY MADE ME WONDER WHY I DIN HAVE SUCH A NICE DAD AND I WAS FREAKING ANGRY I JUST BROKE DOWN AND CRIED OK IN THE DAMN AVA ROOM I HATE MY LIFE.I SUSPECT MISS WAN HAD SOMETHING TO DO WITH THEM SUDDENLY MENTIONING DADS.I DON'T KNOW WHY...BUT SHE'S THE ONLY TEACHER WHO KNOWS THAT I REALLY HATE HATE HATE MY FATHER OK.THANK YOU EVERYBODY FOR YOUR ATTENTION ARGH!BULL.GOOD NIGHT.XIULIN.DAMN IT.

Is That,Is That,Is That..How You Measure A Man?

Hey there people..Im typing this for last night.Coz last night when I typed finish,my internet connection cut off..and its a lil screwy..so I couldn't save what I typed..It was about my day yesterday..and well,it definately wasn't a good one.It hurt alot.I cried too much.
So we had to go to this retreat thingy..and a group of Christ believers came to our school,specially trained for young people.so then they were talking talking..then they switched off the lights..and suddenly started talking about fathers.dads.and the guy said "think about the good things he did for you." and he started naming them..assuming again. and I thought "why couldn't I have a nice dad too?" so I just broke down and cried..and I couldn't stop.haiz so sad.then whats more..I dunno...then when I eventually stopped crying..my eyes hurt so much I had to blink alot..and they were kinda red too.and everyone was just asking if I was ok..and I just cried again.it was just so awful.they kept reminding me.I have a feeling ms wan had something to do with them talking about fathers.haiz it was so awful..then that night I went home..and got scolded by my mom (also got anger contorl problem one) and she scold like hell.and then I got so mad...my dad even had to be the damn extra and sided my mom.and they both scolded me. when i din do a heck wrong! WHAT DID I DO.and I went to my room and cried and cried and cried.and I had a little word with God..and I asked him "why did I have such a horrible father..why am I here on Earth?"I mean its like..The world wouldn't be any different with or without me right? I din do anything for the world..except donate for charities of course.other than that..I think its all...sigh.I just cried it all out la k.hiding in my room with music playing..yea sigh.poor me..and my parents? still outside happily gossiping about me wtf.they really no damn feeling one la.I had no problem sleeping last night too coz I simply cried myself to sleep.yea sorta.sighhh okies will end here for yesterday's post kk.see ya guys.

Would He Give His Life Up To Be All He Can...

Hi people..feeling down today dunno why also.haha...booring.today nothing much happened la.actually wanted to go sentosa but then check the weather forecast it rained so din go lor.freaking tired now and I miss my baby. haha poor guy. anyways...listening to some josh groban song in latin or smth called "Canto Alla Vita" haha..might not be latin though..might be french or something..ARGH WHO CARES!song nice can already haha.sighhhhh tomorrow going school again.I think if I see mag low around in school I will cry man!I will really freakin cry..Im scared of school.School's TOMORROW help me!Im scared.....is there a phobia for school?Coz I think I have it.shall go check it out tmr.whats the name for phobia of school..sighh.Im really sad..Im depressed.I have to go to school tomorrow!HELP MEEE.I DUN WANNA.the worst thing is going to choir..but thank God choir's not until next wednesday.haha my rabbit running around the house now.today went to a pet shop sooo cute! there were guinea pigs,rabbits,and hamsters...and they sold doggie treats.I bought a bone for my rabbit haha.and then the guinea pig there the hair comb until so shuai[dels said that] HAHAHAHA.she mad mad one la.anyways.quite a boring day la.It rained today. :'( haiz so sad.Im scared about tomorrow.I scared they gonna give back exam papers or smth..or will I have to face miss wan/mag low?Omg this is slowly turning into a nightmare..a very serious nightmare.God please help me I dun wanna die yet..haiz.poor me.okok I go offline now kay..too sad liao.Bye people..love you baby.Love,Xiulin

Would He Stand Before You When Its Down To The Wire...

Omg hi people Im SO TIRED....I got a headache now -.- and yea...feeling down,as usual..now this time not for myself. lol hahaha..-.-"Today was the last exam paper-MATHS..ARGHHHH.nooooooooo..the first part of the paper was a lot more difficult than the second part..I think I even left a few questions blank for the first part.lolz the second part was ok la..but I think I'll fail anyway -.-" doh' so tired...two nights never sleep liao.cannot sleep.haiz so tired..
but I wanna wait till my bro come back home so that I can ask him help me install gb..I need gb... I miss gb I really miss it.HAIZ.i miss my darling la..I really do.but the question is: does he miss me?
that I can't be sure.anyway today was pretty boring.I finally got the blank cds to burn the song into em' the song damn nice.Its an old christmas carol. now resung by Clay Aiken,called "Mary Did You Know"...its about someone telling Mary about her baby boy Jesus Christ..and about Him being the Lamb of God and all that.Its a really beautiful song..especially the blending chorus part.haiz. Im so tired...am I suffering from fatigue?(lack of sleep) haiz so tired..but I can't help it..its not my fault that I can't sleep.I just can't..sorry if this post is a bit crappy..Im just sooo tired...but I still have to clean rabbit's cage..argh.arggghhh nnnoooooo.my headache very pain sigh..poor moi dun u think?sighhhhhh....I miss markie.. =( SIGH.okok where was I..i think i just had a short doze-off hahaha.............................SIGH..omg my headache very pain.I think I'll go offline now bye people..Love ya all..especially you...do u love me? see ya all soon.Love,Xiu.

Would He Run Through Fire...

Hey people...
sup today? I had quite a boring day..though not exactly boring trying to run from 2 guys -.-" I ran through popular and cd rama! haiz.Then took cover in Macs LOLZ.then in the end felt bad so I went to tpe to look for em.haiz I tell you the whole story k.

I went to tpc by walking of course..with Dezi and Gina. uh huh.We were chewing on gum on the way there la.lolz and then got few ij girls run past playing -.- and then one drop the belt lol and din know. finally she realised..and Dezi picked up her belt and gave it to her..and scolded her -.-" hhahahaaha so lame! Then reach tpc. went to look at red circle.still quite early coz all the shops not open yet -.-" so went to breadtalk to buy some food.Gina bought the milky bread thingy,Dels bought the HOTdog (obviously becoz she was thinking of something..) and I bought the curry naan (kinda tasteless though) LOL so we went eating...and went to macs..I mean the macs in the interchange there.and saw our friends there la.uh..were they friends? i dunno lolz anywayys.MY DAMN FREAKING FATHER JUST SCOLDED ME FOR NO REASON! what the hell dammit I din do anything!haiz eating dinner now.dammit my dad go problem one la dun care abt him.anyways.after my friends ditched me today coz they no patience already,I went to mrt station..before entering the gate of the mrt station thingy where u flash your ez link,I stopped.I thought"if I left now,there would be no turning back,dun regret it later" and I turned back,and took the escalator up to the red circle,and ran all the way to tpe.dunno why.and then I walk walk walk..I was alone.I walked past macdonalds..pass the glass of the place..and saw wy.he was kindof bending over so I only saw him -.-" Then scary man..i din want him to see me so i covered my face with my wallet..unfortunately unsuccessful.They came running after me -.- through hdb hub and all. very scary.LOL.damn funny I was muttering too.. stuff like "Bless Me God,this isn't happening!" LOL so funny.Then went to macs to take cover. lolz.Then felt bad...but then scared -.-" so i no choice ask mel follow moi go tpe.Then pass letter already..then go back to tpc..then mel got scolded by stephanie lolz.funny sia,everyone also started running from steph in the end so yeah. BAHAHAHHAHAAA.steph a bit mad mad one la.lolz.Yea then go to DQ and sit with nicole,sara and lavaa..and read the letters from my baby..and started laughing LOLZ. the other people were chatting so noisily I couldn't concentrate!! argh lolz but managed to read it anyway lolz.So funny.His letter all so cute one.hey people I have to go now coz my dad gonna scold again soon k? BUHS!! I LOVE YOU BABY FOREVER!! my darling baby angel ^^ so cute. Lotsa Love,Xiulin.

Would He Walk On Water...

Hey there peeps.My dad just scolded me..and my mom just lectured me..how nice.Talking to dels,gina,and mia now on msn.sighh I miss them lots.haiz having lit exam tomorrow..we get let off early so me,dels n gina going tp study for upcoming exams.oh God my dad is watching me now.help.he's coming for me now.right this minute
HELP....I have my lit book right infront of me.turned to "Phone Call" page.I highlighted it abit towards the bottom..so retarded.haiz...Can't wait till tomorrow so I can study with my friends.I finally got the DnT textbook 2..finally.Gina is being super irritating by laughing for no damn reason.SIGHH..haiz Im reading the lit story now. well my day today was quite okay..just that wasn't very nice.My bro din want to install gb.thats a bad thing.he said after my exams then install.I hope.Then I went to NTUC and Popular with my mom..got food..and a black pen,and the DnT textbook,and a storybook.Its pretty cool today..my rabbit really enjoyed the "coolness" LOLZ.I dunno.. then came online in the evening..and then finally,Markie came online.missed him so much.talked about wednesday and stuff like that.hhmm typical.Hmmm..I miss my rabbit.I guess I'll go play with it later..lolz and clean its cage and stuff like that.I'll have to read the four stories and program them into my head later.sigh.Okay I'll end here k? Today's post is a bit short sorry bout it.Buhs people take care.Miss my baby lots... Forever will be my Darling Baby Angel ^^ Bye peeps Love,Xiu.

If I Could Just See You Tonight.

I Feel So Alone.
Am I really all alone?Why am I here?What is my reason to live?Coz let me tell you something.I really don't know what to do right now.My life is a total wreck..Im..Lost.
Hi people its me again..and I feel so alone..I dunno.well,there's mia talking to me on msn..but I just don't know..I feel so alone.I mean..Nobody's talking at all..My parents are obviously.but still..There's nothing to reply.They don't communicate properly.So I have been living my whole life with them like that.Yea I have gotten used to it already.So it doesn't matter.But its like..NOBODY'S TALKING!I don't know..Alot has been happening in my life recently.Mostly bad stuff.I don't remember any good stuff happening recently.Not at all.Read the few earlier posts..sigh I feel all alone right now.Oh God I just got a splitting headache! omg omg omg.darn headache.I din do much today.My life would have been more interesting if my mom actually let me out of the house to meet gina at tpc.but that din happen anyway.I had a feeling that my mom wanted me to stay home to rot.I have this empty feeling now...Its as if everyone around me..arn't real.As if they're programmed.I just don't know.Im lost! I really am.I don't know how tomorrow will be.It definately won't be good.At night,I won't be able to sleep.I lie in the dark thinking about my baby..or what bad stuff will happen the next day.Too much has been happening ok.What about my damn Math teacher lecturing me,and telling my choir teacher smth about me that I don't know...sighh I just don't know.I miss Mark so much...I miss him.I can hardly wait until I see him again on Wednesday.How am I going to survive till then?! Tell me man!! I mean..everynight,I think about what would happen the next day..It wouldn't be a pleasant one anyway.Okay I'd better end here.I don't want to go on typing all this crap.My life is a total wreck.Take care everyone.Wherever you are now baby,I love you.Always will.Love,Xiu.

Cause You Know I'd Walk A Thousand Miles..

Hi everyone..still kinda pissed about yesterday.Im just so angry...so dun mind if Im snappy online.I still feel pissed.I miss my baby so much...you have no idea man!haiz Im feeling so annoyed now online.especially when Gina keeps on saying "lame" and laughing for no reason haiz. just like mel la.thats one of the reasons Im so irritated..Im sorry I just am.Im irritated with school...thats why I went late today.so I could miss the first period.ITS FINALLY THE WEEKEND...and Im thankful to God that it is.I can't stick school any longer this week man.Im so irritated..my mom's talking to me haiz. cool...im eating grapes now..haiz sorry if today's bloggie post is abit short or smth..or issit?dunno...coz i haven't finished yet ^^
okok..today in school,we had this science walk thingy..and NICOLE..DAMN U...SHE wanted to go to mag low's block..and guess what? WE SAW MAG LOW THERE dammit.and she looked at me la..haiz i even cried a bit coz i was so scared.dammit la....then walk walk walk..then went near the chapel..and saw mag low again.im so freaking angry lor.then after recess then wrote my baby the black letter..the deco was all black to match my bad mood.i was so pissed..and then..math lesson came.it was the last two periods of the day and i should've been happy but still..i couldn't face it that well.haiz Im just so angry with Miss wan k.I hate her I hate her I hate her!!! I WILL ALWAYS HATE HER ARGH.well..something along those lines -.-"sigh the letter I wrote today abit ugly yea..coz no mood to decorate..but tried to anyway.I miss my baby so much..I miss him.Wonder whats he doing now? sighh yesterday when I was punished..for dunno wat. sighh I just thought of smth "I've been waiting forever but I dunno wat Im waiting for"...coz ms wan made me wait outside for dunno how long.and I dunno why she did that anyway..I din do anything wrong did I? I dun understand..sometimes this world can't be any worse..ok it can.My dad is scolding me right this minute dammit.sighhhh I hate this I hate this..Im listening to Vindicated right now..okok I'll listen to A Thousand Miles ok?!hhmmm I have this bad feeling that Ms wan said smth to my parents about me...how come they can suddenly ask the question "where got scold you too much?" omg its damn scary can..u have no idea.haiz I miss my baby so much...Its pretty dead online right now.. uh huh and my mom just scolded me...and she was the one who suggested the damn freaking 2 hours..and now she said I cannot use at all next week.WHAT THE ****. i dun care I'll be online..but maybe from wed onwards wun be online till exams over...coz wed I got phone to survive.. :D and partly the reason is coz my baby will get back his phone after his exams so....hhmmm thats a pretty good thing though :D Can't wait!haiz im angry with my parents now sighhhhh...hope they dun demand another good night from me later..I simply do NOT wish to say goodnight to them.that time they scold me...then they expect a goodnight from me..I mean what the hell..you scold someone..then u want a goodnight from them? its totally senseless I tell you.Ms wan just doesn't understand me at all ok.all her assumptions were WRONG...okk will stop here for tonight kay? I miss my baby lots....Will post again tomorrow..see ya all.well gonna suffer tmr anyways.Love my baby always and forever Darling Baby Angel! Love,Xiu! Oh yea..adding a little bit here..I had a science test just yesterday..and I got a B3 for it! woo hoo! 34and a 1/2 upon 55....wasn't so bad was it?..WAS IT?

Do You Think Time Would Pass Me By...

I REALLY AM DAMN FREAKIN PISSED DAMMIT!
I AM SO FREAKIN PISSED WITH MISS WAN.so freakin pissed!! to think she actually had a damn conversation about me with Mag Low..my CHOIR teacher! and damn ms wan lectured me..and talked about my grades..and my father.and she asked me if I wanted to see the school counsellor.dun mind if its spelled wrongly..BUT WTF!its so irritating.. Im afraid that Mag Low will kick me out of choir.but anyway after that..maybe I might not be living anymore..okay as in..I might just get killed by either Mag Low or Ms Wan right?so whats the freakin point? maybe Im just getting pissed over nothing.they're nothing.im nothing too.whatever.I hate this freakin day la ok.it totally sucked.
okok watever dun wanna tok about those losers anymore.it will just make me depressed again wtf-.-
anywayyyyss.on msn with dezi now lolz..
HAIZ SO BORED...I miss my baby so much.last night got an sms from him I was so happy -.- It was such a sweet sms! lolz poor him.poor baby!I miss him so much!! My Darling Baby Angel...sighh *sniff* I really miss him so much.
hhmm dels wants me to go out with her tmr go meet mia,watch White Chicks again..but then tmr..haiz oh shit maths the last lesson. i bo $ to go out tmr la.dun think I even have the $ to eat in school tmr haiz poor me. =(
freak my mom just scolded me dammit -.- in chinese dunno wat she toking abt also -.-
NOW MY FREAKING DAD SCOLDING ME LA. haiz why is my life so bad?! Why can't they just leave me ALONE! what the hell is wrong with them la.
sighhhh mel got serious problem k
she really got too serious problem.THERE'S A PROBLEM WITH EVERYONE! except some of course ^^ I miss my baby lots.Love him forever
and ever...and always..and...uhm.forever.LOLZ I LOVE YOU MY DARLING BABY ANGEL!
Lotsa hugs,kisses,and love. -Xiulin-

If I Could Fall Into The Sky...

Hie people..Today siao siao one la.Everything is siao siao one...nicole got scolded by jo teo wth. then mel scream in tpec and got a long angry stare from a woman working there -.-"
Coz mel angry with us mah.(wat for again?) then she angry.then we sit in the middle of tpc there.infront of an air con shop -.- but no air one la lolz.Then we went to Mos burger and bought food.then when we came back Dels dunno why so angry for what -.- even got her bag away from our table.MY DAD SCREAMING AT ME NOW LA..FREAK. anyways dun care la.He got serious problem one la I can't stand him anymore k.I HATE HIM. anyway...Then we offer dels they all fries but she said dun want -.- so we din ka jiao them anymore lor.Then we started singing "A Thousand Miles"... Sara...sing VERY out of tune man!!! lolz we were all laughing like mad.Then I ask mel,dels,mia and wy they all look but they dun want.instead they give me dao face -.-" wad did i do man? haiz dun get it la.then went to tp mrt station to go home..then suddenly wy pop up out of nowhere and I was like..speechless la lolz.I thought he stayed with mia they all wad.So went home in mrt la but he far away la k. hhhmmm first time wy no dao face la. then went home lor...went home on hp and smsed wy ask him why he din stay with them at Mos. dunno wat he replied la..I forgot already.but then he said he not going out with us anymore...then I ask him why.Then i can't remember wat he said.But then I ended up saying "we thought u studying so we din say anything"..coz in Mos he was very quiet.I think he felt left out or something. haiz so sorry wy.
anyway! now listening to A thousand miles. such a nice song..like the movie dammit.The White Chicks rox!! OH YA damn maths teacher.my math teacher Ms Wan like not happy liddat today she stare at me then I asked her "wat?" then she was like "I should be asking you wat" then I said "I dunno" and I walked out of the room.wth right I really have to freakin idea wat she toking about lor! she still ask me wat,as if she expects something from me liddat.I din even do anything to her lor.wtf la I can't stand her la.I can't stand people like that.Like my father lor -.-" these kind of people ah..can scold for no freakin reason..accuse me of doing something I've not done...and expecting me to know something but I really have to freakin idea wat they talking about.Its so irritating haiz.
I miss my babie so much.hope I get to see him online soon..He's having geog exam tomorrow
=( poor guy.haiz I miss him so muchhhh.I miss him I miss him I miss him I miss him I miss him I miss him I miss him I miss him I miss him I miss him I miss him I MISS HIM!arghhhh!
really can die without him.haiz I miss him...soo much.Good luck baby for your exams ^^
Just had dinner..rice with melon soup,and corn.I love corn..lolz.Boring same old dinner haiz.Nothing tastes right anymore..not without my babie.I miss him loads.oh yea few days ago bought another Maksim CD..woo hoo.Got afew songs in the CD..ROCKS! lolz Im mad la.My fav song at the moment is A Thousand Miles.
Phrases from The White Chicks:
"Hey common you want a piece of me?!"
"Its not just a bag,Its Prada."
"Oh!What a beautiful chocolate man!"
"Lets go shopping!"
"Dont you 'Hey Baby' me!"
Lolz all so funny..I miss the show man.
I miss the show so much =( I've watched it twice already. and I LOVE THE SHOW!..I wanna watch it again..soon.hopefully go with dels.or alone also can.as long as I watch it again.Will definately buy the DVD/VCD when its officially released :D its a must.
Okies people will end here for the day kays? Will post again tomorrow! See ya all soon.I miss my baby lots..=( my Darling Baby Angel! I LOVE YOU! forever more ^^ Lotsa Love,Xiulin

What Would It Take To Make You See That I'm Alive?

HAIZ so tired.Just came back from the movies with dezi.The movie was sooo sweet!! I wanna watch it again! lolz.even if it means by myself..nevermind I will watch it again! I miss the show already =( LOLZ the show damn funny. dunno why wy suddenly turn up there lolz.saw him when dels and I were buying tickets.din really talk to him la.But he was like alone and I felt bad.lolz but then I went into the movies and watch and sang along and laugh wth -.- lolz..then after the movie in tpc I was laughing and smiling..there were some people who thought I was crazy so..but nvm the movie was damn sweet..the ending was so touching ^^ lolz. sigh so bored.mia just came online and tok to me LOL. talking to gina now too..I MISS MY BABIE SO MUCH =(okies have to go bathe now -.- I be back later kays? miss my baby!!
Back again! its 10.05 pm now.I miss my baby so much dammit. haiz just received sms from wy.Im so damn tired now lor...can't describe..hhmm okok shall change style of talkin. hmm
So tomorrow I ain't knowing wats gonna happen after school..after all,wats there to do anyway? So tomorrow will be another boring day man..U have no damn idea. The whole day is just a big mess.Hopefully it'll be a good day tomorrow..hopefully.No one's ever said life's easy anyway.sighh I miss him so much. So everyday Im writing letters for my dear baby in class during lesson.It takes alot but I don't care man,I just miss him too much..you can't blame me! I even have trouble sleeping dammit.I miss you baby..wherever you are and whatever you are doin right now.I just miss you lots...and I miss the movie White Chicks.I wanna watch it again man! Its so cool!Oh yea..and I had a really lousy dinner too.instant noodles yet again.This sux.Im all depressed now and stuff.Its just so difficult without my baby.I wonder why the stupid school has to delay the damn exams anyway.If not,I would be ending the exams much earlier man!!!! Its so unfair.I can't stand it anymoreeee.I just got another sms from wy...sighh Im bored.dammit my mom just came out from the toilet
OH MAH GAWD SHE JUST READ THIS DAMN POST DAMMIT.thank god I switched windows.help she's a' comin again.oh phew she just went into the room and shut the door behind her.I miss my baby so very much :'( sighhh. Okies people I'll end here,dun get mad at me okay?Im so freakin tired.I miss my Darling Baby Angel..I love you lots baby! See ya guys! bubbyes!

Still In Your Dreams,Why Can't I Bring You Into My Life...

Hie again people...
I MISS MY BABIE!

hi again people...thats all I have to say for now k.I just miss him LOTS. bubbyes people!

Are You Really Alone...

Hey everybody!!!
Today had chinese oral.now its only 4.05 pm..today the chinese oral..haiz I talk alot of crap lolz!haiz Im attracted to a song now. hhmm.."a thousand miles" by vanessa carlton. a really cool song.a high and low song..haiz.Got to know about it after watching The White Chicks.wish to watch that show again.so nice! the ending was damn funny lolz.haiz Im so poor.I just realized I need alot of stuff now.I need a book,and 3 cds -.-" my mom's gonna die. lolz or more of her cash cards gonna die? hmm dunno. lolz the book-the white chicks. HAIZ. and I need 3 cds -.-" gonna drag my mom out to buy tmr. 3 cds-celtic quest,maksim,the white chicks soundtrack. the show damn nice I need to watch it again.dels say go with me to watch but then i said 15 then go watch lolz.its a really beautiful and funny show. my fav lolz!I miss my baby lots.this morning when I was in class,waiting for my chinese oral thingy,I went online using the school comp ^^ and saw my baby online! I typed some stuff then went offline lolz.I miss him.
today after oral,went to meet mia again with dels,mel,and gina.met yao also.and then after that go library...mia and dels hold hand and ..
then outside the library...gina and yao hug.
WOO HOOO.so cool! lolz this is so fun.
hhhmm quite bored now.I miss my darling haiz.I can't wait for the 15th of October to come..wanna see him again sigh. omg I just asked my mom to buy the three cds,and she said see first.but she happy now wad.so should be a yes lolz.and I told her it costs about $60 in all..and I still need a book,then she said woah kay LOLZ. I gtg bathe now,I continue later. kks see ya peeps!
BACK AGAIN people!! lolz sorry coz after I went to bathe,my parents dragged me out for dinner.so far haiz -.-" anyways damn happy coz my mom agreed to buy me the 3 cds tomorrow! im gonna drag her to 3 places tomorrow lolz.novena for the celtic quest cd,sembawang cd center for the soundtrack,and cd rama for the maksim cd! WOO HOO she is so gonna die tomorrow lolz.Oh yea..and I need the book too..of The White Chicks movie lolz.I love the movie,its so nice..I needa watch it again dammit! I dunno why I felt like running,right after I watched the movie -.- lolz inspirational movie woot! I miss my baby.Hope to see him again soon. LOLZ got another sms from him lolz.Gina revealed my damn secret on my taggie -.-" DUN LOOK..or at least dun say anything lolz.lolz but I still love u gina dun worry lolz.and thanks,for revealing it..so I dun have to reveal the secret myself -.-"lolz evil. omg he just replied my sms.He guessed my secret again haiz. I can't believe Im saying all this.lolz it was supposed to be a secret,but it seems like everyone knows now -.-" LOLZ.Gina and I did each other a favour. lolz very serious favours indeed -.- if it wasn't for me,she wouldn't be so happy going on about her hug with yao..yep you guessed it,I forced her to hug him LOL.
ok.now everyone chill for the next moment.
I LOVE MY DARLING BABY ANGEL!!! FOREVER!!...he agreed.he agreed! HE AGREED WOO HOOOO! everything suddenly rocks in this world now! Thank You Lord...thanks baby!
okok where was I before this..LOLZ.Im lost now.TOO many things have happened today! FAR TOO MANY THIS DAY ROCKS! I luv it! lolz.first,gina hugged yao.Then dels and mia kissed on the cheeks. Then my friend got a new hp.Then he agreed.AND HE JUST REPLIED MY SMS. yay? definately a yay.I miss him so much! he came online!! yay.I just yawned.haiz. OH WELLS.post another time people! I LOVE MY DARLING BABY ANGEL FOREVER! Love Xiu!

I Wish I Could Be A Fly On Your Wall...

Heya people! yet again.wth my dad sitting behind me now haiz dunno wat he wanna see la ok
lolz ok he's gone..at last.dunno wat he was hoping to see la but he's weird.Im feeling so cold now argh coz Im sitting like..beside the open window bla bla bla.and my fingers are freezing.lolz today released early from school coz got English exam woot.Then went to novena square,eating lollipop on the way there LOLZ. then we go novena square dels wanted to buy a cd,so i brought her to this cd shop..and I heard a really beautiful song they were playing.And I asked the woman at the counter which cd it was.She pointed to a cd on the table and started nattering on about some flutist playing the songs,more of an irish side.lolz.I WANT THE DAMN CD argh lolz so nice.might just drag my mom there during the weekend to get it,or maybe just save up and buy it without telling her -.-" maybe it should be that way,but dun wanna waste my $ so shall make her buy it lolz.evil I know >=) lolz. Then after that take mrt go meet my baby and his friends.well,wy and mia. lolz oh no my dad coming dammit.so cold tonight.. oh yea.then went to ljs with them..then dunno wat happened la.then keep trying to look at markie lolz.very nice to look at..I agree with my friends.look at his face will laugh lolz.his face so cute of course it brings joy to others LOLZ.then after that was playing in HDB HUB lolz very funny.then gina siao ask me walk first,then she ask markie to walk with me -.-" lolz missed him so much! I still miss him now.and im damn hungry now dunno why dammit.I still can remember his hair SO CUTE! lolz its called NATURAL spike ^^veh funny la lolz.then went home in mrt din get a chance to say goodbye to my baby then later on the mrt felt so guilty dammit haiz.anyways he was online just now and talked to him la ok lolz oh damn my dad shouting at me now haiz why always liddat its not as if I commited a crime or smth la he siao one got problem sigh I wish he wasn't my dad -.-" Im irritated with him and I can't stand him la ok.He needs to get a life.
anywaysss....where was I? dunno la lolz lost already all THANKS TO MY DAD haiz wth right. nvm its pretty late now.yay my baby agreed to take neoprints again.must take nicer ones this time.I wanna see his sweet face which brings joy to people around LOLZ. just too cute.Okies will end here for tonight k.see you all...miss my baby lots..my Darling Baby Angel! Love,Xiulin!<3